DONE WITH THIS

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

I have had enough and I will not take anymore. I am tried of being tired, weak breathing bad. I am DONE WITH IT. I know how this gal has pulled herself out of bad times before and I can do it again. I do not like being out of control and that is what I am now. My body is losing its strength that I work so hard too build. I can't hardly get out of bed and when I do I eat do a few thing and am so tired I have to go back to bed. It isn't just sitting and relaxing, it is bone tried where the brain doesn't want to function and that is not the way I am. I get up eat breakfast and don't stop till 1 or 2 AM. I love my life because I go and come do whatever I want. That all has been taken away from me and I don't like it one little bit. I look worn out and terrible. I have aged in my looks and I sure don't like that.

So exercises, walking and everything I did yesterday I can't do today. I didn't get in the pool because I was just too weak and breathing bad. Tomorrow I have to get the blood test and my daughter wants me too go to DGD's school for the last day program. I am going to try and get it done and after pick up her bathing suit and then get the blood test. I have to go to a couple of places and then home for lunch. I hope I can do it. We don't have to bowl this week and this is good and I hope it will be good next week.

Good weather right now and it is nice to have cooler temps. Hope it stays this way for a few weeks. I have ranted and raged so now I will work out a plan and get things done. Use to drive my husband nuts when I first started with leukemia and every body said it was in my head. There where times I would be down for days, not enough energy to do anything. I didn't eat did nothing except stay in bed. He would get so upset and I couldn't do anything about it. I would pull myself up eat some toast and tea and start from there. Call the Dr. and told him I was not good but it wasn't till I sent my blood test to my sister in Florida and she showed her oncologist that he said I had Leukemia and needed to get to a Dr. That started my life of taking care of myself and fighting other times for my life which started in 1994.

It is that time and I need to get my grapes for my snack with 1/2 an orange. I had strawberries from my garden in my cereal today. Love my fruit and veggies and eat 7 to 9 a day. Mentally I am okay , just have to get a handle on this mess.

All have a great Thursday and have fun, stay healthy. God bless you richly in his grace.

Catch you tomorrow and tell you about DGD.

Smile,

Joyce

  

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BEST_LIFE_NOW 7/28/2011 6:17PM

Hang in there. What you are doing is tough! Report Inappropriate Comment

JKURJACK1944 7/28/2011 8:08AM

You have done it before. My prayers are with you. Report Inappropriate Comment

NEW-CAZ 7/28/2011 2:55AM

Sorry you're going through such a tough time Joyce, a step at a time hun...a step at a time. Report Inappropriate Comment

ANNEMAC5 7/28/2011 1:33AM

Sorry you are having such a hard time. As a nurse it is good for me to read about how you feel and your days. Take care. Anne Report Inappropriate Comment

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STEP BY STEP

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Today I rested in the morning and then around 3 PM I went in the pool and exercised, rested on my floating chair. I walked around the pool 10 times and there where some leaves on the bottom I was getting them with my feet making the leaves float to the top or ride my foot to the top. Got some leg exercise doing that.

I pulled most of my watermelon and some of the white potatoes had gotten raked up so I have a hand full of little ones that I will boil up and season with parsley, garlic and pepper. If they are all little they will be good for potato salad. Found 3 strawberries while I was pulling weeds and a real nice big tomatoe. Tomorrow I will pick the rest of the ripe tomates and they are regular, italian, and whoppers which I will drop in boilding water to get the skins off and them cut them up and cook and make a spaghetti sauce. When the tomatoes come on totally because I have about 10 plants or more a lot of sauce will be made up. I make some plain, some seasoned and some with meat in it.


I went in and took a shower, washed my hair, made dinner, ate and fed the dogs. Then I went back out and started to pull that lace type weed off my strawberries. It covers them just like a blanket and I have a mess to get cleaned out. I am going to see if my daughter will come and help me this weekend but by then I may have it done. She is coming tomorrow too pick up some of the watermelon, tomatoes and lettuce. If you keep picking the lettuce it won't seed out but if you miss a day or 2 it will. I could just plant some more for the end of summer into autumn thats what I will do tomorrow.

So I did enough for today and I hope not too much, we shall see. Tomorrow little Callie is going to get groomed and I may even do it tonight, who knows.

Another day step by step or a dozen steps. I will get there and tomorrow I get the blood test so if their is anything wrong the Dr. will call me. I called my girlfriend and asked her if she wanted to go too lunch but she is too busy with moving. I will get the test, do some errands and come home and then groom Callie. Try and make time for the pool and pull more weeds so my strawberry plants aren't ruin. Never a dull moment in life so we just go on. I just cut 1 of the watermelon and it was not half way ripe. I will learn too judge myself and not panic.

Everyone have a great Wednesday and love the weather as I hope yours is better. God bless you always and forever. Half way through the week for some and others their vacations.

Catch you tomorrow with a few more steps.

