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Saturday, May 24, 2008

Well, hello fellow sparkers. Life is great. I am doing great. I am losing weight. Although my doctor told me to slow down. Frankly because I lost more weight than he told me too. Because I have some health issues that he has been treating, he has asked me to slow down. So I'll try. I think I lost weight that I had gained. I'll do more strength training and that way I can lose more inches. But the fact of the matter is, I can't help if I do lose weight because God is in control. I gave HIm control and what He wants to happen will. I am not doing anything that is life threatening. So all is well.

I guess the natural mind of my doctor is just being careful for me. I appreciate him for that. He wants me to lose the weight and after that, I probably will not have to see him every month like I do now. He does not care that he would be losing a patient. He wants me to be healthy and happy. That's the kind o doctor I like and appreciate. He is so proud of me. This is the same doctor that I gave the website address to. I have been spreading the spark all over the place. I let everyone know that without SparkPeople, I would not have lost the pounds.

God led me to this site so that I could get the help that I needed. The push to be as far as I am now. It is so amazing to me. 3 more pounds and I will be at 50 pounds lost mark. I can't wait to add that to my goals earned. That, I lost 50 pounds marker. Wow! 3 more pounds. I am over halfway to my original goal to lose 88 pounds. That's just based on how much I want to weigh.

I don't know how my body would look at 145 pounds. Will I be too skinny. I have bony legs already. Even before I started losing weight. I am top heavy. Have always been that way. I don't like it, but I guess...well I am blessed because some people pay to get what I have. Imagine that. LOL. Anyway. I know I am getting closer to the first finish. I call it the first finish because this will be a lifetime journey for me. I intend to stay fit and healthy for many more years to come.

I went home on Mother's Day weekend and the reactions from family who had not seen me in so long was priceless. I want to make that impression on everyone who have not seen me for a while. The smiles. The you are little. The looks...from men. Ok, I'll quit. I do like attention, but I don't act like it. You have to let the compliments come and they will.

Smile. That is always good to do. Look in the mirror and just smile for yourself. I have had to do this every morning in order to go to work. I thank God for His Grace and Mercy and His Love that is in me. Otherwise, I couldn't live in this world. I know I am a blessed woman in so many ways. God has truly been good to me. Jesus is the first Way that He has. There is more that I need to work on in my life and in me. I know that I will conquer every obstacle that may seem to be in my path. I will walk forward and I will not look back. I want God's best in every area of my life. I will not settle for less. Never!!! That is not an option. That is not an option for anyone. I can't think that because this is happening now, I just need to do what I can do. No other way.

Not my way, but God's way. Thy Will be done in my life on earth as it is in Heaven. Yes Lord. I choose Your Way every day Lord! Yes, I am making progress in every area of my life and I expect more wonderful things to come. God has been so good to me I just can't tell it all!!! Not now.

I love Spark and all the new people I have met online through this site. Thank You for being there for me no matter what. Thanks to all of those who love to leave me goodies that always make my day. This is wonderful. Life is wonderful. Getting healthy is fun. I am just too happy. Plus it's Friday and a long weekend. I will control my appetite, which is not hard these days. I will take that walk in the neighborhood park too. I jumped on that mini trampoline today and it really got my heart beating and sweat rolling. I felt so good. Have fun getting healthy. That's the only way to do it. Later!

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D710DANCE 5/28/2008 5:32PM

    You go Queen!!!

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Wednesday, April 16, 2008

I love my friends. I really do. They are a true inspiration to me and my journey. When I log on and see their progress I am proud, happy and encouraged. I think, they are doing I can do it. I am doing it. Spark...I started this journey wearing a size 24 and some 26 because of these 2 at the top. LOL. Now I am in a 16 zip up button up pant/jean. I don't ever remember wearing a size 16 in my life. Maybe in the 3rd grade. LOL. I owe this all to my Lord and Savior Jesus. Only through His help and Strength have I come this far.

I wanted to be closer to goal, but when it goes slow for some, it will last. I need this slowness so that I can revel in the end victory.

I am excited and nervous. I know I am gaining muscle because my numbers don't show my success. I know I am successful. I feel healthier and am more outgoing. Some people are very introverted when they are carrying extra weight. That was me. I still am walking through some things, but I know I am making it.

You see, my success was ordained before the foundation of the world. This is the time in my life to be all that I can be spirit, soul and body. I am determined to do just that. I will not let anything slow me down. I have to continue to tell myself that.

So many emotions are involved in weightloss. The agony of defeat...the joy of winning...slow weightloss. I am a winner already. I have jumped over so many hurdles. Life is great. No more pity for me. If you don't like me, see ya. emoticon

Not YOU Friends. emoticon

I have to give myself a pep talk. After all I am a beautiful woman emoticon and the opposite sex will be and are attracted to me. I just don't want to be a fool for love. I want what God wants me to have. God's best is always better than the rest. Sometimes we are just too hard headed to listen and look at what is right in front of us. And if you don't see anything then just keep waiting. A note to self: What do you really want? Whole or half? Self knows what I am talking about. emoticon

Friends, I appreciate you all.

