An update: I'm still here... barely

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Didn't realize how many days I'd missed on posting a blog here.

Saturday weigh in: No pain, no gain. Stayed right where I was at. Which is pretty good, considering the past week I'd had.

Sunday: Stayed in bedroom all day, except to take dogs out. Dad's back to his old self. I've been rewatching my favorite TV show from the beginning: 'LOST'. I finished Season 1, and started Season 2 last night. I watched all the stuff on the bonus disc, too (from Season 1). Season 3 isn't out on DVD yet, but I tape every episode manually, to edit out the commercials. So I can watch those when I'm finished with Season 2. Season 4 doesn't start until February -- which completely stinks.

Monday: (hey, that's today)
Got my transcripts in and mailed an application to the district 3 hours away. Got some legwork done for the out of state application. Paperwork needs to be filled out by several people; I got their stuff to them today. Both places told me they'd have it mailed back out to me by the end of this week. I pretty much blew it with the district where I used to substitute teach. I don't want to get into it. But I will look into the surrounding districts, and see if I can get on their sub list. A friend of mine sent me a link to a job with the university. It looks good. A little different than teaching in a classroom, but still working with educators & students. If I were to get hired there, I could probably get some of my graduate classes paid for. What I'm waiting for now (For the university position) is to hear back from a parent -- I had her daughter this past year, and she (the parent) spoke very highly to me about how her daughter's year went. I have emailed her to ask if I could use her as a reference. If I don't hear from her within the next couple of days, there is another parent I can contact.

Still not getting that water in. I haven't eaten much today at all, actually. I found myself being really hungry earlier this evening...but there wasn't anything in the fridge that 'struck my fancy'. So I didn't eat. And now I'm not hungry. Haven't had anything since lunch.

Didn't do my food tracking for Saturday & Sunday, either. No cardio, but I did do some strengthening stretches today.

Thanks for the spark mail, and the posts on my spark page & blog. I haven't been posting much on my teams, but I am glad to be getting responses to what I do manage to post. It's nice to know that you're out there, supporting me and sending 'happy thoughts' my way.

  

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BONNIEMJ 8/14/2007 8:40AM

AMY , CHEER UP !!! MY GOSH THINGS CAN'T BE THAT BAD. I KNOW IT'S HARD BUT WE'RE ALL BEHIND YA. LOT'S OF HUGS & PRAYERS I'M SENDING YOUR WAY !!! MISS YA !!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

APRIL11301 8/14/2007 7:17AM

YOU BETTER HANG IN THERE WE MISS YOU AND NEED YOU I HOPE EVERYTHING GETS BETTER II'M PRAYING FOR YOU !!!!! SENDING YOU LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES YOUR WAY CHICK HOPE YOU GET YOUR GROOVE BACK SOON XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOO Report Inappropriate Comment

Still not enough water

Friday, August 10, 2007

I don't know what's happening, but I'm not getting in the water like I was before. Seems like my totals are less and less. I stayed within my calorie range today, though. Felt like I had quite a bit to eat, too.

I weigh in tomorrow. And while I'm pretty sure I've gained this week, I'm not concerned about missing my monthly goal. I'm quite sure I can still hit my 5 pound loss by the 31st. I started the month out at 196, so I'd need to be at 191 by the end of this month. It's been kind of a crappy week for me, so I don't expect any loss from the scale tomorrow.

My dad came home from his fishing trip tonight. Was glad to see him, but even in his exhaustion, didn't forget to point out a few things I'd done wrong while he'd been gone. (like write a check for a bill that he usually pays cash for!)

[enter sarcasm here] -- Just can't WAIT for him to see the mowing job I did on the yard!
(sigh) He didn't even thank me for helping him unload & unpack!

Today was the first day UNDER 100 degrees. Made it to 96 today. A little less humid, too. Still didn't walk the dogs. Hopefully it will start getting cooler in the evenings. I'm not taking Gizmo for a walk in this heat!

  

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APRIL11301 8/11/2007 2:55AM

I FEEL YOU ON THE WATER THING I HAVENT BEEN GETTING IN 8 GLASSES I HAVENT BEEN TRACKING STUFF NEITHER : ( BUT WE WILL GET BACK ON TRACK SOON : ) GOOD LUCK ON WEIGH IN I GOTTA WEIGH IN SUNDAY I SHOULDNT EXPECT A LOSS FROM THE SCALE CAUSE I BEEN BAD BUT I DO ...LOL YOUR DADDY IS CRAZY EVEN THOUGH I NEVER MET HIM HE REMINDS ME OFF THE DAD OFF THE 70'S SHOW I DONT KNOW IF YOU EVER WATCHED THAT SHOW BUT HE REALLY COMES OFF TO ME LIKE THE DAD ...LOL I HOPE HE GIVES YOU A REALLY BIG THANK YOU FOR THE YARD SENCE HE DOESNT THANK VERY MUCH HE SHOULD MAKE UP FOR IT WIT ONE BIG THANK YOU !!!! WELL I JUST WANT TO LET YA KNOW I THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME THE PAST (ALMOST 2 WEEKS )SO GLAD I MET YOU ON HERE AND THAT YOU ARE A PART OF MY TEAM XOXOXOXOXO Report Inappropriate Comment

I stayed away because...

