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#124 - Tell Me I'm Crazy.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Hi all! Hope you all are doing wonderfully! I guess I need to play catch up:

In my last post, I talked about doing a cleanse. Well, I'm in the process of doing it, and boy, it's been tough! I miss grains and dairy a lot. I won't complain though as I'm feeling more energetic than I have in a long time. In fact, I'd LOVE to go for a run; however, I can't because the cleanse is not only a break from dairy, grains, soy, and meat, but it's also a time for rest. Walks and Yoga are things I can do, but the rest has been surprisingly nice. I still have 7 more days to go.

A couple of weeks ago, I signed up for two 5Ks. One is at the end of this month and the other is in July. I'm doing a color run - Color Me Rad - in Atlanta which I'm SO very excited about. This is a race that I've always wanted to do! I'm also excited because my boyfriend will be running the Color Me Rad 5K with me, and it's his first run!

As for the title of this post:

I've been reading a book called "The Running Dream" by Wendelin Van Draanen. It's about this high school girl who is on the track team, and after one of the events, the school bus gets in an accident. She loses part of her leg, and for a while, she believed that she'd never be able to run again. However, she gets a prosthetic limb that allows her to get back to running. This girl went from not running to working her way up to ten miles! I was impressed!

After finishing this book, it got me to thinking that I wanted to get back to running and to really put my heart in it. Today, the Ray Tanner Home Run 5K & 12K (my first 5K was this race last October!) Facebook page announced that opening day for registration would be next week. So, I got this crazy little idea to run a 12K. Yep. If I choose to do this, I will have 27 weeks to train which seems like plenty of time. However, doubt is holding me back. Can I even do this? Me, the girl who's only fully ran TWO 5Ks in her life. To go from 3.1 miles to about 7.5 miles is crazy! What if I get those terrible shin splints again?

While doubt has been creeping in, most of me is saying go for it. I'd REALLY have to stay dedicated and accountable to the training until the big day. Not only dedicated to running but to clean eating too. It's a big task, but I'm already excited about it. So, I guess this means it is a yes?


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DJSQUISHIE 3/26/2013 9:48PM

    Hey Sam, you can do anything you put your mind too! Good luck!


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MELLYBEANS0919 3/23/2013 3:05PM

    That is really exciting Sam! You can certainly do this. 27 weeks is a lot of time to get ready. We believe in you!

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CHODGES83 3/22/2013 10:49AM

    Working towards a 10k myself and I've found it's surprisingly easy to build. I did learn that sprints were not for me. About a week of shin splints taught me slow(ish) and steady is working best for me. I suppose the lesson is listen to your body. 27wks should be plenty of time to get yourself ready. Good luck and Keep it up!

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ADZY86 3/22/2013 8:34AM

    You can definitely do it! Write out your programme from the start (or get an app that does it for you) and go for it. I entered a 10K in May and I'm super excited. I used to not even be able to run 5 minutes straight, let along 6.2miles! But I'm on Week 6 of my training and I can't believe it. I really believe I can do it, and you can too. Next stop: half marathon emoticon

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MUFFIY831 3/22/2013 6:54AM

    You can do it! 27 weeks is plenty of time to train properly and not get hurt. And we're all here to support you! I'm trying to work my way up to a 10K this October, but haven't found my race yet. You got this!!!!

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WIFEALF2 3/21/2013 10:48PM

    if you set your mind to it you can do anything...hugs

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POOKASLUAGH 3/21/2013 8:57PM

    You can do it!! Just take it slow and don't worry about your time. You might even find you like longer runs. Before I did my 6.35 miles back in January, I hadn't ever run more than 3.5 and I'd barely done 4 or 5 runs over 3 miles, and I still have no problem going longer than a 10k, and i could have gone further if I'd wanted to - I just took it real slow, and I really loved it. You can do this!

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KANDOLAKER 3/21/2013 5:13PM

    Glad the cleanse is working for you - you are almost done! You'll do great on the 12K, you have plenty of time to train and you've already done a couple 5ks - I know you'll do just great! Best wishes to you!

