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Overwhelmed

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

I have been feeling so overwhelmed lately, hence so few entries. My best friend's daughter-in-law wanted to do a cookie exchange while they are in town for the holidays. The thing is she wants 7 dozen cookies per person. Yes, I said 7 dozen. I work and really don't have time for this. I ran out of sugar and flour and didn't want to go by walmart at midnight when I got off work because I have been so sleepy lately. So now that I have waited until this morning our hot water heater is on the blink so I can't get a shower before starting my day. Yes, I could just tell her it is too many cookies for my busy schedule, but it would be like telling my daughter I am not going to do something important to her. She would understand, but I am just not going to do it.
Then last night just as I got to work, my husband called to tell me my daughter had been in an accident. She is okay, but it totaled her car. It's a piece of junk car, but her only source of transportation and a symbol of her sobriety and much loved. Ol' Rhonda has to go to the coroner in Albuquerque for some odd reason for the insurance claim. So the day after Thanksgiving we have to go to Las Cruces to find her another car. It is always a rushed thing and she ends up with something far differnet than she would have liked just because it is available at the time and in our price range. This is about the seventh car we have had to find for my daughter in as many years. The others were totaled or destroyed during her addiction. This car was well loved and cared for. Timing is the bad thing. I just thought I wouldn't get to see her for Thanksgiving! At least I have days off starting on Friday.
I have all my shopping done and thanks to my best friend should have all my Christmas cookies done long ahead of time. Most of my decorations are already out thanks to my husband not ever having taken them to the shed last year. But in my heart I am not ready for the holidays. It has not been a bad year, just a quick one. The weather is warm which makes it hard to think of winter holidays, but even this year it wouldn't have helped. I don't now if it is subtle depression or just the blahs. I could skip it all this year and be happy celebrating it in July! My weight has gone crazy and I need to fast to get back on track jk! I'm am just a Scrooge this year.

  
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IUHRYTR 11/23/2010 2:21PM

    Yes, good news about your daughter. As for the cookies, sometimes we need to simply say no, too much. If her feelings are hurt over something as insignificant as you making cookies, then that is her problem, not yours. -- Lou

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3CATSLEP 11/23/2010 11:19AM

    Stop emoticon
LOOK emoticon
and Listen emoticon
God has a plan.....

put it in HIS hands :)

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BRANLAADEE1 11/23/2010 11:01AM

    I am glad your daughter is alright! It's so scary when our kids get in accidents. I have been through it a couple of times with my daughter.

I agree about this year going too quickly. It's flown by, but I am looking forward to the holidays for once! Hopefully your Bah Humbugs will fade away.

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To Love Again

Saturday, November 20, 2010

To add to my entry from yesterday...I love the comment that when people are most unlovable it is then that they need to be loved the most. This is one of my favorites to remind people of. I know a young lady who was beat up by her boyfriend that I will refrain from giving all the adjectives I want to at this time. Because of him and other things that were going on in her life, she pushed those who loved her most the furthest away. He beat her so badly that she thought she was going to die. She found a way home and her parents had no idea what to expect when the cops had called. She sat in her bedroom healing for a week or more. The mother would not go in to her no matter how badly she wanted to because she was so afraid of being pushed away yet once again. Her eye was so swollen that it was scary. She eventually healed and several years later finally the girl did get the strength to leave him before he really did kill her.
Fast forward a few years after that and mom and daughter have a conversation one day. This time came into the conversation. The daughter said, "You didn't even give me a hug or ask me how I was doing." Can you imagine the break in that mother's heart. It was heard all the way to heaven.
Before we get so quick to condemn another, for what we think they are thinking let us take the time to do what may be the hardest thing in the world, love them. Even if the gesture is refused and pushed back in our face, let us do everything we can to show our love. We will be doing no less that our heavenly Father did at the cross. We spit onHim, tore His beard out and condemned Him to die with criminals, but He showed His love anyway. We were worth it and so are those who hurt us today. Challenge yourself to become more like Him today.

  
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IUHRYTR 11/21/2010 6:13PM

    Having patience with those who attack us is not always easy, but if we do try to be more God like, as you suggest, we will have a greater chance of success. -- Lou

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3CATSLEP 11/20/2010 6:46PM

    Thanks, Cindy! I will remember this as I take communion tomorrow! Mom was better today - probably because I was better with her. emoticon

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Love, Love, Love

Friday, November 19, 2010

My favorite scripture is "God is love." What I needed most was to know that I was loved. When I knew that God loved and accepted me, my life was totally transformed. The Bible also tells us that no one has seen God, but His love is shown if we love each other. Love, God's love, has its full expression in our loving others. The Bible tells us that He loved us, not when we were all cleaned up and presentable, but when we were at out lowest low and most unlovable. Few would die for a friend, but God showed His great love for us by doing far more. We spend our whole lives in search of love. Babies fail to thrive for lack of loving touch. Every song you hear on the radio is I have love, I lost love, or I need love. If we would just start at the foot of the cross, our search would be a short one. So today, I am going to look for creative ways to show my family I love them. But more than that will show the man who cuts me off in traffic that I hold nothing against him. I will show the greeter at Walmart that they are not invisible. I will treat all the rude and angry people around me that they have value. The are only hurting people in need of love. I will fill my day with love at every turn. And where I cannot, I will ask for help from Love Himself.

  
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3CATSLEP 11/19/2010 10:50PM

    Thanks, Cindy, this blog helped me put my mom in perspective. This past week she has seemed to have an attitude and her anger is showing especially when she can't remember things. I must remind myself that she is hurting and probably feels unloved. She can be an unlovable person at times.

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IUHRYTR 11/19/2010 3:12PM

    That is a great approach, not for one day but for everyday. -- Lou

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WORKINGSTIFF 11/19/2010 10:56AM

    It's when people are most un-lovable that they need love the most...thanks for an inspiring blog.