Smile

Joyce

  

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JOYINKY 7/27/2011 2:53PM

Great day! You seem to have a feel for pacing yourself Joyce. That's a good thing, active, positive, productive all good healing tools. Make sure you get enough rest too. God be with you. Hugs, Joy Report Inappropriate Comment

JKURJACK1944 7/27/2011 8:53AM

You had a good day. Keep thinking one step at a time and don't overdo. Report Inappropriate Comment

NEW-CAZ 7/27/2011 3:05AM

Sounds like a good day, you're getting there Joyce Report Inappropriate Comment

SUZANNE0606 7/27/2011 12:50AM

It sounds like you had a good day. Hope you're feeling well. Report Inappropriate Comment

TWEETYKC00 7/27/2011 12:32AM

keep on taking those steps, you're well on your way! Report Inappropriate Comment

DAY BY DAY

Monday, July 25, 2011

Yesterday I did a lot compared to what I have been doing but it must have been the wrong way to go. So now each day I am only going to do 1 extra thing and just a little. That has always been my problem. When I feel good I go a mile a minute and I have too remember I am not that strong right now. It will take a couple of months to get back to normal and I know that but it is hard to stay still.

It rain a bunch 40, 10's yesterday and that much or more today. No pool I didn't win today. The pool is over flowing and water is running out of the skimmer. Yesterday it filled and has been running out and with the ran today it will run out for 3 days. We really needed rain but I hope it is not too much fore the garden now because so much is right too the ripe stage.
I threw 2 watermelon away that where soft in 1 spot. The 3rd 1 was sweet and good. I am getting some really nice tomatoes. I have a lot of onions, white potatoes and sweet potatoes which cannot have a lot of water. My garden is sand so the water doesn't lay hopping everything will be okay. Next year I am going to have a good garden because I am going to be around to take care of it. The chemo really messed the garden work up and that is what you have to keep up with. My friend is doing what he can but he is 74 and can't be out in this heat either. It is to go too the 80's this week and that will be nice.

If I can't exercise a lot but I am eating back in my healthy way. Just finished my grapes for tonight. All the junk food I was eating to gain is gone and now I have the fruit and veggies.
Just keep going step by step the way we have too sometimes and we will get where we want to be. I just have to remember that, step by step. LOL

Everyone have a very Tuesday and no more storms. God bless you and have a good week.

Catch you tomorrow with nicer weather.

Smile,

Joyce

  

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JKURJACK1944 7/26/2011 6:08PM

Joyce, I know what you mean. When we hit a plateau on our weight loss or have other challenges in life, we have a tendency to want to get everything done NOW. I am trying to learn to "listen to my body" and make the right choices for me. You already know that and will make the adjustment. Report Inappropriate Comment

NEW-CAZ 7/26/2011 2:40AM

I have the same habit Joyce- pushing myself on good days and regretting it, when will I learn to pace myself LOL. You're determined to get strong and well again which is good but do rest too Joyce, you're still healing. And you're eating well again! Great. You're getting there a little more each day Sleep well Report Inappropriate Comment

TWEETYKC00 7/25/2011 11:18PM

you will get back up and going in time, your body is still healing for now. baby steps will help you get you where you need to be. have a good night Joyce. Report Inappropriate Comment

I WON

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Today I decided I was going to get in the pool. We had another very hot day and there was no getting in the pool early and get burnt like they did yesterday. I was going to wait till about 3 PM and just about that time a thunderstorm started and the electric went out for a minute. It lasted till about 5:30 PM so I made dinner and fed the dogs and then I ate. It poured 1 time and sprinkled another so I was glad since my flowers needed watering. I finished eating and the sun was shining so I thought I would swim. I turned to put the dishes in the sink and looked out, it was pouring with the sun out. I gave up and took off my bathing suit. About 6 PM it was clear and sunny so I put my bathing suit back on and got in the pool to exercise. I was in it about 20 minutes and on the other side of the house it was thundering so I continued to walk around the pool and when the sun was covered I got out. Checked the garden and the water gauge to see how much we had and it was almost an inch.

Came in took a shower and was glad I won even if it was just an half hour. Tomorrow we are too get rain again but most of it is going across too the beach about 14 miles above us. We where lucky some came down today. The farmer with the corn or should I say no corn had a ruined crop. It is totally dried up and not 1 ear of corn on it. It breaks my heart to see that happen too him. Hope the government helps the farmers that are having trouble and that is a lot in our state.

I have changed 1 of my eating or drinking habits. I drink hot tea all day and now I am just going to drink it at breakfast, drink my juices and then water the rest of the day. I drink a lot of water but going to add more. I made my rice and small amount of potato salad for the week. My refrigerator is always full of food and a lot of fresh fruits and veggies.

I feel pretty good today and did more exercises. I ate a lot better too today so getting back to me. Don't have too put anymore weight on. Had 10 to gain and put 5 on so I will left the rest go on normally.

Everyone have a great week ahead and hope the weather gets back to normal for you. God bless all of you every day.

