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Good Weekend

Tuesday, May 08, 2012

DH and I went to our grandson's soccer game on Saturday. His team won! The little guy made 2 goals and blocked 3 attempts by the other team. He is getting better and better. Super proud of him! Afterwards DH and I went to lunch with him and his mommy as well as his dad.

On Sunday, DH and I met up with our daughter, grandson and his dad again and saw The Avengers movie. It was one of the best flicks I have seen in awhile. We saw it in the RPX format which is a floor to ceiling 3D screen. It was quite impressive!

The grandson got to spent the night on Sunday and part of Monday with DH and I. I worked off some calories by allowing him to chase me up and down the road on his bike. He thought that was great fun! Of course I am not as fast as I once was so he ran into me a few times which he thought was very funny. Afterwards we made chalk art on the front walk, played in his sand box, practiced his soccer moves up and down the driveway, hunted for chipmunks and snakes and finished off his Mother's Day gifts to his mommy and wrapped them. emoticon

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RURAL3 5/14/2012 11:43AM

    what great exercise. and fun

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LKWQUILTER 5/8/2012 1:27PM

    So glad for you Sallie.

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DBELLE39 5/8/2012 5:24AM

    I think the sleepless fairy has struck me as well! Couldn't sleep last night more than 3 hours.

Sounds like a fun filled time with the family. I'm looking forward to spending time with my grandkids this coming weekend.

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IOEINC 5/8/2012 12:22AM

    Sounds like things are going well for you, Sallie. You sound relaxed and very happy. So glad for you. After all that activity with your sweet grandson, it's a wonder you didn't sleep like a rock!!!!

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In Search Of My Awesome

Wednesday, May 02, 2012

My 5 year old grandson was running around the other day in the midst of play shouting over and over again at the top of his lungs, "Look at me, Mema. Look at me. I'm awesome!" As I watched this beautiful little boy in all his glory, I couldn't help but smiled and think to myself, "Yes, my love. You certainly are!" This brief but wondrous moment started me thinking.

There was a time in each of our lives when we, as young children, perhaps 4, 5, or 6, woke up full of awesome. We were magnificent. We loved ourselves. We thought we were beautiful, or handsome as the case may be even with missing teeth, scraggly hair and mismatched socks inside our dirty sneakers. We loved our bodies, and the fabulous things they could do. We felt strong, indestructible. A princess or superhero, everyone. And we knew we were smart.

Flash forward several years. Do you still have it? The awesome. Did someone take it from you? Did you let them? Did you hand it over, because someone at some point told you werenít beautiful enough, thin enough, smart enough, strong enough, or good enough? Why the hell would you listen to them? Did you ever consider they might be full of poo? Wouldnít it be crazy, to tell our children, grandchildren, nieces and nephews that in another five or ten years they might hate themselves because they donít look like a starving, photo enhanced fashion model or exhibit the powers of the latest superhero at the cinema? Or even more bizarre, that they should choose to be sexy over smart, beautiful over bold?

Are you kidding me? Children are full of awesome just by being who they are. We were too, once. Perhaps we are in the process of getting it back. All I know is, if each and every one of else isnít waking up every day feeling awesome about ourselves, we are seriously missing out. So how about you and me continue our journeys in search of our awesome and when we find it, may I suggest the use of extra strength Superglue so we never misplace it again.

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SABLENESS 5/17/2012 10:01AM

    Friend, we are still emoticon

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RURAL3 5/14/2012 11:41AM

    This is great wisdom. I think because when we are little our parents, grandparents tell us how great we are. When school starts there is competition for the "awesome". And we are tugged and pulled to fight for a little piece of that awesome. As we grow older peers and kids and boyfriends and girlfriends etc etc all steal a little piece of it. And we no longer believe the truth but a lie from the devil.
Here's to keeping each other revved up for the awesomeness of who we are and can always be.

You are Awesome Sallie. emoticon

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BBORDEN86 5/11/2012 8:35PM

    I loved this. It's so absolutely true! I think we all need to search for our awesome!! : )

I remember the days of being a kid, and I wish I could be a kid again.

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HEALTHYSLIM2 5/6/2012 5:52PM

    OMG - this is a AWESOME blog. How do I nominate it for best blog award????
Thanks for sharing this!!

