Tuesday, January 11, 2011
I've been fighting the urge to blog about everything that's going on. For fear that I'll get tired of doing it all and just end up back where I was again stuffing my face. I try to keep it low key that I'm changing my lifestyle so that I don't super hype it up and then get bored with it all...I guess Ive just been running from accountability. Wow I just figured it out, it seems crazy now that I've typed it. How else will I reach the goals that I'm trying to reach without letting it be known in the universe....DUH!!!
So here we go. I need to be healthy, I need to lose weight, I need to exercise. These are the three things that I have always known and sometimes was somewhat motivated to work on but now it feels different. I'm 27 years old I'm the largest Ive ever been and I'm ready for a charge. Sure I wanna look better naked (all though I'm pretty hot now lol) its about running from my genes diabetes, high blood pressure, and heart disease. Why have I been putting it off, I'm "healthy" right now as in I am diabetes free and not having any blood pressure or heart issues. But I dont plan on waiting til I've done some damage and I HAVE to start eating better.
I want to be able to enjoy the process and maybe its a little about control as well. I want to be in control of my cravings and increase my willpower. Hell I put the food in my body, I run this lol.
Wow this is alot longer than I thought it would be. I feel like I finally got it when I started thinking about the phrase....I can met the challenge, but will I? Thats where I am in life, I can do it but will I.
Well I'm saying that I can and I will with the help your Sparkpeople and my community of friends and family
Its not gonna be a cakewalk but nothing worth having ever is
I'll try to blog more...this felt really good