Saturday, June 12, 2010
Six months ago I set a mini goal to lose 24 lbs. Three months ago I booked a vacation to the Bahamas, and increased my mini goal to 34 lbs. I am 8.5 lbs away with 22 days left until departure. The past 6 months have been a struggle. I work in an office where I'm positive we have a food day every Friday, and there is candy on almost every desk. Temptation is so great I sometimes walk to the bathroom staring at the floor because around every corner something is calling my name. I can't say that I haven't failed once or twice, but you live, and learn. I am currently working out alone. My previous workout partner is far more advanced than I, and was unhappy when I couldn't keep up. I've decided alone is best for me at this point in my life. If I am at the gym alone I am responsible for myself. I don't go, and leave on anyone's schedule, and I don't feel bad if I can't keep up with someone. It's a major mind game there. I go to the gym with a plan of action, but when I get there I always want to cut it short. The past 2 days I've decided, that if I decide I want to leave early, I'm going to do more. I have to make my body show my brain that I can go past what it thinks I can do. It seems to have worked, both days I've done 60 minutes or more of cardio when I normally do 10-20. I have to say that when I'm done I feel such a sense of accomplishment.
I know I'm not going to be skinny (like I envisioned myself being) when I leave for the Bahamas, but I will be a little bit lighter. I will soon be shopping for a bathing suit, and that in itself is terrifying. Weight loss will be a constant battle for me, but I think the past 2 days I've been winning the battle! Paradise Island....I will see you in 22 days!