Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I have been running steady for 6 weeks now and I see a little improvement but I was struggling tonight and I wonder if it will ever get easier? I ran a 5k in 29:58 and although I feel that is okay, I want to be faster and I want it now!
I don't know how to pick up my pace. My legs feel like lead and I really have to force myself to finish my run some days. I feel good/relieved when it is over. I feel like I have committed myself to this and damn it I have to prove that I can do it. How and when I will "have that proof" is beyond me. At what point will I be satisfied? I guess I just want to be faster and feel like it is not as much effort.
I guess I should just be quiet and be grateful that I can do what I can do. Some people wish they could be as active as I am, whether it be running or hiking. Well, this isn't about "some people", it's about me and what I want to be able to do. I have never challenged myself so much as I do with my running. Maybe that is what this all about, not the speed or the distance or the time. Maybe it's about the challenge and the self-discipline that it takes to accomplish these runs. It really IS an effort to keep going. It would be easier to give up and walk, but that is not what I am about today.
Cheers to all of us who are doing something about our health and fitness! We are giving ourselves the best gift we could ever imagine!
Keep On Keepin On!
There's only way to the top of the mountain, you either climb or you don't. The view is sooo worth it!