Minding my own business on a bright sunny day in the little big city of Euless in Texas, USA I decided to log in to the Library computer. Noticing all of the kudos I wondered..."What's up!!!" A big smile was on my face as I kept saying quietly outloud..."OMG!!! OMG!!!" He loves to surprise me and He did through SparkPeople friends and more. What can I say? I am tongue tied which is baffling for me who is almost always long winded and if my blog was published each one could be 5 pages long...or more LOL but I do in humility appreciate the spotlight today. Happy is not a great word for how I am feeling today...I feel the word JOY exploding in my soul.
Words can't fully express the many thanks I owe all of you who voted for me to be the Spotlight Motivator of the Day--January 26, 2010. I am elated and bubbling with so much JOY I could burst and that would not be a bad thing to happen. Glory to God for all the love that has been shown on my page. Many blessings to all who past by my way and no that you all help me to motivate as you also motivate me each and every day. I love Spark so much and I truly love you all. This is not a journey that is full of pain but a journey of enrichment in every part of our lives. Let's continually enjoy it. Thank you from inside of my entire being!!!!!!
Sometimes we do things not realizing the effect it may have on our day to day lives. Other times we do things knowing the effect it will have on our lives. Why? Maybe because deep inside you our afraid of the change that is coming and you sabotage yourself to lose the battle that you have been fighting all of your life. Did I do this? Why did I do this if I did? Puzzle? No!!! I know the truth and the truth is I did every thing I knew how this year to get to my first goal of 145 pounds so that 2009 would be mine. Saying it all to rhyme and be a success. That did not help. So I missed my goal...again. I have been like this since 2007. I became a member in July but I did not start the journey by action until September. The weight came off as I exercised and lowered my food intake. More than that I logged on the Spark daily and kept my laptop on this site while I had it on. Then 2008 did not get to my goal but I had lost 50 pounds by the end of the year. Of course I had a couple of months where I gained and had to do double duty losing pounds that I had previously lost. I felt great because I had conquered quite a few demons that year and knew exactly where I wanted to go. Then here comes 2009 and the victory I thought could be mine. But it did not happen. Why?
I started the year running. I participated in many different forms of exercise and even started running as I walked daily. Pounds were coming off again and I had my food intake in control. I entered two bootcamps on Spark and that also helped with my success and team spirit. I really love Spark because this site was given to me by God to help me conquer this journey of a life time. I was able to log in each day. Then my laptop broke down and I could not log in daily as I had become accustomed to. Thank God there was a library close by but the time it takes to acquire a PC were long at times and the hour per session seemed to fly by so fast. It was hard to read articles or other people's blogs and then to blog myself. My momentum had slowed although I continued to racer toward the Finish line.
Then my birthday approached and on November 22 of 2009 I found out that it was not mine. Oh I lost weight and made great strides in my workouts but I still had many things to conquer with my eating and the inner voices that were not mine nor the Lords that did not lead me to do the right thing with food. I decided to become a baker. I checked out 7 cookbooks from the library and made the determination to make the best cake ever...and eat the best cake ever. I can't remember how many cakes I did make this holiday season but I tell all those of you who watch Paula Deen that her Gooey Butter Cake Recipe is the bomb and I think i ate 2 of them by myself. Thus that weight gain of seven pounds in one month November to December. So, I am stepping up to say I sabotaged my success this year. yes I did some great things too but I could have been closer to my goal if I would have made the cakes and let others eat it. I could have stayed away from butterfingers. I did not have to eat and eat and eat when I could not sleep and peanut butter was my weapon of choice during those nights. I kept it in my room. Handy to use against my weight loss thus far.
Yet I have the courage to confess and continue on this journey. I am not a superwoman. I can't do this by myself and I know that the Lord has been whispering in my ear to not eat this and stop eating that but I refused to listen. I heard that a hard head makes a soft behind and that's why I was not successful again this year. No, it was not just the cakes and pies and cookies I baked for the holidays. This happened when I decided I could keep sugar in my diet when I knew it was my enemy. It may be comforting to others and you may be able to eat just a nibble but I have to admit publicly that I can't eat just one tiny piece of cake or one of the eight butterfingers in the small pack. Addiction comes in many forms and mine is sugar.
