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Vacation Pics...

Friday, December 20, 2013

Its been extremely hectic since I have been back from Vacation so it has taken me a while to catch up on spark and be able to share pics of my vacation. I am going to attach links to my Google+ albums and you can browse the pics at you leisure. It was an amazing trip. i really enjoyed it. although I was on no kind of diet I had no net gain on vacation. i also walked over 120 miles in the two weeks I was gone. Well as a lot of people prepare to go on their own holiday vacations I wanted to share my pics. Hope you guys like them.

Mahalo!

Mele kalikimaka!!!


https://plus.google.com/+ChrisPurnell75/
photos/

Enjoy!

It seems spark leaves the the colon off after https in the url. If you add the colon you will be able to see the pics.

  
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BOBBI_59 9/22/2014 11:31AM

  Congrats..On your awesome weight loss you have done a great job and I am,
hoping one day I can say the same thing about myself.

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LOLAJO54 5/1/2014 8:37PM

    off to look at pictures

yep time for a new blog

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TEDYBEAR2838 3/19/2014 7:58AM

    Hey, there young man. Time for an update blog.
How are you doing?

THank you for commenting and noticing my progress.

Hugs

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FOREVERFITCHICK 1/28/2014 10:46AM

    Fantastic photos! Love that you share so many of your travels! It's something I'd love to do more of!


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FITKAT62 1/18/2014 8:15PM

    I finally managed to see the photos. They are awesome. Thanks for sharing.
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TWENKY215 1/13/2014 4:12PM

    I copied the links here by right clicking the link once I got the error so I had two pages open at once. Then when I was on the page with the error message which was Yahoo, I clicked the url address and deleted everything, pasted the url address from here and started from the first letter in the address. It came up as http///https//plus or something like that. You need to take out the first http and then put the colon after the https:
But the pictures were really nice. I like the pictures where the fish are in the floor and the lights are off. Wow! The landscape and architecture and history of all 3 cities is just so refreshing. Wonderful Christmas scenes, scenes from the sky and everything looked like it was really nice. Glad you enjoyed. What a blessing to be able to go and see other things and people that are in this world. emoticon

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HAPPYWRITER7 1/12/2014 5:26PM

    Wow! What a way to make unforgettable memories, congratulations! keep on living life to the fullest! Thanks for commenting on my blog, it's good to see you again!

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TEENY_BIKINI 1/10/2014 8:55PM

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SIMONEKP 1/4/2014 12:36PM

    Nice pictures Chris, looks like you had a great vacation!

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BOLEBRON 12/25/2013 9:41PM

    I did not get to see them but I am sure they were great. You visited a lot of places. What a great vacation. I am glad you enjoyed the food but did no gain weight. A dream come true. emoticon

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HEALTHYSLIM2 12/21/2013 4:14PM

    Cool. Thanks for sharing. Lots of beautiful pictures, but hardly any of you! emoticon
Welcome back and Merry Christmas!
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JULIA_211 12/21/2013 3:52PM

    I also had a problem with the link, but I followed Ken's instructions and was able to see them! Amazing pictures! Thank you for sharing them!

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EFFIEANNIE 12/21/2013 8:24AM

    Loved the pictures Chris. My husband really wants to go to Istanbul. He will love to see these pictures. Hope you have a Merry Christmas. emoticon

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_BABE_ 12/21/2013 12:54AM

    Prost! I like that pic of you with the beer. Great diary of a trip for three cities I would like to visit...even more now. I hear tell the Berlin Christmas market is something to see...thanks for sharing!

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JANTWO 12/21/2013 12:46AM

    Wow you got to visit a lot of places!!!! emoticon

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LIVINGFREE19 12/20/2013 10:43PM

    Loved the pics, and what an awesome vacation! You visited some great places on your vacation!



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KING_SLAYER 12/20/2013 10:38PM

    There is a colon in the link, however when you click the link, it comes up with no colon after HTTPS. Just click in the address bar right after the S and insert a colon then hit enter. :)

You have some really good pics there brother. Looks like you had a great time, I am jealous!

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LINOVER 12/20/2013 9:46PM

    Looks like you had a great trip!

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TOKIEMOON 12/20/2013 9:06PM

    So sorry that I couldn't get the links to work. They did have colons, but I got Google errors that the pages could not be found. emoticon But I did revisit your earlier hike pics. emoticon

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REGILIEH 12/20/2013 9:03PM

    Fantastic! This is a nice Christmas gift!

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DOVESEYES 12/20/2013 8:52PM

    Wow what an amazing trip --could you ever get used to such beautiful buildings?

Germany-- loved you in your new T-shirt-that was you right :)?

Istanbul--favourite photo the stunning 'fish pond'!!!!

Prague- favourite would have to be you having a beer next to the fire extinguisher--Hot stuff eh?

I loved the photography and how you picked out amazing sights, the snow falling- all incredible you must have so many wonderful memories.

Thanks so much for letting me share it.



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Commitment to Work....

Monday, October 07, 2013

It's been a while since I wrote a blog. I think it is more than time for me to write another. First thing I want to do is thank all my spark friends for their continued support. Every like, comment and goodie means a ton and helps keep me going. I haven't had time to personally thank everyone but I try to do it by paying it forward to support my friends here and so as my time on spark has been less I have been trying to use it to encourage others and in that I have found a great deal of encouragement myself.

This will be quite a long blog so I won't feel bad if you come back later and read it when you have time.

Ok well this summer was pretty rough for me. over the summer I gained about 15 pounds from where I was before the summer started. I am still 12 pounds up for the year. A lot of people would flip out if they gained that much. But I am choosing not to do that. I know exactly why I gained it. I stopped doing the work. I could blame or make excuses for a lot of things. Work, breakup, travel etc... But it comes down to the fact that I stopped doing the work day in and day out. My decisions and choices weren't great food wise and I chose to hang out and socialize rather to bust tail in the gym. The thing is I don't regret it. In 7 days it will mark 1 year I have been living in Hawaii the majority of the time. I have to say it has been the best thing to happen to me outside of the birth of my kids. I have been so blessed to have this opportunity and I have chosen to max it out. I was actually supposed to be leaving in a few weeks but my project has ran in to delays and it seems like I will be here till the end of January. I have felt so lucky and grateful to have had this opportunity I am not going to let the fact I have put on some weight here diminish how great I feel about this experience. I got a tattoo here (my first ever) so I will always remember how I feel about my year here.



So while my summer was over indulgent I enjoyed it immensely. So I don't regret it. However I know that what I want for myself is to feel good about myself and my body and do the work it takes to invoke those feelings. So in September I said enough was enough and decided to start doing the work again. Start making better eating choices. Start making the choice to be active. Start making the choices to be the person I want to be and I am proud of being. I knew I couldn't start back out at the level I was say a year ago. But I could start doing the work and I did. I ordered myself an activity monitor (fitbit flex) to help me track my work. Since it arrived over 3 weeks ago I have only been under my work goal once. I have walked over 100 miles since getting it and lost about 4 pounds. While the pounds are nice I really like how I feel and how it feels to have done the work. I know the weight will work itself out as long as I continue to do the work.

