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Tick, Tick, Tick

Saturday, February 08, 2014

Hello all.

Thank you so much for your replies to my last blog about whether I should have a ticker, and if so, what I should do with it. I appreciate all of the comments and the support!

It's taken me a while, but I finally came up with something. Since reaching a maintenance weight, I have felt very uncomfortable in my body. It has not felt like mine. I am bony in parts that I haven't seen bones in 40 years. I don't look like me ANYWHERE. I was feeling really down about this.

Until today.

I began strength training again today. And not only does my body look different than it did, it behaves differently as well.

It's better.

I thought skinny and bony would equal weak. I was wrong.

* Today, I was able to return to modified push-ups, after being compelled to do wall pushups for years because of a knee injury.

* Today, I was able to do many more lying adductions and lying abductions than previously.

* And today, I began my upper body workout with 8 lb weights instead of the usual 5 lb ones that I had been using.

It seems that my fat did not make me strong.

So, my new ticker now reflects my new positive outlook. And even though it is difficult to put into the little ticker space what my new ticker is recording, I am now keeping track of days that I think of a positive thing about my body that does not have anything to with appearance.

cj

  
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CATIATM 2/15/2014 11:15AM

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SNOWYOGA 2/10/2014 2:14PM

    I like the way your thinking, but want to go see it! Thanks and emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 2/10/2014 12:30PM

    WOW Ceej!! thats GREAT!!! someday i would like to know how boney feels...

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JUSTME29 2/10/2014 8:53AM

    That is a great ticker topic! Positivity is such a great focus!

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YENDUCHAKA 2/9/2014 8:51PM

    I love the results of your meeting your goals, and even more, I love your positive outlook!
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ANGELWENDYMAMA 2/9/2014 5:15AM

    Love it!

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_RAMONA 2/9/2014 12:28AM

    That is fantastic, Cj! I like the choice... I think it's a journey in and of itself... getting used to one
s own body at 'goal' weight. I'm glad you're enjoying the experience!

{{ HUGS }}
Ramona

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IRISHMUM3 2/8/2014 11:06PM

    Great job on changing to the positive and strength training!

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To Tick or Not to Tick ...

Sunday, January 12, 2014

So, now that I am, for all intents and purposes, at maintenance weight, I have a decision to make. Or rather, possibly two decisions, depending on the result of the first.

Shall I continue to have a "ticker" on my page?

If I choose yes, I need to decide what to place on it. Any ideas?

Should I count days maintained?

Fitness minutes?

Times I do something that I used to procrastinate?

What do you think?

cj



  
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NIGHTSKYSTAR 2/6/2014 3:08PM

    Ceej.....did you figure it out?

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 1/31/2014 9:51AM

    What did you decide?

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EBETH13 1/23/2014 10:23PM

    I Agree with Irishmum! Keep focused and keep track of the maintenance days and keep up with your food......just to keep focused.

CONGRATulations!!!!
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DISPATCH91 1/20/2014 6:28PM

    count where you struggle the most

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CATIATM 1/14/2014 10:36AM

    Oh, what a lovely problem to have! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 1/13/2014 9:38PM

    I would be so glad to get to that never (FOR ME) before seen goal weight i"d be cheering for every day i stayed there!! but who says you have to keep one thing? switch it as often as you please!
im so proud of you, my friend!!!

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SNOWYOGA 1/12/2014 8:48PM

    emoticon emoticon I'm not sure emoticon I'm thinking of a make over myself (on my page) Good luck and have a good week! emoticon emoticon

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DORIS39 1/12/2014 4:31PM

   

CONGRATULATIONS CJ...I WOULD COUNT DAYS MAINTAINED. I THINK IT IS HARDER TO MAINTAIN THAN EVEN LOSING WAS. IT'S A FEATHER IN YOUR CAP EVERY DAY YOU KEEP IT OFF.

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JUSTME29 1/12/2014 4:16PM

    I think fitness minutes could be pretty motivational.

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IRISHMUM3 1/12/2014 3:54PM

    Congratulations! I say go with days maintained. Also, set other goals to keep you focused?

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JCEDIT89 1/12/2014 11:36AM

    emoticon Congratulations CJ! I can't wait to be where you are at emoticon

I'd consider what other maintainers do here: how much over or under you are from your maintenance weight.

