Friday, July 25, 2014
Had my first P/T appt today. After a complete assessment, Grant, my therapist says my hip pain is most definitely a pinched nerve, between my 4th & 5th vertebrae. It can be healed but it will take time. I have the next 4 weeks scheduled with him plus exercises and walking to do daily at home every 2 hours than we will re-access at the end of the August to see where we go from there. He definitely wants me up sand moving which I understand so I will have to work through the pain and not focus on it. I am praying for healing, increased mobility and less pain. Will see what the coming weeks bring...
Prehaps this is just what I need to get back on track with the weight losss too. the last several months I have been just coasting along and the weight loss has stopped. And that is NOT a good thing. Definitely need to get things moving again.
Had my first nasty moment with the daughter today. Things have been going so well between her snd me . 7 monhs... It wasn't major but enough to let me know not to let my guard down just yet. She wanted me to sort out her son's toys and clothes for the new school year, etc. I normally do this for her as a favor because I am the more organized one in the family and actually enjoy doing it. This week however I have been feeling a bit bedraggled (super tired and yucky) so I postponed it to some day next week . I called her today to tell her that I only had next Friday available for next week due to doctor appts, P/T, etc. She replied that Friday doesn't work for her so I told her to think of a day that would work for her for the following week to which she said I wasn't being understanding??? and hung up. I called back and said, " Hold Up, I'm not being understanding? I am the one in daily pain (hip), dealing with stage 4 kidney disease and all that goes with it, a husband who is abusive and so much more and yet, I am the one who agreed to do a favor for you by cleaning up and sorting your son's toys and stuff and I'm not being understanding. Yeah, Okay I get it. Bye! " And I hung up.
I was miffed to say the least but down right refuse to be dragged back into this nasty behavior of hers where she once again tries to make me feel guilty for things that are not in my control or uses her "busy life" as something that is more important than anything I could be doing. I was willing to do something nice for her but she needs to also understand that my daily schedule, health, existence, whatever is just as important as hers.
Here's to the NEW ME! One lesson I have learned the past 7 months is I won't be a door mat anymore. If she wishes to return to her formal self, so be it, but it will be a lonely road.