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Back To School aka Finding A New Routine

Monday, August 26, 2013

I am sitting here with my 2nd and 3rd graders after their first day of school fighting them to do "homework" (all I'm asking is for them to write about their first day of school and I am getting the biggest fight. Oy!).

L and me have decided that I should get off work early and pick the boys up from school instead of putting them in an after-school program. I love that I am going to get to spend more time with them but today has not been what I've expected. I am realizing quite quickly that the routines we had over the summer and the last school year are not going to work. It's time for new routines.

My goals for the 2013-2014 school year:

1. Somehow magically get my children to LOVE homework
2. Start making dinner every night and having a sit-down family dinner
3. Find time to get a workout in
4. Get better at meal planning

I'm sure there's more but my 3rd grader is actually crying because "writing is too hard". If he had any idea, huh?

Happy back to school to all you parents out there!

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BEBOP4ME 8/26/2013 6:53PM

    emoticon we are trying a new routine this year too!

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I'm A Loser

Saturday, August 03, 2013

A loser of INCHES that is!!

I have been really bummed because though my workouts have been more consistent this past month and my eating has been on a better track the scale has not moved much at all in July. I want to get out of the 150's SOOO bad but I've been reading so much about how when you first start strength training that the scale might not move or even go up but its because you're gaining muscle so I shrugged it off as best as I could.

Today was measurements day! I've been trying to measure every 1-2 weeks but July was crazy so I haven't measured since the first of the month and after one month though on the scale I've lost one measly pound I have lost over 4 inches all over my body!! What I find odd is that my clothes aren't really fitting that different though. Strange. I think when I gained this last time I gained in places I don't normally gain and maybe that's why?

I don't know. All I know is that I am losing and my scale is a liar. ;) Haha!!

I'm celebrating by going out to dinner with my amazing husband and then hitting the gym for a killer workout.

Enjoy your weekend!! emoticon

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JOURNEY1986 8/11/2013 12:09PM

    CONGRATULATIONS!!! That's so awesome!!!

That is exactly why I'm so pro measuring yourself! Think of all the people who would have given up when they didn't see the scale move - but not you! You're awesome!

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40PUDDLEJUMPER 8/4/2013 7:26AM

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ACTIVEMJC 8/4/2013 4:59AM

    YAY YOU!

Congrats. :-)

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JANTWO 8/4/2013 12:41AM

    Way to go!!!!

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VELMATULIP 8/3/2013 10:24PM

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GYPSYGOTH 8/3/2013 7:58PM

    emoticon Nice! We seem to be at about the same point. I was bummed the weight wasn't coming off as fast as I would like, but my measurements did change in the last 2 weeks! Yay getting stronger!

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What If I Stumble?

Friday, August 02, 2013

Hi peeps!

Sorry for the MIA but life has once again interfered with my computer time as it tends to do more and more lately.

July was a struggle.

I found out that my dream of having another baby would put me at too much of a health risk and sometime in the near future I will be having a hysterectomy. This hurts more than anyone knows but I am grieving it and will move past this stronger than ever. It has also made me so thankful for the two beautiful boys I have. I am choosing to be thankful and not dwell on what I can't have.

July was also awesome!!

I have developed a habit of training every day after work! I love how it makes me feel and though I haven't seen a weight change I do feel myself getting stronger and it feels wonderful! I still don't have a lot of energy but I think that's due to medications my doctor has me on. Blah.... I hope to get off those puppies by the end of the year so I can get my energy back!

My issue right now as I prepare for my upcoming surgery, besides the emotional toll its going to take on me, is am I going to stumble? I know I won't be able to work out for at least a few weeks if not longer and I am doing so great right now I am scared I am going to lose my momentum.

Has anyone recovered from a surgery and had the same issue? What did you do? I am definitely going to focus more on my food during that time and try to establish healthier eating habits but what about losing muscle?

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JOURNEY1986 8/11/2013 12:07PM

    I've been MIA camping in Maine without any internet service - I'm so sorry for the late comment.

