Thursday, March 21, 2013
Hi all! Hope you all are doing wonderfully! I guess I need to play catch up:
In my last post, I talked about doing a cleanse. Well, I'm in the process of doing it, and boy, it's been tough! I miss grains and dairy a lot. I won't complain though as I'm feeling more energetic than I have in a long time. In fact, I'd LOVE to go for a run; however, I can't because the cleanse is not only a break from dairy, grains, soy, and meat, but it's also a time for rest. Walks and Yoga are things I can do, but the rest has been surprisingly nice. I still have 7 more days to go.
A couple of weeks ago, I signed up for two 5Ks. One is at the end of this month and the other is in July. I'm doing a color run - Color Me Rad - in Atlanta which I'm SO very excited about. This is a race that I've always wanted to do! I'm also excited because my boyfriend will be running the Color Me Rad 5K with me, and it's his first run!
As for the title of this post:
I've been reading a book called "The Running Dream" by Wendelin Van Draanen. It's about this high school girl who is on the track team, and after one of the events, the school bus gets in an accident. She loses part of her leg, and for a while, she believed that she'd never be able to run again. However, she gets a prosthetic limb that allows her to get back to running. This girl went from not running to working her way up to ten miles! I was impressed!
After finishing this book, it got me to thinking that I wanted to get back to running and to really put my heart in it. Today, the Ray Tanner Home Run 5K & 12K (my first 5K was this race last October!) Facebook page announced that opening day for registration would be next week. So, I got this crazy little idea to run a 12K. Yep. If I choose to do this, I will have 27 weeks to train which seems like plenty of time. However, doubt is holding me back. Can I even do this? Me, the girl who's only fully ran TWO 5Ks in her life. To go from 3.1 miles to about 7.5 miles is crazy! What if I get those terrible shin splints again?
While doubt has been creeping in, most of me is saying go for it. I'd REALLY have to stay dedicated and accountable to the training until the big day. Not only dedicated to running but to clean eating too. It's a big task, but I'm already excited about it. So, I guess this means it is a yes?
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
I'm sorry that I have been MIA the last month or so. I have been dealing with a lot - exhaustion/lack of energy, brain fogs, headaches, asthma, bloating, irritability, etc. Truly, I have dealt with the issues for several years with some days being better than others. In the last month, it seems like all of that has hit at once, and itís been rough. All I want to really do is sleep; I don't want to get out of bed or exercise. Headaches occur daily. The list goes on. With all of this, my time on Spark has been limited.
Iíve been wallowing in self-pity (due to the above); however, last week, I decided to do something about it. Yesterday, I met with a holistic nutritionist; her words were positive, encouraging, and informative. She believes in the power of nature (fruits, vegetables, greens, etc) to heal our bodies of illnesses. I, too, have believed this although I wasnít knowledgeable about it to actually do it. For me, itís such a refreshing idea especially after being put on quite a few medications for my age Ė two asthma inhalers, birth control, and Ibuprofen for PMS. Within the next year, I could be on even more prescriptions for my high-ish blood pressure and allergies. While these medications seem to work, they scare me because of all the ďstuffĒ in them.
My reasons for going to see her were for the symptoms above. She believes that all the symptoms I am experiencing line up with Candidiasis which is a form of Thrust or yeast infection (in the body). Itís caused by medications, high-sugar diets, allergies, etc. She explained how common it is in women and that it is reversible with a healthy diet and probiotics. She also suggested a good cleanse which to me, sounded a bit scary. However, she reassured me that it was 100% healthy, and I would not feel hungry at all. Itís an alkaline cleanse which focuses all meals on greens, fruits, vegetables, seeds, nuts, and beans to give the body a rest from all the other food as well as to supply lots of nutrients. After two weeks on that, I will slowly introduce dairy, corn, and wheat back into my diet to test for food intolerances.
When I left the meeting, I was almost in tears. For so long, Iíve always believed that my lack of energy, bloating, headaches, and irritability would be with me for the rest of my life. I felt that, maybe, it was how I was wired which was painful because those symptoms sideline me from life sometimes. I hate that feeling. Instead of feeling that way yesterday, I finally have hope that one day, Iíll be free from all of that.
Since my family is coming into town in a few weeks and I have an allergist appointment, her and I decided to not do the cleanse yet. For now, hereís what I will be doing:
1. Begin thinking about and choosing healthier food choices.
2. Get back to drinking water.
3. Keep moving (I've only been able to get about an hour walk in).
4. Begin taking the probiotics and vitamins for the Candidiasis.
5. Begin weaning myself off some cheeses, peanuts, mushrooms, juices, sugar, alcohol, and white foods (white breads, white rice, etc).