Stay focused. emoticon

Drink water. emoticon

Get plenty of sleep and please... emoticon

do cardio. Any kind. emoticon

I know that has helped me to come this far. I have been slipping but I got my dancing shoes on and I am ready to burn, burn, burn. Is it too late to cardio? I did strength train earlier while watching Biggest Loser. They are all winners. Losing so much weight. They all look beautiful. time is so close.

I can feel it. How about you??

Let's Go Team! emoticon

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DEBORAHKT 4/22/2008 1:53PM

    I am so happy for you.

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M3NOMOFAT 4/16/2008 2:30PM

    Thanks for being the friend you described here...

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A Bad Weekend Emotionally, But I AM Blessed!

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

My weekend was the worse ever emotionally. I couldn't eat. Did not want to sleep and I felt so betrayed and dismayed. So, I went and bought a disposable camera and had my children take pics of me. In one of my teams we are taking pictures of ourselves each day. Head shots, body part shots, full body shots. What ever we want. We are studying these pictures and learning to love what we see. The leader questioned what is real? Why don't our pictures look like what we see in the mirror? What image is really what others see.
I have learned a quick lesson and this challenge just started April. I AM BEAUTIFUL!!! No one else has to believe that but me and God. That has been one of my problems through the obese years. Concerned over what people think because I did not cherish my NOW beauty.

We all have NOW beauty. Don''t let another stare, laugh or unkind remark make you think less of yourself than you are. God made us all special. I am special. You are special. Even that enemy is special.

This is my year of new beginnings. New ways of thinking about who I am and why I am here. I have a purpose and I walk in my purpose. I let my purpose be a driving force in my life. I accept my Purpose that God has ordained for my life and I go forth in it by Faith of the Son of God Who has already opened every door that I need to walk through for success.

Isn't life good? What's a bad weekend? One where God is not in it..


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M3NOMOFAT 4/9/2008 8:26PM

    Beautiful!What powerful words and what a witness you are of GOD's amazing grace! I love the counselor in you or should I say Counselor, Wonderful Counselor, Mighty GOD, Everlasting FATHER, Prince of Peace...Blessings of GOD to you...

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CBRANCH76 4/9/2008 9:16AM

    Beautiful! God Bless.


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SNAP!!! I have already lost 43 Pounds.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

I snapped and have already lost 43 pounds and only have 45 more to go. That's great. I have less than 50 pounds til goal. (This picture was Oct 07 and I was still wearing 24's.) I am celebrating and moving even faster. I want to taste the victory of enjoying life w/o wondering what others think of me. I will make everyone proud. I am an example of doing my best and losing what has been holding me back from my destiny. I know that I have sat down on what God has wanted me to do in areas that I have gifts for success. I will not do that anymore. I am fearfully and wondrously made. God did not make me a piece of junk. He thought before He made me.

He looked at me and smiled real big and said...She's good!! Heeeeeeey!!!!!!! LOL.

God said it, I believe it and that settles it.

My mother would have loved to see me losing weight. I would have loved to have her here, to chear me on. I miss her. She was a tough LITTLE woman, in weight and stature. But she did not take no mess. It's good to have a mama that loves you and cares for you and would do anything for you. I thank God for my mama. She's with Him now, but I know she is having the time of her life experiencing the Presence of His Glory!!

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M3NOMOFAT 4/9/2008 8:28PM

    Thank GOD that she is with HIM. I am living to see HIM too! Kudos to you for the great work you are doing. Inside and out. To GOD be the glory...

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WOLFKITTY 4/7/2008 7:02PM

    That's FANTASTIC! You're more than halfway there!

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NELSON071 4/3/2008 6:32PM

    You are truly looking good. I just dropped by to check you out and found all this good and exciting news....u go girl

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DEBORAHKT 4/3/2008 8:41AM

    I'm sooooo jealous!
You are doinig sooooo great!

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CBRANCH76 4/3/2008 8:29AM

    You are doing a wonderful job! God bless you!


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QUADCMOM 4/3/2008 7:48AM

    WOW!! Congratulations on your success. You must be feeling better also. Wishing you all the best and continued success. Julie

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ESMERLDA 4/3/2008 7:42AM

    AWESOME! Way To Go! It's a good place to be and you have a wonderful positive attitude.

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I Feel Like Rhyming!

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

I should be sleep but I feel like rhyming. That's my thing.

No pain no gain is often said

So, to Spark I was divinely led

To started the journey of my life

All the weight loss is not a hype

For I already lost forty-three

They won't ever find me

My face is focused, I'm looking straight

My goal weight is at the gate

I see myself as never before

Walking through that weightloss door

For I will be a light to many

Burning bright as a copper penny

I will not give up nor will I falter

I put this weight down on the alter

This is my year 2008

This is my destiny, no one can take

I see myself all firm and trim

Some may call me little slim

The best for me is yet to come

I am led by the Chosen Son

I will walk on in victory

For I have already won totally!!


Power to ya all!! The new pics really don't show my now transformation, but had to post something new.


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