Monday, September 24, 2012
So I have been down and depressed for the last three days. same thing happened a week ago.
And no one to blame but myself.
You think you're fine, doing great, going on with your life and you are!
Then you talk to that special someone. Or I should say once special someone.
Texting is good (or bad depending on how you look at it) you-can't hear their voice.
I've been broke up with Scott for several years now. But we remained friends and kept in contact. I haven't dated anybody else. The several times that we've gotten together has been fun. And I was fine with it because I'm busy with a lot of things in my life.
So I asked him to come over and help me with my water softener because he helped me get it.
(it's really cool no electricity just cleans itself after so many gallons are used) and with me just living here it's not so much. but something is leaking down my basement and I wanted him just to check it out. I can't figure out if it's my water softener, my water heater, or my furnace because they're all next to each other. I had issues with my furnace I should just break down call the furnace guy. I just hate spending money on it if that's not the problem.
I want to get it taken care of because I think that's part of the problem I have been sick. Is the dampness and mold in my basement.
I know part of the reason is he's got his own stuff he's dealing with. His ex-wife's his twin girls work and he's been off work since July (because he had to have surgery on his arm) So I shouldn't take everything so personally. add to that he lives about 70 minutes away it doesn't get Close to my town unless he is working.
so he was not enthusiastic about coming to see me. Understandable on his part. I shouldn't of taken it so personally but I did. And then it brought all the other emotions out. Ones I thought I had dealt with.
Well it's past bedtime so I need to go. Tomorrow is another day. Another chance to get myself together and be a better me.