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Username change

Thursday, September 02, 2010

Hello all!! I just wanted to let all my friends know that I have changed my user name. While I assure you I'm still the same person, I need to reflect who I am now. So from this point on I will be CHRISTfiend because I love Christ and HE is my strength, instead of jewelry_lady who I was in 2008.

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MOLLYINMN 1/25/2011 11:21PM

    Hope all is well with you, the family and your mom.

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BUTTERFLY_MT 9/15/2010 11:38PM

    Ah, I see--yes, "fanatic" is the second meaning of the word...I guess I missed that when I looked up the meaning to double check my understanding.

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BUTTERFLY_MT 9/15/2010 10:36PM

    The definition of "fiend" is: demon, or devil, or "a person of great wickedness or maliciousness" (

Not to sound mean, but I came to your SparkPage because I was trying to figure out why you were so against Christ, not thinking you were for Him. That's what I thought when seeing your username. I'm glad that I found this blog post so that I understand what you truly mean.

I love that you want to change your username to more reflect God in your life, as well as the change by SavedByGrace95.

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GODZDESIGN95 9/10/2010 10:56PM

    I needed a change too I used to be do2heal. savedbygrace suits me so much better. Best wishes on your continued journey. take care.

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GRAMMAP1 9/3/2010 3:22PM

    I love your new name and your relationship to our Lord. That is a fine tribute to Him. emoticon emoticon in Him, Jane

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 9/2/2010 4:22PM

    Thanks for letting us know. emoticon emoticon

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Roller Coaster Day

Thursday, May 13, 2010

First of all let me say what a roller coaster of a day I have had! I started the day letting my homelife situation get me down. For the new dragons, long story short, Since last May when my mom was diagnosed with cancer, I have received absolutely no support from my husband. To the point that at one point when I was called to go back to my mom's side (she use to live in TN, I live in IN) that he said if I went I might as well file for a divorce. So today, I let myself dwell in the fact that there doesn't seem to be an end in sight for this situation. So I self sabotaged with food. I also, started out the day thinking that I would just do the TNT for my team and just be done streaking. Then later after I had done the TNT, I decided to do just 10 min. on the bike to keep my streak going. At 9 min. my body was still willing to go so I said ok 15 min. At 15, I just kept going. Got to 20 and said I might as well do 30. I want you to know that even after all the self pity I had today my body was willing to do the work. I amazed myself. I guess I can say that exercise IS part of my life now even if it is for a short time. So now that the pity party is over, I'm going to try to focus on the things I can control and not let thethings I can't control control me!!!

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 5/14/2010 6:47PM


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MRSHONEYC 5/14/2010 4:42AM

You get YOU on track!

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KAYAKID 5/14/2010 3:14AM

    You can do this!!!

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JOANN562 5/14/2010 1:43AM

    I agree with Robin. Nothing works better.
Hope your Mom is doing better soon!

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ANNARUTH2 5/14/2010 1:41AM

    You go girl! Keep it up! emoticon

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KASHMIR 5/13/2010 11:51PM

    Exercise, the perfect stress reliever!!!

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Stressed, Depressed, Depleted

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Ok so I guess I need to explain. I am so stressed out because I was told on Tuesday that my mom's cancer is back. It has been in remission since November. I really thought the worst was behind us.

I am depressed because I feel like I'm never going to get to move away from not so DH and back to TN. I can't believe how close we were to being gone. In fact on Tuesday, the very same day that we got the news about the cancer, the apartment complex that my mother wants to live in in TN called and they had an apartment for us. I can not believe that it was very much in sight and now who knows!! I just want to cry even more!!!

I am depleted because I feel like everything I have done is falling apart. I have tried so hard to get into a healthier lifestyle and now it just seems that I can't do it because of stress, being depressed and just feeling like things will never end. I just want to go to bed. My energy level is as if I have drained of all body fluids and I'm just a sponge. I don't have the desire to make myself exercise or eat what I know I need. I feel like I'm drowning!!

LORD, I can't wait for you the pick me up and help me out of this situation!!!!

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GODZDESIGN95 4/8/2010 11:23PM

    Oh girl I am sorry. Me and my mom are very close. I do not know what I would do if ....well I will not go there. I will pray for strength. God wants to uplift his children. His ears are not closed to their cries. Dear Lord please uplift in this situation. Bring comfort, send your power down and let it surround in her spirit. There is healing in your presence. There is peace in the midst of a storm. and in your presence cancer has to bow to your name. You are the God that heals all our diseases, and the uplifter up of our heads. When the enemy comes in like a flood the the spirit raises up a standard against him. Remember no weapons formed against you shall prosper. Lean Christ each day. emoticon

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 4/8/2010 3:06PM

    emoticon emoticon I don't know what to say...I know from my experience of wanting to go crawl off in a hole and see no one...that sometimes words are a big waste of air and time. Just know that there are many people at Spark & Rita's Retreat that really care about you. I know you've heard this before...but, take it one step, one day at a time...that's really all any of us can do. My thoughts & prayers are with you.

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DSHRBURR4 4/2/2010 5:36PM

    Heavenly Father please wrap Your loving arms around this sweet family and hold them tightly in the palm of Your hands. Amen.

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ANNARUTH2 4/1/2010 11:32PM

    I'll be praying for you and your family! Just take care and know that we are here for you.

