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Discovered Very Motivational Song - You Gotta Want It!

Saturday, February 05, 2011

I discovered a very motivational song that says it all about what it takes to achieve your dreams! The song is by Roberta Gold. I couldn't find the lyrics for the song anywhere. So I listened to the song many times and wrote them down. Here is a link to the song on YouTube: www.youtube.com/watch?v=v5Vp57T8eMI

Here are the lyrics:

You Gotta Want It
By Roberta Gold

Flame is the fire that fuels the dream
That powers the engine that turns the world
Passion is lightning that creates a spark
That lives in the heart of a boy and girl

Everyone tries in their own way
Everyone lives for a dream
The stars in the heavens can tell you
To believe is a powerful thing

You've gotta want it from the bottom of your heart
You've gotta give it everything you've got
You've gotta live it and never let it go
Feel it so completely,
Body, mind and soul.

Faith is the candle that burns inside
It stands all alone in the face of the wind
Love has the power to harness the stars
And take us to places we’ve never been

Everyone walks through the fire
Everyone lives for a dream
With all that you’ve got is desire
To believe is a powerful thing, Yeah

You've gotta want it from the bottom of your heart,
You've gotta give it everything you've got,
You've gotta live it and never let it go
Feel it so completely,
Body, mind and soul

You've gotta want it from the bottom of your heart,
You've gotta give it everything you've got, Yeah
You've gotta live it and never let it go,
Feel it so completely,
Faith is the fire in my soul

You’ve got to believe in yourself
Believe in yourself
Faith is the
Faith is the
Faith is the fire in my soul

You've gotta want it from the bottom of your heart,
You've gotta give it everything you've got
You've gotta live it and never let it go
Feel it so completely
Body, mind and soul

You've gotta want it from the bottom of your heart,
You've gotta give it everything you got, Yeah
You've gotta live it and never let it go
Live it so completely
Faith is the fire in my soul

  
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PAULAAUTUMN 4/30/2013 2:57AM

    Love the song I will save it thank you for sharing it. emoticon

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LEAN-N-LEXY 2/6/2011 11:34AM

    Great song, Classy! Thank you for sharing it.

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    emoticon emoticonThanks for sharing.

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SENATOR9 2/5/2011 8:55AM

    Great song thanks emoticon

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CIVIAV 2/5/2011 8:49AM

    Love it and your way of thinking!

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CLASSY76 2/5/2011 5:51AM

    By the way, it is cheaper to buy it from Amazon than iTunes and I know that is the full version.

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Wearing a Pedometer From Morning Until Night

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Wearing a pedometer is a great way to measure your day to day activity. It gives you credit for day to day activities that normally aren't measured such as parking farther away, walking from the bus stop to your office, walking on the job, taking the stairs instead of the elevator, walking around the house, mowing the lawn, walking from store to store in the mall or within a store such as Walmart, etc. I've been wearing a pedometer from morning until night since October, 2001. I was forced to wear it daily for the first 4 months because I was part of dairy diet research study where they wanted to track that. I have been wearing it daily ever since. I feel lost without it.

When wearing a pedometer, it is important that you wear it so it is vertical. If your belly forces it to roll to a horizontal position, you won't get accurate step counts. It is also important that it be worn parallel to the floor and not angled on the side of a pocket. Usually, they recommend you wear it on a belt but I don't wear a belt. If my pants have a coin pocket, I attach it to that because that is the least likely to be affected by the roll. If my pants don't have a coin pocket, I attach it to my waist band or I attach it to the lower section of the pocket parallel to the floor. If I am wearing a skirt or dress, I attach the pedometer to my underwear, slip or pantyhose. It is best to be located midway between your belly button and side of your hip.

I have worn a pedometer on both my left and right side simultaneously to determine the accuracy of various brands of pedometers. I have discovered that more steps are recorded on your dominant side no matter what brand of pedometer you use. For example, I am right handed. When I wear a pedometer on my right hip, I get more step counts than if I wear it on my left hip. I think that is because you lead off with that foot. When reaching, sometimes you only use that foot. Also, I think you start and end walking sequences with that foot. So if you are going to wear a pedometer to measure all your activity, I recommend you wear it on your dominant side.