So I got the fit bit while in Texas for a week. but I started doing the work even before I went back home. The first weekend after I had made up my mind I started to do active things and make better meal choices. One thing I have truly enjoyed and have given me a great sense of accomplishment is hiking. Before the Summer I had done two hikes the first two I had ever done. Diamond head and Koko Head. (check earlier blogs for recaps of these hikes) I enjoyed these a ton and felt on top of the world literally. So I wanted to get back to that. So My first free weekend I did two hikes. Maka'apu light house and Manoa Falls. These were good hikes and got me out of the house and had wondrous views. Neither hike was extremely challenging like Koko Head was. But they helped me get outside and really enjoy the island. Here are some pics from those hikes.

















So after those hikes and getting my fitbit I was really excited once again to do the work. Well my good friend and project manager got the idea to do the Haiku Stairs hike. This hike is actually closed and has been since 1987. To do it you have to break several trespassing laws and start well before dawn as to avoid the security guards. Oh did I mention several people have had fatal accidents on this trail as well.

So my friend ask me if I want to do and I of course say I am in. I usually don't do stuff like this. I am not a thrill seeker. I am not a dare devil. but after looking at the pics I made up my mind this was something I had to see with my own eyes. It was also fitting we would do it the day after the 20th Anniversary of when I lost my Dad in a car accident. What better time to do a hike called stairway to heaven.

So we went to sleep about 9 pm local time and i awoke at 1:15 am I got ready and met up with 5 of my friends at 1:45 am. We then met up with other friends and soon to be friends that wanted to do the hike when they caught word. by the time the full group assembled (about 18 of us) it was 2:40 am we carpooled and drove to where one of our friends new we could gain access to the hike. We have on headlamps as it is pitch black out. We had about a mile walk just to get to the head of the closed off trail.

Honestly i could write an extremely long blog about this hike. However I feel like I have written quite a bit already so i will summarize a bit. This is by far the most challenging physical activity i have taken part in. The trail consists of almost 4000 stairs and you ascend to about 2700 feet. Most of our group were in there 20's or early 30's and very fit. I was by far the heaviest of the group and the 4th oldest. Honestly I was breathing hard by the time we reached the bottom of the stairs. I fit wasn't pitch black out and I could only see the stairs and the person in front of me I don't know if I would have attempted it. I am very glad I did though. I don't have any pics from our ascent as it was 3 am when we got started. But I want to share with you all some of the pics. the pics don't do it justice. On the way up we encountered 30-40mph winds and driving rains as we passed though layers or clouds. By the time we reached the top it was about an hour to sunrise. I actually didn't make it to the very top because when I was going up the last section the wind and rain was so strong I didn't feel it was safe. So i made it to about 2600 ft elevation and did about 95% of the stairs.

While some would be disappointed not reaching the top it didn't disappoint me at all. Because I had done something I never thought I would be able to do. i went as far as I could safely and thats ok. the work I put in to get where I was was enough and I was satisfied. i think that is something we often overlook in this journey. Being enough... A lot of us turn to food because we feel like we haven't been enough for people in our lives. Parents, spouses, Boyfriends/Girlfirends, siblings. That we didn't measure up to someone else's ideas of us. All that matters is we measure up to our ideas of us. We have to be enough for us. that is a lesson that I had learned before but that hike really sunk it in. My work and effort is enough. That work and effort has carried me to places I wouldn't have even dreamed of 10 years ago. Who cares whether it measures up in someone else's eyes it is enough for me. I am proud of what I accomplished in the dark of night and even though I was exhausted and spent after wards and i am sore still as I write this.. I know that ANYTHING I put my mind to I can and will do. If a man who once weighed close to 400 pounds can will him self up the side of that mountain then there is nothing else I can't will myself to. I just have to do the work. Enjoy the pictures...























This is the first bunker and this is where I made it too.







Stole the quote above and added it to one of my friends pics from the hike.



  
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GODSBABYGAL 12/24/2013 4:37PM

    emoticon I enjoyed the story and pictures. emoticon

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PRESBESS 11/23/2013 3:34PM

    Wow! You're a brave man! I'm glad you enjoyed your hike.
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JOJOHNNSON 11/18/2013 5:43AM

    On so many levels... this has been the best blog I have ever read anywhere! So very proud of you! Thank you for sharing this... you are appreciated.

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KATSPARK06 11/12/2013 8:16PM

    That's right! I need one of these hikes!

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SIMONEKP 11/6/2013 10:42AM

    Chris, that looks awesome. Too bad it's closed.

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HEYSHAKER 11/1/2013 10:39PM

    Wow. What an inspiration!

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MSROZZIE 11/1/2013 9:34PM

    Enjoyed your blog! Thanks for sharing. Stay focused on your goals! Love the pictures too! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AZURELITE 10/29/2013 5:44PM

    Thanks for taking the time to write this catchup blog. Wow, great photos. Enjoy the rest of your time in Hawaii and keep on keepin' on!!


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RUSSELL_40 10/23/2013 8:29AM

    Great pictures. Not going to see that from your couch. Think about the fact that 95% of people voluntarily give up these experiences, just to sit around, and overeat, because it is easier. The few who don't gain weight, burn calories in a gym, and not in nature. That was a heck of a stair stepper you went up..lol

Don't worry about the summer. I gained about 30 lbs last summer. I was down to 211 lbs, and for the first time in a while, I could do things I haven't been able to do. While doing these things with friends, I tended to not avoid certain foods, so that I did not stick out. I went to restaurants, ate off plan during a weekend up north in the woods, and at some picnics. I tried to offset this with plenty of exercise. Today I am down to 202 lbs, even though I got back to 242 over that summer. Weight loss isn't linear.

Just keep up the exercise, and eat the best food you can, and work at setting a new low before every slip backwards. Over time it adds up. Sometimes you will lose 8 lbs a month, other times 1 lb, and still other you may gain 3 lbs. The goal should be to lose a little more than you gain. Summer is always rough for me, with potato salad, and fried chicken. Wintertime helps me lose what I gained in the summer. Do the best you can, while enjoying Hawaii. You can limit the damage, and erase it when back in Texas. You don't always get to experience Hawaii. Enjoy yourself a bit.



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WILDFLOWERMA 10/22/2013 10:33PM

    Incredible journey - love the rainbows in the pictures, your tattoo..it's very moving. You are so right about going as far as you can safely go. You have so much to be proud of.

I've been hoping to get back to Hawaii again..you've inspired me.

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TEACHFIRST268 10/19/2013 8:16PM

    This. Is. Amazing.

Thank you for continuing to inspire us all!



