Wednesday, April 24, 2013
We went to dinner at a friend's house last night and I still managed to stay within my calorie range for the day! Win! Now that she's pregnant, she is really making sure to eat a lot of veggies, which is awesome. We do dinner at each other's houses almost weekly. (Yes, this is our 1 friend in the area [well, 2 but they're married, so it's like 1 friend unit] ). I don't usually drink on weekdays (even before the last blog), so dinner last night was fine with J and friend's husband drinking.
Things coming up...
So I'm supposed to get tickets to a wine festival May 10th for my mom for mother's day. I still haven't decided if I'm going to back out or not. I would feel bad backing out since we've talked about going for a few months now, and my grandma would be coming too... sigh. I can't decide if I should test the waters of 1 drink per day here, go but not drink anything or tell my mom and grandma we can't go. It would be pretty easy to stick to 1 drink since someone (AKA me because I'm not a mom, so mother's day isn't my holiday) would have to drive us there and back.
Beach weekend (May 16). J's parents are going to Florida for a month, so each of the siblings are spending a weekend at their house (in OBX, so totally awesome). J decided to invite 11 people, so it will definitely be a party weekend . Honestly, I don't want to drink water the whole time I want to enjoy a long weekend with friends and family (2 of my siblings are coming) and not feel like the lame person with no self control who can't participate with everyone.
So now I realize that is sounds like I want to back out of "I quit drinking." In a way, I do. I want to be a moderate drinker. I want to have 1 drink and be done. I talked to J about it last night and he thinks that 1 drink is doable. My dad also nicknamed him Switzerland because he is always neutral... , so I'm not 100% sure if he is agreeing with me or if he thinks it really is an okay idea.
Thoughts? Is 1 drink per day during the upcoming events a slippery slope?
Monday, April 22, 2013
I have decided to stop drinking. I used to be able to drink with no problems. Now, it seems that I can have a drink or 2 (fine) or 10. There is no 3-9 for me anymore (not that 9 is a safe amount either). I didn't do anything stupid like drink and drive, but I keep waking up after these binges feeling like crap and feeling like an idiot because I don't have 100% of my memories from the night before. This doesn't happen weekly or even monthly, but I hate it. Well, maybe it is once a month because it happened in Charleston last month and it happened when we went camping in February...
Part of the problem stems from who I hang out with. Most of my friends "technically" binge drink every weekend. Binge drinking is 5+ drinks in a sitting, and that is the norm for a Saturday night with my group of friends. I used to think it was an age thing (all in our 20s), but I've noticed that it's not normal nor is it healthy. From what I see in my spark friend's trackers, no one else regularly drinks 5 drinks in a night, let alone 10! I don't want that to be my normal weekend behavior.
I haven't decided if/when I will drink again, but I think taking an indefinite hiatus is a good thing. I think it will be hard initially because our friends drink when they get together, but I think it will eventually be okay. I talked to J about it and he said he noticed something had changed (embarrassing to hear...). He is on board and supportive of whatever I decide.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
I've decided to really hone in on my eating habits now that we've finished training for the half. I've been going over my calories more often than I've been under and I've had an insatiable sweet tooth. I've joined the tame your sweet tooth challenge on SP to help me jump start the process.
Reduce/manage cravings for sweets
Break habit of having an after work snack (unless it's post workout) and after dinner snack
Stay within calorie range 5/7 days per week and don't go over 1900 on other 2 days
Get back to pre-Thanksgiving weight (I keep getting there and then going right back up!)
I've gotten to the point where I keep giving myself allowances for no reason. (Watching tv? I'll have some wine! Went to work today? I need candy! Bored? Eat 2 cliff bars!) I would really like to get back to eating when I'm hungry and eating mindfully. I don't want to feel deprived, but I still want to feel like I have control of the situation. Currently, if I want a piece of candy, I have a piece of candy. I want to be able to think "I'm going out with friends tomorrow, so I'd rather have some drinks tomorrow instead of having this candy today."
I have also been treating everything as a special occasion. We don't really have any friends here, so any time we go visit friends or have someone come down to our house, I go all out for some reason. It's not like I'm never going to see my friends again, but I seem to treat the situation that way! This pretty much sums up every weekend, so it's kind of problematic.
My plan to reduce cravings right now is avoidance. I will work on making sweets a part of my life after I stop having theses crazy cravings. I'm doing well so far (2 days womp womp...). For snacking, I just plan to stay busy. We have a lot of spring cleaning I'd like to get done soon, I'm also reading a new book and it's freaking nice out finally! For portion control, I'm going to stop eyeballing everything. I may buy a food scale, but at the very least, I'm going to bust out measuring cups for everything. For meal planning, I've been planning a day or 2 in advance, but haven't done anything exciting enough to post. We've done a few recipe repeats recently, but at least we're cooking!
I'm hoping that these things will help me stay within my calorie range and get back to my November weight. Honestly, the weight isn't a huge deal, but this fluffy stomach has got to go!
Anyone have tips for getting strict with your diet (not the 4-letter word diet, I mean the what you eat diet)?
Sunday, April 14, 2013
I did it! I ran my first half marathon! I say first here, because I am definitely running another one!
The raced started at 7am just over the bridge to the OBX. We started out pretty slow (10 minute miles). My friend and I needed to pee around mile 2 (yes, that early haha), so J kept running while we stopped at the porta potties. We stuck together for the next 7 miles. We talked to someone who had a Garmin around mile 7 and she said we were running 9 minute miles at that point. When running around the Wright Brothers Memorial, we camp up to the 9 mile marker and saw J ahead of us! We tried to catch up for about a mile, and my friend ran ahead to catch up with him. I tried to catch up, but they were going pretty fast.
I turned on my ipod before mile 10 and just kept going. Honestly, I was running pretty fast. Faster than I'd run on any longer training runs. I kept that pace for most of the last 4 miles until I reached the finish line. The last mile was on a trail through the woods. Sweet!! J and I did most of our training runs on trails through the woods (not a lot of safe places to run on roads around here). There were a lot of small hills in the woods and a lot of people started walking. I just kept going, knowing the finish line was close. The song Bodies by Smashing Pumpkins came on my ipod and I just sped up. I ran up a hill and came around the corner to see the finish line at the bottom of the hill. I ran full throttle to the finish line.
Chip time was 2:00:45! Yes, if I hadn't stopped and had to wait for someone else to get out of the porta potty, I would have made it under 2 hours. Definitely a goal for my next race.
I also tried to load a picture and it's too large, so once I figure out how to make it smaller, I'll post it on here.
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