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Countin' down the days!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

12 more days until I am retired! I can't wait!! emoticon

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JENNY712 6/14/2012 3:16PM

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NELLIEC 6/14/2012 3:09PM

    emoticon I hope you have plans for after the retirement!

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Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Dreamin' of soft white billowy clouds floating in a sky of azure blue as I'm running through a field of fresh cut grass barefoot (with no bees to step on) toting my high flying kite behind me. The sun is warm on my face and my hair is gently blowing in the wind, I can see butterflies and beautiful birds, the sound of their chirping is melodious as they sing their songs. As I'm running, I stumble and fall into a beautiful field of wildflowers whose fragrances are so intermingled with each others that only an aroma of heaven could be similar. As I become engrosed in the flowers, I'm no longer interested in my kite, and I simply let it go, up, up, up it goes until it is out of sight. Suddenly, I feel someone cuddle up next to me, as I look over, I find that it is my beloved. The prince I've waited for all my life and he is here, right now, holding me and gently carresing me and telling me how much he loves me.....

It's simply a beautiful dream and soon I'll wake up and find myself back at work at 3:00 p.m. on Wednesday afternoon before Thanksgiving day, and now I know I can be grateful for the ability to dream.

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BETTAPRINCESS 11/30/2011 10:04AM

    You had me dreaming for a moment,(I had to keep reading to see if it was true... beautiful thoughts)I might have to take my kite out for the day (I'm sure the wind won't mind lol).

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In Search of Help

Sunday, March 06, 2011

I'm struggling, I can't seem to make myself want to do anything anymore. I lost my husband of 31 years in January of this year, and nothing seems worthwhile anymore. My life seems like it is so strange now, I can't make sense of anything. I have trouble focusing for any length of time, my work is suffering for it and I don't know what to do to turn it all around. Why did this have to happen? I ask that question frequently, but I don't get much of an answer. I know that all things happen for good to those who love God. And I do love God, very much, He is the ONLY thing that has gotten me through this so far. I don't know what the answer is but I hope I find it soon. I don't like feeling like this and with spring coming, that is my favorite time of the year. I want to feel good enough to enjoy it.

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NELLIEC 3/7/2011 12:07AM

    It is very tough after a dearly loved one dies. You are in classic depression. It would be advisable to talk to your doctor and also to go for counseling to your minister. I don't know what your attitude is toward medication for depression, but it really can be helpful -- especially combined with counseling.

God bless you!!! Focus on God's love for you!!!

I am praying for you!!!

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SHELLY81682 3/6/2011 3:21PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I cannot begin to understand all that you are going through. I am sure however that your husband would want you to go on living and enjoying your life. I believe it is the perfect time to look at your goals and maybe change them a little. If you originally did the vision collage that Chris the founder of this site is so passionate about it may be time to make a new revised one. If you didn't get around to making one before now is the perfect time. We all find times when we don't know why things are happening, things far beyond our control but we need a focus. That is essentially what a vision collage is a daily picture reminder of our goals and what we are working towards. Stay strong and begin planning one of those Spring activities you love. If you garden begin planning your garden, even if it is on a patio.

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BLUEROSE 3/6/2011 1:44PM

    Sorry that you are struggling, I know it is hard. So sorry for your loss. I am struggling also but with different things, life can seem so pointless at times. But you have to keep keeping on.

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SWEETNSKINNY 3/6/2011 12:45PM

    Just take baby steps back to everything. Focus on ONE thing at a time. Find one positive every day. I'm SO SORRY for your loss. emoticon

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It's Only Tuesday

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

When I say it's only Tuesday, well, that is better than it being Monday, but not quite as good as it being Thursday or Friday. I'm already looking forward to the weekend because I'll have my niece all day Saturday and we're going to do some "Fall cleaning", in my kitchen!!! Can't wait!

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NELLIEC 11/30/2010 6:10PM

    Sounds like your weekend should be fun!

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Breaking the Cycle

Friday, May 14, 2010

Today is day one of breaking the cycle of "All or Nothing" thinking! I attended my company's health fair, and got all of my numbers, they were slightly better than last year, which is a good thing, but only slightly. Next year I want marked improvement! But now I have a starting point. I have my starting numbers. I've thought about my plan and will spend the weekend working in my garden and formulating in my mind how to proceed from here. The all of nothing mentality is truly destructive thinking because it will steal any joy or happiness you think you might have. I've lived with it all my life, and thanks to SparkPeople, I now understand that life doesn't have to be "all or nothing". Each day comes with its own joys and trials. You get through them without beating yourself up all the time. We often times talk better to our friends than we do to ourselves. That will all stop now. I value myself as much as I value my friends and family (which is a lot), and I'll begin to make positive changes in my health and fitness for my betterment. I can't begin to thank SparkPeople for all of the good advice, informative articles, encouragement, SparkTeam support, I could go on and on, but this website has saved my life in many ways. Thank you, thank you, thank you!! Cheri...

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SPARKLEMAMMY 10/14/2010 5:06PM

    Hi there well it sounds to me that you are now taking the right journey and making the changes that you yourself wish to make emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MIRUKE 5/17/2010 7:12PM

    You can do it! I hope this weekend has been a good planning weekend and that you are off to a great start. You are very right an "all or nothing" attitude does not help things. I think often we are more forgiving and patient with others than we are with ourselves.

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NELLIEC 5/14/2010 4:52PM

    Yes, "all or nothing" definitely leads to your defeat. We, as human beings, tend to fail periodically. If we can pick ourselves up and get going again, it is not a total failure. If we give up, then we never get any further!

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