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Still Struggling

Sunday, March 02, 2014

It has been well over a year since my last blog posting and nothing much has changed emoticon

I have gained over 20 pounds and find myself making excuses to not work out and to eat unhealthy. It stops NOW!

I have signed up for a color run in April with my family and we have already started training to get back in shape.

I purchased an Aria scale to sync with my Fitbit to help keep me accountable and I will start doing a better job of tracking my calories.

My husband seems to be ready to re-lose his weight as well which should really help my motivation.

Wish me luck! emoticon

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SUNSET09 3/3/2014 2:05AM

  emoticon and emoticon ! Nothing to it but to do it! Getting abck up is half the battle and not only are you getting up, you're making a difference in another's life! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DLYNCH86 3/2/2014 10:19PM

    emoticon You've made the commitment. Keep checking in and let us know how you get on. emoticon

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PAMSPARKS 3/2/2014 9:18PM

    It sounds like you are getting back on track, and your family too. Best of luck on your fitness journey!


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Trying To Find My Motivation!

Sunday, December 02, 2012

I am not a person who blogs. I have been a member of Sparkpeople for over 3 years and haven't posted a real blog yet. I'm pretty shy until I really know people so I know I will second guess everything I write. This is going to be hard for me to do but I think it is something I need to do to get some help.

I originally lost 45 pounds before joining SP and have used the site to help me maintain my weight loss and keep me motivated. Unfortunately, over the past year my motivation has deserted me. I have had some starts and stops along the way where I think it may be back but then it is gone again. I do pretty good with staying on track with what I am eating it is exercise that I am having a problem with. I have gained 10 pounds back over the last year and it is really getting me down.

I had thyroid surgery at the beginning of November so right now the only exercise I am allowed is walking. I am so ready for a long run but I don't think my incision site is ready for that yet. I have an appointment with my doctor on the 13th and my hope is that I will get the okay to run and strength train again.

I just signed my whole family up for the Warrior Dash in May. I am hoping this will be the catalyst to get me back on track.

I know what the problem is and what needs to be done. I guess I just need some help getting my "Spark" back again. Any advice would really help.

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KAYOTIC 12/4/2012 9:59AM

    Have a new goal to challenge yourself is a great way to get your motivation back. I am always trying to find a new challenge to track to keep my head in the game, and it doesn't have to be food or fitness related, if that is an issue right now (meaning the running) I think walking is really great for overall fitness, it's underrated in my book.

If you want some accountability, come join the December challenge on the 40 Something Maintainers team, you just post your goal for the month, and track away.

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CAROL- 12/3/2012 6:27AM

    I had lost over 50lbs before staring spark. I have gone up and down over the 4yrs I have been sparkin'. It is a journey of ups and downs for me.

You will just love the Warrior Dash. We did it last year and had so much fun. We rented a cabin for the weekend with friends. We can't do it this year because our daughter graduates HS the same weekend.

emoticon hang in there.

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HDHAWK 12/2/2012 9:52PM

    I lost 33 lbs. when I first joined spark and even maintained for over a year which is something I've never done before. Life got busy and I gained it all back plus another 10. I started over last Sunday. My goal is to have this weight off by May when my son graduates. I think your race will be a way for you to get motivated again. Start with 10 min. of exercise a day and build from there. emoticon

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Insightful Words

Friday, June 08, 2012

I "borrowed" this from my Sparkfriend CINDY_LYNNE. She let me re-post it on my blog so it could reach others and maybe they'd find some comfort in it.

This is a post by someone on, and no, it's not copyrighted. It's just an insightful bit that I've always found helpful when dealing with loss.

We all deal with it in so many different ways, and I thought perhaps this would be good to put here, for anyone that needs it.


"Alright, here goes. I'm old. What that means is that I've survived (so far) and a lot of people I've known and loved did not. I've lost friends, best friends, acquaintances, co-workers, grandparents, mom, relatives, teachers, mentors, students, neighbors, and a host of other folks. I have no children, and I can't imagine the pain it must be to lose a child. But here's my two cents.

