Thursday, February 23, 2012
But, that's ok. I made it 3 1/2 days which is better than what I've been doing! Just gotta reset the clock. I caved at the grocery store - sigh - but even then I bought wwwaaayyy less junk. Every time I passed something and my hand reached out I said, "Stop that, Claire, you can do this!". It was hard but I did it until I got to their made in the store stuff and I bought a container of tapioca pudding. So, that's not TOO bad.
Today, I spent several hours on the phone talking to my daughter about the things that need to be done to prepare for her handfasting ceremony in June and figuring out a way to do them with a zero budget. Gonna be a yard event; potluck. She is a very accomplished designing and making clothes so she is doing her dress, her daughter's dress, her 'husband"'s shirt and a matching one for his 'best man'. Also, tablecloths and napkins. Fabric flowers and centerpieces. (She has enough fabric to cloth a small city! just waiting to be used.)
She thought of a GREAT idea for a guest book. When it's done, there will be a picture of them in the middle (5x7 or 8x10) with a wide matting around it in a nice frame. Ok, so at the event, set up the matting so people sign IT when they arrive. When she's done, she'll have her wedding picture along with all the guests signatures on the wall. Much better than a few pages buried in the wedding mementos box. She's so creative.
Tomorrow, I'm going to walk around my block again. I've only done it once and I did much better than I thought I would. It took me an hour and was about 2 1/2 miles. Go Claire!
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Ive been a sugar hound my entire life - let me wash down some trans fat with my Mtn Dew. It is a real an addiction as cigarettes. I kicked those about 4 years ago with Chantix.
I stopped all sugar awhile back when I was diagnosed with kidney disease. I probably went 6 months with zero sugared foods. My kidney function improved and I fell off the wagon. And once I started I made up for lost time! I'm due to see my kidney doc next month and I cringe thinking about her lecture!
I'm starting over again and like any good addiction, it's screaming at me. Posting my daily progress will help keep me on the straight and narrow. Tomorrow I need to go grocery shopping and it's going to be very difficult but I CAN DO IT!
Friday, February 17, 2012
I've been walking but haven't done well updating my fitness tracker, though. Anyway, one of my goals has been to walk 5,000 steps a day which I know is nothing much. However, since I'm home most of the time I only get about 2,000 in my regular day. Yesterday was a busy day with other stuff and it was dark before I knew it. So after my husband went to bed I started walking laps through my house. I looked and felt stupid walking as fast as I could in circles, but it got the job done!
I've got one exercise tape, but I don't really have any place around the TV big enough for me not to worry about running into furniture, so I haven't bought any more. I've got a WII Fitness Plus, but I don't like it too much. The balance exercises are good, but running in place and hoola hooping just aren't my cup of tea. Sooo, I'm thinking about buying a treadmill. Gosh, I hate to spend that money but I know I would use it. When I went to the gym regularly, I enjoyed my time on one, though. My second bedroom is empty so I can set it up there. Would need to buy another TV and DVR player so I could do fitness tapes, too.
I've set up a long weekend trip for me and my DH in a few weeks. As always, my step son will be staying at the house while we are away to take care of the cats. He enjoys having the place all to himself (he lives with his mom in a small place) for a few days. We don't have anything in particular planned - just some time away from looking at these 4 walls.
My DH has several health issues that recently have all been needing attention: COPD, GERD, uncontrolled hypertension, and now his ParaThyroid Hormone levels are out of wack. The doc said one side of his thyroid is swollen and sent him him to an endocrinologist for a consult. That doc send him for an ultrasound, which he had yesterday. That side hurt when the tech ran the ultrasound wand thingy over it. The doc also drew 12 - 12! - vials of blood for a bunch of tests. He's measuring all DH's hormones and several different calcium tests. Scary stuff. He's see the guy again in a few weeks.
Meanwhile, his blood pressure continues to swing from 90/60 (which is the low threshold the doc gave us for going to the emergency room) to 180/125. Meanwhile, his insurance formulary changed and they won't pay for Nexium or Benecar anymore. They are forcing him to change a blood pressure med in the middle of all this. He's dying in there one heart beat at a time. He is at least 30 lbs over weight, too. I've tried every way I can think of to get him to walk with me, to be an exercise buddy, but I'm getting nowhere. I'm now in the guilt phase. I've taken to asking him, "Do you want to go for a walk with me?" and when he says "no" I say, "you know you're killing yourself, don't you? What's going to happen to me when you die?" and then I go out the door for my walk.