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_RAMONA 1/12/2014 8:28AM

    I'd do 'Times I do something that I used to procrastinate'... but I'd probably decide later, LOL!

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IMREITE 1/12/2014 2:20AM

    What is your next goal? of course reminder check-ins can help you stay at goal weight.

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"Goal" Weight? Or LIFE Weight?

Sunday, November 10, 2013

So, looking at my ticker, it seems that I am almost "there". Almost at "goal" weight. As my little running woman edges ever-closer to that "finish line" though, I pause and ponder ...

What is a "goal" weight?

Whenever I hear the word "goal" it sounds like an end to me. A dictionary definition might be: "the object of a person's ambition or effort; an aim or desired result."

Huh. Is me reaching a certain weight the object of my ambition and effort here?

Or is there more?

Yes, I began Sparkpeople (and more recently joined Overeaters Anonymous) to lose weight. No question there. Let's face it, I was close to 200 lbs, and firmly stationed in the "obese" range of the body mass index.

But these last few months as I have been learning more about myself, the more I realize that a number on the scale is not my main objective. I am not just changing my size or shape (although thankfully that has happened!); I am changing my LIFE.

So, if not a "goal weight", what, then, *is* my objective?

This may change as I continue to live at a healthy weight, but, for now, my objectives are:

(1) to learn how to tone this new body of mine. I am blessed to have the Sparkpeople site and community for this part - I know how to do this already.

(2) to continue to forge a healthy relationship with food. Learning to fuel my body with healthy foods for maximum performance and clear-headedness seems a much better goal than "should I be 140 or 135 lbs"?

I remind myself daily that the end of my ticker is not the end of my journey; it's a continuation.

What are YOUR objectives?

cj

  
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MAGGIGIRL 2/15/2014 2:30PM

    Awesome! I work out not because I want to be My goal weight! But because I want to have the keys to health and strength and let the world and my life in this body go well for Long!
Way too go on sticking with it,, SPARK ON!

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_RAMONA 1/12/2014 8:27AM

    GREAT blog, Cj, and Conratualtions!

While I need to lose the weight, 'goal' weight has never been my primary objective. I relly do believe that changing one's life is exactly HOW you get to goal weight and stay there.

I'm sure wherever this journey takes you, you will be amazing!

{{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}

Ps. Sorry I'm late to the party... rough Fall/early winter.



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MAGGIGIRL 1/5/2014 10:05PM

    Now you are cooking with GAS!!!

emoticon That is really cool what you have written here. I have attended O.A. myself. Still working out all the time.
I remember a voice saying in my head "If your God is so big why do you have to eat so much?"

Weight is lost in the balance of all parts of me Spiritual and emotional realm inclusive!



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NIGHTSKYSTAR 11/13/2013 12:12AM

    You rock, Ceej!! You really, truly, ROCK!!!

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IRISHMUM3 11/11/2013 12:32PM

    Thank you for sharing the wisdom you have gained. My goal is to feel comfortable in my own skin. That will require more than weight loss, and I am working on those other aspects.

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AMUNET_RA 11/11/2013 10:14AM

    Great observations and congratulations on being so close to your 'goal weight'. I think you've made the journey home now and you can begin your new life in your new body.

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BEHAPPY0201 11/11/2013 9:46AM

    My goal is to be at a weight where I can do this with my son and not feel embarrassed!

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CATIATM 11/10/2013 11:53PM

    It sounds like you're doing the mental preparation to ready yourself to maintain your GOAL weight for LIFE, Ceej. How exciting!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DORIS39 11/10/2013 11:46PM

    SO NICE TO SEE SOMEONE IS NEAR THEIR GOAL WEIGHT.

GOOD FOR YOU.

IT MUST BE A LIFE STYLE PLAN.

YOU SEEM TO HAVE THAT PLAN INGRAINED IN YOUR MIND NOW.

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SIXFULLERS 11/10/2013 3:05PM

    Very clear - and insightful. I believe learning about ourselves first helps us to continue moving forward in a positive way. :) WAY TO GO!

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JUSTME29 11/10/2013 2:17PM

    1. To get out of this rut I seem to find myself in and start making progress again.
2. To reach a healthy and maintainable weight
3. To build a healthier relationship with food and with myself.