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TOBEARUNNER 4/1/2010 9:59PM

    Oh Donna, I'm so sorry about your mom and everything you're facing right now. I'm with Tracy -- aim low and you won't be disappointed. Every day that passes where you are able to get out of bed and support your mother and son and feed yourself is a successful day. And when you're feeling a bit more in control, you can add in things like drinking water, and going for walks. Just try to take care of your family right now. And we'll try to take care of you. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FLGIRL_4EVER 4/1/2010 9:38PM

    Hang in there, know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. You are an amazing woman and please remember that. I am so sorry about your mom's cancer being back. Please let me know if I can do anything for you.

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MRSHONEYC 4/1/2010 9:12PM

    Just remember: Everything happens for a reason.

Maybe He HAS picked you up - but you're still looking for visual signs. Maybe it's time to stop LOOKING and start DOING.

(I'm SUCH a philosopher!!!)

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TRAYINTEX 4/1/2010 8:56PM

    Donna, sweetie! Maybe you don't need to focus on "healthier" right now. Maybe you just need to focus on surviving life's latest challenge the best way you know how. Look, "healthier" is not an ALL OR NOTHING thing! It's really about doing what you can when you can. THAT'S HEALTHY! "Healthier" can wait until you have some of YOU back! Hang in there! We're with you!! Just keep calling out for support! You'll get through this!

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migraines, exercise, and do I really want to

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

For the last 3 weeks, I have consistently had a migraine. I think they are because of the stress that I have in my life. I am trying to just let things roll off me. And I will focus on that more. A member of one of my teams posted a blog today about worry about the things we can not control and focus on the things that we can. So I really need to take this to heart and take control. I know that I am in control of whether or not I choose to get healthier. Now this is where the exercise and do I really want to part of this blog comes in. First of all, it is not easy to exercise when you have a migraine. And if I start exercising while I have a migraine and can't finish, I feel worse about myself and the migraine is worse too. So I have done much exercise while I've had the migraines. Today, I did. Did it help me feel better? Yes and no. I feel better that I did exercise but the migraine is NOT better. At least this time I didn't feel like I was going to throw up. But knowing that exercising made "me" feel better, I know that I really want to be healthier. And that I really want exercise to be part of my life. Now I just need to find what works for me. I know that the weight part isn't really as important to me as being toned. So I will be getting ST in my routine. I don't know if I can sustain 6 days a week or if I can do lower, upper and core all in the same day or not. So I have to find "my" routine. I know that I will get that routine figured out and that I will be healthier.

Thank you to all my SP friends. You have all been very beneficial to my successful journey to a healthier me.

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GODZDESIGN95 3/11/2010 12:03PM

    I am sorry for those headaches. I really hate doing strength training. I usually do the legs first then arms core is left out sometimes. Since I have an issue with my left arm ((nerves in it)) upper hurts a little so I think the bottom has it. Yoga and pilates are very relaxing. try it!

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MRSHONEYC 3/3/2010 9:58AM

    Your migraine is ALL in your head!!! (YES, PUN INTENDED!) Hey, figured it's time for a stress-relieving GUFFAW!
Get those yoga poses working!! Check out this link for help with migraines via yoga poses:


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ANNARUTH2 3/2/2010 11:11PM

    I have heard that Yoga is a good stress releiver. Have you tried that? that way you don't have to move around much. I'm glad that you did get to exercise today! Hope your headaches go away! emoticon

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ZKANGLE 3/2/2010 10:04PM

    Migraines sucks! I'm so sorry you've been fighting one for 3 weeks! I can't stand having one for 3 hours! I can't even imagine 3 weeks! I wish I had a magic answer for you. I wouldn't be able to exercise when I have one. If I move I want to throw up! I hope you shake it soon so you can find your fitness routine. Good luck!


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Where I see myself in 6 more weeks

Friday, February 26, 2010

Where do I see myself in 6 weeks? That is really a tough question. If I stay at my current routine, exactly where I'm at now or heavier. However, I AM going to change things. I restarted my journey to a healthier me today. I did a lot of upper body strength exercises today, worked on my core, strengthened my back, and did some cardio. The down side to my new start is that I overate today. But I won't let that defeat me. Tomorrow I WILL be in range, I will doing cardio again, I will work on my lower body, my core and my back. I will continue with this path until I am the person I want to be.

And just to make sure that I do what I say I'm going to do, I'm calling all my friends to keep me accountable. Rita, do you have that WWWN handy. You may have to get it out.

I know there will be days when I just don't want to do it, but I WILL SUCCEED because I AM STRONG, I AM DETERMINED, and I WILL SUCCEED.

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DOOBRIE 2/28/2010 5:59AM

    emoticon - you've made a good start.

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TOBEARUNNER 2/27/2010 6:43AM

    You ARE strong, you ARE determined and you WILL succeed! Looking forward to blog #2! Go Donna go! :)

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ANNARUTH2 2/26/2010 11:41PM

    Hang in there! We will do it! emoticon

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MRSHONEYC 2/26/2010 11:08PM

Ah, you overate today. NO BIGGIE! It was just one day, not a habit. Now you're back on track and gonna have that "stick-to-it-iveness"!!!!

(No WWWN for you today )

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