Wednesday, April 07, 2010
I find myself at times being lost in thought about my past failures and mistakes or even the past failures and mistakes of others around me. As a Christian, I know that I am to forget the past and look forward towards the great Future in Christ. I pray about this a lot because I don't want the past to hold me back from the Glorious Future that is promised me and all Christians who believe the Word. I don't have to wait until I'm in Heaven to live a great life. I should be living that great life before I get there. I truly believe that.
I realize that I have this in my hands. God has given me the choice to listen to His Words written and spoken by the Spirit in me. The Just shall live by their faith. We are admonished throughout the Bible to have the Faith of God. Believe what He says. I do believe. I don't like that I look back on my past and get down in my soul and depressed in my spirit. That's not faith. Things happened to me that certain songs I hear bring out tears and pain. Sometimes I can't remember what happened in my life that makes me put my hands to my ears as I hurriedly turn the channel because whatever it was still hurt.
I believe that this weight problem that I have had since I was in 4th grade is because of certain things in my past that caused me to use food as my friend and love. We all have things in our lives that we don't understand at the time, then there are things that you may wonder, "Why did this happen to me?".
I am determined to let go of all these negative issues from my past. Things that happened in my childhood and adult life have brought on times of sadness as I lingered in thought on them. This does not have to be. I do not want to remain overweight for the rest of my time here on earth. I don't won't to wait till Jesus Returns for my body to be changed. It's up to me to do everything I can to change my body now. It's possible.
I've been in a state of maintaining the loss pounds for such a long time. I have to sit back and re-evaluate my system that I am using. I have had bad days when it comes to eating. I know what I am doing and it's me sabotaging my own success. It's like something crazy inside of me can't stand to get to the goal weight. I can't allow this to keep happening to me.
So, I am bringing this to the public. I am letting go of my past mistakes and failures. I will no longer linger in the past so that I can cleanse my mind from those memories that make me uncomfortable and brings on emotional eating. I am delivered from the past that is filled with pain. I am a great success!!! I deserve to obtain the body that my heart desires. I love myself now and I will love myself then. My past is the past and it can't cause me sadness and pain anymore.
I am determined to walk by faith an I believe that God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit are helping me every step of the way. I thank every member of SparkPeople for the motivation that I receive from you all. This site is a blessing to me and I know I would not be this far if it was not for God leading me here. It wasn't by accident that I have come to be a member of Spark since 2007. This site has given me friends, tools and weapons to use to be a success in this weight loss journey. Not only do I get to lose weight, but I gain good friends that I have never met in person but who are backing me as I use each day as a stepping stone to success in every part of my life.
Thanks to all the great people who created Spark and all of you who are as I am, on a journey to reclaim our lives in every way.