Friday, August 10, 2007

It has surprised me -- the number of people who have stopped by my page and posted messages or sent 'spark' mail. One of my Teams even posted a 'Huddle' message just for me. (Thanks!)

Here I go ranting...but know that those of you taking the time to read & respond to my blogs are appreciated, even when I don't say it.

I stayed away yesterday after sharing with my Teams that I didn't get that job I'd been talking about. I just didn't want to talk with anyone....was being slightly anti-social. I only logged in today for a couple of times this afternoon to enter in my nutrition and fitness activities. I made a couple of posts, read a couple of articles, and that was about it.

After applying with twelve school districts in less than 4 months and still not having a job...I just kind of got tired of the 'things will work out' phrase. Now, I certainly do NOT mean any offense to anyone -- I know they are trying to be helpful and encouraging (which I need). I just found myself in a big rut, feeling defeated. Here's what I'm thinking -- 'what's wrong with me that I can't find a teaching job when science teachers are in demand?' So I didn't want to hear things like 'something better will come' or 'you weren't supposed to teach at that school' -- know what I mean? School started here a week ago. It's tough to wake up in the morning knowing that they're in school, and I'm still unemployed. I'm having a really hard time with that.

On the other hand, I know I cannot stay isolated in my own little world, feeling like nothing I'm doing is good enough. So, if you will, allow me another day or two to get back to my regular postings & SP activities. But PLEASE don't keep me out of 'the loop' -- stop by my page & say hello.

Yesterday I stayed within my calorie range. Today I went over, but by less than 30 calories. I didn't make my 8 cups of water today nor yestserday. I did do cardio both days.

Help keep me afloat!

  

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NO_DISTRACTIONS 8/10/2007 6:23PM

Thinking of you and wishing there was something that I could say to make you feel better - just know that you are thought of, loved, and needed here at sparks - so please try to come and share how you are feeling as you are doing here on your blogg. Means a lot to hear from you. Report Inappropriate Comment

APRIL11301 8/10/2007 12:47AM

IT SOUNDS LIKE TO ME YOUR ON THE RIGHT TRACK ALREADY LOOKING POSITIVE THAT IS SO GOOD I'M PROUD OF YOU KEEP ON PUSHING ON GIRL THATS ALL WE CAN DO !!!!!TAKE ALL THE TIME YOU NEED JUST DONT LEAVE US CAUSE WE NEED YOU AS MUCH AS YOU NEED US !!!!!! AND YOU ARE SO WELCOME BELIVE ME I WILL NEED YOU ONE DAY ...LOL CHAT AT YA LATER CHICK AND YOU KNOW ILL BE BY TO SAY HI : 0 ) P.S I DID NOTHING TODAY GOT IN A LITTLE BIT OF WATER BUT DONT TELL NOBODY ..LOL Report Inappropriate Comment

Didn't get the job...

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

I never heard from the principal, so I called the school. Turns out they interviewed someone yesterday, whom the committee really liked, and wants the principal to offer the job to him. If, by some miracle, he declines (which I doubt) then they will call me back to set up an interview.

  

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ANNEMULLEN1 8/10/2007 12:30AM

Mybe not so bad, I really think the right job is still out there just waiting for you to find it. Report Inappropriate Comment

REBECANOLA 8/9/2007 3:23PM

Sorry to hear that. Keep your chin up! Report Inappropriate Comment

SCAROUSEL1 8/8/2007 8:01PM

WELL CRUMB! WHAT A TOTAL BUMMER AMY... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY, BUT I DO KNOW THAT TELLING YOU IT WASN'T MENT TO BE WON'T... HUGE, HEAVY SIGH! CHIN UP GIRL...KEEP LOOKING! Report Inappropriate Comment

OHMOHM 8/8/2007 6:22PM

I am so sorry to hear about the interview results. I had interviewed with a another district this summer and didn't get the job. I was bummed, but I have taught for 16 years and have had my share of disappointments. Don't let this discourage you. Remember, don't burn any bridges that you may need later! Report Inappropriate Comment

APRIL11301 8/8/2007 5:28PM

AAAAAAWWWWWW AMY I'M SO SORRY YO HEAR THAT I WAS HOPEING YOU WOULD GET IT !!!!SENDING YOU LOT'S OF L♥VE X♥X♥X&heartsX♥ X♥ I HOPE IT GETS BETTER!!!! IT WILL GET BETTER !!!! DONT LET THIS DISCOURGE YOU !!!!! DO NOT LET THIS GET YOU DOWN WE CAN HELP YOU GET THROUGH THIS I'M SURE ALL THE LADIES WOULD LOVE TO CHAT AND THEY GIVE WAY WISER AND BETTER INVICE THEN ME ...LOL JUST KEEP POSTING IT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER GET IT ALL OUT!!!!!!!!! SENDING YOU LOTS OF..........L♥VE X♥ X♥X♥X&he arts;X♥X♥X♥ Report Inappropriate Comment

Not so productive, not feelin' so positive...

