Every last ounce of my body said "I do not want to exercise today." I have not experienced a day like this in a long, long time. I just did not want to do it. I woke up this morning and had the best intentions, I was going to run 4 miles after work.
The work day got the best of me. I was stressed and just wanted to go home. It's too windy and I'll be miserable. I'm tired. I have other things to do. I'll run tomorrow. I just don't care right now. I want to go home and relax. Excuses.
Then the Spark voices started in on me. No excuses. Pay the price today. Do it just for 10 minutes. Just put your runnng clothes on. Get started. It's only 30 minutes out of your day. Nothing feels as good as knowing that you did exercise today. Ask your doctor if getting off of your butt is right for you. Just do it, now!
Oh Lord was it tough. My sneakers were begging to feel the pavement. My workout clothes needed to feel the moisture of my sweat. My body had to get the release of tension and energy that was stored inside. My mind had to let go of the negative thoughts and go where it finds peace. But first I had to listen to the Spark voices in my head. I needed convincing. "I will feel so much worse if I don't go. Suck it up Girlie and get your A$$ out there!"
I hated/loved every minute of it. All 32 minutes. Some days you just have to move and not think about. Just GO!
A friend borrowed my car today and said "How about we go to Red Lobster for dinner and I buy since you let me use your car?"
"No, I can't I have to to run after work. I'm sorry, it is tempting but I have to stick to my workout plans." "Thank you, maybe another time, when it's raining." Ha, ha!
He knows that I have made a commitment to my health and he understood. We'll pick a rainy day maybe next week then. (I love it!)
I really do try to run all my errands or make my social visits when the weather is not good. Does that make me a bad person? I really don't know, I just see as trying to maximize my time. You know the old saying "Make hay while the sun is shining."
Oh these are just some of the things people have said to me about my "running":
"You must really love it.?!"
"Why do you want to do that?"
"Must be nice to take a lunch, I don't have time."
"You're going to damage your body."
Well, all I can say about that is:
Yes, I do love it.
I do it because I want to be in good physical, mental and spiritual condition.
It is great to take lunch and enjoy the sunshine in these darkest days of winter. I will come in early or stay late but I WILL NOT GIVE UP MY LUNCH!!!!
I believe that I am doing less damage to my body then what I was doing by carrying around the extra 65lbs that I used to lug everywhere that I went.
Yes, I am determined. I am determined to make myself my #1 Priority. I can do that.
I am determined to take care of myself and keep the weight off. I am determined to run more races and possibly a Half-Marathon. I am determined to show you what determination and dedication can do for the body, mind and spirit.
I will continue to RUN ON! (Like a crazy woman) : )
Wow! What a year 2011 has been. If the "old" (2011) was good imagine what the "new" (2012) can be like. Great things begin to happen when you make yourself a priority. My health and happiness is mostly up to me and how I treat myself.
I am much happier when I take care of myself. When I exercise, eat right and get enough sleep I feel so much better all the way around. Amazing how such seemingly simple things can make or break my day. I have great struggles with making me a priority some days. When I stick to my guns and say "I must do this first for me", everything else always seems to work out. The world doesn't stop spinning when I go and exercise or even go to bed a little earlier. I may stress a little more wondering how will I get it all done but I always seem to manage.
Some people think I am obsessed. I honestly don't think that I am. I just know that I must make this a priority if I am going to keep the weight off and be healthy. I have been maintaining my weight for 20 months. That is awesome and that is what happens you MAKE YOU A PRIORITY!