Catch you tomorrow and see what I get into.

Joyce

  

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JEANNE229 7/25/2011 11:21AM

Hi Joyce, what a determined spirit! So glad you got the rain, the exercise AND the win! Drought has been awful in your area! Report Inappropriate Comment

JKURJACK1944 7/25/2011 6:31AM

Glad you got some exercise in the pool today. Sounds like you are feeling better too. Thank God for the rain. Your garden is in need of hydration just like you. I too hope the farmer gets some assistance. Have a great day and God bless. Report Inappropriate Comment

NEW-CAZ 7/25/2011 3:03AM

I'm glad you got to enjoy your swim, so invigorating! I feel for the farmer, do your farmers get subsudies to help them? Like you my fridge is jam packed full of the good stuff; eat right and the rest follows huh?! Have a good week Joyce, glad you're feeling a little better Report Inappropriate Comment

HICKOK-HALEY 7/24/2011 10:59PM

Glad you got into the pool. I bet it felt refreshing. That is to bad about the Farmer. Our Corn didn't produce either. Our temps were just too up and down. Our Tomatoes are doing good though! Report Inappropriate Comment

MNJONES2 7/24/2011 10:46PM

I like that you go with the flow and when something isnt ready this minute you do another activity and come back to it later! Good For you! You also plan well with you vegies ready to go for the week. I need to do better with that. Wishing you a wonderful week! Report Inappropriate Comment

HOT, HOT AND RED HOT BODIES

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Most the time my daughter and her family come too swim around 5 PM but today she came about 1 PM and it was very hot and sunny. Most the time everything keeps her busy and she doesn't get to get in long but was determine to get in today. Remember me saying the pool is in full sun and everyone got burnt. Of course I was not out there, too much for me in breathing and I hope that that can straighten out soon. Her husband was coming when he got off work and she said she was going to get dinner. Hot dogs, the usual and I said no Chicken and I would buy. I had made potato salad and mac and cheese which would have lasted me most the week but I made some bake beans with brown sugar and ketchup and the chicken enough so they could have 2 pieces or more.

Her husband came and they all where in the pool so I worked on my Spark points. My daughter came in and we called places to see who had the best buy on chicken and ended with Walmart. They had just pulled their last batch for the night so she save us 2 orders.
I gave my daughter $20 so she could get it and some sodas. The others got out of the pool and I had put the umbrella up and dishes, silverware out but they all came in so they would not be too hot to eat. We waited and it got to be an hour and then she called she was on her way but had lost the $20 in the store and had too use her money. She looses so much, telephones, money, wallets, pocketbooks, keys not once but several times. Well we ate and had plenty and DGD ate 5 pieces of chicken and several helpings of the other things. She can eat and it is going to bite her later if she isn't curbed back. The genes in the family make big people and it will be a fight for her.

The race came on and I missed most of it but that is okay. I had enough of the food left for maybe 2 helpings and then my daughter wanted to know if she could take chicken home too the other guy that is a friend too her nephew she is raising that lives with them. I gave her the bake beans, mac and cheese and potato salad for him. I will just make more tomorrow. Instead of mac and cheese I will make some rice and some potato salad. I like things that I can grab during the day and not have to cook.

Now if it doesn't rain tomorrow I have filled the pool with more water and it is still warm. The little heater that I bought is really working so I will be able too swim later in the year. I will get in the pool and exercise and also relax. I have watered everything and now it is up to the rain or not. My poor garden is a mess but I can't do anything in this heat. I have all week to get things done since I don't have to bowl since they are closed for a week. I will go get my blood test on Wednesday and maybe call my girl friend and go to lunch. That's a plan and then the rest of the days I can work outside and work on me.

Hope everyone is having a lovely weekend and enjoy Sunday with the Lord, family and friends.
The weather is on and we set a record today of another 103. Temps are to fall to the 80's Monday and during the week and that will be a relief for people, me included.

God bless all of you my dear friends. Doing better today and will keep going in that direction.

Catch you all tomorrow in the pool.

Smile,

Joyce

  

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JKURJACK1944 7/24/2011 9:33AM

I feel guilty that our temps here in Pigeon Forge have only been in the low 90's. I don't have a pool though so maybe that makes up for it. Have a relaxing day and god bless. Report Inappropriate Comment

NEW-CAZ 7/24/2011 3:04AM

Oh to be able to dip into a pool on a boiling hot day, heaven. Sounds like a great day Joyce. Enjoy the sun as it'll soon be winter! Have a great Sunday Report Inappropriate Comment

MILLISMA 7/23/2011 10:54PM

When I finally got home tonight, my DS and DDIL came over for a swim with their neighbors. This heat has lasted a little too long. Thank God for the pool. Enjoy yourself floating around tomorrow. Report Inappropriate Comment

NOVAJUNGLIST 7/23/2011 10:44PM

i understand about the heat....I am in the DC area and its been over 100 the past few days...I think we hit 108 today :( Report Inappropriate Comment