Just like quitting smoking, change can't happen until the person is self-motivated. I know the guilt thing is pretty much a waste of my time, but I can't help it, the words just fall out of my mouth. I know lots of you face this challenge, too, with a loved one. The internal wringing of the hands. Not much else we can do.
I just finished the laundry and this weekend I'm going to tackle all the bills and other paperwork that has collected over the past couple weeks. I don't even want to think about our bank account; I put a thousand dollars into my car this week and he spent a thousand dollars last week on dental work. And I'm thinking about buying a treadmill?? Maybe I'll have to think again.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
I opened my cupboard this morning to get my Cream of Wheat and realized that this cupboard used to be filled with crackers and cereals and chips and cookies and all that other dry wheat based stuff and now it's empty!
Saturday, February 11, 2012
While I haven't done well with planned exercise this week, I did meet my steps per day target just from zipping here and there. Later today, I'm gonna get a long walk in.
I'm still on a sugar binge. I haven't found the trigger that would give me strength. My weight continues to grow not shrink. I have one pair of pants that fit me and I refuse to buy any more size 14's. I have size 12's and 10's in my closet and I should be wearing them. I have health issues that make my sugar intake dangerous for me. I look at those Hostess Cupcakes (my most favorite food) and think, "This is destroying my kidneys and pushing me into diabetes and I don't care!" and shove them. I must change or die. Right now, dying is winning.
But, I'm gonna have a great time at the April Spark Rally before I go! I'm getting a lot of behind the scenes planning done. Yesterday, I went to the park where we are holding the event and got a lay of the land. Now, I have the info I need to plan where to put up the Sign In Here table, the food, etc. They weren't kidding when they said limited electrical outlets. There are 2 support poles that each have 2 outlets. We were thinking about using them for crockpots, but I'm not sure about that. The picnic tables are bolted to the cement floor and the outlets are at least 2 feet away. Of course, we can bring extension cords. But, I'm thinking (with kids around especially) there could be a whole lot of tripping going on and I don't want anyone doing a gainer into a brick pole, cement floor, or table. Blooded crockpot dinner doesn't sound yummy to me! So, I'm on hold for now about how best to use the electricity.
I took my Saturn Vue into the shop yesterday to have them look at its 5th door hydraulics. A couple of times, I've opened that back end and it's come right back down on my head. My car is 8 years old - it's at that stage where stuff just starts breaking down. I would love to get a new car but I can't justify it. I put less than 7,000 miles a year on it. Actually, even that's not true since I've made 2 trips to Michigan, too. It's 4T miles round trip, so my actual every day mileage is less than 5,900 miles a year. I don't work and I live within a couple miles of the Paradise Valley Mall so every kind of store, restaurant, or service business I could ever want is practically within walking distance. (I'm kinda reclusive, too.) Thus, it kills me to spend much money on maintenance. Even though I don't drive it much, I still have to do regular oil changes, etc. Sitting all the time is just as bad for a car as driving it into the ground. Anyway, these struts are gonna cost about $250. Grrr. The nice thing is it'll take more than a day so I got a rental vehicle until it's done! I ended up with an extended cab truck! Yikes. It doesn't fit into my garage. I don't have a driveway - the garage door is about 15' from the curb and my HOA doesn't allow cars on the streets overnight. Period. Luckily, one of the houses on the street is newly vacant, so I parked the truck there with a big note.
My husband's health continues to slowly deteriorate. If I could get him to exercise in any way at all, he would be better. While genetics has something to do with it, I'm sure, most of his difficulties are caused by stress. Especially scary is his uncontrolled blood pressure. It will swing from the 'if it gets this high go to ER' to 'if it gets this low go to ER' with no discernible pattern. Hypertension is a primary cause of kidney disease and his kidneys are starting to be effected. He has COPD. He has GERD. We also have the head of our bed raised several inches. He is 35 lbs overweight. He just got referred to an endocrinologist because his parathyroid readings were out of normal. He saw the doc yesterday who asked him to do a 24 hr urine catch and enough blood tests to drain DH dry! I guess there is a concern about his calcium levels. (did I mention how important calcium levels are to your kidneys???)
We are a pair.
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