10,000-14,999 SparkPoints
CHALLENGEME4's Recent Blog Entries

Feeling Full

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

I have been on this new journey for@ 2 months and I get really scared when I have the feeling of fullness even though I am eating healthy choices a fear always comes over me when I am full. Yes, I measure my portions and the majority of my meals consist of veggies
But after I finish eating and I feel full I get scared that I overate and will gain some pounds on the scale, I literally find it very difficult to eat my next meals instead of 3 -4 hours later I will wait until my stomach is growling before I eat again and if that's after 8pm I will not eat until the next morning. I know this isn't good but the feeling inside of me won't allow me to eat even though I know I ate the right things. Then I get annoyed because I let myself get too hungry which could have an adverse affect on the scale. Me and the scale have serious relations.... I have tried not to weigh myself every morning but I just got to know

The non scale victories are great but the pounds lost always seem much more satisfying

Any suggestions some days I go 5-8 hrs before I will allow myself to eat and during that time I am usually grumpy, tired and plain frustrated!!!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MOOSETLC 4/15/2014 6:47PM

    Wow...i feel super yucky if i don't eat every 3 hours or so...hope it has gotten easier for you since you have written this.

Report Inappropriate Comment
HZGLORY 3/2/2013 6:22PM


This is a very hard blog to read. It sounds like you really really have a hard time with this. I am so sorry. I used to eat two big meals and snack the rest of the day. Then I found out because I was diabetic that eating that way was really bad for me and I had to change my meal planning. I resisted it for years and all the good things I needed to be doing to take care of myself in regards to eating. Finally last August I was able to throw all my preconsived idea's away and start with a clean slate when I found Spark. It was so hard for me to eat about ever three hours but I did it. I had to set alarms and do alot of planning to break bad habits but I did it. I eat three meals a day and snack two two three times a day and what a change in my blood sugars. I have had so so many good things happen to my body because of these changes alone that I am now a believer and still work hard to keep my eating habits on a time clock.

Until just last month I only weighed once a week and I kept the scale out of my house. I went to the doctors on purpose to weigh in once a week. That kept me accountable but not focused soley on the scal. Because ultimatily I want to change my eating habits what and how I eat more than to lose weight. Yes, I want to lose weight but as a by product of doing the right things for my body. Maybe you need to change your focus. What ever it takes to take your focus off the scale and onto healthy eating, and activity instead. Good luck with tackling this I know it is one step at a time and they are not easy steps but they are worth it. Hugs Susan

Report Inappropriate Comment


Tuesday, February 19, 2013

12 days ago I let fear stand in my way of walking the entire mile
Since that time I have walked that mile 2 other times in the daylight which of course made a world of difference. I have also signed up for tbe Susan G Komen breast cancer walk which is 3.5miles so this is now practice for the upcoming event.....very excited hunni and youngest son will walk with me.
Being able to push myself to further limits makes me feel good and feeling good keeps me coming back one day at a time

My hunni and his HCG diet was good while it lasted he lost 15 pounds in 2weeks which is great but it is very hard to sustain that kind of eating...500 calories a day really isn't realistic
We had 2 birthday partys this weekend and he gained 8 pounds back whereas I lost 3.8 pounds
Needless to say I did gloat a bit cuz I know he can lose it faster than me if he really tries

So far 18 pounds though it seems like alot I want more but each day I have to ask myself
did I do all I can for that day most days yes there are slip ups but the slow way is tne best way so I am still at it

Getting out of tne 300s is looking pretty good!!!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

GZELLEFRO 2/21/2013 7:29PM

    You can do it! It's great that you lost after you had 2 bday parties! Stick with it! It's gotta be a life changing event! A journey! That's what I keep telling myself. God bless you! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
LJCANNON 2/19/2013 9:04PM

    emoticon So many times when I go out for a "Short Walk" it turns into a Long Walk -- I keep Walking "Just Because I CAN". I hope I Never Forget what it was like to be unable to walk whenever and wherever I wanted to.
emoticon Keep Training and Have Fun on your 5K!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
HARMONYAGAIN 2/19/2013 4:08PM

    Well Done!

Report Inappropriate Comment

    One step at a time, one day at a time, one pound at a time and pretty soon you will be a long way away, a long time later, and a whole lot lighter!Q

Make Today a Great Day!