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THETURTLEBEAR 5/2/2012 11:18PM

    And you are awesome too!

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VINGRAM 5/2/2012 9:19AM

    Thanks reminds me of an uncle who died many years ago. The first thing we would hear when visiting was "good morning you good looking guy". It was him talking to himself in the mirror! Thanks for bringing upp a great memory! emoticon

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IOEINC 5/2/2012 7:46AM

    Great blog Sallie!! You don't need to get back your never lost it... You are awesome and you rock!!!

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LKWQUILTER 5/2/2012 6:11AM

    That is so true Sallie and so well said. Yes, we can get our "Awesome" back and keep it. ((HUGS)) Linda Kay

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A Tribute

Friday, April 27, 2012

ILLAHEE 1998-2012

There are times in life when we are truly blessed with an exceptional friendship. Such was the case with our beautiful and beloved Lab, Illahee. 14 years ago she was just a bewildered puppy that we welcomed into our home and our lives. She had a passion for bestowing wet kisses, smelled of puppy breath and occasionally left warm puppy puddles on our carpet. Throughout the years she was known to have her way with an unfortunate sneaker or two, sneak off with the occasional snack and devour bones like there was no tomorrow. She safeguarded our cats, was the perfect role model for our younger Lab Cinnamon, made the best TV and bedtime companion, loved her squeaky ball like no other, and wagged herself right into our hearts.

Illahee (La La as our grandson called her) was the most loving, loyal, gentle, and sweetest dog ever. She spent her entire life loving us with all her doggie heart. And she did it with more soul and devotion than any one creature should have. We are especially grateful for the years she got to spend with our grandson. The two of them were the truest of buddies. As time passed however daily life became more and more difficult for our faithful friend and watching her slip away before our eyes was agony. She is gone from our world now, leaving us with the most precious of memories and will remain in our hearts constantly. We will miss her very much but have faith that one day we will see her again in all her glory.


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HEALTHYSLIM2 5/6/2012 5:57PM

    Beautiful. And a blessing to read of how she blessed you!
The best pets are a wonderful gift from God. His way of sending unconditional love, often where it is needed most.
Let's not forget, Sallie, how lucky she was to have you as her "mom" all those years, as well!
The pictures were precious. Thank you for sharing you heart. emoticon

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CATLADY52 4/28/2012 5:52PM

    That is quite a tribute emoticon

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RURAL3 4/27/2012 10:01PM

    A beautiful tribute Sallie emoticon

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CHLOE453 4/27/2012 9:29PM

    I am so sorry that you lost your beautiful Illahee, it is so hard when it is time for them to leave us. Your photo's truly show how happy and loved Illahee was and still is. We lost our "Bob"dog almost one year ago (4/30/2011), he was 17.5 yrs old, we adopted him when he was just 6 weeks old and his memory is still very much alive in our home. Thank you for taking the time to share your tribute!! emoticon emoticon

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LKWQUILTER 4/27/2012 7:42PM

    Beautiful Sallie. I do so know what you mean. (((HUGS)))

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THETURTLEBEAR 4/27/2012 6:18PM

    Aww - thank you for sharing that!

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BRENDABUNNY 4/27/2012 4:58PM

    She is beautiful and what a wonderful tribute you made...Take comfort in knowing that she is playing ball with all her new friends in doggie heaven..we lost our longtime friend momo (motorman)in January this year and he was the same way..the best friend ever!..BIG emoticon

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SABLENESS 4/27/2012 4:42PM

    She was beautiful. How blessed you are to have had such a dear companion.

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Did I Seriously Think He Wouldn't Notice

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

I had some much need quality time with my grandson this week. His mom allowed him to sleep over Monday night and spend most of yesterday with my husband and I. We had a lot of fun together. I enjoyed every minute that is until the end. My grandson had promised his mommy he would draw a picture for her while at our house. So he and I sat down just before he left our place with paper and markers in hand and he set about designing his master piece.

