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1st Month of 2012

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Well, the first month of 2012 is almost over. I have been trapped in my house for 8 days due to snow (no, they don't plow our roads here and it's a mess!). So I've had a lot of time for reflection. Also, because I've gone through all my food and I'm down to canned vegetables, I've realized that I really DO miss it when I don't eat well. I'm craving fresh salad, steamed veggies, some nice chicken breast, some tuna....maybe some avocado on whole wheat toast with tomato and fresh basil sprinkled with a teaspoon of olive oil... Anyway, I digress - I'm really going stir crazy! But it hasn't all been bad. This week has allowed me to break my habit of drinking 2 glasses (or more) of wine every night (because I don't have any!) and I've had to cut back on coffee to ration it out to last all week. Ok, one glass of wine and one cup of coffee a day are probably fine, but for the last few months I've been indulging quite a bit with those "pleasures." So this forced 8 day entrapment has allowed me to do a 'reset' back to zero.

I have fallen off the wagon with exercise, but I'm happy to say that I've gotten back to it since I've been trapped. It took a few days to get going, but I've done a little something for the last 4 days. I tried HIIT yesterday for the first time on my elliptical and discovered that I really like it! BUT I need to get a heart rate monitor to make sure I'm not going over my max heart rate. I realized that I think I was slacking on my elliptical and not working as hard as I should have.

Also, during this week I have come to the conclusion that I am responsible for my own emotional health and it doesn't do me any good to beat myself up for doing things wrong or to hate myself. Hating myself for being fat isn't going to help me solve the problem! I've decided to try and make myself understand that I really AM worth it. That underneath all of this fat is a loving, caring person who is deserving of all the good things life has to offer - even if I never lose the weight, I'm still that person and I need to treat myself that way.

So I suppose you can say that snow days might not be all bad after all if they help me get my head on straight! BUT, I am so ready to get the heck out of here!!!

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POLK-A-DOTS 1/23/2012 4:00PM

    I've been stuck right with you! I can't drive when it snows...so, I am totally dependant on rides to work, rides home, etc...ugh. I did trudge down to the store one day, to buy what??? Icecream. really?!

My zumba classes were cancelled for the week..which is okay, as I would have had to get a ride there as well...but I didn't get in any exercise, and I put on 2 lbs...the same 2 lbs that I lost the week before! Oh what a vicious cycle!

Have a great week!

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New Year, Lifestyle Changes

Friday, December 30, 2011

I just got back from a 2 week trip to NJ for the holidays and it was great being around family. However, that usually means lots of eating! I tried my best...I let them know before I went that I did not want to go to buffets (my parents love them but I never have). I limited the sugar (cookies, cake, etc) and ordered salad when I could. Before I left on my trip, I was back up to my starting weight of 318. I weighed this morning and I'm down 4 pounds! Not bad for being on vacation, eh? I'm not moving my weight-loss ticker until I get back down to where I was - below 308 - but I'm on the way back down thank goodness!

I was just thinking that New Year's Eve is tomorrow and that is usually when I make all kinds of goals and promises to myself that never come to fruition. So instead I've decided to focus on the lifestyle changes that I've already started - exercise, eating less sugar/bad carbs, and eating more veggies and less refined foods. I have made progress in all of these areas this past year so instead of setting any specific goals, my plan is to just continue what I've started. Sounds like a lot less stress to me!

However you are approaching the New Year, I wish you all the best and much success in 2012 and beyond!

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POLK-A-DOTS 1/1/2012 12:20PM

    Sounds to me like you have this down! Losing 4 lbs while on vacation is no easy feat! Keep up the great energy and you will be at your goal in no time!

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BHSKITTYKATT 1/1/2012 6:34AM

    Happy New Year! Sounds like you're on the right track emoticon

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Too fat for Wii Fit

Thursday, December 08, 2011

Ok, now I'm really depressed. Between Thanksgiving and my elliptical breaking, I'm afraid I've gained a little back, but I'm starting to get back on track. Tonight I decided to weigh my cat because she keeps begging for food and is driving me nuts and I was wondering if I was feeding her too little (I just switched her to soft food only). WiiFit has a function to weigh your pets...

You get on the scale and weigh, then you pick up your pet and weigh...and guess what? Between the two of us, we are too heavy for the Wii! We maxed it out. I guess that's the story of my life...too big for everything!

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BHSKITTYKATT 12/10/2011 11:05PM

    That sucks. Don't get discouraged, though. You'll lose the weight! Then when you can weigh your cat on the Wii Fit, you can have an excuse to reward yourself!

I don't like my Wii Fit. I don't think I've used it in over a year. I probably should use it more, though. I liked to use it for yoga.

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A notice to my fat

Sunday, October 30, 2011

A notice to my fat: your time is up! You're going down...well melting away. No, you're not going to go easy, but I am NOT giving up this time!

I just had to say that because I've been very discouraged this week. Today is day 15 since I set up my home gym and I have exercised every single freaking day (30 min or more...today an hour). I have kept calories under 1300 each of the 15 days. So? At my weight, how many pounds do you think I lost in the past 7 days? NONE - that's right! Nothing! I was actually losing before I started exercising so I don't know what is going on.