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CAGMUAHFO2 3/21/2013 4:29PM

    I'm glad to hear that your cleanse is going good!! And YAY on doing the 5K and a big super YAY for getting your boyfriend doing the colour run with you!! That is awesome!!!! I say sign up for the 12K. You have plenty of time to train and yes it will keep you account. Just imagine how great you will feel when you cross the finish line (other than being exhausted of course) You will be so proud of yourself for knowing that you trained for something as big as that. You will be on FIRE!!!!!!

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PAPER_WINGS18 3/21/2013 4:07PM

    I was just coming to check on you and saw that you just posted this! Glad to hear from you-- I was worried!

How inspirational. That's awesome! Go for the run, girl. You can do it!


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POLISHPRINCE1 3/21/2013 4:05PM

  Polishprince here. (steve)

your post caught my attention.

I've recently joined Sparkspeople.

I too, am positioning myself to do a 21 day "detox".

I say position because I want to wait until Easter (and a couple other evetns to pass!
A fishing party with plenty of fish!
A bowing party with family - having pizza!
Then of course, Easter eggs... with all of the promises of good eating!

So I have another 12 days or so - then my purge!
I'm 70 years old - 168 (down from 171 - wanting to hit 155 or lower!

The 21 day detox followed by reasonable eating - should keep my weight down!
At east after the first 10 days - I can add fish, chicken - and other non fat foods...
Just fruits and vegies ... with some brown/wild rice - the first 1o

Say I prayer for me, i really don't know if I will be able to make the change.
I'm a snack-a-hol-ic!

Good luck with your plan!

polishprince (steve.)

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#123 - Hoping for Some Answers.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

I'm sorry that I have been MIA the last month or so. I have been dealing with a lot - exhaustion/lack of energy, brain fogs, headaches, asthma, bloating, irritability, etc. Truly, I have dealt with the issues for several years with some days being better than others. In the last month, it seems like all of that has hit at once, and itís been rough. All I want to really do is sleep; I don't want to get out of bed or exercise. Headaches occur daily. The list goes on. With all of this, my time on Spark has been limited.

Iíve been wallowing in self-pity (due to the above); however, last week, I decided to do something about it. Yesterday, I met with a holistic nutritionist; her words were positive, encouraging, and informative. She believes in the power of nature (fruits, vegetables, greens, etc) to heal our bodies of illnesses. I, too, have believed this although I wasnít knowledgeable about it to actually do it. For me, itís such a refreshing idea especially after being put on quite a few medications for my age Ė two asthma inhalers, birth control, and Ibuprofen for PMS. Within the next year, I could be on even more prescriptions for my high-ish blood pressure and allergies. While these medications seem to work, they scare me because of all the ďstuffĒ in them.

My reasons for going to see her were for the symptoms above. She believes that all the symptoms I am experiencing line up with Candidiasis which is a form of Thrust or yeast infection (in the body). Itís caused by medications, high-sugar diets, allergies, etc. She explained how common it is in women and that it is reversible with a healthy diet and probiotics. She also suggested a good cleanse which to me, sounded a bit scary. However, she reassured me that it was 100% healthy, and I would not feel hungry at all. Itís an alkaline cleanse which focuses all meals on greens, fruits, vegetables, seeds, nuts, and beans to give the body a rest from all the other food as well as to supply lots of nutrients. After two weeks on that, I will slowly introduce dairy, corn, and wheat back into my diet to test for food intolerances.

When I left the meeting, I was almost in tears. For so long, Iíve always believed that my lack of energy, bloating, headaches, and irritability would be with me for the rest of my life. I felt that, maybe, it was how I was wired which was painful because those symptoms sideline me from life sometimes. I hate that feeling. Instead of feeling that way yesterday, I finally have hope that one day, Iíll be free from all of that.

Since my family is coming into town in a few weeks and I have an allergist appointment, her and I decided to not do the cleanse yet. For now, hereís what I will be doing:

1. Begin thinking about and choosing healthier food choices.

2. Get back to drinking water.

3. Keep moving (I've only been able to get about an hour walk in).

4. Begin taking the probiotics and vitamins for the Candidiasis.

5. Begin weaning myself off some cheeses, peanuts, mushrooms, juices, sugar, alcohol, and white foods (white breads, white rice, etc).