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MZADAMS 10/19/2013 1:26PM

  All I can say is WOW!!!! emoticon

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HEALTHYSLIM2 10/16/2013 1:35PM

    Way to go. Way to be safe and be ENOUGH for yourself.
Loved the blog and best of luck as you continue your journey!
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LPRUNWALK 10/14/2013 11:25PM

    What an amazing hike (and overall journey). Thanks for sharing your thoughts and those incredible photos of the Haiku trail. I've been to Diamond Head, but this looks 10 times more challenging and beautiful! Good luck re-dedicating yourself to the work. emoticon

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READY4CHANGE81 10/14/2013 9:13PM

    I am proud of you and all that you have accomplished. I really admire you for living your dream. This is an amazing tribute to your dad and your 'new' lifestyle. Keep pushing forward and I have no doubt you will reach whatever goals you set.

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AMOS76 10/14/2013 8:23PM

  What a wonderful post! I read it twice. Thank you for sharing your experience. I am so jealous!

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EMMACLAIRE5 10/14/2013 3:59PM

    Way to go!! Those pictures are amazing, and I'm sure the whole experience was fantastic for you. It's nice to have a chance to read one of your long posts again, they are very inspirational. Take care and be well!

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GSEATON 10/14/2013 3:38PM

    Amazing! Don't know if I could do this! STAIRS! Good job! LOVE the pics!

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LUVTOBOWL 10/11/2013 9:49PM

    What a great blog Chris! I'm so proud of you for not giving up after gaining a few pounds; we should all know that that happens while on this journey.

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MISSCUS 10/10/2013 12:07AM

    Amazing that you did it! Amazing pictures. Beautiful terrain too. Bravo to you, keep sparkling!

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TEENY_BIKINI 10/9/2013 9:25PM

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...and love the pics!!!

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TEDYBEAR2838 10/9/2013 1:50PM

    All I can say is AMAZING!

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RIBKNIT 10/9/2013 12:57PM

    Thank you for all you have shared in this blog, I am blown away (glad you weren't though haha). You are one of my lights at the end of the tunnel, or top of the mountain in this case, and I appreciate it beyond words.

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CIROHIO 10/9/2013 12:50AM

    Gorgeous absolutely gorgeous ! I love that it was the stairway to Heaven for your Dad. What a tribute to the both of you. However it looks a bit scary and very intimating to me. I am a chicken butt and am scared of heights.Happy that you made the hike safely. WOW what a great way to clear the heart, mind and soul. So glad that you are enjoying life! That weigh will come off in no time now that you are working it. I truly enjoy your blogs when you do blog. I always appreciate your encouragement and support. You are such an inspiration ! I feel very Blessed that our paths have crossed emoticon Cathe

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REGILIEH 10/8/2013 11:14PM

    WOW!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

I'm so glad you stayed safe as you need to stay safe for your kids!

So you will get to celebrate New Years in Hawaii! It could be worse! emoticon

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MOTHEPRO 10/8/2013 4:22PM

    Amazing hike! Beautiful pictures! emoticon

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_BABE_ 10/8/2013 1:21PM

    emoticon I believe if you don't choose to see all the good your life has to offer then you truly miss out. The photos are beautiful and what a great way to get back into it. I know what it feels like to lose a little ground in the weight loss game but it's not the end of the world and when you get back at it you can make that time up in a month. emoticon emoticon

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TOKIEMOON 10/8/2013 11:28AM

    What a truly monumental endeavor! You most certainly are blessed (love your tat). I'm happy for you that you are making the most of living in a beautiful part of the country. I too know first hand the disappointment of regaining weight. I gained 15 lbs after having back surgery in May. But I just joined a SP 8 week challenge and being on a team has once again empowered my enthusiasm. Thanks for sharing, I've missed your blogs! emoticon Denise

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 10/8/2013 11:15AM

    What an incredible, amazing hike. It looks scary high and slippery. Wow.

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EG8383 10/8/2013 10:51AM

  Chris this is an amazing blog. The pics are amazing but I'm sure hiking the terrain is even more surreal. One thing I always take out of your stories is that only You can make or not make things happen. It doesn't matter what others think or say. Its about making yourself happy and proud. There are lots of toxic people in this world and sometimes their venom pushes us to remove ourselves from the situation and makes us a better person. Love the tat and I must say your have been blessing in many many ways. Continue to look forward and make yourself happy. =)

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BOBINVA 10/8/2013 9:23AM

    Love the stairs shot and the saying. You are doing great!! Keep sparking!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 10/8/2013 9:00AM

    THose are BEAUTIFUL pictures Chris, thanks so much for sharing them. You have worked hard, and worked through so much to be where you are. I can't tell you how proud I am of you for NOT giving up. 15 pounds would have made a LOT of people give up, but you're too strong for that. You are AWESOME Chris and I'm SOO proud to call you a friend!
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EFFIEANNIE 10/8/2013 7:53AM

    Wow!! What beautiful pictures. Great job. I don't thin k I could do all those steps. My legs are cringing just thinking about it. You probably lost 10 pounds doing all those stairs!

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JULIA_211 10/8/2013 6:45AM

    I know that you have it in you to accomplish your goals, that is obvious! And I admire you for dealing with the setbacks in a realistic manner! emoticon I'm so glad that you have a little extra time to enjoy your stay in Hawaii! Keep up the great work! emoticon

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DOVESEYES 10/8/2013 4:20AM

    Wow what an inspiration you are!!! My heart was pounding just looking at the photos, so glad you documented it and your year.

Just like the steps it's one at a time, you can go fast and look down at the steps or you can stop and check out the scenery and you can go as high as you want. Getting to the goal is great. Wow coming down again you can see all the work you did.

Just like our journey at SP in photos.

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KING_SLAYER 10/8/2013 3:19AM

    That is quite an accomplishment brother! I'm proud of you Chris for laying it all out in this blog, your ups and downs of the last year. With a renewed spirit and enthusiasm I know that you will continue to push yourself to be the best that you can be!

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COOKIE_AT_51 10/8/2013 2:21AM

    emoticon blog, pictures, and mostly your recommitment!!! Your last picture with the quote sums it all up, doesn't it?
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Hugs ~ Cookie

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AHTRAP 10/8/2013 2:00AM

    Fantastic pics, Chris. I especially like the one where you're looking down on a rainbow!

Glad to hear you've rediscovered the spark (hey, if the site specific cliche fits, right?) to start moving again, and to re-engage in the work of living, as it were.

Glad, too, that you're able to see past the delays in the project, and see it for the blessing it is, in giving you a chance to extend your stay in Hawaii.

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FITFRIT 10/7/2013 11:47PM

    Omgoodness! Gorgeous photographs; I didn't take the time to read the entire blog as I have a little more cardio and one more ST to do before I can sit for a bit and enjoy, but I'll be back!

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KARRENLYNN 10/7/2013 11:37PM

    Congratulations! And you are right, you only have to do what's right for you and not compare yourself to others. Everything you be, do, and have is so much more than you had before.

Take care of yourself because you are so worth it!

Karen

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LIVINGFREE19 10/7/2013 11:22PM

    Wow, those pictures are amazing!
That looks like so much fun, and I could imagine how out of breath I would be hiking those areas also.
I'm glad that you had such a great summer, and a great time in Hawaii, how awesome!

Thank you for sharing the pics!

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If I was Rich...

Wednesday, August 07, 2013

Copied from JULIAMOONCHILD & KING_SLAYER

OK, you have just won a 700 million dollar lottery (!), which means after taxes (damn IRS) you now have about 350 million dollars to do with whatever you please. Anyway, allowing yourself here to be totally, as in 100% completely, self-absorbed, please list 10 things you would definitely do now for yourself. Keep in mind, the list does not have to be PRIORITY things to do or even the very first ten things you would do. These are just 10 things that might quickly come to your mind to do just for YOURSELF right after you have learned that you are now rich.

Have Fun!

1. Setup a trust fund for the kiddos.
2. Buy a Condo/House in HI
3. Buy a Tesla S
4. Setup a program to take inner city kids on international trips
5. Donate to local shelter and churches that house the homeless
6. Start a free meal program
7. Help my family and my friends out
8. Have a huge party on a tropical island with my friends.
9. Travel
10. Write a book or 10
11. help as many people as I possibly can.

  
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SWTHRT4UDRLNG71 9/26/2013 12:19PM

    #7 if i ever got plenty of money would how i spend it emoticon

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SBNORMAL 9/19/2013 7:06PM

  I have think about this so more later!

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SOFT_VAL67 8/31/2013 9:03PM

    10. set my son up in a home with a car and trust fund for life
9. move up into the mountains so far that i cant be found/in a custom built log cabin, with all the amenities, pool, grotto, tanning booth, gym, movie theater, bowling alley and my own walking track around all the property.
8. hire mick jagger to sing at my birthday party
7. buy a yacht
6. have eye surgery so i never have to wear glasses again
5. have tons of plastic surgery
4. write the great american novel and publish it myself
3. set up a fund for dav to help rescue dogs
2. pay off my student loan, i would save them for last after all other bills
1. just go....travel the world the rest of my days and see all the places i can only now dream about....brazil, italy, russia. japan, and all of america, i would see the usa in a chevrolet, convertible camaro maybe.

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 8/30/2013 11:16PM

    I would love to have a home of my own. It doesn't have to be fancy. Just my own all paid for, one no one could take from me. If I could start there life would be so great. A little piece of land. Get my teeth fixed. It would be so fun to expand the list.

Great blog.

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WARRIOR11209 8/27/2013 9:50AM

    Here are my 10

1. Pay off all of my debt
2. Set up trust funds for my children
3. Go to college full time
4. Give money to close family and friends to make their dreams come true
5. Fund the church that feeds the homeless near my job so that they can expand their program.
6. Establish a complex for families with children who are homeless so that no child in the area would have to live in a car when their parents lose their job.
7. Donate money to the community college that I am attending so they can offer more scholarships to older students
8. Spend 1 month traveling with my best friend
9. By a modest condo
10. By an annual family membership to my gym

Thanks for the chance to dream..now back to work - lol

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DEEKELLYE 8/26/2013 8:26AM

    I keep dreaming about this. Here are my top 10 things. I would do other things as well.

1. Pay off credit cards.
2. Buy a car for me and a few other people.
3. Buy some land and build my own house and craft building and fitness area.
4. Get dental work done.
5. Get a personal trainer.
6. Donate to a couple of churches and Christian websites.
7. Travel.
8. Start a trust fund for my son.
9. Enjoy life and have parties on a beach.
10. Have a stock pile of food and cleaning supplies.

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CVRONEK 8/26/2013 7:47AM

    I had subscribed to your blogs, but somehow that must have evaporated. Glad I checked!
You are such a good writer and an inspiration.

1) become debt free
2) take care of medical things for myself and my grown children
3) fix up my home the way I always wanted and needed to do.
4)Stop landscaping for others (as much) and spend the time in my yard!
5) Travel with my sister and children.
6)Buy a new car.
7) Buy a truck.
8) Contribute to Make a Wish Foundation
9)Buy a new wardrobe....Much needed.
10.Help my sister if she should need it

Thank you for getting my mind working in that direction. It can happen!

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SCHOOLCOOK2 8/23/2013 1:19PM

    This is a great list. I no it is the last of the month but will add mine.

1. Buy a new mobile home
2. Pay off the loan at church for the new elevator.
3. Help my daughter pay off their house and loans
4. Help son pay off his schooling loans.
5. Put money back for the 3 grandkids college education's
6. Take trips to places I want to see.
7. Buy a new bed - king size - with adjustments for head and legs
8. New living room furniture
9. Start an account in our name for school scholarship to a deserving person
10. Have a retirement place on a lake.

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TEDYBEAR2838 8/22/2013 4:46PM

    Good answers!

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RUSSELL_40 8/16/2013 1:00PM

    I started out struggling to get 10, and soon was struggling to keep it to just 10.

1. Buy a new house, and 2 new cars for my brother and I
2. Travel.. San Diego, and then Europe, and Australia
3. Buy books, build extensive library, and buy a HUGE TV
4. Pay off debt/medical bills
5. Buy season tickets to the Pistons, and Tigers games.
6. Buy a pizzeria, or a Subway
7. Buy new clothes, eyeglasses for my brother and I
8 . Get gym membership
9. Take some college classes
10. Set up some program to help people pay for college. There are many people who make just enough to not qualify for a Pell grant, but not enough to pay for it on their own. I think everyone should have the opportunity to go to college.

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1FARMER 8/11/2013 6:25PM

    Dreaming is such fun! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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SIMONEKP 8/11/2013 1:59AM

    I await my invitation to the party

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BOLEBRON 8/9/2013 10:18PM

    Uh.. I love this.

1. Pay a few debts
2. Buy a new car
3. Fix my house
4. Help my sister out
5. Help my brother
6. Take a vacation in Europe (Italy will be nice)
7.Establish an after school program with computers and all for inner city kids
8. Build a house in Puerto Rico for retirement and vacations
9. Donate money to The Humane Society
10. Fix my yard


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HEALTHYSLIM2 8/9/2013 12:43PM

    LOVE THIS IDEA!
So fun (and good for us!) to dream...
1. Tithe.
2. Fully fund education for my son, and for one other boy who needs help and can benefit from the opportunity of an excellent education.
3. Get a solid financial and estate plan in place
4, Travel
5. Take care of the people around me - maybe partnering with awesome charities and organizations that already exist and need funding to do more
6. Buy a home with a den or room for large home office AND a large "rec room" so all my son's friends could always come hang out at our place
7. Improve my tennis game by taking as many private lessons and playing as much as needed!
8. Maybe stop working... but not 100% sure - if I did:
9. Write a book
10. Volunteer my time and energies to worthy causes
And may I add an 11?:
Attend a friend's tropical island party, if invited. emoticon
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SPICEMWE 8/9/2013 9:04AM

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CIROHIO 8/9/2013 1:24AM

    Oh this is fun...I Love to dream
1. Buy a new Van
2. Paid off debts
3.Help out all 4 of my sisters
4.Donate to Church
5. Have dental work done
6.Get a new mobile home
7. Invest some for later
8.Donate to the pet shelters
9.Take my sisters on a dream vacation
10 . Plan a huge beach party with my family and friends

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LIVINGFREE19 8/9/2013 12:51AM

    It is fun to think of what we could do if we hit the lottery! The powerball is up to 429 million, so go for it, and give it a shot!