I can't imagine the pain you felt - what you went through. I'm so sorry, but am also so thankful that you have children already before hearing this news and grateful that the surgery will help you with some of your medical problems. I'm not a mother so i can't imagine what this feels like.

My mother had a hysterectomy when I was in high school and she gained some weight, but not too much. She watched what she ate and knew some foods she wanted before she went in for surgery and it helped. I think she gained about 5LBS. But I don't know how much of that was side effects from the surgery that went away (swelling, water retension, etc).

Good luck with your surgery! I can't wait for you to come back after!

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VELMATULIP 8/3/2013 10:00AM

    Maybe don't look at it as stumbling. I'm sure you don't walk around your home asking yourself "what if I step on a Lego?". It would certainly be quite painful, but we move on and start walking around the house again. The worrying of failure can be worse than anything else for your health.

You're on a journey to getting healthier. Every day we're making choices of what to eat, what to do, and how to spend our waking hours. This surgery is a necessity for your health. Talk to your doctors (yes, plural) about what you can do while you're recovering and how you can slowly incorporate exercise into your daily recovery routine. Take time to heal physically, but more importantly, mentally. After all my health issues, that was the hardest lesson for me...recovering mentally.

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CAKEMAKERMOM 8/2/2013 2:00PM

    I have yet to meet someone who hasn't stumbled, especially at a time that is harder to take care of themselves. Knowing this is coming up and not knowing how hard recovery will be, you can prepare yourself with some frozen foods. Make some meals ahead of time that you can freeze easily and reheat instead of having to do a lot of prep work. You'll be prepared to get through this time if you plan ahead.

When you stumble, it's how you react to it. If you stumble, do you keep on going until you fall flat on your face, or do you catch yourself and keep on going with healthy habits the next meal? Every day is a new day to start over.

I'm sorry you're going through something so hard. emoticon

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CICI510 8/2/2013 1:49PM

    I think that's what I'm going to do too. Maybe this time will help me get more disciplined with my eating which I definitely need to do. Thank you SO much for your support!!

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TIME_TO_SHINE1 8/2/2013 11:57AM

    I have not had to recover from surgery while on my weight loss journey, I have stumbled. I stopped working out for an entire month. I just had no motivation at all. I kept tracking and drinking my water. emoticon Then on day I just got up and started working out again. So I think as long as you don't quit and when you are cleared to workout again start slowly you will be fine and we will be here for you. emoticon

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Back At It!

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

Yes I am back!!!

So, what was wrong with me? Sadly it was a severe panic attack and I have been diagnosed with stress and anxiety. Fun! The diagnosis depressed me until I realize it wasn't my heart! My heart is perfectly fine which means I can work out again!! emoticon

It took a few days to get my motivation back up but last night I had an amazing workout and feel pretty good today! I still have to watch how much stress I put on my body and myself but I am choosing to look at the positive and see it as me listening more to my body. emoticon

Right now I am taking everything day by day, sticking to my weekly goals, and not beating myself up for the small things but really trying to LIVE! That's what this life is all about right? I know where my stress and anxiety are stemming from and I am working on a way to get me out of that particular situation but until I do I hold onto the fact that the Lord is with me no matter what and will be there with me to help me get past this situation.

My morning workouts have completely stopped and I am having a hard time getting back into them but I know like before one morning it will click and I will be back full force. :)

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    When I read your previous blog, I had to read up on what your self diagnosis was. I read it and said, "Nope, she had a Panic Attack!"

What made me think that, I am crazy because of a 13 month vacation in the beautiful Southeast Asian country of Viet Nam sometime before you were born.

I deal with Chronic Depression caused by PTSD, Agoraphobia (if I can't get a table with a wall behind me in a restaurant, I have to leave - I can't stand to have a bunch of people at my back) and Anxiety Disorder.

Don't worry, be happy! You have just had a life changing event when you married and regardless of how happy that makes you, there are all kinds of different stressor's simply because of the change and even though they are happy changes. Sometimes our bodies just work at cross purposes to what we think they should.

