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The Spark of Goals

Sunday, January 10, 2010

After reading just the first two chapters of The Spark I am beginning to get my goals in focus in a way I never have before. I don't want it to be an 18 day wonder like so many New Year's resolutions either. I want to commit to really seeing this through. Reading The Spark has really opened my eyes in ways I never expected. I wrote my son a letter and cried all the way through it. I want that relationship healed more than I want my weight loss yet they are very much tied together. Being a wife and mother are my dreams from when I was just four years old. Nothing has been more fulfilling, rewarding or frustrating in my life. Though some would look at my children and say I have failed, I know that I have not. My children know they are loved because that was a promise I made to myself back in high school so many long years ago. My love has kept my family alive, quite literally. I will also commit to doing at least one form of exercise a day that is not just worked into my daily routine. By that I mean a deliberate choice to exercise. I will pray every day, no matter what my schedule is because I know that that relationship there will get me where I really want to go in every aspect of my life. It is prayer that has brought me safe thus far, yet it has become so easy to let my consistency slip. I already feel better about who I am just making these goals for myself. A new spark has been ignited in me from old flames that were once diminished.

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IUHRYTR 1/10/2010 11:32AM

    "Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take."

Proverbs 3:6, NLT


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LISANANCY 1/10/2010 9:15AM

    You are like a beautiful flower. Watching you come into full bloom is wonderful. You will certainly bring joy into the lives of people who know you. emoticon

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    Amen, sister! I really liked your blog. Here you are, an example and a witness to ME of faith and you are humble enough to say you need to do things better!

My goals are on the same page as yours, and I'm so glad we're friends! Lori

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GRAMMYTINK 1/10/2010 7:08AM

    It sounds like you are on the right path. Good luck and keep the spirit going. emoticon emoticon

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WEMINICH 1/10/2010 7:07AM

  I love this post! It's exactly what we all must come to.

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Blah, blah blah

Saturday, January 09, 2010

I slipped and fell on the ice at work yesterday as I was on my way to get the mail and sneak in a little cardio. I am a little sore today, but not too bad. Expected one big bruise on my hip. No real damage.
I am still debating about whether or not I really need to go to Lubbock today or if it can be put off. The house is really stressing me out and I really don't want to deal with the problems of cleaning up after renters. The real estate guy won't be in town this weekend as he is with the college group in Colorado skiing. All the reasons but one seem to be fading away. Lori I was looking forward to meeting you. I will still call and let you know! It is so cold here and I am just finding more reasons to make excuses for not going!
I need to get busy and just decide what it is going to be I guess.

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IUHRYTR 1/9/2010 2:02PM

    When in doubt, make a decision. When life is telling you no, maybe it's time to listen. It's good that you two will get together. If not now, soon, I'm sure. -- Lou

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Cindy, we can meet WHENEVER you come! I'm fine with either way, and it really WOULD be more pleasant for you if the weather were better when you came to do that task! You have my phone number, and call me any time. If you msg. me your number, I'll put it in my phone. Don't EVER hesitate to call me for anything!

Please keep your blogs going with the messages, too! I absorb them!

Love, your friend and sister, Lori

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The Spark is Ignited

Friday, January 08, 2010

I have been reading my copy of The Spark. Goal setting is very important and I do set goals, but my goals don't tend to be real specific. I am amazed at how I am struggling with this part because I have preached it for years. I started to cry when I was reminded of one of my goals from when I was just four years old, ingrained in me for that long, almost fifty years. I always wanted to be a wife and mother. I wanted to love and be loved. So when the bank account dwindled and I felt I had to start work something else was set in motion. My job really didn't interfere with being able to attend my kids' functions. I t did however interfere with me being there when my youngest came home from school. I remember him saying how much he missed me being there in subtle and not so subtle ways. I didn't always want to cook dinner when I came home.I was tired. After a while I would cook whatever he wanted because he was the only one here. It was my way of showing him how much I really did love him. To this day when he comes home I make sure I plan the menu around his wants. It helps that his food tastes are almost identical to mine. In the time that I worked at that place is when I put on all my weight in a very short period of time. and I am talking 54 pounds. Once the damage was done I had no problem taking another job later where I wasn't there when he got up, then he wasn't there when I got home. The distance began to grow, he got involved in drugs and now I rarely see him. It has left a hole in my heart. I cannot change what is past, but I will spend the rest of my life trying to regain my son. That's probably at the top of my list, above my weight loss. I will probably sit down and write a letter to him today and I hope it makes at least a little difference to him.

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IUHRYTR 1/8/2010 10:46AM

    Reaching out to someone can never be a bad thing. Let's pray your doing so has the results you want. -- Lou

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    Cindy, I should not have read your blog at work. My eyes are burning and runny, and my heart is tender with what you have shared. I'm so glad that we are friends, so glad that we are sisters in Christ.

Jeff had his appeals meeting (terrifying, and they said he did great), and is all registered for school! He's fighting hard to regain his healthy outlook on life, and we're hopeful.

