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"My Heart Poured Out..." My Psalm To The Lord I Wrote Today.

Friday, December 07, 2012



As I See The Dawning Of The Light
Do I Shrink Back As If It’s Night
Or Do I Run With Perseverance
And Cast Off That Which Is A Hindrance
He Gives Joy Which Is Strength
Increases My Life’s Length
Lifts Me Up Higher Than Pain
His Love He Freely Rains
Upon My Heart Deep Down Inside
I Take His Word And Safely Hide
For I Know What Makes Me Strong
I’ll Trust Him He Won’t Lead Me Wrong
He Placed All That I Need
Lovingly Inside Of Me
I’m Going On For There’s No Fear
I Trust My Lord…He’s Always Here
Now To He Who’s Faithful And True
My Love Is Ever Towards You
I Will Not Stumble Or Look Back
You Fully Supply That Which I Lack
In You I Live And Have My Being
With Eyes Of Faith I’ll Keep On Seeing
As You Lead Me In Your Way
I Walk In Victory Every Day
I See The End Before The Beginning
I Never Lose It’s Only Winning
In Christ I’m Seated High
Far Above The Blue Sky
I Will Not Lose Hope…Never
For You Are With Me Always And Forever!
By Deborah Edwards 12/07/12 @7:10 AM

HAPPY FRIDAY!
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BECKYLIZ 12/15/2012 8:52PM

    Beautiful poem from a beautiful person. Thanks for sharing it. emoticon emoticon

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BABY_GIRL69 12/8/2012 7:40PM

    Thank you Beautiful!!

God bless & keep you Deb!

Dee

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    Beautiful.

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What's In The Works For YOUR December? Here's A Little Taste Of My Goals...

Monday, December 03, 2012



Happy Sunday!!! emoticon It IS A Glorious Day!!!

How was your November? I lost 4 pounds! emoticon I haven't taken my measurement for this month yet but I can tell by my clothes that inches are going as well. I'm telling you beautiful emoticon male and female, it is a GREAT feeling when you are making progress and so close to a goal you can grab it with your hands.

DREAMS DO COME TRUE!!! emoticon



With God on our side WE CAN do ANYTHING!!! He Promised NEVER to leave or forsake us and God Does NOT lie! I trust HIM and I know that's why I'm making such tremendous progress this year. HIS timing is always the BEST timing! emoticon

Now...WHAT ARE MY GOALS FOR DECEMBER?

1. Lose 8lbs
2. Truly have a full day to REST from working out.
3. Write! Write! and Write some more on my BOOKS!
4. Add more toning routines.
5. PUT UP MY CHRISTMAS...TOMORROW! emoticon
6. Get some new clothes that fit!
7. THIS SHOULD BE FIRST BUT TO INCREASE MY TIME TO JUST LISTEN TO GOD!


I'm sure my list will change since I just compiled it this minute lol. I did already know I want to lose 8lbs of course because when I do I will be at my first goal weight. I do have a QUESTION for ANY or ALL who will answer: WHAT CAN I DO ABOUT LOOSE SKIN...BEST STRENGTH MOVES??? emoticon

I'm also going to blog more often because it helps me. It's wonderful for others to read it but doing this last stretch for this year I need to get things written down in public view because I want to be accountable for what I declare as goals or what I plan to do. That's what I enjoy about SparkPeople!!!

Keep Doing What Works For You! Log Your Food And MEASURE Your Servings!!! That Has Helped Me MORE Than Anything This Year. Log Workouts Also. I Believe More People Have A Problem Logging The Food Than Workouts. I Use To Never Log My Food Because I Didn't Like Searching And Searching For What I Was Eating. I Had To Just Do It For Me. It's Important To SEE The Actual Numbers. I Also Keep A Hard Copy Journal But It Does Not Beat Seeing Where You Might Have Went OFF The Plan.

Thank you all for coming by and Sparking. I appreciate you ALL!!! The Lord has Blessed me with a LOT of NEW Sparkfriends this year and I have the others hanging with me to keep me motivated and I always like to say THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU MY SPARKFRIENDS AND THOSE WHO JUST STOP IN!!! Very Grateful to God for each of you!

