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I ran my first 10k race!!!

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Don't ask me how I did it. I have to say this about that, IT WAS THE WORST RUN that I ever had!!!!!

BUT, I did it! I started out feeling pretty good even though I was tired from events of the day before and a lack of sleep. I was about a mile in and I started getting side stitches that lasted for 2.5 - 3 miles. But my leags felt good. My breathing was out of control and I kepy hearing that little voice telling me "I can't make it". Oye, I hate that voice.

I actually stopped at the half-way point and had a sip of water hoping that I could recover fast and get going again and be okay. Well, that didn't wotk. My stomach got so tight that I thought I was going to vomit. But my legs felt good. I just kept moving forward and then I heard someone say you only have a little over a mile to go. "OMG, I can't make it". Yes you can. No you can't. Yes you can. No you can't. You do it!! You can do it!!!

UGH! I looked up and saw the hill and suddenly felt a head wind that I thought would knock me down. I could not run the whole way up the hill. (Bummer) Once I reached the top of the hill and looked out on the horizon and saw the steeple of the church that I started at I mentally felt like "Yes, I can finish". My body was arguing the point though. I just kept running.

As I got closer to the finish line I could see the time and I thought "How the hell did I do that?" I woulda bet money that I was over my goal time of 70 minutes and I was actually under it! I crossed the line at 63:40. Yahoo!!!! 2nd place in my age group!!

Push your limits to go beyond them!!!! Do not stay where you are.

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MACILINN 11/20/2011 8:28AM

    loved the commentary! way to go girl!

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AIMLESS07 11/19/2011 3:41PM

    Way to go!! I still remember my first 10K.

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CONFIDENTLY_FIT 11/19/2011 1:23PM

    WOHOO!! Congrats!!! My first 10K is Jan.1st...can't wait!

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STOCKSROCK 11/19/2011 11:53AM

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Nice job! Now take the rest of the weekend and recover!

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Only another runner knows

Saturday, October 08, 2011

why I have that look on my face when I am running up that last hill at the end of 5.5 miles, 60 minutes. Other people think "why do you do it?" or "it's not worth it" or "she's crazy".

There is a thrill unlike any that I have ever known to complete a run. It challenges me in ways that are different from other challenges. To know that it is purely my own determination and will power that gets me through to the end. My mind plays games with me and tells me I won't make it or I can't do it. But somehow I make it to the end of my running route.

When I crest that last hill and the sun is shining through the trees on me at that moment I have a sense of satisfaction like no other. I am proud of myself for sticking with it and not giving up. I am proud of myself for pushing myself to the next level. I feel good knowing that I am doing what I never in a million years would have thought I would or could do.

Funny how sometimes we become people that we never even dreamed we would become. Runner, physically fit, healthy, proud, happy, just some words that describe who I am today.

I "PAID THE PRICE TODAY". It was so worth it.

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FREECLOUD 10/11/2011 12:24PM

    Great description of why you run. It's really difficult to put into words, but you've done it beautifully.

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SUSIQZER 10/8/2011 4:47PM

    Awesome... and so true!!

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SAPHRAEL 10/8/2011 11:04AM

    Awesome! Way to go!

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We all do it.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

We all fall down once in a while don't we?

I was reading a few blogs this morning and it seems that quite a few people have "fall down and go boom". Some are pretty good at beating themselves up over it too. We can be our own worst enemies and that does not help at all. So let's put the 2 x 4's away for today and give ourselves a pat on the back and a hug.

We all fall and really, we all get back up. The question is how long do we lay there on the ground crying in a mud puddle? What can we do to help pick ourselves up? What can we learn from the experience to help us stand again and keep moving forward even though we are wet and full of mud. (Don't worry it comes off easy once it's dry)

I over ate yesterday and I drank a few glasses of wine to boot. I could beat myself up today but I won't. Just because I didn't do yesterday perfect doesn't mean that I should quit trying. It means that I have got to try and be more aware of my present moment. I have to practice mindfulness and look for the warning signs before I fall again. Maybe I can avoid the mud puddle next and just have a scraped knee.

Time for a group hug! (((( Me, myself and I ))))

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FAERY_FACE 6/20/2011 6:35AM

    Loved it! Thank you for posting emoticon

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TEDDYBABE 6/19/2011 4:52PM

    YAY!!!!! I LOVE THIS BLOG! Thank you thank you. I so agree. Life just happens. And there we go off and running again! Yippeee!! You are awesome Dee. Thanks for reminding us all! Have a good one friend!