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SMYLEERED 11/10/2013 2:16PM

    Weight is just a number and certainly not the end of the "life" journey. I made a mistake thinking that weight was all there was to every problem in my life. Wrong! Once I changed my thinking to include willingness to see my HP's goal for me instead of my own, that's when things changed for the better. My goal is to be willing to be abstinent, weight loss will follow. Good luck with your goals.
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I found it!

Saturday, June 01, 2013

The other night, I was changing for bed. I took off my blouse in the dim light (dh was already asleep), and wasn't sure what I was looking at. It then dawned on me - my WAIST!

It's back!

Oh, how I've missed it!

You see, I have always been bottom-heavy. Even on my wedding day, with all 125 lbs of me, my hips and bottom were disproportionately bigger than my upper half. But my waist has always been tiny in comparison (so have my breasts, but that's another blog).

Well, with 50 extra pounds on my frame, one of my favourite features was covered. In fat.

But not anymore, 10 lbs down, and it has started to re-assert itself. And with it, I've found my motivation again. It must have been hiding under that fat roll all along!

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Now, directly under my new-found smaller waist is a tummy roll of gigantic proportions, but I can only do this one day, one workout, one nutritional choice at a time.

Stay tuned, though, for an "I found my hip bones" blog!

cj

  
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SUNNYSEAS 6/9/2013 11:44PM

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 6/3/2013 9:18PM

    YAY CEEJ!!!! You rock!!!

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DISPATCHER04 6/2/2013 8:56AM

    Good job, CJ! Go with that motivation! :)

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4EVERNESS 6/1/2013 10:42PM

    Figures are very sneaky that way...How about we blame it on all those people saying "Go Figure"...we weren't supposed to take it literally? :)

(I had a rush today too....size 14 knock about jeans -i'm the one with no hips-i didn't have to undo the button or zipper to pull them off!!! yay)

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ANDYINBC 6/1/2013 7:42PM

    Fantastic!

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JUSTME29 6/1/2013 7:21PM

    That's really great!

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DORIS39 6/1/2013 3:28PM

   

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I VAGUELY RECALL THAT NARROWER CENTER OF MY FRAME, BUT IT WAS A LOOOOONG TIME AGO.

GOOD FOR YOU CJ, IT IS SO ENCOURAGING TO SEE A CHANGE. emoticon

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_RAMONA 6/1/2013 3:12PM

    Way to go, Gorgeous!!! WHOO HOO!

BTW, regarding body shape, I could so have written this blog, LOL! We are apparently cut from the same mold.

I, too, have always considered my waist my best feature (even if it does emphasize my butt... I'm not wide, I'm thick), and I really did miss it... it's great to have it back... and my hipbones! Just the other day I was standing with my hands on my hips, and it occured to me to wonder what was so hard under my hand... pelvic bone! I'd forgotten what that felt like.

The weird thing for me is that while the scale isn't moving at all, I still seem to be uncovering bones... and it cannot be all of the strength training I'm not doing, LOL!

Anyway, I'm so glad for you! You are so going to enjoy shopping for that wedding!

{{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}
Ramona

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JOANNHUNT 6/1/2013 2:49PM

    CONGRATULATIONS ON THE AWESOME DISCOVERY. GOOD LUCK ON YOUR JOURNEY.

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IRISHMUM3 6/1/2013 2:16PM

    CJ, that is awesome! Congrats on seeing your hard work starting to pay off. I, too, am looking forward to seeing my relatively small waist again someday. You have given me hope and motivation!

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SNOWYOGA 6/1/2013 2:14PM

    emoticon And emoticon Now can't wait for your next chapter emoticon emoticon Maybe I can bye that book?

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CATIATM 6/1/2013 2:07PM

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Competing with my Mom again!

Monday, March 25, 2013

Those of you familiar with my blog entries will know that my mother and I try to encourage and support each other in our healthy lifestyles. We also compete goodnaturedly against each other, too, when we need a little boost to our motivation.

Our last "competition" was two summers ago:
www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4358289


Unfortunately, we didn't end up doing very well that time. I don't know what got in the way of our success, but we are nevertheless giving it a "go" again this year.

