Saturday, July 09, 2011
There was a period in my life where I cared very much what others thought of me. In junior high, appearance meant everything. You were judged by your physical appearance as well as how you dressed. You were somehow worthy or unworthy because of it. This lent itself to my very poor self esteem. Because of things I felt that were beyond my control, I was judged and found wanting. It took years to undo this damage. It really wasn't until I became a christian that things began to change. For the first time in my life, what mattered was who I really was that determined my worth. It was my personality. Even beyond that I was okay just because Someone loved me. I was transformed, more positive and confident. It's amazing how different I am, just because I know I don't have to earn acceptance. Now, I could care less what you do or don't think of me. I'll never forget the first time I left the house without makeup on and wasn't mortified when I realized it! I take care of my personal appearance, but am not consumed by it anymore.
No matter where we go and what we do, people will hate us for it. Or we will be deemed unacceptable in some way. Our beliefs set us apart from others and bind us to still others. There will always be those who oppose us. Judgment and condemnation abound around us daily. When we learn to love ourselves for who we are and what we have become, we can have a lasting peace. Accept who you are, faults and all. Seek to improve, but don't let it become your only purpose in life. Love and allow yourself to be loved. Learn that opposition can be good. Know that it will come. Find your security in something beyond others and watch as your life is transformed.