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SPIDERGIRL502 6/18/2011 8:29PM

    So true!!


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JUST-AMY 6/18/2011 9:28AM

    Oh, this is soooooooooo true! I used to use one bad choice as the finest excuse for another! Now it just "is what it is!" I suppose that was perfectionist thinking: If I couldn't do it 100% right, I would just do it100% wrong! Now I accept that 90% right is still pretty darn good! And so is 80% decent.....

So I celebrate your overnight recovery celebration, and am very grateful for you posting this. I guarantee you that this speaks to every single reader! And the next time I take a bite I shouldn't? Well. It won't be permission to carry on....I will think of this blog, and plan on climbing back on the plan and out of the piddy puddle!

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MALEXANDER4 6/18/2011 7:04AM

    I loved your blog. Thank you. I have fallen and at first thought I couldn't get up either...nope i'm standing and i'm strong and I will conqur myself. Have a great day.

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PICKLEDGINGER2 6/18/2011 6:28AM

  One day at a time!

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The story of Smug and Inner Cheerleaders

Sunday, June 05, 2011

First off, I want to thank "my inner cheerleaders" for all their support when I don't think I can go on. They are always there for me yelling and cheering for me to overcome my negativity and doubts.

Now this is smug. Smug is going out on a hot and humid day and walking 1.5 mile, running 1.5 mile and then riding bike for 6 miles. "Oh yes", I tell myself. "Dee you are awesome!"

I am flying up the trail on my bike going faster and faster. I am feeling my body working and my heart pumping. I am sweating like crazy and loving it. My Inner Cheerleaders are saying "You go girl!" Who else do you know that can do this kind of work out in this weather and feel good about it? "No one, they couldn't catch me if they tried." Yeah, "No one can catch me! That's right, I said no one."

"Coming up on your left."

What??? Huh, what where did that voice come from? I don't remember any male cheerleaders on my team.

"Don't Panic" he says.

What? OMG, someone IS passing me! How'd this happen? Darn, just when I thinking I was "all that".

Smug knocked me back a peg and forced me to try and go faster to keep up with that guy. I couldn't but I tried.

I still feel good about my workout that day, but I thought that his timing was just too funny.

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SUZWARNR 6/6/2011 7:25AM

    I love your positive motivation. You gotta believe in yourself in order to achieve great things. Negative thoughts get you nowhere. Glad you enjoyed your bike ride. You did great! :)

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KARENE10 6/5/2011 10:11AM

    Congrats on getting out there in this hot and humid weather! emoticon emoticon

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LNSYLVSDOGS 6/5/2011 9:30AM

    emoticon Love it!

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TEDDYBABE 6/5/2011 9:03AM

    Oh how true this is. Kudos to you. It's hard to find the rah rah motivation with our summer weather!

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Sick and tired, need R&R.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Been sick and tired. I have been battling insomnia for a couple of weeks and I guess as a result of that I have gotten sick. What a way to spend a three day weekend. emoticon

However, as a result of being sick, I have slept more this weekend then I have in the previous week. Although I am sick, I am starting to feel at least a little rested. I believe that I need to make some changes in my life at this point. I have been under a lot of stress for the past few years and I thought that I was handling it all very well and in healthy ways. I guess the fact is, that it really has all caught up with me and I need to get back to basics here and keep it simple.

There are some things that I know will help me to reduce the stress and get back to a good place. I am about to start. I need to accept that I have limitations and that some days I will just have to "do less". That does not mean that I am a failure or that I am a lazy person, it means that I am human and as a human I have limits. Live with it. Accept it and take care of my humanness. It's time to focus on what I really need right here and right now. In this moment and this minute.

To all of you who have been supportive in the past, "Thank You". I know that there is much support here at Spark and I am opening my heart and mind to all I can get right now.

Love you all!


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FREECLOUD 5/30/2011 11:51AM

    Stress is so destructive :( It's great that you're reevaluating and putting a new plan into play. So many people just let stress take over their life and slowly chip away at who they are. You have the strength to keep fighting - good for you!

I've found that the best stress fighter is balance through healthy choices and exercise. I didn't start running to lose weight but to fight the stress demons. I'm still ahead and you will be too!

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KIWIEVIE 5/30/2011 10:06AM

    I have been sick and had injuries in the the last month.
And just when I was back on track... Knocked down again.
Your body is telling you slow down and rest.
Take the time for you.
Find ways to relax the stress away.
You will be alright in the end.
Take care.
Evie emoticon

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