While this may actually seem like a lot, I have three weeks to work on these. I donít have to be perfect; I just have to be more aware of what Iím putting into my body. I know that this isnít going to be easy, but if I want to begin truly feeling better and get back to life, Iím going to have to do this. Baby steps will be the name of the game for me which is exciting because it will more of a lifestyle change rather than a quick fix. Iím no longer doing this to look beautiful because Iím beginning to realize that I already am. Itís now about treating my body better than I did for the first 24 years of my life. More importantly, itís about living.

Over these next few weeks, I will be working on getting better. Iím not sure how much I will be on Spark, but regardless, please know that I am ALWAYS cheering you on! Remember that your body, mind, and spirit deserve only the best. Take care.

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WIFEALF2 3/8/2013 10:42PM

    I hope you get to feel better soon.What is the cleanse about????I was wondering do something like that too what is it
????Feel better...

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FITMAMA_ 3/7/2013 10:03PM

    I agree with her! Keep your foods CLEAN and you should see a difference.

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DJSQUISHIE 2/22/2013 5:08PM

    I hope your new plan makes you feel better! I look forward to reading about your progress!

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CIPHER1971 2/21/2013 3:03PM

    And I am cheering you on as well. I really hope this is the answer for you.

All the best

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WINNIE1978 2/20/2013 7:13PM

    I hope the new plan helps!

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CHUBRUB3 2/20/2013 6:46PM

    You can do this my dear friend. You can.
Think of the greater clarity of life you will enjoy. There is so much truth in candida, don't let anyone 'poo-poo' the idea.

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C8TSON 2/20/2013 2:29PM

    You most cerainly need to take care of you first and foremost. Wonderful realizations! It seems to me that you really are beginning the process to true healing. I also believe in the healing power that comes naturally from nutrition/fitness. I know that regardless of a weight loss stagnancy, I have felt better than I have felt in years. No more meds, and my TOM before I got pg was almost completely uneventful. And I once suffered from such cramps/migraines I couldn't get out of bed. I'm so glad you will be getting this help. Hey, and don't worry about your absence from Spark--we are all out here cheering each other along wanting the best for each other--and sometimes that means taking a break from it. But know this: we are all still very much here for you! emoticon emoticon

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CHODGES83 2/20/2013 1:19PM

    Sounds like you've got a plan! Thanks for sharing!

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MELLYBEANS0919 2/20/2013 1:10PM

    It sounds like you are starting a journey of beginning to feel so much better. Good luck with it! I hope you feel so much better! emoticon

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GIANTMICROBE 2/20/2013 12:05PM

    Sounds like a really positive meeting and step in the right direction! You will feel loads better!

I frequently read things like "I thought I was just destined to be like this forever" and I always notice these statements are in the past tense. If you don't like it- you can change it! Let us know how it goes please!!!!! emoticon

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POOKASLUAGH 2/20/2013 11:53AM

    I'm glad you found someone who can help you. My sis-in-law spent years with similar symptoms and had to go through a similar stripping down of her diet to find out what was causing the issues - turned out she was mildly allergic to beef. After she stopped eating beef, most of the symptoms went away. I hope your cleanse and re-introduction can help you figure out what's causing the issues.

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CAROLYN_ROSE 2/20/2013 11:16AM

    Good luck to you! Cleaner eating will absolutely help you feel less sluggish. Cleanses do sound scary but they can make you feel loads better!!! Don't do it for weight loss though. You may lose 6 pounds but it's usually muscle. Do it to clean out your body and start anew!

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#123 - Self Love.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

First off, I want to say thank you to all of my Spark Friends for all the love and encouragement on the last post as well as while I've been "gone". I'm still not 100% yet, but I am working on it.

We live in a society where we have to be thin to be beautiful. We have to look like a super model in order to avoid getting bullied or joked on. I'll be honest, I began this journey to look better in my clothes which in turn will boost my self-confidence. It has worked for the first 20 pounds, but my reason for looking great isn't working anymore.

So what if we decide to forgo the reason of looking sexy? What if we loved our bodies and souls just because? Regardless of the size, we are all so beautiful in our own ways.

So, I'm choosing to get healthier out of love and respect for my body and soul. My body can do so many wonderful things - heal itself, run, lift, etc. Since it allows me to do some amazing things, I want to honor it with love, healthy foods, adequate sleep, and exercise.

I know this is a weird post, but I read Coach Nicole's article this morning: "How Loving Myself Led to Losing Weight", and it opened my eyes. Let's turn our backs on society's ideal image, and let's just celebrate who we are with healthy alternatives!