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Don't get me wrong, I got some stuff done at the house -- even got matching blisters on each of my thumbs from using dad's push mower! Ran the dishwasher (which he doesn't want me to use,) and put the trash can out by the curb (tomorrow's trash day.) I included the mowing under my cardio, but didn't do anything else besides that (cardio/exercise wise.)

I went out to lunch with a friend today -- went to a Mexican place. YUM! But I'm afraid that I cleaned my plate. I entered in the food in my nutrition tracker as best as I could -- it's not like they'll have the name of the restaurant we went to, nor do I have access to the nutritional values of what I ate. But I did my best. Since I had a big lunch, I decided not to have dinner until later. I snacked instead. And snacked, and snacked. Almost everything I had was healthy -- rice cake, sugar free chocolate pudding, etc. I went over my calories for today. Good thing I didn't change anything (see yesterday's blog.)

We drove past my former employer to get to the restaurant....the PE teacher had kids OUTSIDE! Can you believe it??!!! In this heat??!! Ugh. I think that may have been my "unhappy" trigger today. Knowing that they've been in school almost a week now, and I still don't have a damn job. OH!! And by the way, that principal did not call me back today to set up a time & day for my interview. So I guess that didn't help, either. I just snacked my way through the evening.

I did go over to Kohl's -- they were having a 'super buy' sale ending today, on tennis shoes that were 50% off. I needed a new pair really bad. Got a pair of $60 shoes for $30. Also found a nice dressy top to go with a pair of dressy capri pants I had previously purchased there. The pants were on the clearance rack, and I thought I had a top to go with them.. When I got home, I realized that I didn't have one. So I figured I'd take a look today since I was already gonna be there.

And of course, since I'm not working, I have no business buying shoes, or clothes, or anything! So I guess I'm bummed about that, too.

And maybe I'm a little lonely. Don't get me wrong, I love my dogs! But they don't hold a very good conversation. I don't even know when my dad's coming home. He mentioned going to his aunt's house (she lives on the property where that old house is in my pictures) straight from Canada...I don't know if he might stop here first or what. I want to have everything cleaned up (carpet vaccuumed & floors mopped) before he gets back so he won't be mad. We don't really talk much when he is here -- I usually stay in the bedroom with my dogs -- but it's nice to know there's someone else in the house.

I'm also trying to figure out how the heck I'm gonna get all my stuff out to this new school (IF they call me for an interview, and IF they hire me) since I'm having trouble locating apartments online. I have been kicking around the idea of staying in a hotel (that takes pets, of course!) for a few days until I find somewhere to live. And isn't all this really stupid of me to be thinking about -- especially when I didn't get a call to set up the interview!

I didn't even get in my 8 cups of water today -- only 7.

  

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APRIL11301 8/8/2007 12:50PM

THIS IS MY QUOET FOR YOU MISSY THINK ABOUT IT EVERYTIME YOU WORRY I HAVE TOO...LOL "WORRYING DOES NOT EMPTY TOMORROW OF ITS TROUBLES.....IT EMPTIES TODAY OF ITS STRENGTH!!!" EVERYTHING WILL GET BETTER YOU HAVE ACCOMPLISHED ALOT WITH ALL THIS GOING ON JUST KEEP ON DOING IT!!!! DOING YOU: ) THERES NOITHING YOU CAN DO THAT YOUR NOT ALREADY DOING!!!! BEATING YOURSELF UP DOES NOT HELP TAKE IT FROM A PROBUT I KNOW NOW THAT IT DOES NOT ACCOMPLISH NOTHING BUT PUTTING US IN A BIGGER HOLE FOR US TO DIG OUR BIG BUTTS OUT OF FEEL ME !!!!! AMY I'M HERE FOR YOU ANY TIME!!!! IF YOU YOU JUST NEED TO CHAT IF IM ON (WHICH I AM WAY TO MUCH )JUST SEND ME A MESSAGE OR WE CAN TALK ON THE GENERAL CHAT !!!!! I LOVE CONVO AND I LOVE CHATTIN SO YOU WILL NEVER BOTHER ME IF YOUR LONELY JUST NEED A FRIEND OR A SPARK BUDDY HIT ME UP CHAT AT YA LATER GIRL !!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment