Sunday, June 13, 2010
As I went to Walmart today after church, I observed a child, approximately two years old, with family members. She had a shopping cart full of her dolls and plush toys. The adults were discussing how they had already spoken to the child. Nothing they did mattered to the child. She knew what she wanted and they were violating her will. She could not be consoled.
A short way further I noticed four family members. One set of two was going one way and the other to the other entrance. Somewhat angry words were exchanged and I could see the muttering beneath her breath all across the face of the woman.
I was struck by something. We come to God many times, demanding our own way. He can reason with us all He wants, but we stubbornly cling to our own ways, our own desires and cannot hear a word He is saying to us. It doesn't matter why He speaks, we refuse to listen. Just as the adults in this case were becoming increasingly frustrated do we not think that God tires of our selfish behavior?
In the second case I see us become angry at God for things that have happened in our lives and become resentful, so many times at Him for how things turned out. We allow a separation from Him because of it as we go our own way, pursuing our own path even though it may separate us permanently. We do so with arms crossed on our chest and muttering beneath our breath at Him. He is willing to allow the separation, but only because He cannot bear our sin that we so stubbornly cling to. We live with unresolved anger and bitterness and take no responsibility for changing it and as a result our relationship is damaged, sometimes irreparably.
Today let us look at our lives honestly and humbly. Do I confront those things that separate me from God? Do I want to see them reconciled? Or do I want Him to do what I see as the right way even if it is contrary to what He knows is best for us? Do I demand my own way, or else with Him not realizing how much pain it causes Him? Do I allow sin to separate me from Him and stubbornly go my own way? Can I honestly say that I am sorry I have sinned? Or am I sorry He sees it as sin?