Thursday, July 25, 2013
Staled out a bit, but I am back with a vengeance!!! I gained back 6lbs and have already lost 4lbs of it. I am back committed to counting calories and walking everyday.
It's weird to me, even know I have restarted a thousand times, this is the first restart after losing a considerable (to me) amount of weight. When I lost my way, I was down 30lbs. I have never lost that amount before and never thought I would be at the point to restart after losing. I always was trying, never really believing it would work for me.
I was always a bit envious of people who posted that they were restarting after losing weight, before I lost my 30lbs. In my mind, I thought "Why did you stop? Don't you know how hard this is, so if you figured it out, why did you mess it up?" and "If I ever get to that point, I won't stop until it's all gone!". I realize now that I was naive to think that.
Even if you figure it out for a little while, it is so easy to lose track and then life takes over, before you know it, 6 months has past and you don't want to step on the scale and see what you allowed to happen to your hard work.
Lately I have been filled with shame for quitting on myself and denial about my actions or lack of action. Finally I stepped on the scale, saw my 6lbs (and this is where things really changed in my mind) and realized 6lbs is manageable, I can take off that. I have before and much more. I just had to remember, exercise and counting calories works.
I feel bad about silently judging other people about quitting, I realize now that it was just my anger and shame at myself for not being able to accomplish what they had. I wish I would have believed that I could at those moments. When you start this journey and your number is really big, it's hard to believe you will take off 100+ pounds. so if you are reading this and have a big number (or small), believe in yourself, you too will get there! Just remember it's a day to day struggle, no matter where you are at in the journey.
Have a great journey everyone!!
Monday, December 03, 2012
I went down another jean size!!! I haven't been doing the best lately, so when I grabbed a pair of jeans a size lower, I didn't think they would actually fit, but low and behold, they are on! I bought them on the spot.
Kinda tight, but they button, that's all that matters! Here's to another size down!
Saturday, July 28, 2012
So, it was hot and I was getting bored with walking a few weeks ago, so I decided to look into gyms. I knew that I was going to sign up, come winter time, but needed to change things up now, so I started looking earlier then expected.
Some of the things I wanted in a gym: later hours, training, lots of cardio, cheap price, friends
We have some really good gyms within 2 miles of my house. 4 total, plus a YMCA. I knew about them all. First one was Fitworks. I was a member 5 years ago. It is what you expect a big gym to be like in a suburban neighborhood. Like a Bally's. I wasn't won over. I wanted something new. Something fun. Second and third were basic gyms, nothing fancy. Fourth was Fitness 19, the newer gym in town. Everyone was signing up there, but I didn't love it. It was "eh". I would go, but wouldn't be driven to go there. The Y was to expensive in my neighborhood. I didn't want to work out with a bunch of suburban soccer mom's and exercise junkie guys. I wanted somewhere I fit in. None of the places called to me. Then I posted about it on Facebook. Casually asking where people liked to go. One of my friends posted about a new gym, Planet fitness.
I decided to read up about it. It was a little farther away then I would have normally looked (about 7 miles). It has tons of cardio, trainers work on the floor and help everyone. I read about the package, 20/month gets me gym and access to tanning beds, water massage beds and a red light therapy bed. They are open late. I also get a guest pass every single day to bring a friend. They are all about acceptance and no judgement. I went for a site tour of the property. The second I walked in I felt home. I knew it was the gym for me. It has a purple/yellow color scheme, so it is comforting walking right in the door. It has statements all over the walls about "judgement free zone" and "you are in the right place". There are all sorts of rules about not being able to work out in just sports bras and cut up shirts. I signed up that day and never looked back.
I love it. I am feeling stronger and even looking tanner. I feel soo perfect there. I have always felt out of place at other gyms. Like "what is the fat girl doing in a gym? Doesn't she know she's fat and this is for skinny people?" Not here. I am right where I am suppose to be. The people at the desk are great. The people who work out there are shaped like me! I bring a guest every time I go. They love it too. Two of my cousins signed up there. My brother goes with me all the time. The machines are great. New and fun. It has been about 3 weeks and I am still going strong. I am wearing my Planet Fitness shirt right now, just came home from doing some cardio.
This year has been filled with moments that I really think have put me on the right track in life. This is one of them. I guess I am now a gym girl. Who knew that would ever happen, not me! That still sounds weird to me!
Off to the movies! Have a great weekend everyone!
Monday, July 23, 2012
I need to write my goals down and be able to see them.
10,000 Steps a day
Smaller, healthier meals (2,000 calories a day or less)
Gym 5x week
Walking 2x week
Not weighing in for 2 weeks (the numbers drive me crazy, need to focus on being healthy, not a number goal)
Staying on track
Sign up for another walk/race
Doing my c25k program
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