Report Inappropriate Comment

Hunni makes a change

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Its been a little over a month and my hunni has finally turned over a new leaf. It happened much sooner than I expected but he has thrown out the frying pan in exchange for salads. Unbelievable, I am so proud of him, it really makes a difference when your partner works with you.

I was buying separate food, or simply throwing away food thatzwas loaded with calories he insisted on cooking. He has decided to try the HCG diet and though I would prefer he lose it by exercise the fact that he has changed his eating habits is a huge plus.

I think he realizes now how important it is to me and how I wasn't giving in to the old habits, besides he needs to lose about 50 pounds and he wouldn't want me to show him up. Its been a week for him already lost 6 pounds, I was furious at first but we all know men lose weight faster. Plus I don't really think it has anything to do with the HCG I think his body is in shock..

I am really happy he is willing to make a change not just for him but both of us, we really needed this in our relationship I was angry in the beginning I felt he was sabotaging me that he didn't want me to have true happiness.

I am very thankful
Yet another non scale victory....yay!!!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LEPETITCHIHUA 2/15/2013 4:01PM

    Awesome, so much easier when you can do this together! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
LJCANNON 2/15/2013 12:14PM

    emoticon It is So Good to have your Partner on Board for this Journey!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
JASI27 2/13/2013 7:26AM

    HOW AWESOME!! Celebrate this one!! It always makes the journey a ton easier and so much more fun when the man you love jumps on board and you do it together!!! And what a fantastic bonding for the two of you! I am so happy for you!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CHIBIKARATE 2/13/2013 1:20AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
LWLAR7 2/13/2013 1:17AM

  Keep going

Report Inappropriate Comment

Fear can stop you in you tracks

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

There are so many wonderful things that are happening on my journey but that dysfunctional emotion FEAR still lurks its ugly head to try and knock us down. I went for a walk mostly because I was upset didn't want to argue or eat so I walked. Not paying attention to where I was going or how far(nighttime ) I just kept walking. Then I stopped....realize where I was and how far I was to get backhome and the fact my phone battery was really low, it was getting cold.....i became anxious and afraid I wouldn't make it back home that my knees would give out all sort of things start running through my mind! I found a bus stop bench and sat down called my hunni to come pick me up. I had literally scared myself into believing I couldn't get back home. as real as we let it be. I felt like such a fool when my hunni got there, questioning why I was so far from home, why didn't I just turn around. Of course I had no answers for him cuz I was too wrapped up in feeling sorry for myself. So I decided I will knowingly do that walk again(1.5mile) this time I will return home on foot.
Will let you all know how it goes
Fear can be a great motivator... I will not let it stop me in my tracks again!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LJCANNON 2/10/2013 3:01PM

    F - False
E - Evidence
A - Appearing
R - Real

emoticon Enough said, I think!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ICBNIC 2/6/2013 4:17PM

    Fear is a great liar. Fear steals from truth and convinces us not only are we wrong - but we should be filled with shame and pity and comes with even more side dishes of self hate.. Someone once told me that Bravery was fear wrapped in a coat of strength - YOU can do it! (And woot on going a mile and a half!)

Report Inappropriate Comment
NJREDHEAD1969 2/6/2013 1:55PM

    Fear is just a 4 letter word. It only has power if you give it. Good luck!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ANGELA76H 2/6/2013 1:27PM

    You CAN do it!

Report Inappropriate Comment
KIMBERLY19732 2/6/2013 1:26PM


Report Inappropriate Comment


Tuesday, February 05, 2013

I first started this journey January 2,2013 and joined the gym on that day as you all probably know they do all your measurements and record weight and BMI(body mass index) well last week I was pleased to record I lost inches everywhere but we didn't do the BMI test till today. On January 2 my BMI wasn't readable on their machine. He said that it was sooo high that it was scary...more than 50!Today they tried it again and its now at least readable still too high but at least my number is now showing on the chart.....46! My trainer was really impressed and I felt really good as a matter of fact Fantastic.....again a non scale victory (well sort of) but still in all its progress which calls for yet another reason to keep moving!!!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LJCANNON 2/5/2013 10:52PM

    emoticon When I joined Curves, it was 3 Months before their machine could read my Body Fat %! You are doing GREAT!!! The NSV's are really piling up!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
BARBARASDIET 2/5/2013 4:29PM


Report Inappropriate Comment
5FOOTRUNT 2/5/2013 3:32PM

    That is so wonderful to hear. Congrats !

Report Inappropriate Comment

1 2 3 Last Page