I have recorded the steps daily in some fashion ever since I started wearing a pedometer. At first, I did it through an online website where I tracked that along with my food diary and exercise minutes which were then submitted through a checklist to a doctor weekly. bettermd.net/ More recently, for the past 2 years, I have been tracking it using an Excel spreadsheet daily. I average the counts monthly which can be correlated to my weight, exercise minutes and other factors to determine trends.

When I was working, I got a lot more steps due to an active job. I averaged about 9,000 steps per day then. In 2003, I went on disability and my steps decreased drastically averaging around 1500 steps per day but some days had as little as 300 steps per day. I was working on increasing that steadily and was up to 8,000 steps per day average in May, 2009. Then I injured my back. My step counts dropped to 3,000 steps per day average. Currently, my counts are averaging around 5,000 steps per day. What matters most is not the actual number of steps but that you are showing progressive relative improvement in your step counts and daily activity.

When using a pedometer, the distance measured is totally dependent on how accurately you have your stride set. The distance isn't 100 percent accurate because your stride varies based on what type of activity you are doing. For example, if you are going on a walk for exercise, your stride is most likely longer than the stride length you use when walking around the house or doing housework.

The Yamax SW-200 pedometer has been used in the step studies where they recommend getting 10,000 steps per day. It is one of the most accurate pedometers. I used the Yamax SW-651 for years which is similar to the SW-200 except with more features. The SW-200 only counts steps. The SW-651 counts steps, tracks distance, has a stopwatch and clock. I use the stopwatch frequently to measure the amount of time I am exercising. I loved the SW-651 pedometer except for one frustration. The plastic clip that attaches it to your clothes broke several times which resulted a need to replace the entire pedometer. I now see they sell a back clip repair kit which is much cheaper than replacing the entire pedometer. stepintohealth.stores.yahoo.net/swse
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The last time I went to replace the pedometer, I bought both the Yamax SW-651 and the Yamax CW-701. The CW-701 doesn't have a stopwatch and I wanted the stopwatch feature. I now wear the SW-651 at the gym while I exercise so I can time my sessions. I wear the CW-701 on my street clothes for my daily activity.

The Yamax CW-701 has a metal clip to attach to your clothes. The CW-701 has a step counter, distance tracker, clock, calories burned and activity timer. The CW series is supposed to be even more accurate than the SW series. It also has a 7 day memory and a 2 week cumulative memory. The CW series resets itself at midnight every night. Resetting itself at midnight is good and bad. If you don't go to bed before midnight, the steps taken after midnight (from the previous day) are counted on the next day's step counts. But it also prevents the problem of forgetting to reset the pedometer at the end of the day. The 7 day memory is handy because you can wait to record the step counts to the most convenient time rather than being forced to do it every night before you go to bed. It also is interesting to see how many cumulative steps you have in the current week and previous week. In the end, cumulative steps is what matters the most. stepintohealth.stores.yahoo.net/cwse
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In order to calculate calories burned, you must enter your weight. I set my weight when I first got the pedometer and never changed it. I don't believe calories burned is accurate because I think calories burned is determined more by the type of activity you are doing than by the amount of steps taken.

Also, I don't think the activity timer really measures anything relevant. For example, yesterday I didn't do any intentional exercise yet the activity timer shows 18 minutes. Also, when doing strength training, you don't get many steps but you can be exercising for a significant length of time. The activity timer would not pick that up. I believe setting a stopwatch such as on the SW-651 is more accurate measure of intentional exercise minutes.

I purchase my Yamax pedometers online from Step Into Health.
stepintohealth.stores.yahoo.net/ If you would rather purchase by mail order, they have a form which you can print out to do so. I don't know of anyone else who sells Yamax pedometers. Step Into Health has very reasonable, speedy shipping. I've always used the cheapest shipping, first class mail, and never had a problem. They give quantity discounts if you want to order 2 or 10 at a time rather than just one. I highly recommend purchasing the safety strap for $2. I would have lost my pedometers numerous times without the safety strap. I don't know how often, I have discovered my pedometer dangling by the leash.

If you want another way to track your success and get credit for being active, I recommend you get a pedometer. Put it on when you get up in the morning and don't take it off until you go to bed at night.

  
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BIGT_56 11/30/2010 3:35AM

    I faithfully wore my Omron pedometer until it broke. I tried to get at least 10,000 steps a day. That was about the time I moved to Ohio due to a transfer in my job. I was stressed out and didn't purchase another one. I was going to get myself one for Christmas. I will look into this brand and do a little comparative shopping. I have a desk job now and don't get near the oportunity to walk, but I need to start building up again.

