Saturday, June 29, 2013
Received a $100 bill from the nutritionist yesterday. So much for my insurance covering the appointments. This latest info along with my husband quitting his job recently definitely puts an end to seeing her again. Oh well, such is life! Never did receive a referral from my doctor for a therapist and I guess it's for the best now as I won't be able to afford one.
I am planning to weigh in (my scale) on Monday. Haven't done so in what seems like forever (late April) so it will be interesting to see if anything mildly Earth shattering has happened. My clothing feels loser so I know I have lost something but how much is anyone's guess. I am preparing myself however for whatever number appears as I know there will be a difference between what the scale at the hospital noted back in April and what mine will be Monday. Nevertheless I will accept what is and move on from there!
Had a major blow out with the daughter yesterday over a choice of words. Mine not hers. She made a comment, I responded with what I thought was okay, and well, she didn't like it. So World War 6, 892,131 broke out with her basically flipping out on the phone and hanging up. Tried as I usually do to call her back and straighten things out but she wouldn't answer the phone. Later she texted her dad with a stronger worded synopsis of how horrible of a person I am and she much rather I die as soon as possible. She certainly doesn't hide her feelings, I'll give her that. For someone who said she would like things to be better between her and I just a few months, she definitely hasn't made many strides in that direction. Perhaps she goes a bit longer between explosions nowadays but she is as unpredictable and lethal as usual when it comes to me.
Between her tirade yesterday and disagreements this week with the husband, I am laying low this weekend. Staying as much to myself as humanly possible. My mood is not the greatest to say the least so it's definitely for the best. Wouldn't want to fuel the fire any further. I have family outings coming up this week on the 3rd and 4th, and right now I am NOT looking forward to either of them. Would cancel my appearance altogether if it weren't for wanting to spend a little time with the grandson.
On the home redo front, all the staining in the kitchen is now complete and I am moving on with painting the walls in the laundry room than kitchen beginning Monday. Over the range microwave installation, countertops, sink, lighting, and flooring are still pending. Will be adding them in the order they are stated in the coming months. I am hoping by Christmas the kitchen will be completely finished. We will see!
For now I am just taking things one day at a time and trying hard to stay focused on home projects, eating right and exercise. The only things it seems I have even a little control over.
Thursday, June 27, 2013
First off, thank you to all the Sparkies who commented on the previous kitchen cabinet/ paneling blog. I appreciate the opinions and advice so much. DH and I have decided to put the wall color up first beginning this weekend and see at that time whether or not to paint the paneling at the top of the cabinets the same color as the walls or just leave it be. We have definitely decided NOT to stain it as most of you suggested not to do.
Yesterday, we got a scare concerning our daughter. She called us on the way to the ER. Her thigh was completely numb when she woke up yesterday morning and the numbness continued to spread upward to include her hip, buttocks, upper back, shoulder, complete arm and hand, all on her left side. She has no other symptoms. At the ER they did a barrage of lab work which all came back okay. Her heart checked out okay as well. They ran a CT scan on her head which showed no aneurism nor blood clot in her brain. They have ruled out anything immediately life threatening and have referred her to a neurologist for further evaluation and diagnosis. They suggested among other things such as a herniated disk, a small tumor pressing on nerves, an electrolyte imbalance, etc, that it could be an early indication of MS. Why a doctor would offer up that particular information without knowing for sure is beyond me as it has only served to scare her. Now that is all she can think about. Her dad and I can only hope the neurologist appointment will be soon and that he or she will quickly come up with a correct diagnosis for whatever is causing the numbness. Praying in the meantime of course that it is not serious.
As for the continuing home improvement side of things. I have stained the hall staircase banister and railing the same color as my kitchen cabinets. The darker color looks really good against the new wall color. I still need to select which displays I want for the walls (not too many as the hallway is not a large one) than finally the hallway will be complete.
DH on the other hand seems to be on a staining frenzy and now wishes to stain (same color as the kitchen cabinets) the trim (1 entryway, a bi-fold doorway and exterior doorway) in the Family room which is paneled the same as the top of our kitchen cabinets. Right now the trim is the original stain which is a worn out but warm walnut shell color. I have not given him the go ahead just yet but I am thinking about it. It would definitely be a darker trim if we go ahead and I think that may be why I am hesitating.
The husband and I also got a little time with the grandson this week (Monday). We picked him up from VBS and took him to see Man of Steel which was a really good movie. Now little man wants to be Superman for Halloween and trick or treat with "his crew" (what he calls the adults who are the closest to him, in full costume...