A few weeks ago, we decided to see if we could get closer to our weightloss goals before my cousin's wedding coming up this July 25. In England. The thought of travelling all that way for a wedding and not looking my best in the photos taken was a great motivator for me!

So far, I have lost 5.6 lbs. My mom is doing well also.

We have 17 weeks left. I am aiming to lose 1-2 pounds a week to be about halfway, or a little better, on my way to goal by then. My mother, who has half as much to lose, is aiming for 1 pound a week to be almost at goal by then.

Wish us well!


cj

  
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MAGGIGIRL 4/4/2013 11:14PM

    GO GIRL!!!! Sorry Mom but I am so Cheering for my buddy!! Hey thanks again for sharing this site with me it is gr8!!! emoticon

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    You go, girls!!! emoticon emoticon

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NOLAZYBUTT110 3/30/2013 12:40PM

    Sorry to read you put all the weight back on, but I do know it gets harder after memopause. Dotn blame yourself! But I do find once the weather warms up, it gets easier to lsoe when your active. (I at least did not put on more than 5 pounds this past winter and I hope to lose it) But as you put it on, you should try and take it off the same way. Slowly! Going without food is a mistake for it can create some false notions that you lost, but the body has a memory and if you lose too fast you can go into a =starvation mode and the bdoy thinsk ots starving and you get whiplash and put weight on! That yoyo affects is due to that starvation mode so eat steady and less but dont stop eating and stay on the same clock time you normally eat ,lie every 4 hours and be consistant with that and you will find it will stay off better and longer. Its how I am going off. (I lost a total of 1 pounds sicne I first started to lose, but its been up one down one, and you can gain it all back if you try to lose too fast! Stay slow and steady. Try and drink more water and eat smaller meals but eat the same foods. I find that alone will help. Also cayenne pepper and ginger helps a lot, because the cayenne will help raise the metabolism levels, and burn off the calories. Ginger will help your body NOT absorb FAT! (and I eat a lot of fatty foods, like coconut and nuts! So I know it helps stop the absorbing of the fats! Or I would be 300 pounds by now! Try it! ) I would say Good luck, but losing weight is more than just Luck! Its hard work! Knowing about your own limits is to be wise when you eat! ! I Hope you can lose the weight the healthy way! TRy keeping a journal of what you eat. Seeing it helps! And dont forget to have a little treat now and then, because if your body feels starved and stifled in joy, you can end up binging and thats worst than having a small dessert (and I do have one everyday, but am slowly getting away from having as much as I used to, so i am losing! ) But being Happy and rejoicefull in eating better, keeping G*ds temple healthier is my goal! Try it! when you see and know that, it is easier to eat better and lose ! Dont give up! Say, "I can do ALL things thru Christ who strengthens me! " Susana emoticon

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CATIATM 3/28/2013 10:11PM

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SIXFULLERS 3/26/2013 1:13PM

    Keep up the great work! (what a great mom!)

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SLIMMERJESSE 3/26/2013 8:48AM

    What a wonderful relationship you have with your mom... lucky duck!

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IAM_HIS 3/26/2013 8:45AM

    Wow, that's great!! You are very blessed to have this kind of relationship. I am so happy for you both!

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DISPATCH91 3/26/2013 8:00AM

    woohoo way to go, can't wait to see the outfit you are going to the wedding in, you will look wonderful

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DISPATCHER04 3/26/2013 1:24AM

    How neat that you and your mother can do this together. :)

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 3/26/2013 1:07AM

    That's wondeeful!!! You can both do it!!!

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JUSTME29 3/25/2013 11:35PM

    Good luck to you both!

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CHRIS3874 3/25/2013 10:23PM

    Good Luck and HAPPY EASTER!!!

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DORIS39 3/25/2013 9:51PM

   
GOOD LUCK CJ....

A LITTLE FRIENDLY COMPETITION NEVER HURTS.

I'M SURE YOU CAN DO IT.



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SNOWYOGA 3/25/2013 9:12PM

    I love this idea, emoticon and thanks for (the other blogs) I'm also really glad that you and your mom are doing so well. Beat you can't wait for your trip and the new healthier you! emoticon emoticon

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JUNEAU2010 3/25/2013 9:07PM

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I love this blog! What a great reason to work on weight loss and how fabulous you can cheer each other on!

I'd give anything to have that kind of relationship with my mother.

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