Our children are in a battle, but the battle belongs to the Lord, doesn't it? I love you. Call me when you want to get together. I'll keep the cell phone close.... Lori

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The Power of forgiveness

Thursday, January 07, 2010

We all know we should forgive, yet it is sometimes something we least want to do. When someone has hurt us deeply we think we have the right to hang on to unforgiveness, don't we? Our pride often gets in the way of admitting we could be wrong. But in the long run it us who suffers, not the one we refuse to forgive. Many times the person we hold a grudge against doesn't even know they have wronged us. I have heard it said that many diseases can be traced back to an unforgiving heart. I don't know if there is any truth to it, but it is possible. In the Lord's prayer it says "forgive us as we forgive others." Do you want that to be true or are you going to keep your lips shut on that part? It's worth it to pursue a change of heart then isn't it? A restored relationship can be a treasure. The stress in our lives because of an unforgiving heart can keep us from sleeping at night and we all know how important our sleep is. When I was in college I was told to forgive everyone I held unforgiveness towards and to do everything I could to contact them. It could be through writing a letter, calling on the phone or face to face. There were three or four people at that time. One symptom was the person I continually bad mouthed at any opportunity. I told them I didn't care what they thought of me doing it, it was something I needed to do for me. Within a very short time of doing so, I began to grow exponentially as a christian. I was completely amazed. My unforgiveness and blocked God from being able to work in my own heart. I have let unforgiveness creep back in and perhaps it is time to release myself and others again.

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YOYONOMORE1 1/7/2010 4:06PM

    Very good blog. Harboring ill feelings towards others is not good for our spiritual being as well as our physical being. I have one friend that our friendship has deteroited over time because of some things she has done, but I am pretty sure she doesn't realize what has happened or why, I need to pray about this and deal with it, it says in the Bible if we can't forgive, we won't be forgiven and I do believe that. We need to live by Jesus' example more. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this.


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    I liked your blog, Cindy...

Every time my husband and I walk past the neighbor around the corner's house, I have thought some of the most unkind thoughts about him. We're almost positive it was he who set out the poison that killed our great pyrnese, Sugar. The strong scent was just too much for her, and she bounded to the edge of his property. She was dead before she could even finish the bad meat.

People who are cruel are expecially difficult for me to forgive, and how I loved that dog! Since then, that neighbor does not look or speak to us as we walk within a few feet of him, and he used to be very friendly. I haven't minded much because if he'd looked up, he'd have seem me glaring holes into him!

I told Drex last night that I somehow must forgive him. Jesus was spit on, tortured, jeered at, and killed on a cross, yet he chose to love those who persecuted Him. That is how I want to be. I don't yet know how to show forgiveness to this neighbor, but think there will be an opportunity, especially if I talk to the Lord about it.

Thanks for your blog... it made me more determined... to be like Christ

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More Than Just a Story

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

I never really thought much about the family Jesus grew up in. I always assumed he was an only child yet He was not. It was not until I went to Bible school that I realized differently. Jesus, of course, was the first born, the oldest. He had brothers whose names were James, Joseph, Simon and Judas. He also had more than one sister, but I have never found their names mentioned or the number of them. They are mentioned a couple of times that I know of. Once they told him, "Your mother and brothers and sisters are asking for You." His reply was, "Who are my mother and brothers and sisters, but those who do the will of my Father." How did that make them feel to hear that? Were they offended? Can you imagine what it was like being His sibling? In some ways it would REALLY stink. He was such a perfect child that He never got in trouble and was, probably, definitely Mom's favorite because of it. That's seven children or more in the family. That's a pretty large family. I think it is accepted that the book of James was written by His brother. John the Baptist was his cousin too. When you look at what was said about the family you realize , naturally, that they were very devout. Mary was highly favored to become the one to bear the Son of God. She willingly accepted what God wanted to do though it must have been terrifying and extremely difficult. The embarrassment her family encountered as people gossiped can only be imagined. What did she tell them? Elizabeth knew right away that she was pregnant and what she carried was no ordinary baby. I would imagine the other family members might have had some idea, but we are not told. Mary pondered everything in her heart. What were her thoughts? She had no idea what awaited her as His mother. I can only imagine her pain at the cross. Zechariah was a priest who was not unaccustomed to talking with God. He and his wife had such a wonderful surprise late in their lives and had a part to play in all the wonderful happenings. A special touch of God just for them because of years of living a life pleasing to God. What was it like for Jesus and John when they played together? Did He see glimpses of His own future when His cousin was beheaded? And the people of Nazareth had no idea who this child was. All they saw was whose family He was a part of. Would we have been any different if He was the little boy next door in our neighborhood? I doubt it. They were amazed at His teachings and wondered where He got such wisdom. Yet they stumbled over the little boy who played at their houses and with their children. Because of that Jesus could never do any of the miracles there that grace the pages of our Bible.They were robbed because of the box they put Him in. He was so familiar to them that they could not see Him for who He was. They took offense at Him and could not accept His authority. They found no faith within themselves because they could only see Him as "the carpenter's son." Were His playmates amongst them? It must have hurt, yet He never retaliated. You know, it says He was tempted in all manners like we are, yet He did not sin. It changes your whole view of things sometimes when the emotions get involved. To me it makes it a little more real, more than just a story.

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DCAMPBELL8 1/7/2010 9:23AM

    emoticon Blog!!

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GOSPELCLOWN 1/6/2010 2:01PM

    Great blog. We are given very little information on Jesus' formative years.
I am happy that Jesus grew up in a large family and lived the day-to-day drama of lots of siblings and two parents.
But I've often wondered how they lived beside The Son Of God! Imagine THAT being your normal???

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IUHRYTR 1/6/2010 12:43PM

    I've heard several "famous" people say they are more acclaimed when they are out of town. It seems familiarity does breed a feeling of "I know this person and there's nothing special about them." Just as you wrote. -- Lou

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3CATSLEP 1/6/2010 11:11AM

    Blessings to you, sister!

I probably would have been a sister who was a little jealous of Jesus who was perfect and mom's favorite, but I hope not as jealous as Joseph's sibling brothers were to do such evil to him and sell him. But, also knowing how I look up to my own big brother and how he always helped pick me up when I scraped my knee, I would just adored Him - as I do today!!!

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