Friday, August 08, 2014
M2P1: My goals for this past month were to do 750 fitness minutes, to lose 10 lbs, and walk 35 miles.
Actual results: I lost 4lbs, did 515 fitness minutes and walked 16.35 miles.
There isn't much to say about this than I disappointed myself for this month. Seeing it out here like this I have to be accountable to myself and others I share my journey with. I am disappointed that I didn't work as hard as I know I can. I let stuff get in the way, didn't take care of me like I should have and it is written right there in the numbers.
I have to admit it isn't a complete fail. No that would be not doing anything at all. That is failure.
I struggle with quitting things. I don't know why I do it. I want to change. But sometimes I get to this place and it just seems bigger than me. I get overwhelmed by stuff and then I loss out on fighting for what I truly want. Then the next thing I know I'm back to No-wheresville instead of Victoryville. This is not acceptable anymore. I am missing out on my life. I am missing out on confidence, better self-esteem, healthier relationships, more adventures, and seeing my dreams come true. I tell myself that if I were only skinnier blah blah will be better. It may, it may not but if I don't work on loving me and taking care of me I will stay in this rut of a life I've made for myself.
I didn't quit and that is a plus. I know if I don't put it out there it will be the next step. But I do have a Nonscale victory:
I AM NO LONGER A QUITTER.
Quitterville is no longer a stop on my journey. I am not going to do it. It may go slower because I'm not doing all I can. That will drive me crazy but I won't quit. I will have times I will push push push and it will go faster. And I won't quit because I will inspire myself. And finally there will be in between days where I will become more and more the person I am wanting to be. I will keep doing this until it becomes who I am and then there will be no turning back.
I don't want to leave out that I had another NSV. I did my first 5K. I was top in my age group, 4th for all females walking and 5th out of all the 13 walkers who signed up. I am proud of that. Random dance.
So this month my goals are to
lose 10 lbs,
do 1000 fitness minutes, walk/jog 40 miles, do 360 crunches, wall push ups, squats, lateral lunges and walk/jog one 5K.
I also wanted to be within my calorie range goals for 25 days of this month. I struggle with this big time.
I can do this if I focus and with all my spark peeps helping me. Its a doable goal. Push push push because I'm worth it. Make that fat baby cry buckets. Channeling my inner athlete. You have this girl! Rock this month.
Wow that seems so big to me. I am stronger than I think I am. I am feistier than I ever imagined. I am definitely more stubborn than I should be. These are going to be the guns I'm packing for this party along with my spark peeps. At the end of this phase I will be turning 40. I hope that I have given myself the best 40th bday present, the present of a better life. Let the last of phase 1 beginning.