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One of those days...

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Ever have one of those days where everything you touch turns to excrement? Not in small ways. But in large, Irwin Allen production-type ways? When coming out of something with bandages is the least of your problems? When you really, really, really don't know why you keep going? When you're not sure tomorrow will be better? Or if it will ever get better? When you're pretty sure that the world would be better off without you dragging the earth's spin that extra little bit?

Yeah, it's been that kind of day. Before 10:30 in the morning, even. I feel stupid, worthless, and useless. It started with good intentions, and went on a speeding chariot to Tartarus. I'm going to go curl up and hope the world swallows me up whole. It would probably be the best thing I can hope for.

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WOUBBIE 2/27/2014 6:43PM

    Yeesh. "My Life is a Towering Inferno". *shudders*

(((hugs))) Hope your day got better. Seriously.

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DEBIGENE 2/27/2014 6:10PM

    No No Darling, you are worth all the tea in China as you are a gift from God to this universe !!! Don't ever think you're not !!! You are a wonderful kind caring person, just look in the mirror and see what everyone else sees ..... A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN !!!

You may find bumps in the road along the journey of life but that's all they are, just hurdles to jump over !!! And you can jump high !!!

Hang in there GF you can beat this, tomorrow is another day !!!

HUGS !!!

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FRANNIEDID 2/27/2014 4:44PM

    I am so sorry you had such a bad day. I wish I know how to make it better, but the best I can do is let you know that I have had such days too and this like all things will pass. I do so hope tomorrow is better.

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GLC2009 2/27/2014 3:08PM

    well, i hope things do get better. and i hope the world doesn't actually swallow you up emoticon emoticon

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Atkins - Month 1

Saturday, February 08, 2014

Obviously, the Atkins is doing the trick! One month in and I'm just shy of 20 pounds down from the end of last year. My waist has shrunk 2 inches. My old jeans were so baggy that they were falling off. The belt I had been wearing was down 4 notches, and I didn't have much further to reel it in. So I scrounged in the back of the closet and found an old pair of jeans that I fit back into. They're women's jeans, which are generally too high-waisted for me. I basically have no waist to speak of (only about 1 1/2") so the waistband is pretty much on my last floating rib. But I'm wearing them again after, hmmm, at least six years. If not more. So I'm cautiously optimistic.

We're using the Atkins products - the meals, the shakes and the bars. Yep, I know that it's all processed. But it fits our lifestyle and keeps the "MUST HAVE SOMETHING SWEET" monster at bay. We're still in the induction phase. Really low carb count. But it's working. It's coming off quicker for me than for my Beloved. But we can see the results, so we're sticking to it.

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ACIMPEGGY 2/10/2014 7:29PM

    I have considered a modification of this. I have a couple of the entrees in my frig to take to work for lunch. I could do high protein/low carb, but not extremely like the Stillman's diet I used to do.

I have read that very low carbs any 3 days of the week and not bingeging the other days is good for (ahem) cancer.

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CLOUD_MCBRIDE 2/8/2014 7:47PM

    Thank you all for your support and encouragement. It really helps to keep me motivated.

Debigene: I think we'll stay on this program for the long run. Gradually we'll start upping the carb intake to a maintenance level... where you're not losing, but you're not gaining either. So that means we'll be able to have pasta on occasion, or perhaps a little (brown) rice, or potato. That's what we're both craving the most. But it's quite clear that my body was made for times of famine. It stores away carbs as fat the way squirrels hoard nuts. But this is the only thing that's ever helped me chuck the weight after consistently gaining ever since college.

I go back in to the doctor in May. I can't WAIT to see his face! Of course, I may have to go back in earlier to have my meds readjusted due to the weight change...

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EXOTEC 2/8/2014 1:19PM

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Wonderful start! And you're right: for many, a low/restricted-carb lifestyle is the only thing that's helped them. It's not just the weight loss... that's a "side effect" of the overall health you'll be discovering soon.

you're right also - anyone who starts a new dietary plan and then abandons it isn't likely to see any advantage. Would you expect that of ANY diet? Why would the expectation be any different for this one? People say this about Atkins, et al, all the time... but it never seems to raise a thought outside of those parameters. It's a mystery to me!

Anyway, what a great find for you in your new lifestyle. I think you'll be finding more and more ways to sing its praises!
Welcome to the LC life!


