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emotions.....Running high???

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Today I ran 4.5 miles with a mile walk on each end to make it 6.5 total. It felt great!

I had the opposite experience compared to what I have been having. Normally I feel like I am struggling to make it through my predetermined time/mileage and I keep having to push myself to keep going. I must give myself pep talks to finish.

Today was a whole different experience with a full range of emotions. I had my predetermined goal but I told myself I was going to just go with the flow and not push myself. If I wanted to stop and walk then I would, no pressure. Started out with a fast paced walk and felt good.

Started the running part and just began to get overwhelmed with emotions and thoughts. Feelings ranging from despair to exhilaration. From sadness to incredible happiness. I was fine all day before the run but something happened out there today. I kept telling myself I'll walk when I get to the next pole or crossroad and when I got there I would ask "Why do you need to walk? Breathing is good. Legs feel fine. Okay. I'll wait longer and then walk." Ended up running 4.5 miles and forced myself to walk the last mile.

I don't know how this happened to me. Running chose me, I didn't choose it. It just took over my body one day while I was walking. I feel more and more like running is a spiritual journey for me. The challenge of it is not anything that I ever thought I would undertake, I never thought I had it in me. I am learning a lot about myself these days and I think that running is just "taking me to another plane".

Sometimes I think it's like an out of body experience, my mind says "this is not my body". Where did I go? Where's the insecure shy fat girl at? SHE DON"T LIVE HERE ANYMORE!

What a freaking run!?!?

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SPEEDYDOG 3/31/2011 6:58AM

    Very nice! I wonder if that could be runner's high? Run on!


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TEDDYBABE 3/26/2011 9:36PM

    Love this! Isn't it awesome. I totally know what you are talking about. Taking the pressure off and just going with your body. Its euphoric. I read someones blog months ago and she was having troubles finishing her run. Then she asked herself, "can you still breathe, ..yes, are your legs falling off or, then keep running. I go to that mentally so many times. It's amazing how mental running is and YES I agree with you a spiritual experience also. So happy for ya! Hugs!

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FREECLOUD 3/26/2011 9:35PM

    I don't have much to say because you just very artfully described runs that I have occasionally. Spiritual runs - most definitely. These are the runs that make me "addicted." After one of these, I can't wait to hit the road again...because it's all about me and that's okay.

Glad to hear you're experiencing such an amazing side effect. Keep posting!

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Is it ever going to get easier, why is this so hard????

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I have been running steady for 6 weeks now and I see a little improvement but I was struggling tonight and I wonder if it will ever get easier? I ran a 5k in 29:58 and although I feel that is okay, I want to be faster and I want it now!

I don't know how to pick up my pace. My legs feel like lead and I really have to force myself to finish my run some days. I feel good/relieved when it is over. I feel like I have committed myself to this and damn it I have to prove that I can do it. How and when I will "have that proof" is beyond me. At what point will I be satisfied? I guess I just want to be faster and feel like it is not as much effort.

I guess I should just be quiet and be grateful that I can do what I can do. Some people wish they could be as active as I am, whether it be running or hiking. Well, this isn't about "some people", it's about me and what I want to be able to do. I have never challenged myself so much as I do with my running. Maybe that is what this all about, not the speed or the distance or the time. Maybe it's about the challenge and the self-discipline that it takes to accomplish these runs. It really IS an effort to keep going. It would be easier to give up and walk, but that is not what I am about today.

Cheers to all of us who are doing something about our health and fitness! We are giving ourselves the best gift we could ever imagine!

Keep On Keepin On!

There's only way to the top of the mountain, you either climb or you don't. The view is sooo worth it!


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    Thank you everyone for your support!

I'm really very active. I try to walk an hour at lunch every day at a pace of 4mph. Try to run anywhere between 30-40 min 3 evenings a week. I love hiking which I do on weekends at 5-10 miles each day if I can get both days in. I never really considered it too much. I figure if I have the energy and can/want to do it then I should just do it. Some days I take it easier by slowing it down some or sticking to flat ground.

My legs are very strong, my friends call me a mountain goat when we are hiking and climbing the mountains. I love the hills!

I am determined to make this running work for me. "I" didn't decide to run, my body just took off one day while I was walking and I have been gone ever since. Running was something that I thought I could never do.

You just never know what you are capable of do you? "Power On"

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CHRISTINECAN 3/25/2011 8:19AM

    Everything I have been reading (and I am compulsive once I begin something) is telling me that the sign of your legs feeling like lead means that you need to have more rest days and less speed work. I advise heading to your local library and picking up a few running books. No Need For Speed is one, Long May You Run is another good one, The Competitive Runner's Handbook is chock full of great info.

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SPEEDYDOG 3/25/2011 7:56AM

    Hi Dee,

First, I think you are doing great! A sub-30 5K is nothing to sneeze at. I am looking forward to the day when my legs don't feel like lead!

For me, running is hard. A few years back I was running around the high school track. There was an older couple walking around the track. As always, my legs aren't moving well and my lungs are on fire. I breathing like a freight train. Every cell in my body is screaming for me to stop! After a few laps, the lady that was walking said to me, "You make that look so easy." I just replied, "This ain't easy!"