Let's AGREE to take this year of 2012 out with such a GLORY ring that People will see our smoke in Australia!!! emoticon emoticon

Lastly I want to show you a new picture of my grniece born 6/16/12 Mykah. I think this is such a beautiful picture! I praise God for her!!!


Many Blessings Upon Your Efforts To Get Healthy And Stay Strong So You Can Live Long According To God's Promise In Psalms 91:16: "With Long Life Will I SATISFY You And Show You My Salvation." 120 years People! (If Jesus Doesn't Come First!)

Love You All!!!
Deb
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BECKYLIZ 12/15/2012 9:02PM

    Good to hear you have had such great success emoticon emoticon

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GEMINIGEM6 12/6/2012 5:23PM

    Mykah is beautiful! I think you have great and attainable goals. :) Mine are to start working out at LEAST 3 days a week since I'm just starting back. I may do more, but that will be my minimum. I wish I could help you with the loose skin question but I've never lost enough yet to have to deal with it, although I'm pretty sure it's gonna happen cuz most all of my weight is in my stomach. It would be a purte miracle if I don't deal with loose skin when it's all said and done. I hope you get some answers that will help you! :)

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BABY_GIRL69 12/5/2012 8:31PM

    Glad you are still making moves & moving mountains....God bless & continued success!!

Dee

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MS_PERCEPTION 12/5/2012 12:41PM

    Loved your blog and emoticon being so close to goal!!!

Your niece is ADORABLE!! Oh my goodness, such a sweetheart!

Happy Christmas Month! Our Savior was born and Earth received the Most Glorious Gift! Praise to God for His great love!!! emoticon

P.S. A friend told me after shoe lost a bunch of weight that her skin eventually tightened up after a few months of maitenance, as if it was making sure she was done or something! lol

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LILSHINE 12/5/2012 9:43AM

    Great blog and beautiful baby. Great praise report and congratulations on your weight loss thus far. As for loose skin, I've read drinking your water and that it takes time for the skin to tighten and catch up to you. I recently heard that they recommend to those that have weight loss surgery or those that loose weight really quickly to give your body a year to allow your skin to tighten on it's own before having any type of surgery. I don't know... I'm not there yet. But I do strength train now in the beginning of my journey and I drink plenty of water to hopefully minimize loose skin in the future.

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KADULAC 12/3/2012 6:16PM

    Congratulations on weight loss in November. Great goals for December. Right now, if I can just maintain for the month I will be happy. At least I have started moving again.

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-KATHERINE- 12/3/2012 9:55AM

    emoticon Love your blog and your heart! Inspires me to give it God the glory all the time, with everything. Cute little grandniece too, how precious! emoticon emoticon

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SLIMINDOWN31 12/3/2012 1:09AM

    Love your blog and plan. Really want to honor God in the area of food.here's to both of us winning this battle!

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    Great Blog and a great plan. emoticon

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LIVING A THANKFUL LIFE DAILY!!!

Monday, November 19, 2012



I'm so grateful that we celebrate Thanksgiving here in the United States of America! But I make it a purpose of my daily life to Give Thanks DAILY!!!

Thank You Lord for waking me up to begin again and fall in line in areas I might have missed it yesterday!!! So grateful for HIS Mercy and Lovingkindness!!!



I give you thanks Dear Father for EVERY one of my friends who have made this journey a success for me. I could not do it without their love and support. You have put each of them in my life for such a time as this. GRATEFUL!! emoticon



Being Thankful should be a part of our being just as BREATHING! Wake up and BE Thankful! I thank my God for TODAY! I give Him ALL The Glory for He has Done GREAT Things! Thank YOU Lord for setting me in my place in the Body of Christ in The United States of America!!! So Grateful for that!!! emoticon emoticon

I thank Him for filling me with The Holy Spirit and giving me Wisdom in Understanding the Word of God and Believing It when I was just a child. Thank YOU Lord for my family known and unknown! For ALL the Gifts and Talents YOU put in me! So Grateful! You ARE Amazing!!! emoticon THANK YOU!!!