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CLASSY76 11/29/2010 11:43PM

    I know some people say they attach their pedometer to their shoe strings. I'm not sure how that would work with the ones I use because I've never tried it.

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SYLVIALYNN2 11/29/2010 9:57PM

    Thanks for the good information about pedometers. As I was reading, I was wondering, Why can't they come up with a pedometer that attaches on your ankle like an anklet or expandable watch band?

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BEESPARKLE 10/16/2010 11:00AM

    Thanks for the info. Great info for us.

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LSCHULER72 4/21/2010 2:50PM

    Thanks for the information! I've been looking for a different one lately.

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AMBUDMAN 4/18/2010 11:26AM

    Lots of good information, thank you. I have been using the Omron pedometer but think I am going to get one of these.

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FLAME42 4/18/2010 8:24AM

    I have been wearing my pedometer all day now for 57 days. It does make you want to push yourself for extra steps in a day. My lowest daily step count was 7,137 on Feb. 28, my highest daily step count was 20,293 on April 16,2010. I have the opportunity to use time for purposeful walking, and enjoy it also. I find it helps my back problem once I get started in the morning. Thanks for the info on pedometers.

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JCMYEREZ 4/18/2010 4:28AM

    So do my wife and I!!!

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Depression?

Monday, October 26, 2009

As I was reading posts on one my threads today, I realized that maybe I am suffering some depression. I'm not doing things that I normally would do when I am feeling well. I haven't been crying the last couple of weeks and that is why I didn't connect what was happening to depression. For those that don't know me, I am disabled by bipolar disorder. So this is not your mere garden variety blues. This is more insidious. There are many things when taken individually seem minor but when taken in combination signal a major warning sign.

I thought I had been handling the whole deal of leaving the Humane Society a couple of weeks ago fairly well lately. Maybe I am not handling it as well as I thought. That was the start of not doing what I normally do to manage my weight loss program.

I have kept my food diaries faithfully on paper if not in my Palm or iPhone everyday without missing a day since December, 2005. The last week, it has been a real chore. I haven't even entered what I ate last night. Let alone, what I ate today yet. The farther away from when I ate the more likely that what I record will be inaccurate.

Another sign may be that I have not been posting faithfully on the sites I use for support for my weight loss program, Spark People and Richard Simmons Clubhouse. It seems so difficult right now. I get overwhelmed by all the reading I need to do to just catch up. I know most people on those sites would tell me to not worry about catching up and just post. But I feel so guilty not personalizing my posts. On Richard Simmons site, I haven't read his daily message or Richardgrams in weeks. I used to do that faithfully and would even go back into the archives to read the messages and Richardgrams that I missed while on vacation.

I really used the Spark People site faithfully since joining in August. Looking at my Spark Streaks, the changes are obvious. I logged in to the site everyday since joining, 73 straight days, missing for the first time on Oct. 23 and 24. I really was focused on getting as many Spark Points as possible. The last couple of weeks, I don't really care how many Spark Points I get. The last couple of weeks, all I was doing was spinning the login wheel, answering the trivia questions, recording my food and exercise. I was not reading the articles like I had been doing. With the trivia questions, I usually was in the upper 80% range and in the top 20 people for the month. Needless to say I didn't do those on the days I didn't log into the site. Today when I finally tried to answer them. It took 9 questions to get my 3 daily trivia questions right, 33%, the worst I have ever done. I drank 8 cups of water for 30 straight days ending on Oct. 10. Now it is sporadic whether I get them in or not. In fact, I have had the water in my glass to make it 8 glasses for the day and dumped it into the sink rather than drinking it because I just don't feel like drinking it. At the same time, I stopped tracking how much sleep I was getting. In the last 2 weeks, I have only wrote in my journal 3 times and those were very brief.

Lately, I have been only exercising for 20 minutes one day a week which is usually walking slowly. I'm starting to think that maybe I am using the herniated disk in my back as an excuse not to exercise. I have even been in the parking lot of the YMCA, got out of the car, decided that I shouldn't exercise because I may get hurt or hurt more later, got back in the car and went home without exercising. I don't think the pain is as bad as I want people to believe. I am supposed to be going for an epidural injection into the disk in a week but I am not sure it is bad enough to really be having that done. I may not even be able to tell the difference. I've even considered canceling the appointment. Or is the pain not that bad because I am not exercising like I was? Prior to injuring my back, I would spend an hour or two at the YMCA exercising or I would spend at least 30 minutes walking, doing the elliptical or an exercise video at home. I did some form of exercise every single day.

