Saturday, May 04, 2013
Well it has been a very hard few months, however now I need to start thinking about myself and getting on track with eating healthy and much smaller amounts. I am a stress eater so needless to say....I have gained weight, BUT I can and will get it plus much more off.
In January we had to have my mom go into a rehab center because she kept falling. I would sit with her everyday for hours trying to make her stay as comfortable as possible. She gradually started to not improve so her insurance stopped paying....in April she was not ready to go home yet so we had to move her to the nursing home part and start the paperwork for Medicaid. My mom was so upset about the state taking her home and what little money she had left. To make a very long story short my mom died Sunday morning 4/28. The nursing home nurse called me at 7:56am to inform me that I needed to get down there right away, within minutes she had her family with her. At 8:35am I gently whispered in her ear how much we loved her and that it was time to go be with Dad and that we would be ok.....she immediately stopped breathing and went so gently. I know she is at peace but boy do I miss her. Oh and we never applied to Medicaid, my appointment was for the next day Monday....we are able to pay her nursing home bill and put her home up for sale ourselves which she truly wanted.
During the past few months my life has felt like it has stopped, I revolved everything around my mom and her care....which is exactly what I wanted to do. Now I feel so lost and incomplete so I know that I have alot of work to do in finding myself again and becoming strong once again. I want to thank all my Sparkfriends that have stuck with me and not deleted me while I was out of commission. I plan on starting back full force, maybe pouring all my energy into Sparks, exercising and eating right.