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WOUBBIE 2/8/2014 10:41AM

    Good going!

Atkins is a great lifesaver. You'll probably find over the course of a few weeks that your sense of taste will change and you'll be satisfied with a bit less "sweet" than before. That would be a good opportunity to taper off the bars especially. I use them myself occasionally (I get the cheap ALDI brand), especially when I have to go grocery shopping on short notice - keeps the impulse purchases down. But I learned the hard way to NEVER have more than one per day! Let's just say that my intestinal bacteria threw one heck of a party with the sugar alcohols I threw down there!!

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DEBIGENE 2/8/2014 9:52AM

    Good for you for finding what works for you !!! There is lots to be said for that. Just a question tho' because I don't know ... is this a diet or something that you will be able to live on??? Or perhaps you want a plan that will provide rapid loss for you for an intended purpose, or a good quick start to get your motivation going ? I am not being judgmental i hope you understand ... I am just curious really. I know many people that have chosen the Adkins plan and have had great success to only gain it back when they ended it. My guess is that they never followed thru' with the guidelines if it is meant to be a lifestyle change and none of them really wanted to talk about it when the weight starting coming back on.

I encourage everyone to do what works for them so I don't want you to misunderstand my questioning or feel offended. The written word can be so misunderstood since tone is not heard and only imagined by the reader.

I want to congratulate you on your commitment and success and am glad to have you as a SP friend to share our journey together. It's always so good to have the support of those with the same goals in mind.

Have a wonderful fun filled weekend friend.

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TWESTEN1 2/8/2014 9:49AM

    Good for you! I've been doing Atkins since September and it is the only thing that works for me :) So glad that you & your hubby are both seeing results... funny though, it's usually quicker for the men - you got lucky!!!

Keep up the great work!

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Another Lesson Learned

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

I've been doing the Atkins diet routine for 13 days now. Yes, yes, I know. Diets don't work. But the thing is that my doctor really needs my weight down sooner rather than later and the nutritionist said cut down the carbs until I start losing. I seem to be one of those lucky folks whose metabolism is made to store anything carb for the coming apocalypse... even if there isn't one. So, no matter what you may think of it, Atkins seems to be working for me at the moment. Once I get closer to a healthier weight, I'll find out where my carb set point is and go back to a more normal eating pattern.

But tonight, tonight I was about willing to sell my soul for something bad for me. I would have traded my virtue for a Kolache or a Krispy Creme doughnut. Fortunately, I'd picked up a box of the Atkins Double Chocolate Caramel bars as a treat, and my Beloved talked me down off the ledge and pried the car keys away from me with one hand while giving me a bar with the other. OH MY, it was wonderful! It was like something sinful and forbidden... And I completely disregarded what my diet mentor had told me about not listening to my stomach for at least 20 minutes after I've eaten.

Nope. My taste buds won and I lunged after another bar. It was just as marvelous as the first. Then suddenly... my stomach caught up with me. The Full ding that I'd failed to hear in my craving-mad lust jacked the signal to 12 and now I feel as if I'm going to pop.

Yep. The bars are tiny. And once upon a time I could have powered through all five bars in the box without pausing and still looked around for something more. But apparently my stomach IS shrinking. And two over-did it. I'm down 15 pounds, but my brain still seems to think like a fatter woman. However, this is one lesson learned. Ooff.

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EXOTEC 1/22/2014 1:10PM

    Good job - and to your husband too! - for finding a way to avert your craving. I agree about the bars causing stalls for some of us... but it's far preferable to what you WANTED to do! lol

You're right: "diets" don't work. Changing the way you interact with food, forever, WILL. Your doctor is right. Let him/her help you! Nevermind all the mythinformation circulating about low-carb. It's based in fear and dogma, not science.

Please do research the good science behind the reduced-carb lifestyle. There's no reason to be thinking, "I'll go back to a more 'normal' eating pattern." This isn't abnormal. It may be different from your previous dietary habits, but that's *better*, isn't it? didn't those other habits get you here, where you don't want to be? And isn't the new plan helping you accomplish what you do want? I see no good excuse for abandoning a successful plan!

I'm sorry you're feeling the full brunt of your indulgence... but we all go there. The good lesson in it is that now you have a memory other than tasty sweets to call up the next time you're tempted. Remember how yucky this feels! It will help future cravings. Honest. I know about that, too!