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DJSQUISHIE 2/15/2013 2:59PM

    Great entry, and positive state of being! I will try to keep this in mind whenever I'm feeling down.

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MELLYBEANS0919 2/15/2013 1:46PM

    Happy to see you are beginning to feel more positive Sam. Glad you're back to, miss you!

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C8TSON 2/15/2013 10:10AM

    This is wonderful Sam! I'm so glad to see this post from you! emoticon

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MSHEL7 2/14/2013 11:51PM

    Best reason of all.

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CHUBRUB3 2/14/2013 6:49PM

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Great blog Sam!

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POOKASLUAGH 2/14/2013 5:25PM

    Such a great post!

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CIPHER1971 2/14/2013 3:12PM

    Love the attitude

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CHODGES83 2/14/2013 2:50PM

    So glad to read this positive talk. Celebrate your body and treat it well. YOU'VE GOT IT, GIRL!

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Friday, February 01, 2013

This blog is meant to be honest - with you all but especially myself. A few of you have told me that I inspire you; while I am grateful for the comment, I feel like the last three weeks have been the opposite of that. I've let you all down. More importantly, I've been letting myself down.

Three weeks ago, I caught a stomach virus, and it took all week to recover. Right after that, I had a sinus infection that left me miserable. After finally feeling better, I was determined to get back on track, but it didn't happen. In fact, there's no excuse for last week. The only thing that happened last week was that I fell back into my old habits of being lazy and gluttonous. It's taken it's toll on me mentally and physically.

I don't know if it's just laziness or truly no energy, but I haven't worked out in about three weeks. I've wanted to. By the time I get home, all I want to do is lay down. So, I do just that. No motivation.

I really struggle with food. I love chicken alfredo, nachos, potato chips, candy, chips and salsa, etc. When I'm doing well with food, my mind tempts me with these yummy, fattening foods, and 90% of the time, I give in. To be honest, when I do well and I allow myself a "free" meal, I feel so so guilty for it which spawns even more "free" meals. I end up feeling so defeated.

Every Thursday and Friday, I give myself a pep talk: "Ok Sam, this weekend is going to be different. You'll exercise, make healthy choices in regards to food, and get eight cups of water in! You can do this!" But the truth is, I never do. In fact, when Monday rolls around, I'm always regretful of how I treated the weekend. For some reason, the weekend just feels like a vacation for me. While I give myself the pep talk, I truly know that it won't happen. It's really a wasted energy. It's been this way since I began my journey in mid-June.

After some time of thinking this morning, I feel like I don't belong on Spark anymore because I haven't changed my habits. I've tried, but like I said, they don't stick on the weekends. So what's the point? Truthfully, I don't feel like I will ever reach my goal. Maybe I'm destined to be this gluttonous, lazy girl. I don't even feel worthy of the pounds that I did lose.

So the truth is out. I'm sorry to any one who may have been inspired by me; in fact, I'm just ashamed of myself. I truly hope that all of you will reach your goals. Please don't be like me. Make the changes. Be happy.

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BREW99 2/5/2013 4:34PM

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PAPER_WINGS18 2/2/2013 10:16PM

    Message me your FB info. if you have it =)

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MELLYBEANS0919 2/1/2013 5:58PM

    Aw Sam, this post broke my heart. You don't let ANYONE down when you are not reaching your goals. We aren't perfect. Heck, I have been on here over 3 years. Yes, I said THREE and have I lost weight? Not much. Has exercise become a habit and I love it? Nope. I haven't exercised in a few days again. I simply can't be bothered. Am I eating 100% healthy? Nope, I had two helpings of a treat today. I also overate. No one is perfect. Please don't beat yourself up, get down on yourself, give up. You are welcomed here, you are loved.

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KANDOLAKER 2/1/2013 3:56PM

    I am here for you - we all our. Three weeks does not make much difference in the large scheme of things. If you need a break, no worry - take a break - but stay with us. Your motivation may come back soon - maybe something on this site will "spark" you to try again. What you are going thru is very understandable and not that uncommon. Take some deep breaths, take some time for yourself, and know that we are all here for you! All the best - Kathy

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OJIBWEEQUAY 2/1/2013 3:03PM

    Oh Love! I gained almost 20 pds last year!!!!!!! And I am a motivator??? HA! Stick with it gal. Do it for yourself and for no other reasons emoticon

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CHUBRUB3 2/1/2013 2:09PM

    You still inspire me my friend. You are honest and you persevere. So smile and begin again.