Another thing that is weighing on my mind heavily is the change in my health insurance starting in January. The company I retired from decided to stop offering health insurance to me and wants me to fully be on Medicare since I am disabled. I don't know if the medical insurance will be better or worse than what I currently have. I also don't know how well it will cover my mental health since Medicare's mental health coverage is not as good as its medical coverage. One thing I do know is that my therapist who I've been with for almost 8 years is not covered by Medicare at all due to her degree. That means that I will need to switch to a different therapist. If I get good enough mental health coverage, I may be able to attend a therapy group which is run by both my therapist and a therapist covered by Medicare. The group would be billed through the therapist that is covered.

Tuesday, when I have my therapy appointment, I may need to discuss what I have mentioned in this blog. Maybe together we can develop an action plan to help me overcome this depression and get back on track with my weight loss program.

  
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CLASSY76 10/28/2009 6:15AM

    Patsdiary,

My therapist told me which therapists at her office were covered by Medicare. I think I will be going to the other one who runs the group. I can't ask at the HR department of my employer because they closed the local plant. But they have hired a service to help us choose the best Medicare supplement and Part D programs for me. I have my interview with them on Nov. 12. My therapist believes I am grieving right now and am being way too hard on myself.



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PATSDIARY 10/27/2009 2:41PM

    I hope your discussion with your therapist went well. Of course with my WebMD degree (LOL) I would agree that it is depression - and why wouldn't it be with all the changes going on in your life. That said, I know that you are getting the help you need from your therapist, and he/she can help you go get to someone that will take medicare or the supplemental. Look at as many supplemental plans as you can find, and evaluate them carefully. If you are not comfortable with this, perhaps the HR dept of your old employer can help you sort through them.

Good Luck, and I hope you feel like yourself again soon!

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CLASSY76 10/26/2009 8:09PM

    IM4KINGDOM,

I do have hypothyroidism that they are having trouble controlling. My T3 levels are low even when I am on huge doses of thyroid medication while my TSH is low and my T4 is high. I've been told that is unusual. I have an appointment to see an endocrinologist about it Nov. 10. I've been waiting over 3 months for that appointment.

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IM4KINGDOM 10/26/2009 6:19PM

    I'm so glad to see all of the support you're getting! There is so much good advice flowing your way... Really I have nothing more to add except that I would definitely check into the Medicare Advantage plans. I had no idea how well they work. Some of them are better than insurance and not that expensive either. Some friends of mine have insurance that says (as they explained to me) they can use any doctor in their state. And it comes with lots of other perks too. Theirs is through Blue Cross.

Really it is bad, bad timing for you because as was said earlier when under depression you can't think clearly and it is hard to make big decisions. It is worth it though to get on the right one from the start. Something else to watch for is your thyroid levels. Depression can be a side effect of that too. As you can see we are all here backing you up...
Hang in there...

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CLASSY76 10/26/2009 2:28PM

    Thanks for the support!

For those that mentioned lack of structure in my day, that certainly may be my problem. I used to volunteer there 2 days a week in the afternoon, Thursday and Friday. Also due to my back injury, my doctor recommended I quit bowling due to it's explosive nature which was Tuesday evening and Wednesday morning. That all happened since mid-September. I immediately replaced volunteering at the Humane Society with volunteering at a free health clinic for low income people without insurance Friday afternoons. But that leaves 3 days a week that don't have the structure I have had since going on medical retirement.

When I was in day treatment right before I went on medical retirement in 2003 right before I went on medical retirement, they really worked with me on developing structure in my day after I retired. Working at another job is not a possibility. A condition of my total permanent disability retirement was making no earned income. I can't even volunteer at polls on election days because I would get a W2 form. That is why I give my time away through volunteering. On top of that wouldn't accept all the work time I would miss through therapy and doctor appointments.