I would donate to humane societies, lots and lots of money!

Have a great friday, and weekend!

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RIBKNIT 8/8/2013 8:15PM

    Interesting how the things you do for others end up being for yourself :)

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TOKIEMOON 8/8/2013 5:59PM

    What a thought provoking concept. I love your ideas - this have given me much to ponder. Where would you travel to and what kind of books would you write? emoticon emoticon

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CRESHA20 8/8/2013 4:46PM

    I really love this post and just had to comment on it because I was talking to my coworkers about what I would do with my lottery winnings today.

1. Pay off all my husbands and my bills, my parents bills and give them extra of course, help my siblings. (Should those have been separate?)
2. Get my yard landscaped.
3. Enclose my pool. I want it pretty fancy.
4. In my home gym, I would love to get a nu step because I really love it, but can't afford it.
5. I would really like to revamp my home gym.
6. Renovate my house, especially my kitchen so that it has more space.
7. I would definitely invest my money so it can grow and I'll never have to work again.
8. Get a new wardrobe because mine is so frumpy and outdated.
9. Give some money to my church.
10. Travel

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JILLYBEAN3628 8/8/2013 12:57PM

    I don't really have to think about this, because I have made comments to my daughter about this before. Every time I see a charity or group that's doing something outstanding, I say, "When I win the lottery, I'm going to help them do their thing." It is something for myself because I will benefit from knowing I've helped others.

Oh, and I want a new Caddy and a house.

But...I think I will address this in my own blog! emoticon

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TEACHFIRST268 8/8/2013 11:53AM

    lol...yes, please keep me in mind for #8, too!
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Great list! Your kind and generous nature continues to shine!

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KARRENLYNN 8/8/2013 9:33AM

    I would add to that learning to invest and setting up income streams that keeps that money replenishing itself so that it doesn't eventually run out.

Karen

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CALIPIDGIOUS 8/8/2013 9:24AM

    LOL, Let me know when you need my address for #8!

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CLRWILLIAMS25 8/8/2013 8:18AM

    Love this list!

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EFFIEANNIE 8/8/2013 6:54AM

    I love your choices. It tells a lot about you~you must have a very generous giving personality. Good for you.

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_BABE_ 8/8/2013 3:18AM

    Money gives us such a luxury to pursue our dreams.....what kind of books would you write?

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KING_SLAYER 8/8/2013 2:18AM

    Great list Chris! I was never a fan of those Teslas (previously just a Lotus Elise with daisy chained laptop batteries!) but the new Tesla S is a nice car.

I checked my calendar and I'm available for the tropical island party, in case you were wondering :)

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MCJULIEO 8/8/2013 1:30AM

    Oooooo! Cool!

I like your list!

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MYKIDSRSWEET 8/8/2013 12:07AM

    If get some new cloges, carpets, furniture and college funds!

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FITKAT62 8/8/2013 12:07AM

    It did specify things you'd do for yourself, so here are my ten.

1. Hire a landscaper to put in a nice new walkway up to our house.
2. Put a gym in our basement
3. Buy new furniture
4 Buy new appliances
5. Have some cosmetic dentistry work done
6. Hire someone to fence in our backyard
7. Go on a spa vacation
8. Get new kitchen cabinets
9 Get marble kitchen countertops
10. Hire professional painters to paint a few rooms in our house.



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SONYALATRECE 8/7/2013 11:17PM

    Can I just piggyback off your list?

#3 would be buy a new Mercedes car and pay off my new Lexus simultaneously.

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Fear...

Monday, July 08, 2013

Sorry for my inconsistency lately on being here. I have had a lot of life changes lately and have just had a lot on my plate. My spare time to spend on spark has been very limited so I have tried to use it to keep motivating and encouraging all my spark friends on their Journey. I have just felt compelled to right on the above topic and how it relates to our lives and our journeys.

I saw this movie a few weeks ago. This quote is the best I think I have ever heard regarding Fear.

"Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist. That is near insanity. Do not misunderstand me danger is very real but fear is a choice. We are all telling ourselves a story and that day mine changed."

Probably the biggest lesson I have learned in my life and on this Journey is to stop acting out of Fear. I have always known on a level I cannot even explain that Fear is our biggest enemy. It is probably the biggest thing standing between us and being happy and content. I have learned what ever you fear you usually make happen. the power of what you think about and what you lend your emotions too is so powerful that is what you act out of whether you are aware of it or not. So more often than not the things we fear most in life we either make happen or the presence of the fear prevents us from attaining and keeping the things we really do desire. So lets take a look at my fears and how they affected me before this journey.

My biggest fear was being a failure. I always worried about people perceiving me as a failure. I was worried about not hitting lofty goals I had set for my self. I had convinced myself that I had not lived up to the promise I showed as a child and that I was a failure and disgrace. These feelings came from a lot of different things. From not feeling good enough because of the way my mother treated me. from not feeling like I fit in anywhere extremely well. All this conjured up these feelings of fear inside me that I wasn't able to shake for years. So what did living in this state of fear get me... Let's see a divorce, foreclosure, my car repossessed, broken relationships and oh yeah I weighed nearly 400 pounds and was killing my self slowly with Sleep apnea, Diabetes and High blood pressure.

In a strange way losing everything was liberating. Guess what happens when everything you ever feared would happen, happens. There is nothing left to be scared about. there is just one question to ask yourself. what do I do about it now.
When I figured out I was scared ands fearful of being a failure and that fear had become a self fulling prophecy. I figured out most of the decisions I made and the choices I was making were done out of fear. Fear what people would think of me. Fear of not being able to do it. fear of it not being good enough for someone.

Then the light came on. Like the quote at the start of this said that is insanity. Why am I afraid of something that hasn't happened and may never happen. Why am I giving my time and energy to that. Why am I stopping myself from the possibility of having everything I want because I may not get it. Like the saying goes "You don't get 100% of the things you never ask for". Yes that answer may be no sometimes. But guess what at least you know. At least there is no what if's. Because that is what haunts us the fear and regret of things we have never done.

So when this light came on it was based on a very simple idea. Free will. Everything we do is a choice. I can choose to breathe or hold my breath. It's a choice. So my first task was to make better choices. Then on top of that I had to own responsibility for my choices. I wouldn't complain I felt like crap because I ate to much. I wouldn't beat myself up about it either. I would recognize I didn't make a great choice. Own the responsibility for it and adjust it.

Recognizing everything was a choice was empowering for me. It led to me realizing that each choice was me doing what I could do. If I focused on that I stopped worrying about the things I couldn't control. Because guess what if you can't control them... You can't control it. So worrying and being afraid of what I couldn't control was pointless.