He decided to draw a family scene complete with sunshine and a rainbow. He drew his mom, her boyfriend Daniel, and his Pepa, concentrating on as much detail as a 5 year old could think of, but when he got to me, he hesitated. He looked up and said, "So how fat are you Mema?" I was so embarrassed, I wanted to disappear. I've been called fat by a lot of people but I have to say the most painful was when those words came out of my grandson mouth. For a second or two I even thought I heard him wrong so I asked him to repeat what he said. I was trying hard not to show I was upset, but he must have sensed it because instead of repeating he instead said he was sorry. He than added, " You do have a big tummy Mema, and it's squishy." He apologised again and I told him to forget about it and continue on with his picture. My husband who was sitting nearby also heard the comment but remained silent. My grandson continued to finish his drawing by adding me to the picture with a very large circle to represent my body.

Later in the car going back to his place my grandson asked me if he could tell his mom what he had said to me. I told him there really was no need and we should just forget about it but he insisted. So the first thing he said upon seeing her was, "Mommy, I called Mema fat!" My daughter responded with a smile and a look towards me of... well, she is.

Definitely not the best ending to an otherwise enjoyable visit. I don't know what I was hoping for or expecting, perhaps that my grandson would never notice how large I still am, or that he would be so sweet and kind as to never ever mention it. I am not by any means upset with him. He was just being his honest little self. Nevertheless sometimes, the truth hurts. emoticon

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SCRAPPER1124 4/29/2012 12:47AM

    Oh man you must have been right there with me yesterday when I was at work. I work in a school and I was walking and saying hello to some of the kindergarteners I knew. While walking down the hallway one of the kids said, "you have a baby in your belly?" a little mortified. But not the first time it's happened. Another time the priest in our Parrish said "I see you have a new addition to the family coming." It does make me feel bad but also give me one more reason to lose the weight. For me at close to 300lbs I there are many reasons. Not dying of a heart attack is high on my list. emoticon

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LKWQUILTER 4/25/2012 1:46PM

    Sorry Sallie. Like others said, sometimes they consider words like fat, skinny, tall, short, blonde, just words and don't always know just what they mean. Since I have been losing weight, my older granddaughters just tell me how skinny I am getting--makes me feel good about that even though I am not near my goal. lol Lately, I have just been gaining. You are going to reach your goal so be proud of what you have done so far. Also, little ones hear and repeat what they have heard adults say. Our oldest was a tape recorder--repeated word-for-word what he heard from strangers/family. (((HUGS)))

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VINGRAM 4/25/2012 12:54PM

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FROGGY4647 4/25/2012 11:43AM

    Out of the mouths of hurtful as it was.....take the positive out of it........he loves you unconditionally, and even though we don't like that description: the truth is the truth and use it as MOTIVATION! Take it where you can get it!
And when he comes over go on walks with him, play outside with him....use his energy to help towards making the FAT disappear!
Keep smiling and lovin' them grandbabies, can't wait till I have some of my own! emoticon

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PYNETREE 4/25/2012 11:10AM

    Yes he just are not expecting him to say it. But he's a child.. Immaturity accounts for not having a strong sense of what is appropriate to say.

It has happened to me...many, many times...hurts every time. I find it best not to make a big issue ...but I do say,quietly, ... "that hurt my feelings, you are old enough now to recognise that there are things you don't say to people."

I am sorry you have been hurt. Don't let it derail your great progress. Your weight is a negative thing...but, it is something you can, and are, improving on. The ignorance of the other adults, that responded badly, is a negative, that is much harder to improve on.

You can't cure stupid.... emoticon

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DAS92687 4/25/2012 11:01AM

    I don't think that your grandson meant this in a negative way. At his age, he probably doesn't see "Fat" as being a negative thing. Just the same as any other descriptive word - like blonde, or tall.

I hope that you can instead focus on the wonderful progress you're making in getting healthier ... and the time you get to spend with your grandson.

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TARAFROMTX1 4/25/2012 10:38AM

    Hugs to you Sallie... I so know the feeling my almost 4 year old makes comments often theses days... partly because she hears me say things about myself (normally when I m trying to explain why I am watching what I eat and why I am working out.. ect) but also out of curiosity. Either way it still hurts. Seeing how she will be going to pre K soon I am trying to teach her that its okay to say and ask me things but its not okay to say theses types of things to others.

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LIFE-FAITH 4/25/2012 10:20AM

    emoticon I am sorry that you experienced this - kids speak without thinking at that young age - sometimes it hurts so much! Spending time with those precious little one's can lift our hearts - then BAMM something takes the joy away. I hope you are able to reflect upon the precious time and let go of the comment. It must have bothered him - or he would not have continued to talk about it.