I thank you for SparkPeople! emoticon in July of this year. What a place to get help in changing your life around in every way!!! Thank you Spark Guy for the Wisdom God gave you to start SparkPeople! emoticon I thank You Lord for all 78 pounds I've lost since I've been here, every healthy vice I've acquired, for Loving Fitness so much that I have to MAKE myself REST! emoticon Thank YOU Lord that I have a better understanding of how I became overweight and for YOU leading me in the way to go to learn and have wonderful tools I needed to be successful! emoticon


This is what I aim to do daily. Take nothing for granted. God IS GOOD! All the time HE IS! Set us in Family's. Gave us LIFE when He didn't have to. That LIFE is JESUS! Thank You Lord for THE NAME!


So much I can say! I AM A BLESSED WOMAN!!! Keep thanking God and Our Savior For The GREAT Things They Have Done. ALL Because of LOVE!!!

God Bless You RICHLY Today And ALWAYS! It's HIS Pleasure To GIVE You The Kingdom On Earth As It IS In Heaven!
Much Love And Thanks For You And To You!
Deb
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GEMINIGEM6 12/1/2012 2:52PM

    Love this! Great blog! Always good to remain in a place of thankfulness. I have to remind myself of this often. I don't always do it, but that is the highs and lows of life! Lol.

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DOTTIEJANE1 11/24/2012 9:41AM

    Thanks for sharing ,we all ned to be thankful daily. What a great reminder .Have a blessed weekend .

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BABY_GIRL69 11/23/2012 6:41PM

    I am so thankful & grateful Deb! Thank you for sharing this blog with us!
God Bless,

Dee

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RSSSLHB 11/22/2012 8:13AM

    Amen emoticon God for Jesus Happy Thanksgiving

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KADULAC 11/21/2012 6:01PM

    I love your list of thankfulness. There is so much to be thankful for.

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ROBBGIN 11/21/2012 10:17AM

    Oh Deb, this was the most beautiful blog! I love giving thanks to the Lord because HE IS GOOD and has been so very good to me. So glad you wrote this. I wrote a similar one several days ago too! Hope you have a wonderful, thankful Thanksgiving with your family.

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SONYALATRECE 11/19/2012 9:11PM

    Thanks to God!

Sonya

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GODZDESIGN95 11/19/2012 2:18PM

    I got chills reading this blog. Praise the Lord for his blessings!

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-KATHERINE- 11/19/2012 1:47PM

    You are such a blessing. I am thankful for you. You are such a breath of fresh air, with your love for Jesus and God Almighty! Your greatfulness leaves me humbled in His presence. Thankyou for always sharing Jesus and his joy!

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A Personal Therapy Session & October Update(Finally) :))

Monday, November 12, 2012


December. About a month after I entered the world. Pretty! A long time ago...but not that long! emoticon

If only we could remain so young and innocent without issues or problems trying to tear us down. Yet God kept me for many years in His safe Haven of Love.
I wondered at times growing up why I was the “one” overweight. My sister was skinny and my brother was a normal size too. Both parents normal weight. So…I determined in my mind that I was SUPPOSED to be overweight…or FAT…as the other children would call me. How cruel and a mind altering word. FAT. Who was I? Why did they judge me because of how I looked? Why did I judge myself? If you notice, on my baby picture I was a lighter brown then I realized. Growing up I didn’t like mirrors and only stood in the bathroom mirror to do my hair or make up. But I saw a darker girl. Nothing wrong with being dark or light skinned. At the time I associated my skin color with my weight. I didn’t see that my skin tone was just like my sister’s and brother. Brown with yellow tones. I think it was the black and white pictures that eschewed my vision. I know I’m going left but I need to say some of this for MYSELF. Why? Because according to a scale I only have 12 (twelve) pounds to lose before I get to the weight of 145. Why has this taken me this long to realize that I DON’T HAVE TO BE OVERWEIGHT!???

2nd grade. I didn't look chubby to myself then.
4th grade and a BIG change! Why was that? There was something going on in my young life. Couldn’t tell anyone. Ashamed. Stressed out 9 year old. Wow. Ok…I remember this age was the start of being abused sexually. It didn’t stop until I was in the 8th grade. I was afraid to tell my mother or any other grownup and my mother didn’t find out until 2004. Never told her who or will I tell anyone who because they are deceased but they were not an adult just an older kid. I also wet the bed…a long time. So I’ m thinking I ate for comfort and friendship. Plus…food taste good!