So I welcome 2010 to start this again but this time I WILL WIN. I am not giving you a pity party but I am confessing what is true for the world to see. There is something more to me than what you see. I have to get this giant of weight off my back so I can do the things I love and go up higher in them and I can't do it without taking this weight off. Well, I can do it but I need this weight off of me. I don't desire to remain overweight and I never had. This is a gorilla on my back that I am taking off for good. I love you fellow Sparkers and thank you for all of your encouragements and kudos that you have given me. Success in weight loss is hard work and sometimes we will slide back. I thank my God that I did not slide back to the beginning. That would have truly devastated me.
So I am asking for encouragement from all of you my friends because I need you every day. My computer is still on the fritz and I am praying for a miracle because SparkPeople is a must in my life...in this journey. Without your help I can not finish. I know I have the help of multitudes and I say Thank You!!!
I am in this to win it and you can count on me to give you the motivation you need to get to your goals!!! God bless and lead you on your journey to success in 2010 because I know He will lead me the right way so that in 2010 I will WIN!!!
Hello Spark People!! I know you all are busy running forward in your journey to get rid of those pounds that you do not want around and I thank the Lord for His helping you achieve every goal.
Last Friday I heard from an old friend and he came over to see my son and myself. I had to go out to my parking area to show him where I was at. After he was in the house we caught up a little and then I cooked breakfast for the guys. We had a little conversation about how I was loosing weight. I told him that he had not been around to cook so the weight I gained from eating his food I lost and then some. He did not recognize me when I was out in the parking area and he drove by me. He asked himself, "Who is that skinny woman?" Well, you know this made a sista's day!
That's the best compliment to hear from anyone, especially a male. I am not that skinny yet but if it looks that way, Praise the Lord!!! I am so proud of the leaps I have made during this journey. I have been determined to turn up the fire because I know that it is in me to do just that. All of us have that power to get where we want to go. People are successes because that is what they choose to be. We should not let anything hold us back from reaching any goals. Not race, gender, religious beliefs, or economic environment. There is nothing impossible to them who believe. Take the first step and the next steps will be easier. I did just that and I am proud of where I am today. I started at a size 24 and some 26 but now I can put on a pair of size 15 jeans without laying on the bed to zip them up. That's a blessing and I only had 1 pair of jeans when I was a 24. If I can do it anyone can do it.
I still have some more pounds to lose but I will lose them and they won't be found by me again. Be encourage everyone and HAPPING LOSING!!!
HOLLA AT JESUS
I just want to give honor to God for my miracle daughter. 22 years ago the Lord blessed me with my first live birth...a true miracle. I was an uncontrolled diabetic and things were not going well for me or my baby. I was not gaining weight and neither was my baby. After my umpteenth sonogram, the doctor called me at work and told me to go home and lay on my left side because my baby was not thriving in the womb. She was not gaining weight. Friends...I was in my 8th month and this is not what you want to hear when you had lost your first pregnancy. I had to go to the doctor almost every week and I was on the diabetic diet that I never followed before. So, now I was losing weight each week. I tried to gain but when your body is used to eating more calories it only loses. I believe I was about 252 pounds before my pregnancy. The highest I have ever weighed!! I sent up prayers to God and called the Oral Roberts Prayer Tower. Then, I went home...well to my mama's house. I laid on her couch and ate Captain Crunch Cereal.
God helped me soo much and gave me what I prayed for. The doctor's were expecting a difficult delivery for me since I was diabetic. But God changed that. My prayers and the prayers of others were answered. My labor started when they burst my water. They gave me medicine for the labor to start too. At 5:40pm my 5lb 7 ounce baby girl actually slid out. The pain was non and void. God saved me during childbirth a promise that I embraced!!! Truly a miracle baby. The enemy tried to kill and steal the blessing of the Lord from me but he could not do it!!! Praise the Lord for His mercy and favor!!! My 22 year old daughter had no problems from having a mother with uncontrolled diabetes. They checked her thoroughly. Thank God for His gifts to the children of men!!! Please praise the Lord with me who daily load us with benefits!!! I love You Jesus!!! Happy Birthday Jacinda!!!
Luv to all of you miracle baby mamas!!!
In my second year with Spark and my journey to a healthier and fitter me. I pronounce that I will get to my goal weight in November and then will start on my management program. This is really a lifetime journey for me because I want to keep all the weight I lose off. There have been some bumps in the road but I continue on. I get up and keep on going because I can see what awaits me over the horizon. I am so blessed to be on a site like Spark where people are celebrated. That's the blessing from above. Thank you to all of my friends and admirers alike. I appreciate each and every one of you. I am inspired by many and will continue to cheer each and everyone of you on your journey to health and fitness. May God bless each member of this site and may you reach your dreams no matter what they may be.
Glory to God!!!