Also I had always thought I had faith. I really did. For many years I thought I had faith in God. I realized however I was lying to myself for those years. How could I be scared of everything and still have faith. In all religion the definition of Faith is very simple an inner trust in the unseen. In other words a lack of fear. Fear and Faith cannot coexist.

So again I had a choice either to have Faith or not. I chose to have faith. Because the honest truth is 99.999% of the time either something is going to happen or it's not. You are gonna eat a cupcake or you aren't. You are going to get in a car accident or you aren't. You are going to wake up tomorrow or you aren't. Worrying about it or being fearful of it isn't going to have any bearing on whether it happens or it doesn't in most cases worrying about it or being fearful makes it more likely to happen because you are more apt to react on the thoughts that are most prevalent. So if you are thinking about if you are or aren't going to eat a cup cake all day... You probably will eat a cupcake.

All these realizations are find and dandy but how do you fight the fears you already have. I faced my fear of failure by being a failure for a short point in time. I wouldn't recommend that however lol. What I do recommend is facing your fears. After being a failure my 3 biggest fears are heights, drowning, and being hurt in a relationship.

Over the past two years I have hiked two mountains. 10 years a go no way I would do that. I took it a step at a time knowing each step was a choice. concentrating on doing things right not at what would possibly go wrong. Guess what getting to the top of those mountains was so fulfilling and empowering and reinforced my faith and let me lose that fear.

I have never been able to swim. However right now I am taking swim lessons. This will sound crazy to people who have swam all their life but the hardest thing for me to do was float. Because in floating you have to relax and let the water hold you up. The tenser you are, the more afraid you are the harder it is to float. On day one of swim lessons I floated for the first time in my life. Now i am learning more skills and as my comfort in the water grows the fear is washing away.

After a bad marriage being hurt again was a huge fear. But over the past two years I let that go and I tried again. While it didn't work out how I planned or hoped. While we both got hurt in the process. It taught me loving someone is nothing to be afraid of. Either it will or it won't work. However how you deal with all of that is a choice everyday. How you treat someone is a choice hurt or not and I have seen definite growth there. I am also so grateful that I have had a truly wonderful person in my life for two years. that we are still able to be friends and care about each other regardless of how things turn out. There is nothing to be scared about there. I would have missed out on many magical moments because of fear. If I wouldn't have taken this leap of faith.

Here are some quotes on fear I keep close to heart. Don't let fear hold you back from a life you were meant to live!

Love is what we were born with. Fear is what we learned here.
-Marianne Williamson

Fear stifles our thinking and actions. It creates indecisiveness that results in stagnation. I have known talented people who procrastinate indefinitely rather than risk failure. Lost opportunities cause erosion of confidence, and the downward spiral begins.
-Charles Stanley

I'd rather give my life than be afraid to live it.
-Lyndon B. Johnson




  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

BUTTONPOPPER1 6/30/2014 12:57AM

    I somehow came across this blog, nearly a year after you wrote it, and I want you to know that it's one of the best I've read! I just really liked it so much--your inspiring stories, and the way you tell them. You have a lot of courage and wisdom. I especially like the way you get over your fears by experiencing the things you've been afraid of, for example how you got over your fear of being a failure by being one for a short time! Good sense of humor, great attitude toward life. You are so alive!

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KATSPARK06 11/12/2013 8:00PM

    Good words. Sometimes we all just need to hear it a bit more.

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AZURELITE 9/17/2013 6:38AM

    A powerful blog, Chris. Thanks for taking the time to write this
Namaste

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SHARRIGAN3 9/12/2013 1:58AM

    Thank you

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SRIBLANC 9/5/2013 1:29AM

    Wow!! My first time reading one of your blogs. This was powerful. I was curious, because you don't know me, yet you're always so encouraging. So I read this. Now even more encouraged.

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 8/30/2013 11:17PM

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CINDYBEL 8/8/2013 11:19AM

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MCJULIEO 8/8/2013 1:43AM

    Great points...

I love these Corrie ten Boom quotes:

Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.
Corrie Ten Boom

Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow. It empties today of its strength.
Corrie Ten Boom

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BOLEBRON 7/22/2013 9:26PM

    Thanks for writing this blog. Fear stops us from doing a lot of things but like one of the quotes you cite says. "it is learned thing" and we can relearn to be daring and to face our fears. emoticon

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RIBKNIT 7/22/2013 4:19PM

    Thank you for this blog :)

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Probably my favorite blog you have written... Thank you!

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COOKIE_AT_51 7/17/2013 7:36AM

    Fantastic!! I think this is something I would like to "archive" and read again and again. emoticon emoticon for sharing.

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LIVINGFREE19 7/16/2013 9:06PM

    Wow, this is an amazing blog that everybody should read!
You have such inner quality that you are such a beautiful person! You have come so far, and the things our parents do to us can make us feel so bad about ourselves and such shame of ourselves.
I am really glad I checked your page to see if you posted a blog. I subscribe to your blogs, but SP let me down again by not letting me know about this blog being posted.
I'm so glad that you found someone to share your life with, that makes you happy! You deserve it!

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LUVTOBOWL 7/16/2013 7:32PM

    Thank God a light came on for you Chris and thank God for faith!!!

I'm so proud of you for taking those swimming lessons emoticon

I like the love.....quote too.

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QTEALADY20031 7/16/2013 7:28PM

    Chris, this is an excellent and thoughtful blog written from the heart. You are right, its like the Law of Attraction...be afraid and that is what comes into your life, distrustful and that is what comes into your life, etc. We really don't want to live like that. I fully understand your swimming fear. I had almost drowned when I was 12 and at the age of 27 years old I stood by the pool looking at 12 feet of water at the Red Cross Swimming lessons and I stood there 3 days in a row and finally jumped into 12 feet of water. Congrats on your swimming lessons! You are right, fear can stop us from living a fulfilling life. The definition is right on target. Thank you so much for this wonderful blog! emoticon emoticon June

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SCHOOLCOOK2 7/15/2013 10:35AM

    Seeing all the blogs going your way just shows you are an inspiration to many. I have two of your blogs on my mirror so when I get up in the morning I can read them. The last four weeks after surgery have been trying but you inspirer me to keep pushing on. I am hoping to be back to Zumba and much walking by Sept. or Oct. Thank you for all your great blogs. emoticon

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-DAVE- 7/14/2013 8:25PM

    Chris,

Your words are from the heart and so true. Have you read Marianne's book entitled "A Course in Weight Loss"? This is on my list.

Fear can be paralyzing. This is where most of our in action comes from. I just finished Thich Nhat Hahn's "Fear". I highly recommend it for those with or ever touched by fear. His other books also are wonderful.

Glad to hear you started swimming! Congratulations on the first lesson - It is a very meditative exercise as well as great for the body...

