Thursday, September 29, 2011
Let me get this straight............
You are too busy right now to return my calls.... (not even to let me know if you are ok or not)
You have nothing in common with me anymore either............
You really don't care to hear about anything I have to say...........
You have lost all sense of human decency and what freindship stands for..............
I could go on....
But basically what you are saying is "YOU WON'T BE MY FRIEND UNLESS I AM FAT????"
I never, ever thought this would happen. I heard about other friends experiencing this, but oh no it won't happen to me! I poo-pooed this and wouldn't believe it. I am so sorry my friends if I was on my high horse and basically told you this could not be the reason that the friendship was failing.
I was wrong.
I am having a real hard time accepting that this is happening, especially from someone I have been close friends with for a very long time. From someone who led me to believe that I was important to them.
Yes, I believe I am (was) always there for them. To lend a hand or shoulder or just be there for them. I like to think I am the type of person who truly cares about you my friend.
I am sorry if I let you down. Maybe I talked a little too much about my weight loss lately. But can you not understand how important this is and just accept me and my hard work. You know if you had spoken and said that you had heard enough, that I would of shutup very quickly and NOT been offended.
But you being the 'close' friend should also know what my losing this weight truly means. Did you never listen when I told you my LIFE was at risk or did you think I was over reacting and being a drama queen? Have I EVER LIED to you????
I have not changed inside... I am still me... the one you professed to be friends always with. The one good enough to always listen and help you.
Why won't you help me??
Oh Sorry that is me being selfish again. What was I thinking!
Is it that I am ugly now? You can't stand the sight of me? Why do you have to make me feel like an awful person?
I don't believe I have ever made you feel bad. That is just is not me. I try to encourage you and compliment you and build you up.
So why would you tear me down?
I just don't understand.
Yes, I am busy with the gym and trying to eat right. BUT have I ever excluded you? Not made time for you?
No, I haven't.
I would rearrange my schedule in a heartbeat for you. Especially if you needed me.
Well, don't you understand what I am saying?
Let me say it plain.
I am hurting.
I need you.
I need my friends to help keep me strong and on track.
I don't need to be derailed now and fall into depression and binge.
I NEED MY FREINDS!
I NEED YOU!
Friends need only respond.