I think you have high expectations, and that is good. Just don't beat yourself up. I would love to be able to run a sub-20 5K. That ship has sailed. How fast do you want to be?

Thanks, Bruce

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SUZWARNR 3/23/2011 3:23PM

    I know what it's like to want things instantly. Trust me, I do. Have patience. A 5K in under 30 minutes is great. I have almost achieved that. What is your exercise program like? If you're not doing them, I'd have to say, squats, lunges and more squats and lunges. Strength training is vital. Adding some speedwork to your training runs will help immensely. The more you run too, the better your pace will get. It will all work out, I promise. You're doing great!

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CMULL328 3/22/2011 9:26PM

    I can relate. Before I started the C25k program I was walking 1.86 miles. Now that I"m in training, my time for the same 30 minutes is 1.76. I would think it would be the opposite. I'm not beating my goal to walk 2 miles in 30 minutes. But, I'm not letting it bother me. It's something new and I'm running now whereas I wasn't before. I was afraid to. Not anymore.

Your time for your 5k is AWESOME!!!! Try not focusing on it and that's when you'll be able to make the changes you want.

Good luck!

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TEDDYBABE 3/22/2011 8:40PM

    Boy howdy I'm thinking you are way tough on ChangingHorses! Your time is awesome. It is my understanding that consistent running, adds speed and distance. Interval training is also another outlet. Have you tried the interval training. The doctor I work for bikes 10 mile races and he is always preaching to me about interval training. Good luck friend, I personally think you are doing awesome.

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Bare Mid-drift???? OMG!!!!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

I finished W2D3 of 5K Your Way today. Yay for me! It was easier today then any of the other days. Woohoo!

Now the really big news, I got so hot that I pulled my shirt up and was running with my mid-drift showing! I have not shown my belly in public since I was 12 years old. I just would never do it, fat or no fat.

Holy Hanna, who would believe this?!?! I really surprised myself. Two thoughts occurred to me, #1 - I have lost a lot of weight and I can, and # 2 - I am too hot and I need to cool off some. It felt good.

I think the weight lose and the fact that I am 47 years old is a good thing. I am more secure with myself then I have ever been in my life. I am living my life by my standards now, not by the way of the world in general who think you must be skinny as a rail to bare your belly. It felt so good that I may even go buy a couple halters for running in summer.

Here's to mid-life and finally becoming the woman I was meant to be!
Hello world!
Gotta love it!


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    WOW!! that's awesome!! congrats!

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CHRISTINECAN 2/28/2011 8:47AM

    5K Your Way has a lot more benefits than just training you to run. The self-confidence it has already given you has made it worthwhile, right?

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SPEEDYDOG 2/28/2011 8:27AM

    What a happy feeling! I bet with the C25K program you will be leading pack.


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IRISHF 2/25/2011 3:37PM

    I salute you!

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SUZWARNR 2/25/2011 7:17AM

    Wow, brave woman! My belly will never be shown because there are too many stretch marks and excess skin from once being too big. There is only so much that your skin is willing to shrink back. I think the only way I would show it is if I ever had surgery to get it removed. But for now it will stay hidden under my clothes.

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CHAR1970 2/24/2011 10:41PM

    Congrats! Showing my belly is not something I will do anytime soon. One day though I will. I'll be 41 this year and I'm hoping I've gained the maturity you have to do as I want and not worry about who is watching or what their opinions are. Keep it up!

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CMULL328 2/24/2011 8:53PM

    emoticon That is totally awesome!!! Way to go!!! Both on the bare belly and w2d3!! You've worked hard for that belly, show it off if you need to! You go girl!

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This year is going to be my fittest year yet!

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Signed up for the SparkPeople's Official 5K Your Way Running Program.
Did Week 1/Day 1 today and I feel great! Especially since I got it out of the way early in the day.

I am determined to beat my time from my first race (29:45). This morning's run went good despite the snow. The road on which I ran was pretty clear of any slippery spots. It was a good start. I am signed up for a race April 2 so I got to get moving.

Feeling stronger everyday! Power on!

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CMULL328 2/23/2011 9:09AM

    Wahoo!!! Congrats on your progress and signing up and making the commitment for the race. Keep up the great work!

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COWGIRLUPINOK 2/13/2011 12:21PM

    emoticonon making the commitment to do the race emoticonon not letting the snow get you down

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SLAMSLAM2 2/13/2011 11:36AM

  Running in snow shows your commitment! There's nothing like running in snow knowing that there are very few others out doing the same thing. With that kind of attitude you are on your way for making 2011 great!

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Find a way to "Beat the excuses", Yes!

Friday, January 28, 2011

I was sitting at work today thinking about this darn snow and how it has affected my walking routine when suddenly I thought "Hey go X-C Skiing or Snowshoeing at lunch" I have an hour, so what if I get less then an hour workout at least I am doing something.
I tell you, I was so excited to get out at lunch when I realized that I could go X-C Skiing or Snowshoeing in the middle of the week. I drove somehwere 5 minutes away from work and just did it! I was happy as a 47 year old in snow! I am excited at the potential for my lunch hour now. This snow and slop does not have to affect my workout during the week.
I had a 40 minute snowshoe and I think that counts! Woohoo!
Find a way to "beat the excuses"! Yes!

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