Best to you, Dave

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TOKIEMOON 7/13/2013 12:50PM

    Wow!! What a powerful, thought provoking blog. Your insight is nothing short of amazing and you make an excellent motivational speaker. You've given me a lot to ponder about my own fears. It's easy (even natural) for me to imagine the worst. I was raised to anticipate negative outcomes or be a fool for not being prepared. Thanks friend! Denise emoticon

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GODSCHILD2_2011 7/12/2013 12:06PM

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TEACHFIRST268 7/12/2013 9:38AM

    I completely understand how the craziness of life can interfere with our Sparktime! Sometimes there just are more pressing things to tend to than sitting in front of the computer and Sparking, but when we continue the healthy habits when our sparktime is limited, that’s when we know we’re on the right track. Kudos to you for keeping up your healthy choices (body and mind) while life has been coming at you.

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Your blog makes so much sense. I’ve found myself thinking along a similar path recently…’self fulfilling prophecy’…think it, believe it, it’s going to happen. And it goes for both positive and negative thoughts. I’m a worrier, big time. And that’s something I’ve been working on. I’ve been doing pretty well with the ‘it’s a choice’ mindset as it pertains to this weight loss thing, which in itself is kind of liberating when you can truly embrace it, now I need to extend that to the other areas in my life. Thanks for sharing, for your heart felt words, and for continuing to inspire the rest of us!


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SIMONEKP 7/12/2013 7:58AM

    We can achieve so much more if we can only get out of our own heads. Fear is definitely a chain that holds us back.

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UMGRAD2012 7/11/2013 5:51PM

    Awesome blog!!! Love everything about it. Feel every bit pertain to me and my life. Going to try my best to not let fear overcome my life. You are really an inspiration to me. Thanks so much!!!! You have come a long way, you are doing great!!!!

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REZNUT 7/11/2013 5:16PM

    Excellent, excellent blog! It comes at the perfect time for me because I have been feeling down lately because of the consequences from fear, my own and those of my family members, which are affecting us. In recent years I have been saying that I believe fear is the root of all evil. I won’t dispute that the “love of money” is, but when you really think of what’s behind so many of the world’s problems, you will see it can be traced back to fear. Fear of failing, fear of being less important than others, fear of people (individuals or groups), fear of not having your share, fear of pain, fear of humiliation, etc. As Charles Stanley stated in his quote which you included, I have also seen people with so much potential end up barely existing in this world because their fear of failing has held them back. What’s really sad is when you realize that your fear can often make victims of others, not just yourself. All the misfortunes in my family and my life can be traced back to fear. I am trying to overcome those fears and help my family members do the same. Thank you so much, Chris, for sharing your thoughts, feelings, and experiences with us and how you are facing and conquering your fears. Hopefully this will give all of us ideas of how to face and conquer our own fears! God bless you, my friend!

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EMMACLAIRE5 7/11/2013 3:55PM

    emoticon You've learned so much and continue to be an inspiration!

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DOVESEYES 7/10/2013 4:29AM

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Fear will stop us, so glad you have seen it and are attacking it head on. We can learn so much from you.

Thanks.

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FLGIRL1234 7/9/2013 9:13PM

    I loved everything about this blog. Everything you said was spot on. When we take the "fear" out of it, we suddenly see how much we are really capable of.

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KARRENLYNN 7/9/2013 8:14PM

    I can relate to your comments about the really destructive nature of letting fear rule our lives. It's been a big problem for me most of my life. You gave me some great things to think about. I've made some progress but I still have a long ways to go.

I'm so glad for all your progress and all the blessings you've opened yourself up for by not letting fear rule your life.

We've never met in person, but I'm glad to meet you here on Spark and how cool it would be if we did.

Karen

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REGILIEH 7/9/2013 8:10PM

    emoticon I love Charles Stanley! He has THE best teaching on forgiveness.

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KING_SLAYER 7/9/2013 7:52PM

    Thanks for writing this blog brother. There are a lot of things that you have written here that I need to take to heart. There are definitely things that I need to change about myself and overcoming certain fears should be at the top of my list. I have lots of work to do!

Keep up the good work, I am inspired by what you are doing to change yourself!

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1FARMER 7/9/2013 5:07PM

    You write with so much feeling and heart. I admire you for sharing those thoughts
and feelings. You have done a lot of hard work on your journey. I thank you for helping your Sparkfriends. emoticon emoticon emoticon Jeanne emoticon


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FITKAT62 7/9/2013 12:40PM

    Awesome blog! So true.
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MEEBELO 7/9/2013 11:46AM

    Great blog. Thanks for sharing.

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GRANDEFILLE 7/9/2013 11:24AM

    WOW! this is a great blog! it was Worth waiting for! you are on the path that is for sure! you should be proud of yourself for all that you have accomplished!

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BETHSWORLD 7/9/2013 9:15AM

    I love this blog! You are so right....fear is the only thing standing between you and happiness.

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EFFIEANNIE 7/9/2013 7:36AM

    Great blog. Lots to think about here. You make a lot of sense. Fear holds us back from our full potential. Than ks for posting this. It is great to know others deal with the same issues. I hope these life changes have been good ones and hope to see you more on Spark as you are able. Take care.

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JULIA_211 7/9/2013 4:44AM

    This is a wonderful blog post that I needed to read today, and I plan to share it with my 17 year old son. You are a good man, a caring friend, thank for this amazing post. emoticon

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_BABE_ 7/9/2013 12:46AM

    I think we are on the same page this week. If you thinking that you will fail then the universe doesn't want to make a liar out of you presto it shall be so. I decided to use this to my advantage and believe "only good lies before me". While I know I don't have a genie at my disposal I do know that whatever happens ( and bad things happen to good people) I will be okay. Something tells me you will too!

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Me...

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Well I said I was working on a two year blog. I still haven't the time to write it. But today Korina found some of my old poetry that I wrote funny enough about two years ago. So I figured I would just share links to pictures of my trips over the last two years and this poem I wrote near the start of my journey. I really hope you guys like it and as soon as I am able to make some time I will try to put some original thoughts together to share.

Europe (Paris, London, Prague) 8/2011
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Las Vegas 11/11
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Europe (Rome, Barcelona)
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Hawaii 10/12 - Present

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Thailand 4/13

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Here is the Poem hope you guys like it...