I'm glad you had only a Panic Attack. At age 33 I had been working out, running and coaching my oldest son's Little League team and had nearly quit smoking. Started having breathing difficulties before one of our games and thought I might be having some sort of asthmatic event (my younger brother has Asthma). It continued to get worse, so I told my Assistant Coach to take care of things because Cherry (my DW of 42 years now) was taking me to the ER. They wheeled me in - no customers in front of me, started asking questions about how much alcohol I usually drank in a weekend, was I taking street drugs, blah, blah, blah.

My regular family doctor was out of town, so he had asked a friend of his, a Cardiologist, to cover for him. When paged, the Cardiologist had just finished seeing a patient at the hospital I was at and he came down to the emergency room.

He took one look at me, asked the ER doc's what information they had on me and went ballistic. "This drug and alcohol stuff is ridiculous! Do you see any yellowing of his eyes, and needle tracks in his arms? It's obvious to a first year medical student this man is having a heart attack! Get me .....a whole bunch of stuff.....STAT. Then he had me hooked up to the heart machine and saw the first wave of my heart attack and hollered at one of the ER doc's to get him some morphine, STAT. I guess he didn't move fast enough because Dr. Aiyer prodded him with a threat to report him to the state medical boards and said, "When I say STAT, you better have started 2 seconds ago! Are you deliberately trying to kill this man!"

I continued to have waves of this knife like pain and he kept giving me morphine until I had reached the max limit. I was still awake and talking, and he changed from morphine to Demoral to try and knock me out. The first dose finally lowered the pain, the second dose eliminated the pain, but I was still awake. He administered another and I finally got comfortable enough to take a short nap. He admitted me to the CCU, but when they started to move me from the gurney to the bed, my wife tells me I decided I was going to have lunch, even if I had to walk there myself.

My wife told me it took her, two female nurses and a 6'3" male nurse (a former Navy Medic attached to the Marines) to get me in the bed, tied down and get my IV's running. When they turned on the Happy Juice, I went out for three days. I finally woke up when they had downgraded me from critical to serious and shipped me off to the ICU.

I wound up having a cabbage (Coronary Artery Bypass Graft) with 4 arteries bypassed. I definitely wouldn't recommend one of those to a friend - I mean as an elective surgery. If it's needed, don't hesitate!

Glad to see you are doing better, I suspect I need to keep a closer eye on you.


Bob, AKA "Pops"

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CLESHER 7/9/2013 11:22AM

    The Lord is with you...turn the stress over to him, he will stress for you....

Glad you are back....

Life is to short....carpe diem...seize the day...


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Just When Things Start To Look Up

Saturday, June 29, 2013

Just when I start to feel like I am back on track something happens that comes and knocks me down and this time was pretty bad.

Wednesday afternoon I started having a horrible stabbing pain in my chest right after lunch time and the longer I wanted the worse it got and before long I couldn't breathe. My co-worker called 911 and I was taken to the ER where after 5 hours they told me it wasn't a heart attack but they couldn't tell me what happened and sent me home with an antacid because they thought it was gastro since it wasn't cardio.

It been a few days and I am still in a lot of pain and I feel defeated. I was getting up and working out every since day. I was watching what I ate and really starting to feel like I was on a good path and then this happens. I'm not trying to throw a pity party by an means. I am SO thankful it wasn't a heart attack and after going through this I realize just how important it is to take care of myself. It's just I am down and I'm not sure how long I will be down for.

After doing some research online I am thinking it is costochondritis and if it is then I will be in pain for awhile. I'm trying to see if it is someting that working out might help with or if it will make it worse. I'm used to being in pain but not the kind of pain that hurts to breathe. That scares me.

For now I pray that my spirits will be lifted. I know that God is using this for a reason so I hold onto that hope and pray that if it be His will I will be healed soon but depression has hit me hard and its taking all I have to even stay awake. All i want to do is sleep because when I'm asleep I am not hurting.

I will keep you guys posted and thank you to the ones that have already been praying for me. I feel so blessed to have friends like you.

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SAGE86 7/5/2013 8:42AM

    Get Well soon, emoticon

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CLESHER 6/30/2013 11:53AM

    Rest, do not stress and get well soon...


I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.....



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