Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Oh my goodness!
I got the call. I was one of 25 people selected out of 500-700 people to have lapband surgery.
I am shaking! I am happy and determined. It will mean alot of life changes.
Scared of my family's reaction, but hope they realize what this will mean to me.
Sunday, November 07, 2010
Hi My Friends!
It is a beautiful morning this gorgeous Sunday.
We are expecting snow tomorrow, not sure how much, but I am so not ready for it.
I am still waiting to hear about the Lapband surgery. I will know by the 16 th of this month at the latest.
My family is now telling me they don't think I should do this. That the changes will be too drastic. Things like 'eating'; meal planning; travelling will be harder; etc.
I am so confused.
I had decided that if I was chosen, I would go ahead with the surgery. Now I am experiencing huge self doubt that I have chosen the correct path.
The concerns of my family are my concerns as well, they were the things that I had focused on in my list of against vs. for.
Maybe I am worrying for nothing. Perhaps I won't even be chosen for the surgery. It seems like a lottery anyhow and my luck has always been low.
I do think there are others in the program who could benefit more than myself, but I don't know what the Doctors are looking at when choosing.
Either way, I am committed to weight loss and it helps greatly having wonderful friends like you my spark buddies!
I am making some progress, very slow but definite. I will continue to do so! I know if I become frustrated, I have Spark and I have you to fall back on. As I will be there for you as well.
Love you Spark Buddies!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
I am excited, scared, nervous, confused, excited, excited, and more confused...
I have been short listed for Lap Band surgery.
I have been participating in the health region's Doctor supervised Weight Management Program for a while. Found it a great help in trying to stay on track and exercise; eat right in order to lose weight. Having the support that is provided is phenomenal.
When I started there were 700+ Participants. All with Chronic conditions and meeting certain criteria.
This week 57 patients were chosen. I am in this number.
There will be 25 surgeries performed.
I do not know yet if I will be in that number.
I am divided.
I want this, have been striving for this for a long time.
BUT, I also am second guessing myself.
Have made great strides with the WMP and with SPARK PEOPLE. Losing slow, but still losing. I have been trying for years to lose and it is hard. Very hard.
With the Lap Band, I would be losing 1-2 lbs per week until my desired weight.
Huge lifestyle changes, even more so than I have made now.
One cup of food every 4 hours (3-4 times per day). Never drinking and eating at the same time. One hour before or after I can sip liquid (water, plain tea or coffee). If I try to eat or drink more than one cup of food, I will vomit.
There are a lot of benefits... and drawbacks.
It is one of the safest weight loss surgeries and I am soo tired of being FAT and unhealthy! I hate that..
I have an appointment with the surgeon Friday morning. An interview if you prefer, to see how good a candidate I am out of the short list. I can ask more questions and will be asked them in return.
If I refuse, I am at the end of my road. I would have to pay to have it done elsewhere. Here and now all costs would be covered by my health region and I would have regular support groups.
I also look at it as, it is reversible. But it is done with the intention of being FOREVER.
I think I should.
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