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WALKING_WONDER 2/1/2013 1:44PM

    Look at all these comments! You see, we're here for you and we care about you. Don't let these last three weeks convince you to quit. It sounds to me like you really need the help. You can't get all the wonderful benefits of SP if you leave. Maybe you're just down-in-the-dumps from being sick for so long and it has you thinking negatively. I would suggest waiting until you are in a more positive frame of mmind before you make a decision like this. Please let us help you!!!

Keep us posted on what you decide to do! If you leave us, you will be missed!


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PAPER_WINGS18 2/1/2013 1:22PM

    There's nothing I can say that these other fabulous ladies haven't said. But don't quit SP. If you quit SP, what kind of support system do you have? A year from now, would you rather weigh the same as now(with the great chance of weighing substantially less!) or weigh 20+ pounds more than you do now? You can do this, Sam.

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POOKASLUAGH 2/1/2013 1:02PM

    Spark is not for people who have changed their habits. It's for people who are trying to do better, and you are. Do you mess up? Yeah, of course. We all do. I binge on chocolate and potato chips for at least a week every month - not helping my weight loss! I've literally lost no more than 2 lbs in any month since June, and have had several 0-lb loss months. But what happens if you leave? I don't know. Maybe it'll be okay for you and you'll keep trying. Or maybe being here helps to keep your health on your mind 75% of the time, and you do better than without it. Spark is not here to chastise you for bad habits, or for gaining weight back, or for anything else. It is for support and friendship. If you want to give up Spark, I can understand that - I nearly quit a year ago, because I was overwhelmed by the social media aspect of it, and feeling like I had to live up to a standard. But my husband sat me down and talked to me, and said that it would be like throwing away an entire batch of cookies because a single cookie burned - and he's no fan of Spark in the first place! I decided to stay, and it's been helpful to have people around who continue to encourage me when I'm discouraged, and help me celebrate those (very) few and far between milestones.

What I'm saying is that you shouldn't give up because you feel like you're failing any of us. You also shouldn't give up because you feel like you're failing yourself. We are all harder on ourselves than anyone else is on us, and from all the blogs I see from you berating yourself about weekends, it makes me feel like maybe what needs to change is not your behavior on weekends, but how you approach that behavior. You've lost about 20 lbs right? So don't try to lose on weekends - eat what you want. Indulge. You're not going to gain those 20 lbs back in a single weekend. That's 70,000 calories in addition to what you need to live. That's over 35,000 calories a day. You'd explode. So indulge a little - give yourself leeway, instead of beating yourself up, and then go back to your regimen during the week. Or something. Find a way to do this YOUR way. Fast, slow, whatever - it's better than giving up and succumbing to depression, whether or not you stay on Spark.

If Spark isn't helping you, or is making you feel worse, then by all means, delete your account. We will miss you terribly, but you should be here for you, and not for us. That works in reverse too, though - if Spark IS helping you, you should stay, and not feel guilty for letting anyone else - or yourself - down from time to time. Believe me, the rest of us are not watching to see when you fail - we are just here to support you when you need it.

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CHODGES83 2/1/2013 1:02PM

    I feel like there's not anything I can say that these other sparks have not already said. Thank you for sharing with us. Thank you for being honest, especially honest with your doubts. You have no reason to be ashamed. Keep your chin up and take your babysteps (Bob) cause you have the strength to be the best version of yourself. I believe in you.

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EMFRAPPIER 2/1/2013 1:00PM

    This kind of thing happens to all of us. The weekends are definitely the hardest, and I have had plenty of start-over Mondays. It can be really hard to handle and really tempting to quit. Please don't quit. Don't put so much pressure on doing everything perfectly. It doesn't happen. Focus on small steps to get back into your healthy routine. Each day (each meal) is a new chance. Don't focus on the past - it doesn't matter if you slip up or fall down, all that matters is that you get back up. emoticon

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GIANTMICROBE 2/1/2013 12:46PM

    We all get like this and feel down on ourselves at some point. I was on Spark for over a year talking and talking but just gaining. Thought I had all the answers because I had lost so much weight so many years before- never minding the fact I was 30 pounds overweight at the time. I was not practicing what I preached on Spark- for over a YEAR.