This is me one year later in the 5th grade…10 years old. I became a “woman”! Oh joy! From the 4th to the 5th all of a sudden I had the biggest chest in school. Yes! Bigger than some of the teachers. Now…more teasing and laughter and pain! I was smart and that was a plus. I started writing poetry at this age. I also spent a lot of time alone in my room with make believe friends. Quiet. Trying to understand my life as the “fat girl”. I probably burned any photos I had of my 6th and 7th grade year. I remember starting to get pimples in the 7th but they were gone by the 8th grade. I enjoyed my 8th grade. Over the summer before I lost 20lbs. My doctor put me on a 1000 calorie diet. I was a sandwich eater…anything with a hint of meat in it I made a sandwich: spaghetti, beans (salt pork) etc. When she told me I only could eat 2 slices of bread per day and before 2pm I cringed. See, I ate most of my sandwiches at dinner and I didn’t know how in the world I would live through that torture. Yet…I lost 20lbs! My fitness was dancing and some toning I found in a book my mother had. I would go in my room and for 60 minutes dance to music I had. So happy when I went back to junior high almost my normal weight.
8th grade

148lbs in the 8th grade. That’s just 3lbs above my goal for now. Of course, I gained it back. I emotionally ate cookies because I was too afraid to talk to this 9th grade boy that I liked since 6th grade. He did talk to me one day in the hall but I probably didn’t say anything. I was still shy even with the weight off. A great thing happened when I lost the weight though…I told my abuser NEVER TO TOUCH ME AGAIN!!! emoticon


9th grade. I’m dating myself with this afro, but I’m still not that old! Lol My hair is my crown! Loved it. I wasn’t wearing makeup because my mother wouldn’t let me. I remember trying to put marker under my eyes in the 8th grade. Lol This year I got really close to God. I read the Bible from Genesis to Revelation. Loved to read anyway.

As I progressed I became a food addict. I would send my little cousins to the store or burger joint to get my “fix”. Most of the time 2 of everything. 2 pizza burgers, fish sandwiches, specials that included burger, fries and a drink, 3 Musketeers and even two Tabs. Wow! When I graduated high school my driver’s license said I weighed 190lbs but I’m sure that wasn’t true. They don’t weigh you at the DMV! Lol


Senior Year Picture taken in September so my hair style and look were different. I was in Cosmetology and my hair was a more attractive style when I actually graduated. I’m sure I weighed more than the 190 lbs though.

Finally! In October I lost a total of: 7lbs and 5 inches. My fitness stamina is growing and I measure my food daily. That’s the part that was missing and I started doing that in March of this year. I realize I had portion distortion as I grew up. Then it continued after I became an adult and had my own family. I’m retraining my thinking and I truly thank and praise God for sending me to SparkPeople. It’s more here than just losing weight. It’s the total package. I have high Faith and Trust in God and He uses tools like SparkPeople to get us where we need to be in our lives if we desire. 12 more lbs to go then I will play it by ear. Enjoying having to get rid of too big clothes. I tried to take a now picture the other day but my phone is crazy at times plus my picture has to look just right. I still have the CHEST lol so I’m working on not being self conscience. This is truly a dream come true. Praise God It’s Possible!!! emoticon
Thank you so much for taking this trip back with me. During the times of my childhood my mother was an alcoholic. I don't blame her for anything that happened to me. I know she had her own pain. I also believe that's why I never told her.
God's Many Blessings!
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SKUNKY4 11/18/2012 8:00AM

    Thank you Deb, for your honest, open testimony. You are an inspiration to us all. I am so thankful that you were able to find comfort and healing in our Father...(hey that makes us sisters emoticon) I'm happy you only have 12lbs to go. I'm sure it will come off quickly for you. Look how far you've come already. emoticon

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BABY_GIRL69 11/17/2012 7:36PM

    Such a testimony of you character...No matter what was done in the past we must move forward. Know our Father is a way to help us in this life & the next...