While this may actually seem like a lot, I have three weeks to work on these. I donít have to be perfect; I just have to be more aware of what Iím putting into my body. I know that this isnít going to be easy, but if I want to begin truly feeling better and get back to life, Iím going to have to do this. Baby steps will be the name of the game for me which is exciting because it will more of a lifestyle change rather than a quick fix. Iím no longer doing this to look beautiful because Iím beginning to realize that I already am. Itís now about treating my body better than I did for the first 24 years of my life. More importantly, itís about living.
Over these next few weeks, I will be working on getting better. Iím not sure how much I will be on Spark, but regardless, please know that I am ALWAYS cheering you on! Remember that your body, mind, and spirit deserve only the best. Take care.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
First off, I want to say thank you to all of my Spark Friends for all the love and encouragement on the last post as well as while I've been "gone". I'm still not 100% yet, but I am working on it.
We live in a society where we have to be thin to be beautiful. We have to look like a super model in order to avoid getting bullied or joked on. I'll be honest, I began this journey to look better in my clothes which in turn will boost my self-confidence. It has worked for the first 20 pounds, but my reason for looking great isn't working anymore.
So what if we decide to forgo the reason of looking sexy? What if we loved our bodies and souls just because? Regardless of the size, we are all so beautiful in our own ways.
So, I'm choosing to get healthier out of love and respect for my body and soul. My body can do so many wonderful things - heal itself, run, lift, etc. Since it allows me to do some amazing things, I want to honor it with love, healthy foods, adequate sleep, and exercise.
I know this is a weird post, but I read Coach Nicole's article this morning: "How Loving Myself Led to Losing Weight", and it opened my eyes. Let's turn our backs on society's ideal image, and let's just celebrate who we are with healthy alternatives!
Friday, February 01, 2013
This blog is meant to be honest - with you all but especially myself. A few of you have told me that I inspire you; while I am grateful for the comment, I feel like the last three weeks have been the opposite of that. I've let you all down. More importantly, I've been letting myself down.
Three weeks ago, I caught a stomach virus, and it took all week to recover. Right after that, I had a sinus infection that left me miserable. After finally feeling better, I was determined to get back on track, but it didn't happen. In fact, there's no excuse for last week. The only thing that happened last week was that I fell back into my old habits of being lazy and gluttonous. It's taken it's toll on me mentally and physically.
I don't know if it's just laziness or truly no energy, but I haven't worked out in about three weeks. I've wanted to. By the time I get home, all I want to do is lay down. So, I do just that. No motivation.
I really struggle with food. I love chicken alfredo, nachos, potato chips, candy, chips and salsa, etc. When I'm doing well with food, my mind tempts me with these yummy, fattening foods, and 90% of the time, I give in. To be honest, when I do well and I allow myself a "free" meal, I feel so so guilty for it which spawns even more "free" meals. I end up feeling so defeated.
Every Thursday and Friday, I give myself a pep talk: "Ok Sam, this weekend is going to be different. You'll exercise, make healthy choices in regards to food, and get eight cups of water in! You can do this!" But the truth is, I never do. In fact, when Monday rolls around, I'm always regretful of how I treated the weekend. For some reason, the weekend just feels like a vacation for me. While I give myself the pep talk, I truly know that it won't happen. It's really a wasted energy. It's been this way since I began my journey in mid-June.
After some time of thinking this morning, I feel like I don't belong on Spark anymore because I haven't changed my habits. I've tried, but like I said, they don't stick on the weekends. So what's the point? Truthfully, I don't feel like I will ever reach my goal. Maybe I'm destined to be this gluttonous, lazy girl. I don't even feel worthy of the pounds that I did lose.
So the truth is out. I'm sorry to any one who may have been inspired by me; in fact, I'm just ashamed of myself. I truly hope that all of you will reach your goals. Please don't be like me. Make the changes. Be happy.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
I know that the last two weeks have been rough. First, you had a stomach virus, and now, its sinuses/cold. I know you aren't feeling well, and the lack of energy is frustrating. However, turning to crappy food won't help your body; in fact, it only leaves you feeling worse. For example, Monday night's Mexican dinner didn't help you at ALL! You felt sick (both sinuses and stomach) and bloated. Heck, the Taco Bell you ate yesterday just made you feel guilty. You KNEW your body needed nutrients, not crap. Your body can't heal properly with high-sodium, high-calorie, yucky food. (Sure, it may taste good at the time, but is it worth it?)
It's time to turn things around TODAY. RIGHT NOW. You made a great choice this morning for breakfast, and I'm proud of you for drinking two cups of water, but you have to continue it throughout the day. Fruits, vegetables, water, green tea, and healthy proteins will help you recover faster. Those foods are jammed pack with wonderful vitamins that will make you feel better. It will keep you on track even though you aren't 100%. It will get you back down to the 146 pounds you saw last week which is in the right direction. Don't allow the 150 pounds or this illness control what you eat, how you sleep, or what you drink. Got it? Good. Now, let's do this!
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