Wednesday, October 16, 2013
My first blog in a few months. I find I have to write about an event that took place yesterday. It left me feeling angry and bitter, and I'm mad at myself for not being able to let it go.
So, basically, I park my car in the garage across from where I work. I'm there early, so there's an abundance of spots available. A guy pulls up just as I am getting out of my car. He has an option to pull into the spot right next to mine (although he'd have to wait a few moments for me to close my door) or pull into one of two spots literally right across the aisle, where he could pull right in without any wait. As I'm getting out of my car, I see him stop, look at the two spots across the way, then look at me. He then starts to turn his car towards me and honks. I close the car door, then plaster myself against my car as I wait for him so that I can open the back car door to get my lunch out of the back seat. He then honks at me again. I wave for him to pull in. He does, then gets out of his car and says, "I didn't want to hit you chubs."
This irks me so much. If he didn't want to hit me, why didn't he pull into the other spots? He had to have seen them with the way he stopped his car and took his time looking. And how is it appropriate calling a stranger chubs? I'm not denying I'm fat, but it bothers me that he went out of his way to be mean. I don't know why this bothers me so much too - normally I think it's hilarious if someone does something like that because I believe that they just see a fat person who they think is lazy and eats horrible junk food, all while I eat healthily and I exercise (heck, I take my dogs for 4-6 mile hikes, climbing up and down sand dunes and walking on sand beaches at Indiana Dunes State Park at least every other weekend).
I have to say, I feel a lot better having vented about this. And I appreciate the support I get from my fellow Sparkers. Writing this, too, made me realize I am probably a much healthier person than what that man is. Although I may be fat, I am taking the right steps to take care of myself. I eat healthy, I exercise, I try to take steps to make myself better emotionally. I wonder what's wrong with him that he has to bully someone he views as being inferior?