As far as the health insurance goes, it is not a condition of retirement. They reserved the right to change or eliminate it at anytime. On top of that, the company recently went through bankruptcy which allowed them to change all programs they once offered. They not only took health insurance from people who are disabled on Medicare, they took it away from those who are over 65 and on Medicare. They still offer health insurance to retirees not on Medicare whether they are disabled or not. They provide free lawyers to try to get all their permanently disabled employees on Social Security Disability so they don't have to pay the full retirement (and now health insurance.). They reduce the amount of your pension by the amount of Social Security Disability therefore not getting any more than you would if you would have retired normally.

I doubt my therapist would be covered by a Medicare Advantage or Medigap plan because she is not a Medicare provider. Hopefully t
whichever program I choose to supplement my Medicare will cover mental health as well as medical as long as they are Medicare providers.

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LEAN-N-LEXY 10/26/2009 9:46AM

    Yes, Becky it sounds like depression has cycled back up/out of control for you. Perhaps the stresses around your leaving the Humane Society and shift in routine triggered it.

Seeing your therapist soon and reviewing all these concerns and overwhelm-ments is a great plan. Can your company force you to buy Medicare B and get off their retiree insurance program? You may want to get some legal advice on that one. It seems to me that if the retiree program is there and you can afford to pay your portion, you should continue to be able to buy it. Of course, a lot of companies are stiffing their retirees on insurance promises these days, but if it's because you're disabled... it might be a legal thing that they may not be allowed to do if they're not ditching all their retirees. You are right, Medicare mental health coverage stinks because the federal government doesn't have to follow reciprocity laws that private insurance does.

You can also find some decent Medicare Advantage plans (private insurance that adminsters your Medicare for your Medicare premium) that may approve your therapist.

As for your pain -- depression numbs. You may feel less pain right now because of the overall dulling that occurs during a depressive episode. Don't cancel that epidural injection. You made the decision for that treatment when you were in your "right mind" and when you could adequately access your pain.

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DIVALICIOUS7 10/26/2009 9:14AM

    You are overwhelmed right now!! Please don't dwell on the past -be it either what you've done or not done. deal with today only - baby steps baby steps. Tomorrow will be here soon enough - but you can't live in your future - it's not here yet.

Have a long talk w/your therapist - but don't cram too much into the session - - only what can be dealt with at that time Good luck stay in touch Claire emoticon

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JAZZIELORI 10/26/2009 8:20AM

    WOW! I saw your need help on one of my teams so I came to your SPage and saw that you have done very well for your health..losing that much weight without surgery is an accomplishment! I think you do have alot on your plate and talking with your therapist is a great idea..maybe even going in with a list might help..gets things out of your head and onto paper..take each day one at a time..good luck on your journey!
Lori

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BEAMISH7 10/26/2009 7:29AM

    I'm guessing that when you left the Humane Society you also left behind the things that structured your day. When I took early retirement I lost two months of pretty much doing nothing because I need external structure in my life. (So I found a different great job). Try setting up a schedule although if this is depression you might find that hard to do. Also, you may be still grieving the loss of the HS in your life.

Why not call your doctor now and check on your meds. If your eating or sleep havbits have changed, you are feeling hopeless along with the lack of concentrtion you mentioned it might be worth the call.

Good luck to you. Peggy
(and Kat, I have to disagree with you on this one - depression is most often a chemical imbalance and choices and follow-through are impossible when under its cloud.

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FITKAT2010 10/26/2009 6:47AM

    We all suffer from different forms of depression. Yes, some more than others. It's part of the choices we make moment to moment.

I would recommend that you utilize Spark every single day in every single way. Also, exercise at least 60 minutes per day in one way or another. And, of course eat whole foods and stay away from any sodas and artificially sweetened "food" items and drinks.



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The Aftermath: Follow-up To Fighting For The Animals

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I finished the letter to the board of directors about the situation at the Humane Society. In it, I described all the things I had been doing for the Humane Society the last 5 years including those that many people were not even aware I was doing as well as all the concerns regarding the care of the animals and management of the organization. Yesterday, I made a few changes to the letter based on suggestions several people made. My therapist, one of the people who reviewed my letter, said that I had real skill at putting things in a sequential order and stating the situation in an objective way. My letters were mailed to each board member today. My friend who quit at the same time has also written letters to the board and mailed them yesterday.

I have discussed the situation with others who may also write letters to the board, newspaper and TV stations. Some of the people this has been discussed with are directors of non-profit organizations themselves who can't believe the lack of skill set the director has. Several individuals have voiced opinions in the newspaper's Sound Off column which is anonymous. I may follow through with the suggestion of sending a copy of the letter to the city manager to put a little more pressure on the board. Another individual and her vet are planning to contact the Humane Services Agent for the state.