Congrats on your weight loss so far! Good job.


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DEBIGENE 1/22/2014 11:52AM

    FANTASTIC !!! I love that you have found what works for you. Continue doing what the you dr recommends he's the one that knows !!! You are doing a terrific job and I would bet you will be at your goal before you know it.

SPARK ON my friend !!!

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WOUBBIE 1/22/2014 11:01AM

    Stop and think about this - if low carb makes you lose weight and normalizes your health markers, then for you this IS normal. And Atkins DOES tell you to increase your carb levels by 5g a day every week until you stop losing, and then go back down to the previous level.

"Kolache or a Krispy Creme doughnut"? Think you have a problem with carb cravings? Hmmm.

Beware the Atkins bars and shakes! They're there for you for exactly what you used them for, but more than one a day will both stall your weight loss and make you gassy and miserable.

Hopefully you've read one of the Atkins books. You can usually borrow them from your local library or find them at a second hand bookstore. If you need some info quick I usually recommend for a pretty comprehensive free resource:


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NANCYPAT1 1/22/2014 8:16AM

    Everyone has to make their own decisions about what works for THEM - glad you were able to put the brakes on before you REALLY indulged in all 5 bars.

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Back to the Grind

Thursday, January 09, 2014

Well, the holidays are behind us. They're always such a mixed bag for me, as I lost both parents over this period of time. So it's bittersweet. I'm a big Christmas junky and love decorating, but I miss being able to decorate with my Dad. Or cook with my Mom. But I soldered through. I dropped off SparkPeople for a bit because it was just too much of a time sink along with everything else. But this doesn't mean that it's been for naught. I'm down nearly eight pounds, despite the holiday temptations AND being taught to finally make a good apple pie from scratch.

This time I'm bringing my Beloved along on the crusade to lose weight. Though I doubt she'll be online here. It's all too "fiddly" for her. But at least I'm not doing it all by myself. So this morning we weighed ourselves, took our blood sugars and our blood pressures, and we're off to the races again. Hopefully we'll make a dent in our weight loss goals this year.

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DEBIGENE 1/9/2014 8:11PM

    WOW that's just great !!! Your weight loss and having your partner to take part in it with you !!! I bet you will both find it a lot easier than going it alone !!! Do you know SP has a tracker that you can do your measurements as well. You might want to consider that as well to watch your progress in inches too.

BRAVO on the apple pie as well !!!

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Brrrrrr... Mercy me.

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Well, my nostalgia for winter weather obviously was heard on high. Our normally balmy Texas temperatures have plummeted. It got to a whopping 43 F today and is supposed to labor up to 39 F tomorrow and Monday. Brisk! But I LOVE it!

I dug into the back of my closet and unearthed my old sweaters and turtlenecks. To my great delight I can still wear them, though one or two seem a wee bit too snug for modesty's sake. So even though I gained back the five pounds I had lost prior to my wedding, my body seems to have started to re-proportion itself since I've made an attempt to be more active daily.

My goal for the next month and a half is to hold the line on my weight. No additional weight gain, and maybe chipping away at the five pounds that returned on vacation. I accept the fact that there will be tempting things until the new year. But I resolve to taste only a little and NOT pig out. And in between temptation, I shall walk. Yes, indeed. It is brisk and lovely. And I shall walk while it seems like winter in Texas.

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DEBIGENE 11/24/2013 9:54AM

    I am so glad that you are enjoying the chill to the air and finding ways to enjoy it as well. I love your attitude about your small weight gain and your determination to hold it at bay through the holiday season. Stay positive and hang in there, you can do it staying strong together !!!

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SEVERINA418 11/24/2013 4:49AM

    It sure is frigid here in Ohio, as well! It's a pleasant find to locate stashed sweaters and turtlenecks in this wintery fall!

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DESERTDREAMERS 11/24/2013 3:37AM

    Our weather in Albuquerque radically changed the last few days - from pleasant highs near 60, to highs below 40. Brrr - snowing & blowing

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MCJULIEO 11/24/2013 12:25AM

    Winter in our part of Texas is usually quite pleasant (but this cold rain is not very appealing I have to admit) ... I AM looking forward to wearing some sweaters put away since last year!

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