H.

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KHDOESMK 11/19/2010 10:10AM

    By HIS strength I think I can, I think I can, I think I can....NO I know HE can!

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Part Two

Thursday, November 18, 2010

As a side note to yesterday's blog, I love the holidays. I love having people come to my home, if I can get it clean,and have the wonderful conversations and enjoy good food together. The thing is this, last year, my middle child didn't come home until just before the meal and left almost right after. I had to go to work at 4 just as I do this year. My youngest son would rather spend the day with his friends and as soon as he feels he can escape he does so. Then when I got home at midnight, I still had all the dishes to do. This is not what I envision of the holidays on a good year. I put so much work in to making the holidays special for everyone. I bake all the cookies and decorate the house. I really do love Christmas, but a lot of the joy is taken out of it when it is not appreciated or no one thinks of how exhausted I get making it special for them.
My vision of the perfect Christmas and holiday season is good conversation and making good family memories. Good food is a must. There was such a closeness that I experienced during the holidays growing up and I don't know how to recreate this for my family. I fee like a failure there. There is the going as a family to look at the lights and joining together at a special service at church, even if one must go kicking and screaming. I guess I just feel it all evaporating as the years go by.
That is why I want to go shopping with my best friend. I want to bond with someone at this time of year. I don't want to become selfish. I want some of the magic to return. I just feel as if the mirrors have shifted and become a reality and the excitement is gone. Maybe what I need is grandchildren!

  
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IUHRYTR 11/18/2010 2:03PM

    I always like to clean up after a group meal as a way of paying back the hostess who did so much work. Clearing the table, washing and drying dishes, helping sort out the leftovers, all of it is something I enjoy doing. Too bad some people think they're at a restaurant where a busboy will magically appear to do all of that. Hope you get some help this year so your joy is increased. -- Lou

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3CATSLEP 11/18/2010 10:33AM

    As always, be careful what you wish for :) (he-he) I wish I was there to spend some holiday time together with you! I think our conversations would be uplifting! Thank you for your blog!

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Holidays are Smashing in

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Been a few days since I was last here. I got caught up in some video games for a few days and didn't get anything accomplished to speak of. I am already feeling the pinch of the holidays believe it or not. I have never felt it so early. I know that Thanksgiving is right around the corner. It will be just the family plus or minus one kid. I don't know if I am going to be so organized early that it is going to be scary or if something is ready to go wrong. You know the half empty thing is lurking in the shadows again. I usually have my Christmas letter written by now and don't. I have all my shopping out of the way except one small thing. I just feel like I don't know what to expect and this is not normal. Usually I expect things to go just as they have for the last 25-50 years.
The best set of holidays I had was the year I got a concussion. No one would let me do anything. I actually enjoyed the holidays that year! I am not rushing out to get another concussion mind you, but I long for the day when someone else does all the preparations. I don't want to be in a nursing home to get it either. My house is falling apart and it is low on my husband's list of priorities. It is hard to get excited about that. Believe it or not my Christmas decorations still sit in the front room in boxes after last year's celebrations. I guess I am getting a bit depressed because always seem so low on anyone else's priority list and feel so unappreciated this time of year. It's a lot of work that you are expected to do and there is no break from it for a whole month straight. I will have to work hard to find a way to be positive this year. Maybe I will take a day or two and just pamper myself, like go with my best friend to Roswell and go shopping and eating out. We have so much fun together. Maybe I will buy some of the food already prepared or feed them on paper plates and have a bonfire afterwards. I am sure I will find something. Any suggestions?

  
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KHDOESMK 11/18/2010 10:41AM

    I tend to minimize holidays, for myself, but maximize on others. We will be putting on a dinner for the elderly at my mom's complex both Thanksgiving and Christmas days. We don't do the whole tree, gift, decorating thing and haven't for years, preferring to keep the emotionals needs of others in the forefront (ie, putting others first and not in "things."). Do I still experience stress? Yes, but the pressures of having to "perform" by giving the biggest or the best are eleviated. Caring for others puts the material thing to rest. The biggest stress I have is the rudness of the "holiday" shoppers which is sadly too frequent. So, I will shop in off hours this year, and keep my stress level down.

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3CATSLEP 11/17/2010 9:38PM

    I like the ideas you mentioned at the end of your blog!!! I hate to admit this, but Christmas just isn't my favorite holiday. I just want to shut my eyes and let it all pass and begin the new year. People seem to get really crazy around the holidays. I enjoy Christmas Eve like I used to spend growing up - going to the late service with candles lit and singing the old songs then opening our gifts after we got home with all the Christmas lights and candles glowing. It all seemed more romantic and cozy or something - more like a Silent Night :) I will be praying for you to get things done.

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IUHRYTR 11/17/2010 6:25PM

    As every year passes, having a big celebration becomes something I don't look forward to, preferring the quiet and peace of a small get-together. Maybe that's age speaking. I'm not sure. But the hustle and frenetic pace isn't me. Hope things work out for you. -- Lou

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BRANLAADEE1 11/17/2010 12:57PM

    The holidays are supposed to be fun. Stop doing the things you dont think are fun! If other people want them done and think they are fun, they can do it themselves!

My family always does potluck for the holidays. My mom makes the turkey and mashed potatoes. Everything else is up to the rest of us. She has a sign up sheet that gets emailed to everyone so we dont have repeats. We eat on paper plates and use plastic forks, so no one is saddled with doing dishes.

I even stopped having a big Christmas tree a few years back. It's not worth the effort. I still hang Christmas lights though, since I love those!

Definately keep a couple of days for yourself to do some pampering. And if things dont get done, they dont get done. It's not the end of the world.

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