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Making Progress Since Anniversary Date: 7/6/2007

Saturday, August 21, 2010

That's me when I graduated in 2006 from Tulsa community College. 233lbs

I was trapped or so I thought in a body that I couldn't do anything about...or so I thought. Had tried many times to lose the weight but then I started eating the wrong stuff again...and again. Food was my best friend. Never talked back or called me names. I went to food instead of His name. I had to repent for what I had done. I was living to eat and not eating to live.

So fast forward to when I found Spark. (Really led by God) Read an article about a great weight loss story in the Women's World magazine and found the website address from that article. I had the hook in my mouth. I joined in July but did not get real til the end of August. As I got used to all the great tools here I found my body changing and even my looks


I enjoyed the new me and the pounds were coming off. I lost my highest 50lbs in 2008. Some came back and they left again and then I let life get in my way but I kept on that track and got to this gorgeous size. From 24 to 16

eating healthy for sure.

Then fast forward to the end of 2009 I had been on this journey for 2 years and it was taking too long to lose the weight. I watched others who started with me lose and get to great goals and then I let it depress me in a way. I wanted this weight off of me TODAY!

I decided that I wanted to make a cake from scratch. This started in November 09. I started watching Paula Deen on the Food Network and then she made this:

I made this Pumpkin Gooey Butter Cake.
This first one my daughter and I ate it not realizing that my son had not eaten any. But we told him it taste great! emoticon
Then I started making one or more of these different flavors each week: lemon, pineapple, sweet potato, and more. I made all kind of cookies and homemade cakes and homemade buttery icings. And I ate a lot. I ate so much in the month of December I gained 7 whole pounds. emoticon

2010 showed up and I was still not at my goal. So I became so determined that I was going to eat properly and meet this goal by the end of 2010.
So I stopped the madness and cooking all the homemade sweets. I don't miss it. Sometimes I want to throw some flour in a bowl and make one but if I do I know I will eat it because I don't like food to waste. lol

My new outlook that I acquired just the other day while reading the blog from Spark Member: Yoovie, blog titled "What the heck is this Sexy Breakfast she is always talking about." I do suggest that if you need some new and different information to motivate you read this blog. It's wonderful and helps me to get my priorities in order. She is raw in some ways but I like her outlook on life. Basically she's telling us to love ourselves now and do what we need to do to get our bodies where we want them and no matter what we are well able to perform this action.

It's all up to us friends. It takes the mindset that you want to lose the weight and that no matter what you can do this. There is so much support here and others around us all. We have to reach out if no one is reaching out to you.

*You can't be a fly on the wall you have to participate in board post and post to members blogs after you read them.

*Record your workouts because you need to workout no matter what you think. Yes you will lose a little weight by lowering your calories but face it walking can be done by most everyone.

*Get up and eat breakfast. One of the hardest things for me to do. I'm not hungry but it's very important and that's what drew me to that blog-"Sexy Breakfast". What Yoovie is saying is to beautify your breakfast to make it eye candy. Thus I guess, the name "sexy breakfast." I like it and it helps a lot of people eat there breakfast.

*I'm making another effort to go to sleep AT NIGHT. I am so tired of laying down when I see the sun come up. It's possible and I will do it. (Well, the sun is not always coming up..but close enough)Oh, yeah..getting the 8 hours of sleep that I know my body needs.

*I will stick to my current workout plan and add as I see fit because it is working for me. I will continue Core Rhythms, Walking and Running, Belly Dancing, Strength Training, Core Work, Circuit Training and other Aerobic activity at least 6 times a week of cardio and 2 times or more of strength training. Rest at least one day a week for sure. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

*Mainly I'm determined to lose all the weight this year to make my goal by December 31, 2010. I owe it to myself. Now I'm not trying to get away from spark because I will need to stay here because I have some great friends on this site that I depend on for their support.
Thank you all!!!

I am so happy to continue to win this battle every day. When I get up each day it's another day that brings me closer to my goal and yours too.
I'm never giving up and I will reach my goal. No matter what. Like I always say, we are truly in this TOGETHER.
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Much Luv to All and Me too!
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LUNADRAGON 8/25/2010 1:14PM

    Isn't wonderful when you can look back and see how far you have come! Keep on rocking!
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CBARRETT10 8/22/2010 12:20AM

  You are a wonderful example of what you can accomplish with determination and faith. You are sooo close to your goal! Thanks for sharing and caring!

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JAISAN1 8/21/2010 5:17PM

    Good for you and your achievements! Thanks for the kick in the butt! Now I'm off to plan this coming weeks exercises!

