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Only another runner knows

Saturday, October 08, 2011

why I have that look on my face when I am running up that last hill at the end of 5.5 miles, 60 minutes. Other people think "why do you do it?" or "it's not worth it" or "she's crazy".

There is a thrill unlike any that I have ever known to complete a run. It challenges me in ways that are different from other challenges. To know that it is purely my own determination and will power that gets me through to the end. My mind plays games with me and tells me I won't make it or I can't do it. But somehow I make it to the end of my running route.

When I crest that last hill and the sun is shining through the trees on me at that moment I have a sense of satisfaction like no other. I am proud of myself for sticking with it and not giving up. I am proud of myself for pushing myself to the next level. I feel good knowing that I am doing what I never in a million years would have thought I would or could do.

Funny how sometimes we become people that we never even dreamed we would become. Runner, physically fit, healthy, proud, happy, just some words that describe who I am today.

I "PAID THE PRICE TODAY". It was so worth it.

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FREECLOUD 10/11/2011 12:24PM

    Great description of why you run. It's really difficult to put into words, but you've done it beautifully.

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SUSIQZER 10/8/2011 4:47PM

    Awesome... and so true!!

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SAPHRAEL 10/8/2011 11:04AM

    Awesome! Way to go!

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We all do it.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

We all fall down once in a while don't we?

I was reading a few blogs this morning and it seems that quite a few people have "fall down and go boom". Some are pretty good at beating themselves up over it too. We can be our own worst enemies and that does not help at all. So let's put the 2 x 4's away for today and give ourselves a pat on the back and a hug.

We all fall and really, we all get back up. The question is how long do we lay there on the ground crying in a mud puddle? What can we do to help pick ourselves up? What can we learn from the experience to help us stand again and keep moving forward even though we are wet and full of mud. (Don't worry it comes off easy once it's dry)

I over ate yesterday and I drank a few glasses of wine to boot. I could beat myself up today but I won't. Just because I didn't do yesterday perfect doesn't mean that I should quit trying. It means that I have got to try and be more aware of my present moment. I have to practice mindfulness and look for the warning signs before I fall again. Maybe I can avoid the mud puddle next and just have a scraped knee.

Time for a group hug! (((( Me, myself and I ))))

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FAERY_FACE 6/20/2011 6:35AM

    Loved it! Thank you for posting emoticon

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TEDDYBABE 6/19/2011 4:52PM

    YAY!!!!! I LOVE THIS BLOG! Thank you thank you. I so agree. Life just happens. And there we go off and running again! Yippeee!! You are awesome Dee. Thanks for reminding us all! Have a good one friend!

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SPIDERGIRL502 6/18/2011 8:29PM

    So true!!


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JUST-AMY 6/18/2011 9:28AM

    Oh, this is soooooooooo true! I used to use one bad choice as the finest excuse for another! Now it just "is what it is!" I suppose that was perfectionist thinking: If I couldn't do it 100% right, I would just do it100% wrong! Now I accept that 90% right is still pretty darn good! And so is 80% decent.....

So I celebrate your overnight recovery celebration, and am very grateful for you posting this. I guarantee you that this speaks to every single reader! And the next time I take a bite I shouldn't? Well. It won't be permission to carry on....I will think of this blog, and plan on climbing back on the plan and out of the piddy puddle!

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MALEXANDER4 6/18/2011 7:04AM

    I loved your blog. Thank you. I have fallen and at first thought I couldn't get up either...nope i'm standing and i'm strong and I will conqur myself. Have a great day.

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PICKLEDGINGER2 6/18/2011 6:28AM

  One day at a time!

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The story of Smug and Inner Cheerleaders

Sunday, June 05, 2011

First off, I want to thank "my inner cheerleaders" for all their support when I don't think I can go on. They are always there for me yelling and cheering for me to overcome my negativity and doubts.

Now this is smug. Smug is going out on a hot and humid day and walking 1.5 mile, running 1.5 mile and then riding bike for 6 miles. "Oh yes", I tell myself. "Dee you are awesome!"

I am flying up the trail on my bike going faster and faster. I am feeling my body working and my heart pumping. I am sweating like crazy and loving it. My Inner Cheerleaders are saying "You go girl!" Who else do you know that can do this kind of work out in this weather and feel good about it? "No one, they couldn't catch me if they tried." Yeah, "No one can catch me! That's right, I said no one."

"Coming up on your left."

What??? Huh, what where did that voice come from? I don't remember any male cheerleaders on my team.

"Don't Panic" he says.

What? OMG, someone IS passing me! How'd this happen? Darn, just when I thinking I was "all that".

Smug knocked me back a peg and forced me to try and go faster to keep up with that guy. I couldn't but I tried.

I still feel good about my workout that day, but I thought that his timing was just too funny.

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SUZWARNR 6/6/2011 7:25AM

    I love your positive motivation. You gotta believe in yourself in order to achieve great things. Negative thoughts get you nowhere. Glad you enjoyed your bike ride. You did great! :)

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KARENE10 6/5/2011 10:11AM

    Congrats on getting out there in this hot and humid weather! emoticon emoticon

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LNSYLVSDOGS 6/5/2011 9:30AM

    emoticon Love it!

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TEDDYBABE 6/5/2011 9:03AM

    Oh how true this is. Kudos to you. It's hard to find the rah rah motivation with our summer weather!