It is my experience that sometimes, although we want to change, we might have to wait until something just clicks and you just do it. I also find it helps to take the pressure off yourself. Instead of saying "I HAVE to do this" or "I HAVE to do that", replace it with "I should ____ because ______". That nearly almost always works for me.

Think about what you're suggesting... just giving up. Is that what you really want to do?

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NIKKICOLE83 2/1/2013 12:45PM

    Oh girl. You deserve Spark as much as anyone else. In fact, Spark is for those who are struggling not a platform for the succesful to get pats on the back. Whether you like it or not, you are inspiring. You probably just inspired someone else to finally be honest with themselves.

If weekends are your downfall, then make the weekdays your success story. Eat clean, get moving again, and burn as much as you can with the knowledge that you are going to enjoy your chips and salsa on the weekend. I am a very social person and I am typically hosting something or going somewhere every Saturday or Sunday. I allow for that by putting in a crazy workout Saturday morning before I even have breakfast and then I go to a Zumba class on Sunday. Basically, I eat crazy but I sweat crazy before hand on the weekends so that I can at least say, I don't gain.

Don't give up on yourself. If you woke up tomorrow BACK at your starting weight, you will have wished that you had this opportunity back. You won't be perfect and stop expecting yourself to be.

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C8TSON 2/1/2013 12:44PM

    Oh Sam, it hurts my heart to hear you beat yourself up for this. And furthermore, sparkpeople has absolutely no "personality trait requirements" to fulfill. We are all out here struggling and messing up everyday. We are human and cannot be perfect 24/7, especially with advertisements and temptations EVERYWHERE. Sometimes I wonder how anyone could choose to live healthy when I see 47 signs in one mile of town advertising for junk foods. I REALLY don't think you are alone in feeling this way. I know there have been many Mondays when I feel like "why try?" For months I have done this diet/exercise thing and haven't lost a single pound. But, I keep trying, because I know that it's coming off one way or another. Look at what you HAVE done. You have lost weight, ran marathons, worked out consistently, improved your overall health, and no matter what you believe, you have encouraged many of us out here. I hope that this emotion will not overtake you to the point of stopping all of your progress. You should definitely let your sparkfriends be here for you and to encourage you. Hang in there, and no matter what, emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CAROLYN_ROSE 2/1/2013 12:41PM

    We have all been at this place!!! Spark is not meant to be a end game. It's a website designed knowing there will be ups and downs. Life isn't easy and weigh loss is even harder. Don't get discouraged though! I wouldn't delete my profile, maybe take a little break. Step away for a little while, clear your head. Look deep inside as to why you keep on sabotaging youself. The answers are there, sometimes they take a little longer to find them out though.

Don't leave this place because you feel you've failed. Every one of us on here has failed at one point or another. But you just need to pick youself back up. Sure you may be sabotaging your weekends (we all do fyi) but sooner or later. SOmething will click and you'll figure it out. Hugs!! And good luck.

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DJSQUISHIE 2/1/2013 12:40PM

    Oh Sam, you're being way too hard on yourself! Of course weight loss is a constant struggle; it's like that for everyone! I have the exact same problems as you with food, and with's nothing to be ashamed of.

I've only worked out maybe 3 times this whole month! And yes I do have a knee problem..but there are plenty of things for me to do at the gym. I just choose to stay at home after work instead of going to the gym most days. I'm going to work on that more this month, but each day is going to be a constant battle with myself to get it done.

You have nothing to be ashamed of regarding what you eat, and falling into a rut. Don't feel like you're being pressured to live up to other people's standards just because they praise you for doing well. You're only human, and you're allowed to feel bad about not doing your best.

I would be sad if you really left Spark People...not to add pressure! LOL! I would be sad because you're a really nice person, and it's nice to relate to someone with the same struggles and self doubt that I have. At least on here you can always find comfort from other peoples encouragement instead of dealing with the doubt on your own.

Don't beat yourself up girl, because it's not worth it.