I wish I could say you get used to people dying. I never did. I don't want to. It tears a hole through me whenever somebody I love dies, no matter the circumstances. But I don't want it to "not matter". I don't want it to be something that just passes. My scars are a testament to the love and the relationship that I had for and with that person. And if the scar is deep, so was the love. So be it. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are a testament that I can love deeply and live deeply and be cut, or even gorged, and that I can heal and continue to live and continue to love. And the scar tissue is stronger than the original flesh ever was. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are only ugly to people who can't see.

As for grief, you'll find it comes in waves. When the ship is first wrecked, you're drowning, with wreckage all around you. Everything floating around you reminds you of the beauty and the magnificence of the ship that was, and is no more. And all you can do is float. You find some piece of the wreckage and you hang on for a while. Maybe it's some physical thing. Maybe it's a happy memory or a photograph. Maybe it's a person who is also floating. For a while, all you can do is float. Stay alive.

In the beginning, the waves are 100 feet tall and crash over you without mercy. They come 10 seconds apart and don't even give you time to catch your breath. All you can do is hang on and float. After a while, maybe weeks, maybe months, you'll find the waves are still 100 feet tall, but they come further apart. When they come, they still crash all over you and wipe you out. But in between, you can breathe, you can function. You never know what's going to trigger the grief. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. It can be just about anything...and the wave comes crashing. But in between waves, there is life.

Somewhere down the line, and it's different for everybody, you find that the waves are only 80 feet tall. Or 50 feet tall. And while they still come, they come further apart. You can see them coming. An anniversary, a birthday, or Christmas, or landing at O'Hare. You can see it coming, for the most part, and prepare yourself. And when it washes over you, you know that somehow you will, again, come out the other side. Soaking wet, sputtering, still hanging on to some tiny piece of the wreckage, but you'll come out.

Take it from an old guy. The waves never stop coming, and somehow you don't really want them to. But you learn that you'll survive them. And other waves will come. And you'll survive them too. If you're lucky, you'll have lots of scars from lots of loves. And lots of shipwrecks."


Whoever this man is, he has an amazing gift of putting the indescribable into words.

My heart goes out to any one of you that needs it.

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JWALDRON5 7/14/2012 2:07PM

    wow, this made kinda cry lol but in a good way. it's very true every word every sentance is so very true and it's exactly what I had to go through a few years ago when my step grandfather passed away. I wish I would have read this when he passed away and maybe I would have taken his death much smoother.

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ADOUPE 6/14/2012 8:44PM

    This makes me cry, have lost 2 sisters and my nana and just reading this brings the hurt back but in a better way. I pray for everyone who has to go through this. emoticon

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CINDY_LYNNE 6/9/2012 10:53PM


I hope it reaches everyone. Everyone needs it, or will, sometime in their lives. :)

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One Word Answers...

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Not as easy as you might think! Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. It's really hard to only use one word answers. "Borrowed" this from AKSTACEY70

Where is your cell phone?


Your hair?

Your mother?

Your father?

Your favorite thing?

Your dream last night?

Favorite drink?

What room are you in?

Your hobby?

Your fear?

Where do you want to be in 6 years?

Where were you last night?

Something that you aren't?

Vitatops :-)

Wish list item?

Last thing you did?

What are you wearing?

Your pets?


Your life?

Your mood?

Missing someone?


Your car?

Something you're not wearing?

Your favorite store?

Your favorite color?

When is the last time you cried?

Where do you go over and over?

Five people who email me regularly?

Favorite place to eat?

Favorite place I'd like to be right now?

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TAMIPCHICAGO 12/17/2011 8:31PM

    Going to have to try this.

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HIGHONSUGAR1985 11/6/2011 12:35AM

    This is awesome, definitely trying this!

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LACEBOT 6/27/2011 2:57AM

    I also frequent the bathroom!

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CGARR442 3/13/2011 2:19PM

    I'm glad you could use it. People's answers are pretty ingenious sometimes

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JOURNEYTO60 3/13/2011 12:46PM

    Fun! I am going to borrow it for my blog today! Everyone's answers would be so interesting!

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NANCYLEE46 4/8/2010 9:21AM

    I am going to give this a try and put it on my blog
Thanks for sharing it. A great way to get to know one another. May ask if I can use it for walk/run group.


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