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LADYGSC 11/17/2012 5:53PM

    Deb - I am so happy that you have God in your life! He truly can take care of us through all things. You have come such a long way and you look so good! Be blessed and spark on!!!

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GODZDESIGN95 11/14/2012 11:33PM

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GEMINIGEM6 11/12/2012 5:49PM

    You story is so inspiring. Look at all you made it through. I'm so sorry for the abuse you went through and that you never told anyone. I wish you could have had a support system to help you get through that. Do you ever think of talking to someone about it now? Even though that person is deceased maybe you still need to get that out of you. I can so relate to the pics throughout growing up showing different weights as that's exactly what you would see in mine. I hated taking pics when I was younger for the same reason I hate taking them now. I never like how I look in them when other ppl take them NEVER. It's so interesting to hear other ppl's stories and journeys. I am so proud of you for all that you have accomplished. You a inspiring woman to me! Much love to you Deb! :) Thanks for sharing with us your personal story.

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KADULAC 11/12/2012 4:54PM

    You are a strong, amazing woman. You are doing so well. So many people would blame their circumstances, turn away from God, and wallow in self-pity; eating themselves into an early grave. You are truly inspiring. emoticon

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"LOVE MY NEIGHBOR?" BY ME ON 11/8/12

Thursday, November 08, 2012




"LOVE MY NEIGHBOR?"

He Told Me To Love You
But Why Should I?
Do I Care That You’re My Neighbor
Or This Is The Desire of My Savior?
Can I Just Hate You And Get Away With It?
They’re Only Words Not A Fist Hit.
Do I Have To Love Those Who Offend?
Is It Really An Ungodly Sin?
How Can I Follow Peace
With Another?
Really? Are They My Sister And Brother?
But What If They Say Things
That Aren’t True?
Do I Still Love Them?
Just Like I Love You?
Sometimes This Life Is Hard
Walking In Love.
I Wonder What All Heaven Thinks
As They Peer From Above?
I’ve Committed My Life To
Jesus My Savior!
Why Do I Have To Love My Unknown Neighbor?
Can I Just Hate Them? Trash Them Right Back?
I Shouldn’t Have To Put Up With Their Verbal Attack!
But..You Did Tell Me To Love Others As I Love Myself…
Father This Is Hard…I Need Divine Help!
How Can I Say I Want To Make Heaven My Home?
When Because Of People’s Offense I Want To Continually Moan.
It’s Not Worth Just Barely Getting In…
I Can’t Live In This Devil Founded Sin!
This Life I Must Live Full Of Peace For Others…
Treat Them As I Would Treat My Own Sister Or Brother.
I’ve Been Given A Seed Called Love
I Don’t Want My Father Grieved From Above.
It’s Time To Remember All That Jesus Said
Useless Words Fall On The Ground Dead.
I Will Not Play A Game Of Hatred And Strife.
The True Enemy Will Never Have Life.
He’s Doomed For All Of Eternity.
I Must Love If My Jesus I Want To See!
Forgive Me Father For Forgetting Who I Am.
I Can Love My Neighbor!
Yes Oh Yes I Can!




Don't Allow The Enemy To Cause You To Lose Focus As A Child Of God. His Assignment For Us Is Still The Same...WALK IN LOVE AT ALL TIMES. I Love You And Pray For God's Peace Be Upon ALL The People Of This United States Of America. We Won't Play The Enemy's Game.
Love YOU!!!
Deb
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FERGSGIRL2 11/13/2012 6:23PM

    Amen!

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HUZZAH39 11/8/2012 10:01PM

    Beautiful and Amen!!!! God has spoken several things to heart these past few days. My heart has been moved for those who have allowed themselves to be in despair when hope abounds.

Your poetic style reminded me of a friend I had that was dear to me. She is now with our LORD. It also is stirring my heart to go back to my poetry and writing. Thank you for being such an encouragement.

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BABY_GIRL69 11/8/2012 8:53PM

    Hallelujah!!! This is beautiful & we are all thankful that you shared this with us....God bless,

Dee

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KADULAC 11/8/2012 8:05PM

    That is beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

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