The fear is that the board is too mesmerized by this director and will not react or even discuss the letters. They may not even read the letters. They hired her so they may not want to admit they made a mistake. If they don't react, the animals will pay the price and the organization may deteriorate to the point of no return. I would hate to see that happen to an organization that I once loved so dearly. But it is a distinct possibility at this point.

  
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EILEENNP 10/15/2009 11:12AM

    I doubt that everyone on the Board will ignore the letters. Sending a copy to your local newspaper is the best way to have other individuals join the band wagon. Good luck!

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KKKAREN 10/15/2009 10:55AM

    Good for you fighting the good fight. Don't give up and soom you may be the director.

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BEXIP1 10/15/2009 5:59AM

    The way you portray everything in your blogs is fantastic. If you letters are anything like your blogs - the board will HAVE to take notice, whether you go to the media or not. Best of luck.

Keep smiling :-)

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THENEWJOSIE2 10/15/2009 5:39AM

    Good for you !! Way to stick up for what you believe!! It sounds to me like there are enough people willing to try to make this horrible situation better that the board will have no choice but to admit they've made a mistake in their choice of director and act!! I know it may be hard to do but I sure hope you and the others will continue this fight until the animals are put back as the main concern!! Good luck!!!



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Fighting For The Animals

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Since I am disabled, I volunteer regularly at several organizations instead of working. One of those organizations that I volunteer at is the local Humane Society. I did that 4 hours a day, twice a week for the past 5 years. I socialized the cats while I was there as well as assisted people with selecting and adopting a cat. In addition, I volunteered at outings regularly.

Since a new director arrived there in March, things have deteriorated greatly. She is very controlling and more of micro-manager than I have ever seen. They were allowing cats health to deteriorate. Some things that were occurring could have even been considered inhumane. Volunteers were no longer respected like they once were. In fact, they were treated poorly. Acting as adoption counselors was virtually eliminated. And that is what I found the most joy in. I had other duties there that gave me even more responsibility than many other volunteers. Those activities were curtailed at the detriment to the animals.

Thursday, I was in the process of doing one of my other duties which is crucial for the advertisement of the cats to the general public. When I went to find out the status of some cats I couldn't locate in the shelter, I was treated rudely and yelled at by the customer service staff. I was not given the information I needed. If the customer service staff treats me that way, you can imagine that they aren't that helpful to the customers either.

Friday, I decided I could no longer tolerate being in such a hostile environment. It was one of the hardest decisions I've ever made. I went into the director with a friend and we informed her that we could no longer bear to witness what was happening at the shelter and her behavior. She displayed very little emotion. What she did display was an indifferent attitude with a few smiles and chuckles showing her amusement at what was happening. She appeared to be thinking, "Whatever." When you are losing two of your most vital volunteers to a non-profit organization, you would think someone would be a little upset about the whole deal. Shouldn't you rethink what is happening as an organization, especially with one of the people being a major donor to the organization and losing that donation?

I'm very upset about the decision to leave there. But I am not going to miss the staff who treated me with disrespect. I am going to miss the cats. They will be hurt by me leaving. They will not get taken out on a regular basis or be given toys to stimulate them in the cages. I won't be there to fight for their cause. That makes me really sad.

This has really impacted my food plan the last couple of days. I am stress eating. I am making conscious decisions to overeat. Why am I doing this? It isn't helping the cats! Exercising probably would help relieve some of my stress. But the most I can do right now is walk slowly for about 20 minutes due to a back injury. So exercising the stress away is not an option. My weight is already starting to reflect my poor eating.

Hopefully, writing a letter to the board of directors will help in relieving some of the stress and get my eating back on track. That is all I can do to fight for the animals now. Hopefully the board will decide to act rather than to continue to defend the poor policies of the director.

  
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CLASSY76 10/20/2009 11:28PM

    Thanks for all your supportive comments. I sent the letter to the board of directors about a week ago and have received no response even though I provided both my address and phone number in the letter.

As far as filling my time, on one of the days I volunteered at the Humane Society, I have now offered to volunteer at Health Net, a free community clinic for low income people without insurance. In addition I am continuing to volunteer at the domestic abuse shelter and hospital.

