Tuesday, April 15, 2014
It was 85 degrees when I woke up today, HOT in the house I was SWEATING profusely in a tank top night shirt! Then it stormed and was humid as hell, but cooler, then it got downright COLD and I ma back in my fuzzy fleece! Bottom line to all this: My sinuses have been pissed all day and I have had less than zero energy and a chronic sinus headache! My eyes feel like they are going to explode out of my skull! Boo! I am doing an overnight tomorrow, I have to try and stay up tonight to prepare. Planning on the Y at 8:45 tomorrow night before work at 10p.
Friday, April 11, 2014
It was 70 degrees here today!! Charlie woke me up early being naughty, which I was mad about! He had my stockings and taunted me with them! I am NOT a morning person, so I was mad that he woke me up in the first place at a little after 9am, and then he was taunting me to boot?! NO. Straight into the crate he went! I was too mad to go back to sleep, so I just got up. He was doing so well, and now he is on his last strike before he is back to being crated when we are sleeping too. I like cuddling with him, but he also just ate a shoe the other day, the insole to my shoe this weekend and now took my stockings! All while I was sleeping! SO he does it again, its back in the crate for naughty boy!
He was right, that it was a nice day and I should get up though! But taking my things is not the way to accomplish that! He used to wake me with puppy kisses, which is much more acceptable. I still might have been mad for a minute, but then I would think "Aww he's too stinkin cute!" and get up! I guess I should have told him my alarm was set to take him for a walk anyway?! We had a nice 45 minute walk, along the Erie canal, which I spent most of it trying to keep him from diving into!! I was not prepared today for swimming! No towels, and not that much time before work. Plus the water has to be frigid still! ALL I said for 45 minutes was "EH-EH! LEAVE IT!" "good boy!" "Eh-EH! LEAVE IT!" "good boy."
After work I went to the Y because I had not done my strength training. I walked, I went on the elliptical (for me is ST for my legs! It hurts!) and I did the weight circuit. I cooled down with another short walk, and stretched. I got over 15,000 steps today!! But that darn Fitbit site gave me only 28 instead of 30 Very Active minutes!! I want ALL my smiley faces!! Dumb, I know. But I want to see ALL the boxes light up with smiles!
I am on my way to getting fit for Jamaica! I must say the more I force myself to the Y, the better it feels. Gotta keep on the roll! I can't go tomorrow, but I will try and change my rest days so I have Fri, Sat off then go all next week until Sat.
Monday, April 07, 2014
Yay!! Bring on the mud Mommy!! He snuck a swim I wasn't going to let him do as well! I was trying to navigate a tough area, and he just dropped right in the creek out of nowhere! He does that when I don't LET him go in! Trail conditions were all over the place! Some of it perfect, some muddy, some just a little wet, some completely flooded shin deep, some still had snow! All in a 3.5 mile loop! It was great to get out there though, and I realized how much I have missed my trails! The quiet of the woods, the scenery, the sunlight, the peace. Charlie always does something cute, and today was no exception. There were some very frightened miniature dogs, I am not sure of the breed, looked like tiny whippets. He was so gentle with them, and so careful while meeting with them, it was adorable! He reassured them that big dogs aren't all bad!
After that, I showered, ate, and went out shoe shopping. Need something for my dress, what I have are not appropriate. Everything closes early Sunday so I have to go back out tomorrow, I didn't find anything. I am looking for flats, that have a little bling or some shine to make them look more like dress shoes. I prefer black, but we will see what I can find to go with purple.
Have to get up early tomorrow, lots to do! Food prep, some spring cleaning, rotating winter and spring shoes and clothes, the list goes on! A neighbor, also in the fire department, is coming over to go shoe shopping with me again. Neither one of us found anything. I would like to get out on the trails again too if it's nice out. We shall see!
Friday, April 04, 2014
Last night as I was up way too late again and bored, I was scrolling through FB posts after I couldn't do another practical task. As I was seeing other people's posts and thinking about milestones coming up, I realized that my life is so amazingly different than it was 10 years ago! Even 5! It is just amazing to me how much things can change even though you don't always choose it or see it coming. My post would not fit here as my status.
The abbreviated version: 10 years ago, this time of year, I was both excited about planning a wedding in October, found my dress, and was happy about that! I couldn't wait to share it with my Mom, who couldn't come to pick it out with me as she was home sick from chemo and radiation. This had been the case before, she beat breast cancer in 1997, so I was not prepared. Yes, she needed a lot of care and her boyfriend was useless. I still thought she would recover again. After about a hellish year of little sleep and running myself ragged running 2 households, I became her hospice caretaker and struggled through the worst time of my life! My life has not been easy any time, I have learned to suck up a lot, but I was so traumatized by all this, I couldn't even SPEAK to people half the time. It was either sit quietly, and hold myself IN, or lose it completely and not go on. I held it together, other than trying to physically hurt my Mom's boyfriend at one point, as he stole her Oxycontin to get high, and then had the guts to complain to ME about some trivial BS!! While he sat there and refused to help take care of her!!! The morning she passed away, the flood gates opened!! I was not functional for about 2 weeks, maybe longer. She passed away 5/4/04. Just in time to make my birthday (5/9) hard. I don't really like my birthday anymore. I usually keep it low key.
So, 5 years after that, I decided to get myself and MY health together! It took about 5 years to settle her estate and calm down from all that and just LIVE again! I did the hardest thing after that, and quit smoking. It was ridiculously hard for me, and the withdrawal was unbelievable! I was a true chemical addict, with also a component of using it to numb my emotions. I spent months crying or yelling because I couldn't cope anymore! It masked my GI disruptions, which I soon figured out were numerous.
My motivations for doing it soon evaporated, and my BP never even improved, which was one reason my doc pushed me to quit! But I held on and joined SP! I started running and continued working on my health and fitness and here I am today! I am heavier than I was then, but I am stronger and most certainly healthier. Yes, I came here to lose weight, but to me my fitness and overall health is much more important anyway. I WILL NOT become my mother! She literally fell apart starting at 30-35, and it was a neverending cascade of problems until her death at 50. I had to take on more than anyone should when this all started. I don't want to be sick, and I don't want to burden anyone with the mess I had to deal with either!
Now, my everyday life has changed, my focus has changed, our lifestyle has changed immensely for the better! I buy better food, we have more active lifestyles. When we go on trips, I LOOK for ways to be active outside and workout! We are going back to Jamaica, I will actually WANT do do the physical stuff, that I didn't before! I want to run on the beach!! Barefoot!!
Since I am now almost 40 and have not had a major illness or hospitalization, I feel I am meeting my goal! I am NOT turning into my mother health wise! I may be in other ways, but I have surpassed that 30-35 year old decline! I am ahead already and am thankful for that time! My gene pool is not a good one for every major problem is there! I just hope to at least stall it and maybe even win this spin of the roulette wheel!
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