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BABY_GIRL69 8/21/2010 3:16PM

    We've come along way Babe! We owe it to ourselves & the promise that is within us. I have promised myself to do this too by year end. . . . .I'm here for you anytime you need me.

God bless & thanks for sharing!

Dee

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SHADICAR 8/21/2010 8:36AM

    Great outlook on this journey and positive thoughts to help accomplish your goals. I wish you success along the way. emoticon

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EPIPHANYANGEL 8/21/2010 5:48AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonon your achievements.

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LET THE WORLD OF SPARK KNOW...

Sunday, August 15, 2010

SATURDAY AUGUST 14 WAS MY DAUGHTER'S 23RD BIRTHDAY. I SPOKE TO HER AND BLEW UP HER FACEBOOK PAGE BUT DIDN'T GET TO SEE HER. SHE'S MY MIRACLE BABY. I'M SURE I SHARED BEFORE BUT I WILL TELL IT TO THE WORLD EVERY YEAR OR MORE.

WHEN I WAS 8 MONTHS PREG MY DOCTOR'S CALLED ME AT WORK AT TOLD ME TO GO HOME AND LAY ON MY LEFT SIDE BECAUSE ACCORDING TO THE LAST ULTRASOUND(WHICH I WAS GETTING ALMOST EVERY MONTH) MY BABY WAS NOT GAINING ANY WEIGHT. SHE WAS PROBABLY ABOUT 1LB. BEING DIABETIC THEY WERE FEEDING ME ON THE DIABETIC DIET SO I WAS LOSING WEIGHT EVERYTIME I WENT TO THE DOCTOR.

THIS IS ANOTHER REASON FOR THOSE WHO ARE YOUNG TO FOLLOW DOCTORS INSTRUCTIONS WHEN YOU HAVE DIABETES. ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU WANT TO HAVE CHILDREN. ANOTHER REASON TO TAKE OFF THE EXTRA WEIGHT TOO. SO I WENT TO MY MOTHER'S HOUSE AND LAID ON HER COUCH AND ATE...CAPTAIN CRUNCH CEREAL. NO KIDDING.

I NEVER BROKE WATER NOR WENT INTO LABOR. MY BIRTH WAS PLANNED AND HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED A TRUE PREGNANCY TIME. ALWAYS GOING TO THE DOCTOR. GETTING BLOOD SUGAR UNDER CONTROL. MAKING SURE I'M EATING ACCORDING TO THAT DIABETES DIET. EVERYTHING WAS RUINED FOR ME BECAUSE OF THE DIABETES AND THE EXTRA WEIGHT. II WAS LOSING WEIGHT BECAUSE I WAS NOT EATING THAT FEW CALORIES. IMAGINE THAT.

THEY HAD ICU WAITING FOR MY DAUGHTER WHEN I WAS DELIVERING HER AND SHE SLID OUT. PERFECT IN EVERY WAY WEIGHING 5LBS AND 7OUNCES. MY BEAUTIFUL FIRST BORN. DIDN'T HURT AT ALL...PRAISE MY FATHER!!! Didn't HAVE ANY PAIN MEDS EITHER. SHE JUST SLID OUT.

SO WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY IS LOSE THE WEIGHT BEFORE YOU GET PREGNANT IF YOU CAN AND HAVE YOUR BLOOD SUGAR OR WHATEVER AT GOOD LEVELS. A PREGNANCY IS TO BE ENJOYED AND OF COURSE YOU WANT TO SEE YOUR STOMACH GROW. LIKE I SAID...I DID NOT HAVE A NORMAL PREGNANCY SO MY STOMACH DID NOT GROW...BUT GOD BLESSED ME WITH A BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL...HEALTHY AND THRIVING NOT JUST SURVIVING.
THANK YOU JESUS!
SORRY FOR THE CAPS BUT I JUST WANT TO SHOUT IT ALL OVER THE WORLD.
AIN'T GOD GOOD? ALL THE TIME!!!

That's my Daughter with her hair cut short. She's a hard worker and I am so very proud of her. Got her own apartment when she could have stayed with me. I wasn't mean either...lol.
Jacinda is her name and she is a Blessing!
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BABY_GIRL69 8/16/2010 3:41PM

    DEB! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonCheers! Well I to do understand the blessings of the birth of a daughter & son. There is such a huge difference. We will celebrate her 24th birthday Friday August 20th. She is married, 5years now & my grandson. So we will have to share in celebrating her birthday with her extended family. She is a gift in my life & I celebrate her everyday. She just enrolled in college to finish our her last 2 years. I too & proud of her & some times I wish she were home but I know life goes on.

I love you & God bless you & your family!!