HE

he was young once
middle aged at present
he has the heart of a king
and the humility of a peasant

he is seldom on time
he is often late
when he arrives
he thrives
and cherishes the memories
he creates

he is inspired by others
and all they overcome
he holds the Lord close
and is a follower of his Son

He was a child
who had a lot to learn
the one thing he got
what you get you earn

he grew among
pimps and hoes
alleys and EL's
Folks and People
and the dope they sale

he walks in the rain
he doesn't mind getting wet
he seldom folds a hand
he doesn't seem to fret

he is a father of two
which power his soul
the joy they bring him
seems to never get old

he has changed much
he remains the same
he doesn’t value wealth
or seek any fame

he doesn't want
a Bentley or Benz
he want precious moments
with family and friends

he has seen more
than he ever expected
It has taught him to
never say “I regretted”

he has made many mistakes
has fell flat on his ass
He brushes himself off
he never takes a pass

he is wrong a lot
and continues to grow
the more he learns
he realizes
the less he knows

he has bad days
where he is bummed and stressed
those days make him realize
he is truly blessed

he has lost a lot
father, brother, aunt, uncles, cousins and friends
just reminds him how much
he needs to do before the end

he believes in love
he despises war
he believes in peace
he expects little
but hopes for more

he lives life
he only has one
no what if's
when his time is done

He has been broken
hes has been lost
he will keep fighting
at all cost

he loves song and dance
he loves the beauty of nature
he loves culture
of every flavor
he is a believer
of Jesus Christ
but that doesn't mean
Mohammed, Zaratoush, Buddha and others
can't be right

he loves the world
and travels to go see
the lives of people
in foreign countries

he is finally becoming
who he wanted to be
he is ME
imperfectly!

  
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SWTHRT4UDRLNG71 9/26/2013 12:21PM

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HOMESTEADCHICK 6/19/2013 11:37AM

    DOVESEYES suggested that I read your blog for motivation. Although I am impressed with your weight loss, I was even more impressed with your heart. Thank you for the encouragement.

God bless,

Cindy

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EFFIEANNIE 6/16/2013 9:23AM

    Great poem and reflects a lot of life. Happy Father's day to a great Dad!

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DRAVENFYR 6/14/2013 7:19AM

    WOW!!!!!!!!!! Talk about emotionally stimulating.......I wasn't really fully awake when I started reading your poem....................I am now. That poem of yours is so sobering. I had no idea that my journey has only but begun...........I have nothing else to say but................................
................THank you thank you thank you thank you....I just can't say thank you enough

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REEBADABEEBOOS 5/31/2013 11:06PM

    I love it! Great poem! :) My internet doesn't like me right now, so I can't see the pictures but I'm sure they're awesome as well.

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BEAUTYSBLUSH 5/31/2013 11:06PM

    That is about the best poem I have ever read! Very very excellent!

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SLIMMERKIWI 5/29/2013 3:26AM

    A beautiful poem - thank you for sharing it with us :-)

Kris

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MCJULIEO 5/28/2013 11:52PM

    Niiiiiiiice!

This I especially identify with:
"he is wrong a lot
and continues to grow
the more he learns
he realizes
the less he knows "

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SIMONEKP 5/24/2013 10:51AM

    nice poem. I'll be back over the weekend to look at your pics. I love to travel.

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JUDYAMK 5/24/2013 9:52AM

    You are so special. I love the poem.I cannot wait until I can go on site to see the photos.We are leaving at noon to go camping in the mountains for 5 days. So when I come home that will be a special treat to look at.Take care Chris
Judy

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COOKIE_AT_51 5/21/2013 6:18AM

    Awesome writing! You can tell you write from your heart and soul. Thanks for all the inspiration. emoticon emoticon


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KARRENLYNN 5/21/2013 12:36AM

    Great poem, that person sounds like a great person to know. You're doing great, you should be proud of your accomplishments and that you get up everyday and do the best you can for your health.

Have a great week,

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HEALTHYSLIM2 5/20/2013 12:26AM

    Couldn't see the pics emoticon
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Keep up the great work!!
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MSGETHEALTHY35 5/18/2013 9:12PM

    Beautiful poem! Love the photos make me want to take a trip asap lol.

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LIVINGFREE19 5/17/2013 5:51PM

    Love the poem!

You are truly inspirational!

Have a GREAT weekend, my friend!

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GODSCHILD2_2011 5/17/2013 3:02PM

    Chris, this is truly a heart felt poem. If you have a lot of these poems, maybe you can get them published.

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AZURELITE 5/17/2013 8:11AM

    Thank you for your words & your photos. You are a special soul!

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SCHOOLCOOK2 5/16/2013 11:01AM

    Thanks Chris. At this time when hurting it is so good to read such beauty. It makes me know I can more on.
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RIBKNIT 5/15/2013 7:39PM

    I love it! You are a person with qualities I admire, and the poem reminds of what is important in life. Thank you so much for posting it. God bless you.

Btw, like Fatkat the links don't work for me.

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_BABE_ 5/15/2013 4:19PM

    You have taught me by example that one has to lay themselves bare to get at why we are where we are or else whatever we do is just a band-aid. I have enjoyed your photos and loved your eloquent words....very inspirational!
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DEEDEE1102 5/15/2013 3:57PM

    Beautiful! Just like the man who wrote it!
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FITKAT62 5/15/2013 3:57PM

    Awesome poem. Can't seem to access the photos! Disappointed,

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READY4CHANGE81 5/15/2013 3:14PM

    Awesome blog post!!! emoticon

I told you are an amazing writer!! Glad you are able to share this with everyone! I think the poem suits you well! Great job baby!

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KIMCOLLINGS 5/15/2013 3:09PM

    Beautiful poem! You have a gift! Love the story and meaning in it too. emoticon

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LUVTOBOWL 5/15/2013 2:31PM

    Chris that is awesome poetry. I am so glad you chose to share. You should be glad to be YOU!

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EG8383 5/15/2013 11:58AM

  Chris I'm so glad I've had the pleasure to meet you and still getting to know you. You're an amazing person. I'm glad you've had control on your health and in a happier place...Your poem is beautiful and depicts you exactly as from I can see. You're blessed in so many wonderful ways and inspire so many. Wish we could all learn how to be a lil like you. We (women) think too much at times and we need to learn to let it be, not ask so many questions, and change the situationt o suit our needs. Take Care. Hugs =)

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GRANDEFILLE 5/15/2013 10:24AM

    Very nice! I am touched by your words and amazed at how you've changed (physically)
You're a great man

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JULIA_211 5/15/2013 5:31AM

    WOW! Excellent! Those are heartfelt words! emoticon

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KING_SLAYER 5/15/2013 2:08AM

    I've enjoyed the pictures over the last 2 years, I get to travel vicariously through you!



You poured a lot of yourself out onto the paper
turning feelings and emotions into words, set to a rhythm.

A drumbeat that is your own, for only you to march to
and march on you have, becoming a bigger man as you become a smaller man.

Although we have not met, we have shared triumphs and tragedies
and through it all I have been proud to call you my brother.

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REGILIEH 5/14/2013 11:17PM

    Oh Chris, your poem is incredible!!! So beautiful! I read it to my husband and he too thought it was incredible. What a beautiful person you are, inside and out!

emoticon so much for sharing your beautiful soul. God bless you and yours.

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CIROHIO 5/14/2013 9:21PM

    Chris this is beautiful...I love it. You so truly love life, you are an amazing person! Such an inspiration!!!!! emoticon

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DOVESEYES 5/14/2013 8:43PM

    wow so glad you 'published' it here --lovely... emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/14/2013 8:33PM

    Beautiful!

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FITMOMINNJ 5/14/2013 7:50PM

    How beautiful your poem is. Flaws and all Chris, you are happy with yourself, such an amazing thing. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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