Sunday, June 20, 2010
I've been trying to lose this weight for over twenty years. It's come down to this. I'm 40 years old and mother to a beautiful daughter. I finally have everything I have ever wanted and just got it all in the past few years. I am very fortunate to be blessed with a terrific husband, beautiful daughter, family, and friends. I know I am blessed!
However, because of my advanced age, I don't want my daughter to be alone if something should happen to me. It's so lonely to be an only child. In addition, I know we can give her more opportunities as an only child but I feel that those opportunities are less important than having the kinship of a sibling. I've been on fertility treatments for two years and it hasn't worked. I'm not one to usually put this kind of private issue out to the public but hey, I need to be open and honest about my problem eating. I AM DESTROYING MY LAST OPPORTUNITIES TO HAVE ANOTHER CHILD! I know I'm doing it and don't understand why. I truly want another child but don't want to have to lose the weight (therefore work) to do it. I need to smarten up! Now that I've put this out there, maybe I'll be shamed into staying on track. I've tried everything else, I hope this works! I have done exceptionally well for the past week but I need to do exceptionally well for much longer than a week!