Enjoy her birthday month cause that's how we celebrate birthdays. Oh, we didn't get to the basement. Husband went bike riding & my son took his grandmother on a few errands. So hopefully we will start Friday since I took that day off. I will probably take my daughter out on Thursday to a lunch & maybe Brookfield Zoo? I always love the zoo but my attention span isn't worth much cause I'm ready to go do something else. lol

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"The Toothache From Hell"

Saturday, August 07, 2010

Disclaimer: I do not accept responsibility for any accidents that may occur during the reading of this Blog. You read at your own risk. emoticonHere goes...

I contemplated doing a Core Rhythms workout, but that all changed when I woke up on my carpeted bedroom floor...


...earlier in the week I had been nursing that crazy horrible toothache. Standing on the Word of God. I was really standing once I found out how much it would cost me to get the culprit extracted. They nor I knew that I had an abscess(which I did) so the prices I was quoted would be way too low for a "root canal". Doesn't that make your teeth hurt just reading those words, "root canal"?

Well I have been very brave the last couple of days as I took every pain pill I could find in the house; known or unknown. Dang!!! I needed some relief. Couldn't sleep and kept waking up with the worst pain in my life...I rather give birth to a stick with rusty nails attached. I touched the temple of my head and I could feel the beat of the blood vessel.

"Father what did I do?" I cried out in anguish. No answer. Ok I thought to myself. Sorry Lord...I know you don't roll like that. I'm forgiven I said inside. Two days later I wake up looking like half the Godfather. The left side of my jaw is swollen and it took me a few hours to notice it. It did feel heavy once I awakened at !:33 p m on a Tuesday afternoon, sprawled across my bed as if from a night of drunkenness.

"What the...?" I spoke loudly looking around my bedroom. Light on. Computer not closed. Feeling like I'm crazy. Is this what standing in faith is. I remember taking pills all night long. Crying like a 2 year old. Calling for my mama who is with Jesus now. Almost drinking rubbing alcohol as I drenched cotton ball after cotton ball with it. Then it happened. I saw myself in the bathroom mirror.

"What the ...!" Again, my jaw had grown bigger. Like the Blob but from the inside out. I finally was forced to go to the ER since I waited too late to get in to see a Dentist. It was cold and uncaring there. I laid on the table as if I was already a stiff ready to be embalmed. No one offered me a warm blanket, (there was not one anywhere in the cold room), except the Unit Secretary. That's not her job. The doctor did not touch my swollen jaw, but feigned listening to my chest. She mumbled something about she could not give me pain meds bcause it was a hospital....but I prayed for her at that moment and kept my hand on my aching left temple praying to God to not allow me to die from a toothache turned aneurysm because I did not have any burial insurance. Plus I was too young to die.LOL

The male nurse came in with a bunch of antibiotic pills. I asked if they would take away my pain. Don't remember what he said. I cried after he left out because why in the...did I come to the ER. I could have turned my A/C on 60 and laid in my hallway and cried at home if that's what I wanted to do. Where was the customer service. Did not see that "doctor" again after she walked off spouting off something about "free dental care",which was something I didn't believe.

So then my blood pressure blew up to 232 over something and my blood sugar was 270 and I hadn't eaten anything but 1 small container of FFchoc pudding 80 cal and earlier some tuna...very little. So they give me a high blood pressure pill. We wait for my son to come pick me up and I'm discharged angry that I wasted money and missed the evening message at the Southwest Believer's Convention. That would have been better medicine than what I got. My nurse was overall fair. They were just too busy w/not enough concerned staff working. They even had my finger pricked twice by 2 different aids. I didn't say anything. That prick in my finger would turn my mind off of this murderous pain in my head.

I guess the nurse reported my painful looking red eyes and my #"10" pain scale although it felt like 100. Then the nurse come and give me this last shot in my behind. I sat in a chair waiting to feel great like when I had back pain and they would give me a shot. All I really felt was dizzy.

...thus ending on the floor in my bedroom. It was really deja'vue. Not my first time fainting. It happened to me in late 2007 but it was because my blood pressure was 82 over something. Crazy hugh? Some how I will find the right dentist if my Divine healing does not happen. I believe every Word in The Bible. I really wanted to do Core Rhythms. I should have tried earlier in the day. Wonderful workout.

This toothache from hell will not wear me down. I'm strong in the Lord and I'm keeping my armor own. I just have to make sure I'm steady if I need to leave my room tonight. I thank God for the angels because I could have really been hurt.

