Thursday, October 21, 2010
I am excited, scared, nervous, confused, excited, excited, and more confused...
I have been short listed for Lap Band surgery.
I have been participating in the health region's Doctor supervised Weight Management Program for a while. Found it a great help in trying to stay on track and exercise; eat right in order to lose weight. Having the support that is provided is phenomenal.
When I started there were 700+ Participants. All with Chronic conditions and meeting certain criteria.
This week 57 patients were chosen. I am in this number.
There will be 25 surgeries performed.
I do not know yet if I will be in that number.
I am divided.
I want this, have been striving for this for a long time.
BUT, I also am second guessing myself.
Have made great strides with the WMP and with SPARK PEOPLE. Losing slow, but still losing. I have been trying for years to lose and it is hard. Very hard.
With the Lap Band, I would be losing 1-2 lbs per week until my desired weight.
Huge lifestyle changes, even more so than I have made now.
One cup of food every 4 hours (3-4 times per day). Never drinking and eating at the same time. One hour before or after I can sip liquid (water, plain tea or coffee). If I try to eat or drink more than one cup of food, I will vomit.
There are a lot of benefits... and drawbacks.
It is one of the safest weight loss surgeries and I am soo tired of being FAT and unhealthy! I hate that..
I have an appointment with the surgeon Friday morning. An interview if you prefer, to see how good a candidate I am out of the short list. I can ask more questions and will be asked them in return.
If I refuse, I am at the end of my road. I would have to pay to have it done elsewhere. Here and now all costs would be covered by my health region and I would have regular support groups.
I also look at it as, it is reversible. But it is done with the intention of being FOREVER.
I think I should.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Should we be sheep or should we be the shepard?
When should we be walking behind, beside or ahead?
Different situations call for different actions. Correct?
Well, generally I know when and where to walk; when and what to say; and how and who I say things to.
I have now entered a situation where I am trying. Believe me I am trying. I believe 100% that it is meant to be good for me, but I don't feel good. I am starting to feel negative more and more. This is unacceptable. I have always been one to look on the bright side and carry on no matter what. I am starting to become physically ill, where only a few weeks ago I felt on top of the world, minus a few blood sugar lows. Instead of feeling a sense of going forward, I am feeling an uncontrolled rush of going backwards.
I don't mean to be melodramatic. My life is wonderful, in fact my hubby and I are celebrating our wedding anniversary as we speak.
I am referring to my Carb counting, my Diabetes.
I felt so much better and healthier counting calories and reducing my insulin. Eating way less carbs than I do now. I felt like I could do anything! I was on top of the world.
Now I am under a dietician whose only goal is to help me with my diabetes to control my b/s lows. But I am now at the opposite end of the scale with way too high sugars, I feel I have to eat and eat more carbs just to reach my 'minimum' carb requirement. I feel sluggish and foggy. All signs to me of to much carbs...
So when is it ok, to ignore a health care workers advice and go back to what you were doing and what worked for you?
I have been a carb addict most of my life. They are not a good mix for me in the numbers I am being advised to use. Instead of focusing on the good things I should be eating (veggies/fruits etc), I seem to be going for the wrong carbs because they will add up to what I 'need'. Why can't I go back to what and where I was and work from that. Wouldn't less insulin and less carbs ( more weight loss) be better than where I am now?
I don't think I would be listened to if I say this. But I am going to say this to her and ask for her help that way. This way is not me. What I feel I need to succeed.
If my dietician does not accept this. Then what?
When is it ok to do your own Thing?
Thursday, September 09, 2010
To Carb or not to carb...hmm.
Having diabetes I should know the answer to this question, however surprisingly I do not. I am learning though.
Many, many moons ago I think I did track carbs, then that fell by the wayside and I probably tried some fad diet or 'easy' fix instead. Of course that failed or only worked for a little while. I probably did nothing after that. Then finally I had the most brilliant idea of "Why not track my calories! That should work for me!"