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#121 - A Letter to Myself.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Dear Samantha,

I know that the last two weeks have been rough. First, you had a stomach virus, and now, its sinuses/cold. I know you aren't feeling well, and the lack of energy is frustrating. However, turning to crappy food won't help your body; in fact, it only leaves you feeling worse. For example, Monday night's Mexican dinner didn't help you at ALL! You felt sick (both sinuses and stomach) and bloated. Heck, the Taco Bell you ate yesterday just made you feel guilty. You KNEW your body needed nutrients, not crap. Your body can't heal properly with high-sodium, high-calorie, yucky food. (Sure, it may taste good at the time, but is it worth it?)

It's time to turn things around TODAY. RIGHT NOW. You made a great choice this morning for breakfast, and I'm proud of you for drinking two cups of water, but you have to continue it throughout the day. Fruits, vegetables, water, green tea, and healthy proteins will help you recover faster. Those foods are jammed pack with wonderful vitamins that will make you feel better. It will keep you on track even though you aren't 100%. It will get you back down to the 146 pounds you saw last week which is in the right direction. Don't allow the 150 pounds or this illness control what you eat, how you sleep, or what you drink. Got it? Good. Now, let's do this!



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BREW99 1/24/2013 1:58PM

    Sounds good, I'm sure your body will thank you later for the wake up letter. emoticon

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MSLEO88 1/24/2013 1:24PM

    Great Letter!!! Just take it one day at a time. Mistakes happen as long as we learn from them!! emoticon

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DORENC 1/24/2013 12:58PM

    I love this letter and think that it really says Dear Carrie, I went through the sicknesses in December and have been slowly getting in the groove. I am one day at a time taking over my life. However, I do not like water currently. I need to drink more and have to turn it into a habit of something I like instead of just not doing it. My food decisions have been horrible and I feel if guilty because i am putting alot of time into exercise and not seeing anything for it. Thank you for posting this. It is what I really needed to see and I feel like it's the same thing I needed to think and am now thinking about.

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LBP1961 1/24/2013 10:43AM

    great letter. I love it. Good luck.

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DJSQUISHIE 1/23/2013 10:59PM

    Great letter/pep talk to yourself! I am the same way. When I feel sick/icky all I want is a Big Mac combo. I was craving that tonight, but instead I had a microwave Indian meal that was healthy and low calorie. Sometimes having healthy micro meals are handy when you're not feeling good; especially when there's a healthier version of your favourite foods!

Anyway, I hope you feel better soon my dear! emoticon

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CHUBRUB3 1/23/2013 6:20PM

    Dear Samantha,
You are doing terrific and you will succeed.
I just know it and I believe in you.

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CIPHER1971 1/23/2013 4:43PM

    Now that is a letter we all need to write to ourselves sometimes.

Way to go with the turn round

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KANDOLAKER 1/23/2013 2:03PM

    What a great letter to yourself! Hope you are better soon - and all the best!!

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MNGIRLIE 1/23/2013 1:03PM

    Keep it up girlie! you've got this!

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RWILSON19 1/23/2013 12:37PM

  Your letter not only was wonderful but inspiring to me as well! Keep going girl!

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SPICEMWE 1/23/2013 12:02PM

    This is perfect - way to go! I need to give myself a similar pep talk right now. I keep eating junk because I feel like crap right now, but it's not an excuse. We can push through this. Good choices can be made the rest of the week.

Let's do this!!


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PAPER_WINGS18 1/23/2013 11:57AM

    Great, Samantha! :) You can do it. I know that when I am sick(cold or whatever), all I want is icky comfort foods. So maybe give yourself a break? I'm not saying dive face-first into a bag of Cheetos, but maybe just rest up and allow yourself to eat whatever junk food you want, in moderation, until you feel better? It is so hard to have motivation to track and plan everything while battling a head cold. hang in there! and feel better!

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CAGMUAHFO2 1/23/2013 11:56AM

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C8TSON 1/23/2013 11:52AM

    This is a good idea to write yourself a letter. Great way to put it in perspective. But don't beat yourself up for the mistakes. Heck, who wants to cook when they feel like crap?! But, on the flip side, yes, eating healthier DOES make you heal faster. That's a tough place to be in. Hope you feel better soon. Take care of yourself! emoticon

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MELLYBEANS0919 1/23/2013 11:22AM

    Awesome pep talk! I need to do one for myself today, I can relate to everything you wrote (minus the sickness). We can DO THIS! Feel better!!

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