Well...I'm Sparked!

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Hey strangers! I am so sorry I haven't been on my page to update in awhile. Work has been a crazy transition and I am really trying to limit my computer time and have more family time and time to myself. I have returned to the super-hard-core-nerd that I am and have been devouring books lately and loving it! Its times like this when you realize passions and I am rediscovering my love for reading AND finding a new passion I had never thought I had.

I took the boys to the library a few weeks ago and we all got new library cards. My first check out was a book by Alicia Silverstone called The Kind Diet and another book called Green Goes with Everything by Sloan Barnett. I am about to finish both and think I have awakened something in me.

I think its time to get clean....

I need to clean my body with healthy foods and exercise. I need to clean my way of living and start thinking about how my choices affect others. I need to clean my spirit and deal with the baggage that I have been carrying around for years and finally let go. I need to get clean...period.

I'm taking baby steps and making small strides but at least the steps are foward and I am sparked and loving it!

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Back Sliding

Monday, August 27, 2012

...and I am falling back fast. I've gained back the few pounds that I had lost and am back on the coffee/sugar kick. It's awful. I was doing amazing too! I was juicing every day and then my abdominal pain hit hard again which came with severe migraines and I've always used caffeine to combact my migraines. Yesterday afternoon I spent almost the entire day on the couch feeling sorry for myself and wasn't even prepared for the boys first day of school this morning.

We woke up late, got to school late (in the pouring rain which made the delay even worse), forgot to give the boys money for lunch, no breakfast for any of us, and I was an hour late to work.

Luckily work has been slow which has given me a chance to reflect on this morning and where things started to go wrong. When I feel that pain I don't want to do anything because I am hurting so bad. I start feeling sorry for myself and I start to spiral out of control. Before I know it I am back to square one again and feeling defeated.

Today I choose not to feel defeated. I am choosing to learn from my mistakes and start all over again. So what if I blew it the first time. The important thing is getting back up and trying again.

Today I am going to replace my coffee with green tea. In my mind I am going to tell myself that I feel amazing amazing though I really feel like I am falling apart. Tonight after I pick up the boys from school I am going to go to the gym. I'm sure my workout will be sad but any workout is better than none at all. Today I am going to take care of business-even if its only for today....

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Getting Juiced & A Sugar Free Update

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

I finally did something I have been debating on for awhile now...

I BOUGHT A JUICER!!!

I am super, duper excited! I finished the juicing chapter in my Crazy Sexy Diet book and after some puppy dog eyes to BF and a look at the ol' finances (oh and all the oh-so-fun research) I settled on a modestly priced Breville juicer. It's going to be at least a week before it gets here but as I impatiently wait I will do more research on some yummy juice recipes. Anyone have any they want to share?

~**~**~**~**~**~ SUGAR CHALLENGE UPDATE ~**~**~**~**~**~

The challenge is going fantastic!! It is amazing what you can do when you put your mind to it. Have I slipped a few times? Yes. I am human and going cold turkey is next to impossible. I have decided that if I want something then I am going to give in. Me depriving myself has only made me binge in the past so allowing myself a small treat is not going to kill me.

I am on my second week and am definitely going through withdrawls. I have been cranky, fighting migraines, and OMG the acne! I've never struggled like this before. Seriously...it's awful. BUT I know this is just my way of detoxing all that blah out of me so I am pushing along and focusing on the prize: a vibrant, healthier ME!

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No More Sweets For This Sweetie!

Thursday, July 05, 2012

So, I've pretty much tackled the caffeine issue. I now have my green tea every morning and I am treating myself to one Starbucks vanilla latte every Friday as long as I've been good that week which so far I have...so guess who is getting a treat tomorrow? This gal!! :)

Now it is onto my second eating hurdle: sugar

Chocolate is a biggie for me. I do love all things sweet but chocolate is my weakness, no doubt about it. I love all kinds and lately I've been having at least one candy bar a day for lunch and cookies or something chocolatey after dinner. That might not be a lot for some but I do not like the feeling of being addicted to something and besides chocolate is not on the clean eating menu and I am determined to be "as clean as I can be" by December. :)

I am a competitive person by nature so today I joined the Official Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge!!! www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp I KNOW I can do this and knowing that I am doing this with fellow Sparkers makes it feel even better. I do wish I had more support at home but I'll take what I can get. Maybe seeing me making healthier food choices will rub off on BF and my very-pickly little boys.

Is anyone doing the Sweet Tooth challenge?

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Just Plain Exhausted

Monday, July 02, 2012

I can't seem to wake up! I'm not sure if its the no caffiene or what but I cannot wake up! The past two days I struggle to keep my eyes open! I sleep through the night and get my 8 hours but I still wake up feeling super groggy and like I'm having some sort of out of body experience. My boss was complaining earlier that she is feeling the same way. So...I relapsed. I had my Starbucks Skinny Vanilla Latte...and I feel exactly the same! I was hoping the caffeine boost would help a little bit but to no avail. Not sure what is wrong with me but this is NO BUENO!

My plan is to hit the gym and get a little stairmaster on tonight. I also want to try to do some P90X after a light dinner (been feeling nauseated all day too) if I can gather the energy. Doing something is better than doing nothing so even if its just the gym well..then its just the gym and cardio and that's OK!

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