Take care of yourself and continue on your journey for you.


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RURAL3 4/25/2012 9:47AM

    Yes, kids are honest. And they are small so things are proportionally not always correct. Plus they repeat what they hear so if he has heard your daughter talk to you about it he will get that in his memory too.
My 4yo granddaughter is standing here asking me what this spells. They want to know all.
You are doing good. Don't let this get you down. It will be probably the first of all the heartbreaks he will give you over the years. Just means they are growing up. Keep up the good work. emoticon

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WENDYSUE72 4/25/2012 8:18AM

    Kids are painfully honest. Believe me--I volunteer in the 4 year old kindergarten room. They say what they think. They think nothing of talking, typically loudly, about everything they observe. They learn to decipher what hurts feelings and what doesn't need to be said. Unfortunately, he hasn't been taught to lie or be quiet to save feelings yet. I figure if you want to know what's what--ask a child. Remember he loves you without condition--he wasn't trying to hurt your feelings.
I have been in that situation w/ my daughters. It was tough. Don't hold a grudge, it was innocent not mean spirited.
As for your husband and daughter, what could they have said at that time that would have made you feel less embarrassed and hurt at the time? I'm guessing you just wanted it to be over quickly and they wanted the same thing for you.

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CKLROBERSON 4/25/2012 7:27AM

    OUCH! Around that age my kids had made comments about my weight. And yes, sometimes it stung.. but I think for them it didn't carry judgement with it- it was just a matter of fact. I'm sure it is the same for your Grandson. We talked with my boys about my weight and what I was doing to change it and why. I'm sorry you had to experience that and I too wish the adults around you would have stepped up to support you.

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IOEINC 4/25/2012 7:06AM

    emoticon to you Sallie.

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GOGWHATTA 4/25/2012 6:35AM

    I have had children say things to me that no adult would ever say or get by with saying. Kids! You should have told him that you are not as fat as you used to be and you love him even so.
My grand nephew refers to his grandmother as 'grandma' and his great grandmother as 'old grandma'. My son referred to his grandmothers as 'grandma' and 'mean grandma'. I think he loved 'mean' grandma the most because she made herself a part of his life.
Shake this off. It's only extra baggage if you hold onto it. He's a sweet boy and he includes you in the photo of his life. He can draw a big round circle for your body but he can't draw all the love that lives in your heart. You draw that for him next time.
I think you look great, by the way. Keep up the good work!

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FWBLONDIE 4/25/2012 4:46AM

    My heart goes out to you, and I know how hard it is to hear such things when you are not expecting them but always remember Children are born with no filter, no reservation, no judgement..... I am sure he meant no harm or hurt to come of it... and am even more sure that to him it does not matter what size you are... please do not let your internal feelings of anxiety or insecurities cloud the fact that to your Grandson you are simply you... to a 5 year old it is no different then drawing a person who is tall/short or blonde/brunette.... what you can teach him is love, compassion and tolerance... I am sure he sensed your discomfort and was sincere in his apologies for that... however does he know WHY you were uncomfortable?... as much as it broke your heart to hear it... you must ask yourself did it also break his heart to realize he had hurt you? Your husbands and your daughters reaction may be unfavorable or judgmental I do not know... but if you try, you may find great solace in the fact that your grandson loves you just the way you are... if you let him!! keep your chin up and keep moving forward... you will soon see... its not how many times you fall, but how many times you get back up that count!

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MBW209 4/25/2012 4:36AM

  That had to hurt...I am so sorry you had that experience...and I am sorry the adults surrounding you were too insensitive/stupid/speechless to say and do the right thing.

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What Do You Tell Yourself?

Monday, April 23, 2012

The words we use every day can either help us or destroy us.

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PYNETREE 4/25/2012 10:51AM

    One of my favorites, too!

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LKWQUILTER 4/23/2012 6:47PM

    Thanks Sallie. Yes, they do help encourage ourselves!! (((HUGS)))

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TARAFROMTX1 4/23/2012 3:18PM

    Good one! Thanks for sharing Sallie!! emoticon

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LINDA! 4/23/2012 1:59PM

    I like this...thanks!!

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