Friday, December 16, 2011
Today is the party from the church ladies to our clients. They have asked me to come help on my day off. The kids will decorate some sugar cookies and it will be just a really good time. Of course, there will also be food present. I am not doing very well resisting if I look at it too long. I am excited to be a part of the giving. We get so much more than the girls do every time we pour into their lives. It truly is more blessed to give than just to receive. They appreciate all of it so much. You cannot put a price on love.
Then tonight the church is having their party for those who have been in positions of ministry. We will eat brisket and all the other goodies that I am sure will abound. I will have to store up for it all day long! The company will be superb. We will exchange inexpensive gifts in Dirty Santa style and have some really good laughs I am sure. Though they are in positions of ministry, it has not stolen their ornery streak. I just pray no one is hurt in the process! I hope you know I am just kidding there. It will be so good for my husband to be a part of all that. He needs to establish some memories that create good friendships at the church. He has always hung back looking for reasons to be rejected. I wonder if he approaches God in the same way. Some people can't imagine how they can ever measure up to gain God's accetance. None of us can. If we could, it would not have been necessary to send Jesus. Still I hope he has a really good time and laughs until he wants to pee like all the women!
When we are finished there, I hope to take at least one other person with me to our facility to pray for my co-worker. She is having surgery on the 19th. Her name is Michele. She is getting married for the first time in July at 35 years old. She has diabetes and at present has no sight in one of her eyes. The surgery is to remove an oil pack from an earlier surgery. Then she will have surgery again later to remove cataracts from both eyes. She and her husband-to-be have opted to not have children. There are so many children who need to be adopted. She has so many ailments in addition to the diabetes that they do not want to pass anything on genetically. This is, I am sure a difficult situation. Adpotion is such a wonderful thing for all involved and I do not want to diminish that prospect, but at the same time I am so sad that they feel they must make that choice. I hope more than anything else that we can give her a small glimpse of God that will change her life forever tonight. I want God to intervene in such a way that it opens her eyes to the possibilities of never having to settle or be disappointed again. A small glimpse into God's character that says difinitively, with God ALL things are possible and nothing is impossible to him who believes.
It's a very full day ahead of me. Once I get dressed, I must first find my keys. The last place I saw them was.....
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Yesterday was our Christmas party at work. We did not do our usual exchange of gifts and my boss opted instead for door prizes. She has someone draw a name then that person drawn draws the next recipient. Three or four times someone drew their own name including me. Very unusual! I won the Biggest Loser contest. Before you get too excited for me, there were only two entered in this round and the other person gained weight. That's how it was the last time I won. I am grateful for the win, and the money, but I want to lose 12-15 pounds the next time I win! Then I received the RTA of the year award. Again, I did not feel as if it was really any competition. Please understand why. I am not being prideful here. My boss set the criteria out and immediately, everyone else was disqualified due to taking off sick days, not to mention all the other things. She had us vote on who we felt deserved it. To me it would have been better if she had not had us vote and she had just recognized me for my accomplishments through the year that she felt were worthy. I love the excitement of a competition. Just ask my co-workers. This was absolutely no competition. It felt kind of empty, though I am grateful to be rewarded and recognized for what I have done. What I got is really cool. They gave me a small backpack that is insulated. It has a slot for my filtered water bottle on the side and I can now bring my yogurt snack and keep it cold longer and therefore keep me healthier. It is the right size for what I need.
We were also notified that her boss is leaving in just a few weeks. He just secured a $1.5 million grant for the facility. Now it will be up to someone else to implement the new program that goes with the grant and someone else will put up with the scrutiny of the granting agency. The timing is just really strange. Then, the person who is taking over for him is just a couple of years older than my daughter and played soccer with her in high school. Her age really has little do to with it. This is such a pivotal choice to be made for our facility at this time. She is a recent graduate with little to no experience and I am not convinced she has the strength to get through this. I do not see her getting along well with my immediate boss either. It just seemed like a strange choice at this time. Upheaval is always stressful, but the change of leadership and program is an awful lot at one time.
I do not mean to be negative here. I am just puzzled by the choices being made around me that affect me. They do not inspire confidence. I hope to learn from them and not repeat the same kind of decisions in my daily work if ever faced with needing to make decisions that affect others. Even when not at work I have decisions to make that affect others. I want my praise to be genuine and meaningful to others. I want everything I do to have positive impact and not leave them feeling diminished in an way. I want to learn from the mistakes of others as well as my own mistakes. I will not make others feel their praise of me is not accepted, but will accept it graciously regardless of how it is offered. I will seek to make someone else glad that I am a part of their life and glad that I walked into it today. I will be a part of the solution and will stick around to see it to completion. I will not abandon others for my own selfish ambitions. I will serve others as though I am serving God Himself, because n reality this IS what I am doing.
Monday, December 12, 2011
Balance is what makes us healthy. Spark teaches us to gain balance in our lives. I have played with that balance every time I take a bite. But now I am aware of where I need to tip the scales where, before I just blindly ate, not caring about that balance. It always hung out in the back of my mind, but I never had the tools to know how to handle what I did not know.
I have had a hard time getting enough iron in my diet my entire life. Every time I have blood work done I come up short, that is, until I started taking a supplement. I am very low every time I track my food. I need some creative ways to get more iron rich foods in my diet. I will not eat liver, so don't even go there with me. I am sure my mom created this lack by the foods she served that I got used to eating. I am not blaming her, just stating a fact. I do not seem to crave iron rich foods no matter how much my body needs it. Does anyone have some good ideas of foods I might like that could boost my iron intake?
When I came to Spark I found that I had a hard time also getting enough protein in my diet. That really surprised me because I love protein. I have learned, when I track my food, to eat my protein rich foods first. That way I am less likely to go overboard in other areas before I have depleted my calories.
I knew that I did not get enough vegetables and that was one of my first goals here at Spark. I realized early on just how easy it was to change my thinking there. I still have to watch it because my natural tendencies are to avoid them. I must make a conscious effort to include them. I find that they really do fill me up and it is easy to eat a bunch of them because the calorie intake is so low on them. I can always throw in one more when I am lacking in carbs.
So one thing that Spark has taught me is balance. I have been able to see at a glance how consistent I was in going over my fats. Now it is once a week. I could see in my nutrition feedback just where it was that I was lacking. Being able to see it, I knew where I needed to work.The tools I have found here have made me healthier. I still have some work to do. I still face challenges as you see, but am making progress. I would love some input on my iron crisis. Happy Sparking everyone.
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