Wednesday, September 28, 2011
This is why I should not pack my workout bag until I've had a cup of coffee. I was determined to run at work yesterday. 4:00 hit and my little alarm goes off on my Outlook..."time to run." So, I shut my office door and proceed to change into my workout clothes before hopping down to the treadmill. I pulled out two pairs of socks, my running shoes, a sports bra and 5 running shirts. Ummm, yeah, don't think that running without my pants would be HR appropriate.
Uggh. That was the only time I had allotted for working out. The lesson in this is that I need to double check my bag before leaving home. I thought that I could still maybe walk outside with my shoes but it was raining. My schedule after work was jam packed with to-do's so that was not an option.
The good news in all of this is that I DID run on Sunday, Monday and brought clothes for today. So, that's still THREE days this week which is a crazy huge improvement. Coming from someone who ran every day this time last year (yeah, I checked my fitness log), I feel like I'm getting the control back. Monday night, I made myself run...and for not running for quite awhile, I was able to knock out 3 miles. It wasn't pretty and I was super slow but still...my husband was impressed. I have the determination once I get on the dang thing! It's the getting on that I procrastinate.
I was still hoping the scale would move a little more quickly this week. It's stuck. I hate that. Plus I'm hungry...ok, I don't know if I'm hungry as much as I might be having withdrawals. I'm doing the watch the clock thing so that I can snack at the appropriate time. At least I'm planning those snacks and not just raiding whatever is available. Planning, planning, planning...I tell ya! Might be a pain but at least it is keeping me from gorging and preventing the guilt trip afterwards. HAHA! My next snack is a light string cheese stick...yay, that's exciting. Protein to keep me satiated until dinner right? Gotta psych myself up for these kind of things!
Anyhoo. I'm liking this blog thing. Next year I will look back and hopefully reflect on how I never want to be back in this place where I am now. Next year, I want to see how far I have grown and rallied to be back to me.
Monday, September 26, 2011
That's how I feel today.
On Friday, I got some really great news about work that just sent me on a crazy emotional high. Today, ummm...I guess they are maybe not going that direction? So, that sucks because it was going to send me down a path where work isn't really work y'know. It is an avenue I am passionate about and frankly pretty good at. I'm not thinking this just isn't going to happen for me, just that right now it's not happening.
Ok, back to the food thing. Hubby's birthday and a weekend downtown. Not pretty. I tried to make good choices but I also thought I was "celebrating." Lesson learned I guess in both cases.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Apparently, I don't do well without a meticuluous, planned out schedule. Three days of festivities at work (again), coupled with the pressure of presentations and "celebration" at the end...well, let's just say that I refuse to even get on the scale for a few days while a detox my body.
After my presentation Tuesday, I had 5 Bud Lights. Why? Because they were free and I was on a "presentation" high. I nailed my presentations and celebrated. It's not the beer that was that bad but the breakfast, lunch and dinner that was also served that day. I'm just vulnerable when I am obligated to be there and that crap is put in front of me. I can't say no....although I DID walk away from a chocolate fudge brownie as a snack. I had two bites, put it down and told it that I was not going to hear it call my name. Small victory that I joked about.
Here's the thing....I can generally eat anything I want while I am exercising. But, that is the point, I haven't been able to run. So, sitting down at meetings and not running for a month while eating like a queen is just taking a toll.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
The fact that I am 100 mph when I get home is actually going to work in my favor I think. So, I might have to be a die-hard about working out at work because when I get home, there simply is just not enough time. One kid goes to ballet on Monday, one kid has football on Mondays and Wednesdays and the other one has karate on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. That leaves Fridays to clean my house. So...as long as I keep busy, I will stay out of the kitchen. It is forcing me to plan meals in advance so that we have enough time to eat at home. My only lurking sabatoger will be on those days that I'm tired and want to just grab fast food. But, I'm liking this busy time and running here and there!! If I can keep out of the kitchen and away from McDonald's, I think losing pounds will be a bit easier than I first thought.
So, upcoming obstacles. Saturday is family game night. All of the people in my family get together to play cards and the kiddos watch movies. We have a theme every month and this month's theme is "Movies." Going off the tv show "Dinner and a Movie," we are required to bring a dish from our favorite movie. So, we will be doing baked spaghetti and Spaceballs as well as Dirty Dancing Bumpin Grinders. I can easily swap out some healthier versions of these to make these diet friendly. I have that control since I am hosting this month's get-together. Yay me. Might have to whip up a lower guilt dessert as well to give me an option.
Definitely an obstacle though because I tend to constantly eat at these things...and we always have AWESOME food! I am also a grazer and I don't think I have that chemical in my brain that tells me when I'm full. I really think I am lacking that as I don't know that I am ever "not hungry." Kind of like those people who say something is "too rich." I have never had anything "too rich" that makes me stop eating it. Sigh. Usually if it is "too rich," I am holding back from licking the plate. LOL.
Second obstacle will be Monday and Tuesday night...but in particular Tuesday night as that is a company dinner. Casino night. That means alcohol and catered in hotel dinner. Ok, so, my will power is slim to none if it is put in front of me. And rarely can I ever say no to free alcohol. It just doesn't happen. It's also a long day after me giving presentations which is emotionally and physically exhausting for me and I will want to reward myself with yummy food. Hmmm....so, I guess I will cross that bridge when I get there.
Third obstacle, which will actually come before the second obstacle is Sundays at lunch. My MIL cooks us lunch after church and...well, she just doesn't cook anything healthy. Odd because she is trying to lose weight as well. It's like she deliberately sabatoges my efforts. I feel the eye lurking over me with every bite I take and what I put on my plate. It's not in my head either as other people have commented or noticed. Don't go to her house on Sundays??? Umm, she lives next door so it's really hard to get out of that one when we have been doing it for such a long time. GRRR. I would just love to see that one go over if I tried to explain that we weren't coming over anymore. It's just not an option.
On a brighter note, I am super proud of myself for the success of two days and fully expect that I will succeed again today. Brought my workout clothes for work and will be able to cross that off my victory list this afternoon. My husband is wanting to do better as well so that puts even more good pressure on me to lead by example.
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