DH/ Pepa: Iron Man
Daddy: Captain American
Mom's BF/ Dan: The Hulk
Big Guy friend/JB: Batman
Big Guy friend/ Jeff: Hawkeye
ME: SUPER MEMA! Of course, he says, I have to make my own cape.
Can you imagine this group of rag tag Superheros walking down the street. What FUN! We only need to talk the others into dressing their part.
Friday, June 21, 2013
Here are quick pics of our kitchen cabinet redo. I think the NEW cabinet color is definitely an improvement over the old. We are presently working on the last side of the kitchen which unfortunately has the most cabinets. We are replacing all of the wood shelves inside each cabinet as we go along as well as laying down inexpensive vinyl on top of the shelves for easy cleanup. I like it much better than shelf liner and it will last a whole lot longer.
BEFORE COLOR and HARDWARE (we tested out a new knob on one of the drawers here)
Now, we kept the paneling that runs along the top of the cabinets the same (untouched) basically because its narrow trim is the same color as the new cabinets and it also matches the paneling in the Family Room which is directly off the kitchen. My husband likes the contrast. However the more I look at it I am not so sure I do. I am now wondering if we should just go ahead and stain that area the same color as the cabinets. It is a small strip of paneling at the top of the cabinets only so I am not sure what difference it will make. If I do go with staining it I will need to do some research as I have no idea how to stain paneling.
Does anyone have ANY COMMENTS on whether to leave it as is, stain, paint, or other??? Any suggestions will be greatly appreciated.
Anyway after we're done with the cabinets and possibly the paneling on top we will paint the walls a Westminster Gold from Benjamin Moore. The trim and molding has already been painted white.
This is my inspiration picture for the cabinet color, wall, trim/molding, counter top and flooring.
Than it will be onto staining the small kitchen table and 4 chairs, replacing the counter tops, sink, mounting a microwave above the stove (are we having fun yet?), and new flooring. Yep, with DH's lack of job these days, this is definitely going to be a long work in progress but I am determined to keep this project moving forward.
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Had an weekend last week when DH and I were blessed to spend 4 days with our grandson. Its been months since the little guy has been able to spend time at our house. And 4 days worth, well that was just FABULOUS! We went to the Atlanta Aquarium, Knoxville Zoo, ate Crab Legs at Joe's Crab Shack (The little guy is now officially known as THE CRAB MASTER), to see the movie After Earth, played in the rain (don't tell his mom), made chocolate chip pancakes, colored pictures galore, made funny videos, had a smash down with his cars, monster trucks and train, made up scary stories, and much more. FUN was definitely the name of the game!
While we were taking care of our grandson, our daughter was busy studying for her finals. And that proved to be successful too. She made the DEAN'S LIST once again. 3 for 3! She has finally made it through all of her core requirements and is now headed to Nursing School come Fall!!
Yet with all the positive, happy moments of late I am quickly reminded how fast things can change as this weekend in contrast is downright horrible. DH decided yesterday, unbeknown to me to... QUIT HIS JOB! His reason is there is a guy at work he can't seem to get along with. He now says he has no intention of returning to any kind of work. Our finances, without this job, are supported only by a small trust my husband receives which is currently tied up in bills and... debt. Debt, that HE created out of total misuse of credit cards. He told me for years we were fine financially, and yet behind my back racked up cards right and left that I didn't even know he had, to the tune of $80,000. We are 3 years into paying them off and have approx. 2- 2 and a half more to go. His job allowed us to do little extras (home repairs, movies, etc) that otherwise we wouldn't be able to do. Add to that the fact I no longer work due to chronic eye disease and worsening vision which has already robbed me of driving, teaching, bike riding, sports and more. Majority of things I do manage these days take extra time as well as I have to be so ridiculously close to see and pull off. Reading a bedtime story to my grandson isn't as easy as it once was. Even simple walking can be a problem. Hell have no fury like a step, rock, sidewalk crack or stick you don't see. So this new situation means A LOT MORE STRESS as well as no health insurance (something I have needed for years), no personal therapy, no additional nutritional counseling, not even a glimmer of hope for a 3 day beach trip this summer with the grandson and daughter, and who knows how S L O W the updating of the house will now have to become. It was already slow to begin with. DH knows full well we needed thus extra income and that his decision is going to mean the end to things we were planning, and yet he chose to do it anyway. He didn't even bother to talk to me about it.
The only good news to report is I am not binging. I am actually way too angry to even think about food. However I am considering whether I can dig a hole big enough and whether the woods behind my house are large enough to hide a body.
Just kidding! Maybe.
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