Friday, January 24, 2014
Since restarting this journey, Iím really feel like Iím making progress. Since 12/31/13, Iíve lost 5.9 lbs according to my home (Weight Watchers) scale. Most importantly, Iím feeling better both mentally and physically. I donít have that stuffed feeling as much and I have more energy. There are still many days that I do not want to exercise, but most of the time, Iím forcing myself. Thatís much easier when I have energy.
During my second week, I did gain .2 lbs. I had worked out every day and I donít know if I was retaining water. This past week, I lost 3.2 lbs, so things leveled out. Iím so proud that I didnít throw in the towel. I do know itís going to be a challenge for me to stay motivated, but I HAVE to persevere! Giving up is not an option!
I have joined a thread on the Weight Watchers site that is reviewing the Beck Diet Solution book. Iíve read parts of this book, but this discussion has really opened my eyes to things that didnít soak in when I first read the book. Today, we are starting our response cards listing the 3 reasons why we want to lose weight. My reasons are:
I want to feel better, both mentally and physically.
I want to look better in my clothes.
I want to cut my medication in half or eliminate it all together.
When asked which one is most important to me, my answer is:
I want to feel better, both mentally and physically. When I feel good, I feel more like taking the steps needed to get healthy. I plan my meals, exercise and do things for myself. When I donít feel good, Iím basically a slob! I want to do nothing and that is not good for my physical or mental health.
My biggest concern now is I joined the At Work Weight Watchers program and we had our first meeting yesterday and weighed in. Their scale is 3 lbs higher than the one I have at home. Itís discouraging because I had already met my first milestone in losing 5 lbs and now Iím going to be set back. Next week I will voice my concern to the leaders, but if I want to make it to goal with them, I have to go by their scale. Also, I wonder if their scale is calibrated correctly since it is being transported each week and also the scale is placed on carpet and Iíve always heard that it should be on a solid surface. When I weighed in yesterday, the scale kept moving even when I was completely still and not breathing! Just sayinÖÖ..
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Yesterday I got on the scale and Iím so ashamed of what I saw, 215.6. It really hurts to write that number down, but it hurts even more that I have let myself get in this shape. I know what I need to do to lose weight and Iíve done it before. Five years ago, I lost 50 lbs the right way, eating healthy and exercising. Then, I was diagnosed with high blood pressure and Hashimotoís Thyroiditis. It became very difficult to lose weight until I got my meds stabilized. Once my blood pressure was good, I began having all the symptoms and challenges of a thyroid disease, no energy, lack of sleep, hair coming out to only mention a few.
I finally got my thyroid medication stabilized (so I thought) and I started exercising again and eating healthy. As in the past, instead of losing weight, I gained! Iíve tried so many things and I still gain weight. BUT, as I lost my motivation, I stopped exercising and started eating pretty much what I wanted. I still gravitate to the healthy foods (I just like those foods), but I do love cheeseburgers and fries. Well, I had too many of them and too many beers.
Therefore, I have to admit that although my thyroid disease is making it very challenging for me to lose weight, I havenít stayed the course and done my part. (Boy, that was hard to say, but it is the truth!) I feel like Iím saying the same thing over and over by stating that this year is going to be the year that I get healthy; this time Iím going to lose the weight and keep it off; etcÖ.. Instead of saying these things this new year, Iím only going to say that Iím going to do everything in my power to feel better. When youíre sick, you go to the doctor. In a sense, Iím sick. Iím sick of feeling tired all the time. Iím sick of feeling bloated all the time. Iím sick of not being able to move the way I want to. Iím sick of being ashamed of myself.
So, there you have it! In order for me to make progress, I have to be honest with myself. Just like an alcoholic, you canít help them until they want to help themselves. I guess Iím sorta like that, I have to want to do better. Iím there now, and I truly want to get better.
Happy New Year!
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
"Give without remembering and always receive without forgetting."
I'll be sure to keep this in mind during the holiday season!
Friday, November 08, 2013
Today, Iím feeling in a blah mood. Nothing is really wrong, Iím just ready for some true Fall weather. I want overcast, very cool weather and the opportunity to curl up with a good book in front of a fireplace. Unfortunately, I live in Florida where itís sunny today with a high of 76 today. Currently, itís 68 degrees outside. Thatís the best I can hope for.
Maybe I can put some dark curtains over the windows and turn down the a/c.
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