Friday, August 06, 2010
As it's been awhile since my last post, it hasn't deterred me away from the bigger picture.
I believe that I have licked the quitting smoking. I haven't had a cig in over 2 weeks. I still have cravings, and me and wrigleys gum are now best friends. I can smell better, (I probably don't smell too bad, myself), I taste food better, and I am able to work out with my Zumba class without feeling to winded, d/t lack of oxygen.
That brings me to my Zumba classes. I have picked that up to two days a week. I am able to see the beginnings of the benefits of this class. I am able to actually do a squat, my face isn't beet red by the end of the class (which I hold accountable to the non-smoking)
What I haven't noticed is any weight loss. I have watched my intakes, drank more water, laid off anything sweet, unless used with splenda, had a decrease in my caffeine intakes, watched my calorie, carb, and sodium intakes. I have passed by ordering lunches at fast food while at work, bringing in food from home. So, what's the deal? I think I even gained weight?!?!?!?! I haven't been "working out" enough to gain muscle. I eat 5 small meals a day, just like I'm told too. Stayed well within my calorie intake range. Just to get fatter????
Why was I happier fat, smoking, and drinking coffee all day long???? Am I the one person that found a loophole?? Hell, maybe I'm the loophole.
Friday, July 23, 2010
So, yesterday I mentioned the Zumba class I encountered. This morning, I woke feeling pretty good. Until I tried to bear weight coming off the bed. My calves burned and my thighs were tight, but the rest of me felt OK, for the most part. I dressed for work, not in my usual daily scrubs, but in knee length sweat pants and a stretchy tank top. Today was the day of the five hour long fundraiser for our activity department of the fun loving task of washing some one else's vehicle. About thirty minutes and the third car into it, my shoulders were BURNING! My muscles were screaming at me to stop. My leg muscles were burning even more, and even my tuckus muscles were begging me to stop moving. But, my boss insisted I had to be there to join in this joyous event. Anything for the residents, right? I swear, if I could have gotten away with it, I would have figured out how to strap those sponges to my chest and let my waist feel the heat, if you know what I mean.
After the car wash was over at two, I was burning both inside and out. I felt like Ralph Macchio on more than one occasion..."wax on...wax off"...now knowing that has a whole new meaning. Everyone was telling me that I looked a little "red". However, catching a glance once or twice in shiny windshields, I could see what they were talking about, only it was a LOT red. I am normally very pasty, but tonight, as my 15 year old daughter tells me, I look more like Barney, than Elmo. I am literally purple. My face, neck, shoulders and arms. I have a nice tan line as a result of the knee length sweats, and of course the infamous upside down "V' on my foot, signifying the flip-flops worn for the day. Oh, and I smell like armor all and stale back seats...YUM.
One a different note, after work, I came home, showered and picked up a new Nicholas Sparks book I got the other day. Just finished it. Couldn't put it down. 'The Choice'. Very moving book, cried at the very end. I swear, if all men loved the way that man writes, there would be a lot less divorces and more love thrown around this world. At least at my house anyway.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
OMG! I just got out of the shower, my calves are tight, my thighs are burning and my arms didn't want to raise over my head to put my jammie top on.
I went to my first Zumba class tonight. Oh my geezers! It literally kicked my arse!!!! At first, I didn't think it really looked that hard, watching on you tube and the commercials. Of course, a little about me....I am about 100 pounds overweight, sit at a desk pretty much all day, and have a tendency to break down every once in a while and eat a reeses cup, or butterfinger bar. (Have you seen the cute little butterfinger bites???) Anyway, back on track. So, here I am. For one hour, constantly moving side to side, front to back, around in circles. Sweat dripping into my eyes, hair dripping down my face, ( I jumped up an down so much, I almost passed wind.) Thank God I am the type of person that really does care what people think about me. Although we were all over-weight women in this class, the woman behind me was a little gal, I may have blowed her over. So, with everything else going on, now I have the stomach ache, and of course a charlie horse in my butt cheeks from squeezing to hard.
Eventually it passed, and so did the hour long torture. I immediately went to stand in front of the fan, shirt slightly pulled away from my body, and cooled off my best buds. Me and my friend stood to chit chat with the instructor. Knowing that it was my first time there, (as the class only had about 25 people in it, all regulars), of course she was asking me how my first time went, and if I felt good. Oh yeah, I wanted to say. I just feel WONDERFUL! Still trying to catch my breathe, I looked at this 5'2", 90lbs soaking wet woman, and said "Yep...had the time of my life. Definately an unforgivable moment!"
I signed up for the ten session class. Back again on Tuesday.
On a different note, I started week three of my Chantix. Not really getting the results that I am looking for with this medication. So far, I am lucky enough not to have escalating blood pressure, or nightmares. I do, however, get extremely nauseous after taking the med about 20 minutes later, lasting anywhere from 5-15 minutes. I do have very vivid dreams, which aren't really that bad. One night, I dreamed that I was grooming my lamb's ear plant, only to turn my head to see that it really was a real lamb's head. A couple of nights after that, I was dreaming that I was in my doctor's office, complaining about the medicine not working. The next thing I knew, we were on the examination table making out. (Thank God my MD is a good looking man of about 36 years of age!!!!!)
Anyway, instead of paying out a whopping $60 co-pay, I think I am going to have my ear zapped. I hear that works wonders!
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Kids are still sleeping, dogs are looking at me funny, wondering what I'm doing up so freaking early.
Well, let me tell ya why.
I started Chantix this week. I'm moody, grumpy, gassy, and tired all the time, but by God, I'm slowing down on my smoking. I have gone from two packs a day, to one pack every two days. This morning is the first time I woke up and could breathe! Maybe by next week, I will get my sense of smell back, and maybe, just maybe, I will be able to taste good food again. I'm hoping that within the month, I can start running with my daughter and not be so out of breathe.
I have been a part of Spark people off and on for three years. I don't stay motivated enough to go through with anything. I know being an overweight smoker puts me at risk, especially with me being over 35 years of age. I have cut down on my caffeine to one 20 oz cup of coffee a day (from two pots a day), and only caffeine free diet soda. Now, I've cut back considerably on my smoking. The two major things I knew, without a doubt, that I could not quit cold turkey on. Once I have quit smoking, then I can worry about adding an extra glass or two of water in my diet, an extra serving of veggies, and maybe fit in a walk or two a night in my routine of nightly duties once home from work.
My job drains me mentally, and I have learned to rely on coffee and cigarettes to keep me going through the day, when I had no time to eat. Now, I have to rely on something else. I sit at an office desk all day long, and work in a Nursing Facility, in a very small office, so no space for exercise equipment. 100 Degree heat indexes makes it hard to walk during lunch hour, with no time to go home, shower and change before coming back to work. Could walk around inside the facility, as it is 5 wings, but again, could not concentrate on me, as I will be worried about the residents or what other people are doing, or not doing as the case sometimes is.
Oh well, one hurdle at a time. It's all I got in me, and at least I'm slowly, but surely, taking a handle on my own life again.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
I am on day four of the cabbage soup diet. I am craving meat so bad. Tomorrow is steak and tomato day. I am so looking forward to it. I really love tomatoes, and have had to eliminate them from my diet for the last four days. But today is banana and skim milk. So not as bad as eating green leafy veggies from the time I wake up til I go to bed, like the last two days. I am down 4.4lbs so far, so I know that this is worth it. I am getting that jump start that I so desperately need.
I think later I am going to take my measurements. I should have remembered to do that prior to starting this diet, that way I can "see" the progress in numbers, even if my body doesn't look any different in the mirror. There is so much "belly fat" that needs to *go away*
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