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My reflection after restarting!

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Staled out a bit, but I am back with a vengeance!!! I gained back 6lbs and have already lost 4lbs of it. I am back committed to counting calories and walking everyday.

It's weird to me, even know I have restarted a thousand times, this is the first restart after losing a considerable (to me) amount of weight. When I lost my way, I was down 30lbs. I have never lost that amount before and never thought I would be at the point to restart after losing. I always was trying, never really believing it would work for me.

I was always a bit envious of people who posted that they were restarting after losing weight, before I lost my 30lbs. In my mind, I thought "Why did you stop? Don't you know how hard this is, so if you figured it out, why did you mess it up?" and "If I ever get to that point, I won't stop until it's all gone!". I realize now that I was naive to think that.

Even if you figure it out for a little while, it is so easy to lose track and then life takes over, before you know it, 6 months has past and you don't want to step on the scale and see what you allowed to happen to your hard work.

Lately I have been filled with shame for quitting on myself and denial about my actions or lack of action. Finally I stepped on the scale, saw my 6lbs (and this is where things really changed in my mind) and realized 6lbs is manageable, I can take off that. I have before and much more. I just had to remember, exercise and counting calories works.

I feel bad about silently judging other people about quitting, I realize now that it was just my anger and shame at myself for not being able to accomplish what they had. I wish I would have believed that I could at those moments. When you start this journey and your number is really big, it's hard to believe you will take off 100+ pounds. so if you are reading this and have a big number (or small), believe in yourself, you too will get there! Just remember it's a day to day struggle, no matter where you are at in the journey.

Have a great journey everyone!!

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ROCKMAN6797 8/3/2013 5:41PM

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SWEETSOUNDS11 7/25/2013 6:57PM

    Knowledge and quitting have very little to do with it. Life is the main factor and our abilities to put ourselves first, even ahead of our problems. Talk about a paradox! Great job on the 4 down. You got this!

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AXTCANGEL 7/25/2013 6:45PM

    Don't be too hard on yourself! This is hard and nobody really knows how hard a situation is until they've been there! Good for you for starting again and rocking it out! Keep up the amazing work and take it day by day!

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SHARONCAPPS 7/25/2013 6:39PM

  Thank you for posting this. It is so true. Never give up even if you slip. Just dust yourself off and get back at it. One day at a time.

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Things to accomplish in the upcoming year.

Tuesday, January 01, 2013

So here are my goals for the upcoming year.

1. Jog 10k in the Cleveland Marathon in May.

2. Go down 2 clothes sizes.

That's it.

I don't want to make a bunch of lofty goals that fail a week from now. I am just focusing on moving in the right direction. I am also focusing on getting to the gym regularly.

In 2012, I lost 30 pounds, 3 sizes. Not as much as I would like to, but moving in the right direction.

Good luck everyone else on their goals!

Together we can do it!
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CLEBLOOM 7/25/2013 7:56PM

    Thanks everyone!!!

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AXTCANGEL 2/4/2013 2:41PM

    You are kicking butt, girl! Keep up the amazing work!!!!!

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ROCKMAN6797 1/4/2013 8:23AM

    Good job in 2012 and best of luck in reaching your 2013 goals!

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New Jeans!

Monday, December 03, 2012

Exciting Announcement!

I went down another jean size!!! I haven't been doing the best lately, so when I grabbed a pair of jeans a size lower, I didn't think they would actually fit, but low and behold, they are on! I bought them on the spot.

Kinda tight, but they button, that's all that matters! Here's to another size down! emoticon

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ROCKMAN6797 12/5/2012 11:47AM


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NIKKICOLE83 12/3/2012 11:50AM

    That just gives you something to work towards - fitting comfortably in them- and is a great way to monitor your progress other than the scale. Congrats!

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TXTOAD9970 12/3/2012 11:28AM

    Congratulations! emoticon

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KJSIZZLE1 12/3/2012 11:27AM

    That has to be one of the BEST feelings in the world! Good for you! emoticon

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My Gym!

Saturday, July 28, 2012

So, it was hot and I was getting bored with walking a few weeks ago, so I decided to look into gyms. I knew that I was going to sign up, come winter time, but needed to change things up now, so I started looking earlier then expected.

Some of the things I wanted in a gym: later hours, training, lots of cardio, cheap price, friends

We have some really good gyms within 2 miles of my house. 4 total, plus a YMCA. I knew about them all. First one was Fitworks. I was a member 5 years ago. It is what you expect a big gym to be like in a suburban neighborhood. Like a Bally's. I wasn't won over. I wanted something new. Something fun. Second and third were basic gyms, nothing fancy. Fourth was Fitness 19, the newer gym in town. Everyone was signing up there, but I didn't love it. It was "eh". I would go, but wouldn't be driven to go there. The Y was to expensive in my neighborhood. I didn't want to work out with a bunch of suburban soccer mom's and exercise junkie guys. I wanted somewhere I fit in. None of the places called to me. Then I posted about it on Facebook. Casually asking where people liked to go. One of my friends posted about a new gym, Planet fitness.

I decided to read up about it. It was a little farther away then I would have normally looked (about 7 miles). It has tons of cardio, trainers work on the floor and help everyone. I read about the package, 20/month gets me gym and access to tanning beds, water massage beds and a red light therapy bed. They are open late. I also get a guest pass every single day to bring a friend. They are all about acceptance and no judgement. I went for a site tour of the property. The second I walked in I felt home. I knew it was the gym for me. It has a purple/yellow color scheme, so it is comforting walking right in the door. It has statements all over the walls about "judgement free zone" and "you are in the right place". There are all sorts of rules about not being able to work out in just sports bras and cut up shirts. I signed up that day and never looked back.

I love it. I am feeling stronger and even looking tanner. I feel soo perfect there. I have always felt out of place at other gyms. Like "what is the fat girl doing in a gym? Doesn't she know she's fat and this is for skinny people?" Not here. I am right where I am suppose to be. The people at the desk are great. The people who work out there are shaped like me! I bring a guest every time I go. They love it too. Two of my cousins signed up there. My brother goes with me all the time. The machines are great. New and fun. It has been about 3 weeks and I am still going strong. I am wearing my Planet Fitness shirt right now, just came home from doing some cardio.

This year has been filled with moments that I really think have put me on the right track in life. This is one of them. I guess I am now a gym girl. Who knew that would ever happen, not me! That still sounds weird to me!

Off to the movies! Have a great weekend everyone!

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ROCKMAN6797 7/29/2012 6:55PM

    Sounds like a perfect gym, nice!

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GUITARWOMAN 7/28/2012 8:51PM

    Sounds like a great gym...kind of the same attitude as Sparkpeople!


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Some Goals

Monday, July 23, 2012

I need to write my goals down and be able to see them.

10,000 Steps a day
Smaller, healthier meals (2,000 calories a day or less)
Gym 5x week
Walking 2x week
Not weighing in for 2 weeks (the numbers drive me crazy, need to focus on being healthy, not a number goal)
Staying on track
Being healthy
Sign up for another walk/race
Doing my c25k program

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DOVE1010 7/24/2012 9:57PM

    I have a few goals of my own that I have written down for the next few months. You can do it - Just stick to it. emoticon

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CLEBLOOM 7/23/2012 10:48PM

    Thanks Guys!


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MUSICNERD1993 7/23/2012 1:04PM

    These sound like good goals!

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GUITARWOMAN 7/23/2012 1:01PM

    Great goals, very operational and attainable!

The scale is not much of a friend to me, but these days we are in a daily relationship!

It varies.


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