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And today was a bad day

Sunday, January 23, 2011

I just spent the last few mins of my day doing a search for journals of people that were able to make a mistake and over eat and still meet their goal weight. It was refreshing that I found people and the advice on how to keep going and not keep myself down. I think where I fell was that I wasnt at home...when I eat willpower is soooo low. I have to do better at planning especially over the weekend. I feel am serious about my lifestyle and I'm disappointed that I had a bad day...but its back on tomorrow. I'm not starting over I'm just gonna keep looking ahead and learning from my mistakes.....FORWARD MARCH Goddess help me emoticon


Wow someone is reading this....

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

I think the most encouraging thing about my blog yesterday was that 1. people actually read it and 2. I'm not really that struggles

I think one of the best things about this site that I can see so far is the fact that there is atleast one person that is going through something that is soooo similar to your issues that you are able to see what worked for them...or have a some kind of support system in place. However you have to look for it. I think you have to actively look for your change. Yesterday I was really thinking about how I was setting myself up to fail if I do not let people know what's going on with me. I believe that we as human are a communal people. We need to security and strength of others. You know the saying where I am weak you are strong. For example I know that I hate running (as in loathe) but it is great for me wonderful workout and you know what i did, I joined the Cto5k group with stands for couch to 5k because if i want to change how i feel about running i need to be around people that are pressing for something different along with me....I wonder if I am making sense.

I guess there just has to come a point in your life when you tell yourself the true. There is nothing wrong with realizing that you cant lose weight alone, that you need a support system. Because now you can identify what it is that you need to be successful, that's what this is all about right achieving our goals.

I guess I said all this to say Thanks for everyone that read my Blog yesterday and for everyone that left a kind word on my page. It means alot and with your strengths and my own I will achieve my goals...



Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I've been fighting the urge to blog about everything that's going on. For fear that I'll get tired of doing it all and just end up back where I was again stuffing my face. I try to keep it low key that I'm changing my lifestyle so that I don't super hype it up and then get bored with it all...I guess Ive just been running from accountability. Wow I just figured it out, it seems crazy now that I've typed it. How else will I reach the goals that I'm trying to reach without letting it be known in the universe....DUH!!!

So here we go. I need to be healthy, I need to lose weight, I need to exercise. These are the three things that I have always known and sometimes was somewhat motivated to work on but now it feels different. I'm 27 years old I'm the largest Ive ever been and I'm ready for a charge. Sure I wanna look better naked (all though I'm pretty hot now lol) its about running from my genes diabetes, high blood pressure, and heart disease. Why have I been putting it off, I'm "healthy" right now as in I am diabetes free and not having any blood pressure or heart issues. But I dont plan on waiting til I've done some damage and I HAVE to start eating better.

I want to be able to enjoy the process and maybe its a little about control as well. I want to be in control of my cravings and increase my willpower. Hell I put the food in my body, I run this lol.

Wow this is alot longer than I thought it would be. I feel like I finally got it when I started thinking about the phrase....I can met the challenge, but will I? Thats where I am in life, I can do it but will I.

Well I'm saying that I can and I will with the help your Sparkpeople and my community of friends and family

Its not gonna be a cakewalk but nothing worth having ever is

I'll try to blog more...this felt really good


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    Great blog! Saying it out loud is the hardest thing.... emoticon

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    Yes! Love this...blogging is a great outlet.

Love your positive body image! You rock!

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