But I decided that right now exercise is more important than my feelings regarding not losing weight this past week. I know it is good my my heart and lots of other things...and I feel much better when I exercise. I figure eventually the fat has to go if I don't give up. But boy howdy is it hard knowing I'm doing everything right and not seeing results.

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KING_SLAYER 10/31/2011 3:29PM

    Keep working and making adjustments to your diet. You may be adding muscle due to your body being shocked by the exercising (if it is not something you would normally do). ERIKO is correct, you may need to up the calories a little to keep your body from thinking it is being starved, which will force it to shut down and hold onto what it can. It may take a little while to get it all figured out, but it will be worth it :) Here's a site with a BMR & RMR calculator to show how many calories your body burns in a day. it kind of explains itself once you start reading the info.


Best of luck to you!

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DAIZYSTARLITE 10/30/2011 4:07PM

    Keep up the good work... emoticon

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ERIKO1908 10/30/2011 3:41PM

    Good work on all the days of exercising!! As for why the lack of weightloss...perhaps it is that you aren't eating enough calories for all of the activity you are doing. It may seem strange, but you may need to eat more...if we don't put enough calories in our body holds onto what we do give it...

Good luck finding the equation that works for you. Keep up all of your hard work!!

Happy Sparking!!

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New Home Gym and Panic Attacks

Friday, October 21, 2011

I recently refinanced my house which gave me the opportunity to skip one mortgage payment. I thought hard about what I wanted to do with that money I wasn't expecting. Given that I hate the whole "gym" atmosphere here and that it rains here so much in the winter, I decided to set up a home gym in half of my two car garage. I love it! I had some good friends help me move a Precor elliptical given to me by someone at work...and I ordered a Body Solid weight machine. I already had the exercise bike and the punching bag. Oh and I did buy the little TV/DVD player for the wall for entertainment.

I was all ready to start using it last Sunday after set-up and then my health took a turn for the worse....long story but I haven't been feeling well since my trip to Hawaii. At first I was worried about a blood clot or something from the plane ride. I have no idea what's going on, but I panicked and then my blood pressure shot up to 160/90 (highest ever for me). I called my doctor and they didn't seem to be concerned so I just stayed home from work Monday and tried to calm down. The bp came back down somewhat but the other symptoms (heaviness in my back left shoulder) have remained. However, I did go down Monday and do a little exercise on the elliptical (7min).

I decided since I didn't keel over that I was going to try and "up" the time so Tue - Fri I did 15 min. All is well so next week I'm going to go up to 30 minutes with the goal of 45-1hour eventually.

I don't know what's going on with me and my physical isn't until Nov11, but I'm going to try not to get too stressed over it because I don't think getting stressed is helping. I know I probably have sleep apnea (another long story - the friend I went on the cruise with confronted me about it because I was snoring really loud). I can't tell you how upset that made me! I feel like such a failure!!! If I had taken this weight off years ago, I wouldn't be dealing with this right now. I feel like people will look at me and say, "Yup - we knew she was fat so she has to be really sick." And I think apnea certainly has that stigma. Oh well...I'll talk to my doc about it...I'd like to try and loose weight to correct that issue, but I don't know if I can lose weight fast enough.

And now it's time for work!

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WILDFIREKRISTIN 10/24/2011 11:24PM

    What a wonderful home gym! You sure are going to get lots of use for that and what an awesome investment in to your life! I am understand how you feel, but you are in no way failure! As you see the weight come off you will find that many health issues will ease away, including the anxiety and sleep apnea.

Wishing and praying for your health!



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CJT183 10/22/2011 11:35AM

    You're right of course...I was freaking out ;-) I actually ended up at my doctor yesterday because the back pressure seemed to be getting worse. For some reason, they overlook blood clots...I don't know why they don't think that's a possibility. I have horrible circulation (lots of yucky varicose veins) and had been on an airplane. But they still are just looking at cardiac - they did an EKG and nothing. Yes, my BP was high so I have been charged with getting it down on else, but they found nothing. So I came home still wondering if there was a blood clot that moved from my leg to my lungs after that trip. You may not be a doctor, but I'm going to take the aspirin....I have been anyway since I started having these symptoms. Thank you for helping me get my head back on straight!

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FREETHEGODDESS 10/22/2011 12:34AM

    You are being too hard on yourself girlfriend! Sleep Apnea affects many different types of people. My husband has it and he is a very fit, 175 pound firefighter! So don't be ashamed if you have it...just get help to control it. The up side is that if you have it and get it under control, you will feel much more rested each day because you will sleep better and that will make it easier to workout and to make good food choices.

Also, if you are worrying about a blood clot and don't want to see the doctor before your scheduled appt., check with your pharmacist about taking a children's aspirin each day. I am not a medical professional but, it may help thin your blood a little.

I LOOOOOVE the home gym you have!!! I am jealous! You are gonna rock this weight loss journey! WooHoo!!
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