Thursday, January 17, 2013
I just returned from a cruise and weathered Christmas with no excuses. 9 months ago, I just accepted that holidays meant weight gain but now, it's a fun excuse to buy new size 14 clothing and to put on my swimsuit.
I've had so much support from friends and family but there are those who just aren't happy about my changes. This weekend, I visited my sis in law for the first time since my diagnosis of diabetes that changed my life. I got out of the car and my bro in law was shocked...he hugged me and told me I looked fantastic. (From size 22 to 14 and from grey hair to red so the changes are pretty monumental) The neighbour was also outside and he also commented on how great I looked. I was excited to get inside to show my sis in law and I walked in the door with a huge smile to....crickets. Not a single comment about the changes. I was stunned. I didn't say anything for the first hour or so but then I asked what she thought of my new hair colour. "It looks good" was the reply.
After dinner, she offered me chocolates. I declined and noted she didn't seem happy.
My sis in law was a size zero. She had a quick metabolism and although she ate a lot of junk and large portions, she never gained a pound until menopause and then it caught up. She's still lovely but she's about a size...14. Her size seems to be I creasing as mine decreases and it seems to make her uncomfortable which is a shame.
Ah well, we can't change anyone but ourselves and I no longer let other people's opinion of me change my path :)
Also...I've begun to step down my insulin use.
My Endo advised me that if my BG is 5.5 or under before a meal, I'm not to take insulin. In 3 days, I've only had one shot. My numbers are so good that both my Endo and GP only need to see me twice a year and my Endo very sadly told me that if I continue like this, she won't need to see me at all.....I'll miss her :)
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Yesterday was my third Endo appointment and 4 1/2 months since my diagnosis of diabetes. Because my introduction to diabetes was such a dramatic one (70.7 mmol/l -1272.6 mg/dl) and according to the doctors during my five day hospital stay, a near-death one, I came home feeling very lucky and grateful to have survived what many do not. I was determined, for the first time in my life, to make diet and real exercise a priority.
Yesterday, I got to the office for my appointment and the doctor was delayed because she had a first time patient and she takes a lot of time with the newbies...she's a wonderful doctor. I didn't mind at all because there was an adorable one year old and his mom in the waiting room. We started talking because it turned out, we're both named Mary Ann so every time the nurse came out to call one of us for our heart monitor or BP test, we'd both jump up. When it was my turn to see the Endo (I was first), my Dr. excused herself because she had the wrong paperwork. She came back shaking her head... Turns out, she had NOT looked at the other Mary Ann's (slim young mom who'd had gestational diabetes) paperwork..it was mine and based on my A1c (I was so excited I forgot to ask the number...ack!), I present like someone who doesn't have diabetes!!
An hour a day of exercise and eating properly for 4 1/2 months has caused such a drastic change in my body (I've also lost 30 lbs) that my Endo who three months ago told me I'd NEVER be off insulin has now made me a step down plan that should see me leaving it behind before the end of the year.
I will always have diabetes and I truly believe that it's a life sentence in the sense that it has saved my life and put me on a path to lasting good health.
I'll be 53 in a few weeks and for the past 13 years, I've promised myself that I'm going to start getting fit and taking care of myself so I don't die as young as my wonderful parents did (both died in their early 60's).... This year, I won't have to make that promise because I'm actually doing it and really loving it.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
I'm having an emotional day and really felt like a splurge but, as an insulin dependent diabetic, the splurge has to be within the parameters of my diet so I grabbed my iPad and went looking at the A & W page which is my favorite guilty pleasure other than chocolate. Turns out, a Whistle dog and a diet root beer float have 50 grams of carbs so once I've given my dog her large dollop of the ice cream, I'm right at 45 grams which is my normal lunchtime amount. It's 592 calories which is about 150 calories more than my normal lunch but the fish and salad I'm having for dinner are on the low end so it all evens out. Of course, the sodium is totally unacceptable but since it's such an infrequent detour from my new normal, I just enjoyed feeling like a kid again (A&W was my very first fast food and whistle dogs and root beer floats were my fave treats as a kid)
Before I decided to treat myself to good health, I would have only fed my emotions without regard to body and balance. Actually, before this journey, when I tried to lose weight, I kept myself to between 1000 & 1200 calories without understanding that less isn't better. Right now, Because of my exercise plan, my calorie goal is between 1400 & 1700 and I'm consistently losing a pound a week while feeling more than satisfied.
Mary Ann... Loving the journey!
Thursday, August 16, 2012
I added nine photos to my Sparkpage today... Anyone who knows me, knows that is no small thing. I always have the camera to avoid being in a picture. I've been that way since I was a skinny little girl and it only got worse as I added pounds. Years and years of my life have gone by where I have no record of how I looked. I literally feel ill when I see a camera pointed in my direction and it's something that's been on my list for change.
I'm determined to start adding pictures to my life...pictures of me. I'm not waiting until I lose a few pounds or waiting for just the right picture... I'm posing!
Last night, I bought a bike. It's magnificent! It's a coaster bike which means it has one speed and you have to back peddle to brake and that's just my speed. This afternoon, I think I shocked the crap outta my hubby when I dragged him outside to snap my picture with my bike. He's so used to my ducking out of pictures or grabbing the camera.
There are so many aspects to changing your life. For me, some are easier than others ... Changing my diet...easy, starting to exercise for the first time in my life...easy, having my picture taken or (shudder) sharing my picture with ANYONE...so hard!
One of the pictures I added was especially hard. It's a picture of me at my very heaviest. I don't know what my numbers were because a scale was to be avoided but I do know that I was unhappy at that weight... movement was so hard and I frequently felt ill. If I were to guess, I'd say that I'm at least 50 lbs lighter than that now. I'm bubbling over with energy and today, I went for my first bike ride since I was a kid and I loved it! Tonight, I'll be going to aquafit an hour early so I can play in the water before our pretty intense 45 minutes of aquafit and tomorrow, I'll be walking at least a mile because I have a goal of walking five miles a week. The person in that picture got winded climbing one flight of stairs and couldn't walk and carry on a conversation because it was too hard to breathe.
I'm so happy and feel so healthy right now at my during stage. I refuse to wait until I'm an "after" to start living....I only wish my "before" would have known what I know now :) moving is so much FUN!!!
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