I'm trying to find humor in the entire situation...I told my sister if I go into any type of coma please do not take me off life support and sue that hospital! emoticon

And I do sympathize with the hospital ER because I worked in the best ER in Tulsa Ok on the night shift and I know what it feels like. This hospital could have tried harder. To them my pain was nothing for them to worry about. To me it was pure torture. Oh, yes...I was not cussing every time I did ...but some would have.

  
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LUNADRAGON 8/11/2010 7:10PM

    Gentle hugs emoticon - I have had a root canal and it is painful to the pocket - and the physical pain can't be much worse than what you are suffering now. I hope and pray you get relief soon. That tooth infection really does need to be addressed. I pray for your relief.

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GREEKGAL1 8/9/2010 1:46PM

  I can feel your pain. I spent several nights awake with such pain that I couldn't believe possible. Once I started taking the antibiotics, the infection went away and I felt better. Then I had to have a root canal. I have had four total and it wasn't the worst thing that I've ever been through. The tooth pain was much worse.
Good luck and hope you feel better soon.

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CBARRETT10 8/7/2010 4:43PM

  Good news; once the tooth is extracted no more pain, and what a relief! emoticon Bad news; until that happens you're due for more PAIN! emoticon I know cause I've been THERE! I pray that it will all be over soon! emoticon
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A Great Month For Me

Saturday, July 31, 2010



Well another ending to a successful month for me. I am so excited about August because even more great things will come. I have had an epiphany and know that I will be at my goal by the end of the year. I kind of snapped and realized why I stayed overweight growing up

I thought that I was destined to be overweight and there was nothing I could do about it. So, I didn't. I ate what I wanted and enjoyed everything I ate. I grew up eating food that others would frown their nose at so when I was able to buy what everyone else was eating...I did. I remember eating 2 of everything. 2 snickers, 2 fish sandwiches, 2 pizza burgers and even drinking 2 diet sodas. LOL

I can see my expected successful end. It's a good day to be alive. I am doing great strides in my workouts. Then my sister come pulling out Core Rhythms she had in storage at my home. Duh! But I am so blessed to have this set of DVD's that I have been dreaming of for months. Thank God that He gives us the desires of our hearts.

Ladies and Gentlemen I will have a wonderful August and will outdo July. Things are looking better for all of us. It's a mind set. It's what we see ourselves as. All those years I saw myself as the fat girl. I don't see myself that way anymore. I am beautiful NOW. And I will be just down right GORGEOUS then. Go for the Gold and keep your eyes on the prize because you can do anything that you imagine. Dream BIG!
I luv you!
Deb
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TYSON_INGA 8/3/2010 6:01PM

    great job!

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BABY_GIRL69 7/31/2010 6:35PM

    This is so great! I am encouraged because of your sparkness. I know exactly what you mean but in reverse. Once I had kids I gained weight & it seemed like I would lose only so many pounds & then gain. I still the pregnancy perception in my mind eat whatever I wanted. So I do identify with you completely.

God bless & August will be awesome too!

Dee

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CAN'T GIVE UP NOW!

Sunday, July 25, 2010



I can't give up now. Even when I weigh myself and the scale goes south, I know that it's just an estimation of where I'm at and will not ever allow it to make me get depressed.

I won't give up. Even when I eat a piece of cake then follow it with another piece. Yeah, I like sugar but I shouldn't eat cakes and pies. Fruits are better for me. But tell that to my hormones. emoticon

Never gone give up because I have to meet my goal by December 31, 2010. I heard that slow can be better but I'm working hard to meet this goal this year because that's why I've been here. No turning back nor taking the slow route. I'm getting my goal because in 5 months I can do wonders!

Don't give up. Keep on moving towards your goals. All of them. Make them reachable. Make them simple. Don't beat yourself up. Praise yourself for sticking to your workout plan. Eat an extra apple when you by pass Aunt Koki's peach cobbler and fried chicken at Sunday Dinner.

Have a party before you reach your goal. Treat yourself like that beautiful person you are. Nothing stands in the way of our goals but US. We can do this if we really want it. I want it and I need you to want it with me.

I'm here for you so don't be afraid to ask me to holla at you more often. We do unto others as we want to be motivated. Our mission is to meet our goals and to help others do the same.
I love Spark and the people here and we all can meet our goals in our own appointed times. JUST NEVER GIVE UP!
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BABY_GIRL69 7/28/2010 3:01PM

    I Love this blog!! Thanks for my inspiration for today! God bless Deb! Luv! Dee

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CBARRETT10 7/27/2010 6:34PM

  You've taken the words right out of my mouth! emoticon
Even if we fall, we do get back up to continue the journey!

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MFFNSLYR 7/26/2010 12:08AM

    Very well stated.

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PEGLYNN 7/25/2010 11:52PM

    You can do it!

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