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Sick and tired, need R&R.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Been sick and tired. I have been battling insomnia for a couple of weeks and I guess as a result of that I have gotten sick. What a way to spend a three day weekend. emoticon

However, as a result of being sick, I have slept more this weekend then I have in the previous week. Although I am sick, I am starting to feel at least a little rested. I believe that I need to make some changes in my life at this point. I have been under a lot of stress for the past few years and I thought that I was handling it all very well and in healthy ways. I guess the fact is, that it really has all caught up with me and I need to get back to basics here and keep it simple.

There are some things that I know will help me to reduce the stress and get back to a good place. I am about to start. I need to accept that I have limitations and that some days I will just have to "do less". That does not mean that I am a failure or that I am a lazy person, it means that I am human and as a human I have limits. Live with it. Accept it and take care of my humanness. It's time to focus on what I really need right here and right now. In this moment and this minute.

To all of you who have been supportive in the past, "Thank You". I know that there is much support here at Spark and I am opening my heart and mind to all I can get right now.

Love you all!


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FREECLOUD 5/30/2011 11:51AM

    Stress is so destructive :( It's great that you're reevaluating and putting a new plan into play. So many people just let stress take over their life and slowly chip away at who they are. You have the strength to keep fighting - good for you!

I've found that the best stress fighter is balance through healthy choices and exercise. I didn't start running to lose weight but to fight the stress demons. I'm still ahead and you will be too!

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KIWIEVIE 5/30/2011 10:06AM

    I have been sick and had injuries in the the last month.
And just when I was back on track... Knocked down again.
Your body is telling you slow down and rest.
Take the time for you.
Find ways to relax the stress away.
You will be alright in the end.
Take care.
Evie emoticon

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Believe in Miracles.....believe in YOU!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

My world came to a crashing halt on April 10, 2009. "Dee, John's been in an accident and flown to the hospital." OMG! "We'll get the Chaplin for you" OMG! "Both legs broke in numerous places, torn intestines, torn bladder, both hips broke, pubic bone bookended, lumbar fractures, punctured lungs, life support, last rites." OMG! "If he makes it through the next 72 hours, he has a chance." OMG! "To be honest with you Ma'am, we thought he was gone when he came in the door." OMG!

Is he going to make it? Will he walk again? OMG! What do I do? (You would be amazed at the strength that is given to you in times like this. He did make it and he did walk again.)

How traumatic of an experience to go through this with my only child. It was a head-on collision and the woman that hit him passed at the scene. It has been a long hard road during his recovery.

The reason that I write this is because to we "Believe in Miracles". We have lived it. Today is our most valuable gift and to be alive to share it with those we love is another gift.

The recovery road gave us a lot of gifts also that you would not realize until you have traveled it. Simple things began to matter like never before. All along the way miracles continued to happen and the healing has been amazing both physically and spiritually.

John was a newbie runner, an avid hiker and generally very active and in good health before the accident. We wondered how his life was going to be permanently changed due to his injuries. We had favorite hike that we liked to do in the spring and we were planning on it just a few weeks after his accident. Needless to say, it did not happen. We did not know if it would ever happen again. It is a 9 1/2 mile RT hike to the top of the mountain that is the best view in our county.

Yesterday, two long hard years later, we made the climb! The rock in the photo above is a rock that I found at the site of the accident. I painted it and carried it to the top to put on a huge cairn that is there.

We made it again! Yahoo, tears of joy! Although my son worked hard to get his body back to being able to do it again, he simply says "I always believed that I could and would do it again."

My son taught me a great lesson in this trying time, "Believe in Yourself".
Sometimes that is the hardest obstacle to get around. When we think that we can't, we must think again. Do not doom yourself by thinking you cannot. The battle is half-way won when you believe you can.

We made it back to the top! I am full of gratitude and joy!

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DRB13_1 4/14/2011 11:56PM

    Blessings to your entire family! emoticon

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CYNTHIALEE45 4/14/2011 7:24PM

    Beautiful--I'm so happy for the two of you. Thank you for sharing, and here's to many, many more hikes. emoticon

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HOTRODSANDY 4/10/2011 11:24PM

    Wow, what a wonderful miracle. Thanks for sharing!

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BRANDTSGIRL 4/10/2011 10:07PM

    Thanks for this & miracles to happen every day!

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FITMAY 4/10/2011 9:33PM

    What a great blog!

Congratulations on such a blessed journey! You are at the top again! My heart rejoices for you both!

I believe in miracles! and I loved your rock! I'm going to find one for myself and put it on my little altar...

Love and prayers,

Comment edited on: 4/10/2011 9:34:25 PM

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ALLISONSMOM918 4/10/2011 8:10PM

    Wow, that is totally amazing!!! I feel so blessed just to have read your story. It is true, miracles happen.

Thank you for your blog! emoticon

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SROBERTS82 4/10/2011 8:03PM

    What a touching story! I hope you two make that hike together for many years to come!

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SUZWARNR 4/10/2011 6:12PM

    Wow, I'm so incredibly happy for you and your son. What an awesome journey to the top of that mountain, knowing that it means so much more now. What an amazing comeback he made. He truly is the meaning of the word miracle.

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FREECLOUD 4/10/2011 6:06PM

    What a wonderful day that must have been for John! I can only imagine the journey he went through to get there. You're an awesome role model - glad you two got to do this together. Thanks so much for sharing this!

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ELISADENK 4/10/2011 6:00PM

    Wow! Thanks for sharing! and... AMEN!!!

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TEDDYBABE 4/10/2011 3:54PM

    Oh Dee, what a beautiful blog. Your and John are both truly amazing. To conquer such trauma and continue to find the beauty in life. You are my hero! John, you are ONE amazing guy! Hugs to you both! Congratulations on your miracle hike!

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