Saturday, February 08, 2014
Thank you so much for your replies to my last blog about whether I should have a ticker, and if so, what I should do with it. I appreciate all of the comments and the support!
It's taken me a while, but I finally came up with something. Since reaching a maintenance weight, I have felt very uncomfortable in my body. It has not felt like mine. I am bony in parts that I haven't seen bones in 40 years. I don't look like me ANYWHERE. I was feeling really down about this.
I began strength training again today. And not only does my body look different than it did, it behaves differently as well.
I thought skinny and bony would equal weak. I was wrong.
* Today, I was able to return to modified push-ups, after being compelled to do wall pushups for years because of a knee injury.
* Today, I was able to do many more lying adductions and lying abductions than previously.
* And today, I began my upper body workout with 8 lb weights instead of the usual 5 lb ones that I had been using.
It seems that my fat did not make me strong.
So, my new ticker now reflects my new positive outlook. And even though it is difficult to put into the little ticker space what my new ticker is recording, I am now keeping track of days that I think of a positive thing about my body that does not have anything to with appearance.
Sunday, January 12, 2014
So, now that I am, for all intents and purposes, at maintenance weight, I have a decision to make. Or rather, possibly two decisions, depending on the result of the first.
Shall I continue to have a "ticker" on my page?
If I choose yes, I need to decide what to place on it. Any ideas?
Should I count days maintained?
Times I do something that I used to procrastinate?
What do you think?
Sunday, November 10, 2013
So, looking at my ticker, it seems that I am almost "there". Almost at "goal" weight. As my little running woman edges ever-closer to that "finish line" though, I pause and ponder ...
What is a "goal" weight?
Whenever I hear the word "goal" it sounds like an end to me. A dictionary definition might be: "the object of a person's ambition or effort; an aim or desired result."
Huh. Is me reaching a certain weight the object of my ambition and effort here?
Or is there more?
Yes, I began Sparkpeople (and more recently joined Overeaters Anonymous) to lose weight. No question there. Let's face it, I was close to 200 lbs, and firmly stationed in the "obese" range of the body mass index.
But these last few months as I have been learning more about myself, the more I realize that a number on the scale is not my main objective. I am not just changing my size or shape (although thankfully that has happened!); I am changing my LIFE.
So, if not a "goal weight", what, then, *is* my objective?
This may change as I continue to live at a healthy weight, but, for now, my objectives are:
(1) to learn how to tone this new body of mine. I am blessed to have the Sparkpeople site and community for this part - I know how to do this already.
(2) to continue to forge a healthy relationship with food. Learning to fuel my body with healthy foods for maximum performance and clear-headedness seems a much better goal than "should I be 140 or 135 lbs"?
I remind myself daily that the end of my ticker is not the end of my journey; it's a continuation.
What are YOUR objectives?
Saturday, June 01, 2013
The other night, I was changing for bed. I took off my blouse in the dim light (dh was already asleep), and wasn't sure what I was looking at. It then dawned on me - my WAIST!
Oh, how I've missed it!
You see, I have always been bottom-heavy. Even on my wedding day, with all 125 lbs of me, my hips and bottom were disproportionately bigger than my upper half. But my waist has always been tiny in comparison (so have my breasts, but that's another blog).
Well, with 50 extra pounds on my frame, one of my favourite features was covered. In fat.
But not anymore, 10 lbs down, and it has started to re-assert itself. And with it, I've found my motivation again. It must have been hiding under that fat roll all along!
Now, directly under my new-found smaller waist is a tummy roll of gigantic proportions, but I can only do this one day, one workout, one nutritional choice at a time.
Stay tuned, though, for an "I found my hip bones" blog!
Monday, March 25, 2013
Those of you familiar with my blog entries will know that my mother and I try to encourage and support each other in our healthy lifestyles. We also compete goodnaturedly against each other, too, when we need a little boost to our motivation.
Our last "competition" was two summers ago:
Unfortunately, we didn't end up doing very well that time. I don't know what got in the way of our success, but we are nevertheless giving it a "go" again this year.
A few weeks ago, we decided to see if we could get closer to our weightloss goals before my cousin's wedding coming up this July 25. In England. The thought of travelling all that way for a wedding and not looking my best in the photos taken was a great motivator for me!
So far, I have lost 5.6 lbs. My mom is doing well also.
We have 17 weeks left. I am aiming to lose 1-2 pounds a week to be about halfway, or a little better, on my way to goal by then. My mother, who has half as much to lose, is aiming for 1 pound a week to be almost at goal by then.
Wish us well!
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