Oh yeah just brilliant. Why shouldn't it work, it works for every one else! But a person with Diabetes (PWD) is special (and I mean that in a variety of good ways of course!). A PWD has to be very careful of how the food they eat is converted in the body. If it is, or has, a carbohydrate it is turned into glucose in the blood. This in turn causes our blood sugars to rise. If we have too much, we run the risk of going to high, and insulin dependant PWD (type 1 generally) will then have to inject insulin to counter this reaction. Pretty basic huh? Well being the PWD that I am, I have the opposite problem. I can eat the calories no problem, however I do not eat enough carbohydrate foods! Go figure! So the end result is instead of having blood sugars that are high, I continuously have blood sugars that are too low.
This means that while I am stuffing my face with foods that I thought were good for me to lose weight etc., they are actually causing me to gain or not lose enough.
If I understand correctly, because I am not eating the amount of carbs I need to maintain a good blood sugar, I have a low; Need to treat it with food/juice/or sugar tablets; which in turn causes me to eat more than I should, causing me again to eat above my recommended calories. End result = frustration.
But if I can get a grip on figuring out what carbs to eat that are healthy, with not so high a number of calories, I will come out ahead of the game. The good thing is that I have been able to cut my insulin intake down considerably. That is a very good thing for a PWD. As the more insulin you take the harder you have of ever losing weight. And Insulin Resistance is another row to hoe in the endless garden of life.
I will stress that I have made great strides so far. I am here aren't I. That is commitment and perseverance at its best.
I go to the gym and even have started working out at home on the days that are a little too hectic. I am losing inches on my body and my clothes fit better. There is progress!
So if you are a PWD, or not. You should consider the question in depth. To carb or not to carb? YES! All the way!
I will figure it out and I am sure if you have ideas that you would like to share with me, I would be most pleased and honored to take that advice.
Hugs! Happy Carbing!
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Hi Spark Friend (You know who you are!),
Thank you so much for your detailed response in regards to my Diabetic low of 1.8 mmol and how to treat hypoglycemia. I truly appreciate your time, knowledge and advice. Most of this I do know, i just find myself not thinking clearly and over compensating for my lows.
I am a type 1 Diabetic diagnosed for 20 years. They thought I had it as a child at the age of 3.
I seemed to have fallen through the cracks of life and with healthy living and being very active, I managed to live without insulin until I exited my teens.
Looking back there were obvious signs, but not seen in the right light and therefore undetected.
I should clarify that when I have my problem times with lows it is in the middle of the night (I do have lows in the day but seem more prepared to meet them without problem). I am already confused by just being asleep and not thinking clearly normally.
I manage to wake myself with internal alarms which I truly hope don't disappear over time.
I have juice to treat my blood sugar low, usually 3x more than I need and I am still in a 'eat or die' mode and continue to shovel until I can start to think more clearly. I then suffer with a too high sugar reading usually a little after or in the morning when I awake.
I am having more lows now that I have started to lose weight and am eating better and exercising more. I am also having more lows as my A1C was bad at 8.7 and my GP raised my insulin to combat this, not taking into consideration that I had already changed things on my own.
I have been playing telephone tag with my Endocrinologist and haven't managed to connect as of yet. I will try again this week. I have dropped my insulin levels and am continuing to do so. I know how to juggle, but sometimes guidance is a very good thing. Just even to know I am on the right track.
My husband usually sleeps through these and doesn't even register that I have had a problem until I tell him the next day. I really should just wake him to help me so I have assistance if I need it.
I hope to regain my health the best I can with a new healthy lifestyle. I have been a 'badabetic' for a long time and continued to live my life the way I thought I wanted to live it. I only realize now with more maturity, that I was wrong to do so. I have been blessed that I have no serious complications besides Glaucoma and with proper treatment and care I can lead a long and healthy life.
I truly appreciate having you as my new Spark Friend and look forward to your advice and hope I can help you in a way that you have certainly helped me.
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