There aren't any other rescues or shelters for cats located in town that I am aware. At least, none are listed on Petfinder. There is a woman who is considering starting a local rescue for dogs and possibly cats and rabbits. A couple of people who were previously involved with the Humane Society are meeting with her next week. Since the Humane Society is no longer fostering cats, there is a whole bunch of foster homes looking to foster cats in the area. Since the volunteer coordinator that was recently fired from the Humane Society also ran the foster program, she has the list of all those foster homes. (The volunteer coordinator was fired because she went to the board of directors with the problems.) I have offered to maintain Petfinder for the rescue as well as help in other ways. We will see what comes of that.

Becky

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YORKIERESCUE 10/20/2009 10:01PM

    Oh Becky, I am so sad to read this - I know how much you both put in and got out of working there. How I wish I had a volunteer who gave so much of her time and care over the 21 years I ran my Yorkie Rescue.

Let me know what reaction you get to your letter to the Board of Directors.

This will leave a big void in your life, but food is not the thing to replace it as you already know. Do you have any other rescue centres near you? It is important to have somewhere where your skills can be utilised, your time spent fruitfully and more important where YOU feel VALUED. You have so much to give.

Finding another outlet for your love of animals, utilising the skills you have would, I'm sure, go a big way to relieving the stress AND restore your sense of self-worth, but you also need to know that your self-worth doesn't depend on what you do, but who you are.

Please know that your support of others here on Spark is greatly valued, and once again thank you - I really appreciated your kindness during wee Talitha's illness and subsequent death.

Love from Cas, Tommy and new addition Tychalyna. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EILEENNP 10/14/2009 7:52PM

    It's shocking that a volunteer for a HUMANE society should be treated disrespectfully. We have volunteers where I work and I wouldn't dream of treating them any differently than a regular employee. I'm sorry that the kitties won't have your tender, loving care but eventually you'll be unable to provide that as you would become unhappier in your surroundings. A letter to the Board of Directors sounds like a great idea. Good luck to getting back on track. emoticon

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POMLADY1 10/14/2009 3:47PM

    I'm sorry for your stress over want is happening at the shelter. Most shelters realize people like you are the backbone that keeps them going. I know around here they are very happy to have loving, caring people help with the animals. It sounds like they no longer care if the cats will get adopted and that is sad. I'll pray your letter is a wake-up call about what is going on. Maybe a few more people could also right letters to re-enforce your points.
Hugs to you and hope your eating gets back on track.

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LADYIRISH317 10/11/2009 1:22PM

    You're much better out of there, painful as leaving was.

If the animals are being allowed to suffer bad health, I agree with the others that some letters to the SPCA or city government may be in order.

I hope you find something you love just as much to take its place.

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JODY-S. 10/11/2009 1:22PM

    Becky, what can I say that the others haven't already said? All I can do is echo their sentiments. I am so sorry to read of your ordeal. Hopefully, the letter writing will help to not only relieve you of some of your stress, but also help make some changes for the better at the Humane Society. Rosewood 332 made some excellent suggestions. Good luck on your quest and know that your Spark Family support you all the way.

emoticon, Jody

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ROSEWOOD332 10/11/2009 10:25AM

  After this stressful experience, taking positive action should help. Writing to the board is a great idea. Because this is a public organization, you might also write to the mayor, the local and national SPCA, and to the editor of your local paper. Meanwhile, I am sure there are private animal shelters or groups that would appreciate your experience. Good luck. Keep us advised!

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THENEWJOSIE2 10/11/2009 7:17AM

    Becky so sorry to read that you're going through this difficult and stressful time!! The organization and the cats most of all have lost a great caring person!! I hope for the cats sake the board takes a long hard look at the letter you write!!

Take a deep breath, relax, deep breath, relax.....

Have a great day! emoticon

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FLASUN 10/11/2009 6:57AM

    Becky, What an amazing article to read, you are so wonderful for helping out those cats, and to be treated this way is really weird. I'm glad to hear you are writing the letter to the board of directors, they need to know how you were treated and what is going on at this facility. Those poor little animals. What a shame. Hoping you will get over the stress this has put on you. emoticon Janice

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ELLENE1955 10/11/2009 6:42AM

    I am so sorry to hear that you were treated so badly, after giving so much of your time and love to the animals. You will certainly be missed by the cats, and the people looking to adopt them. Sounds like the new director doesn't have a heart for this type of work.

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