Monday, January 17, 2011
I spent some time writing this on my food blog that I've started. I thought I would share it with my Spark Family as well. I don't think I would be in this frame of mind if weren't for you all, so thank you. xxx
My New Year’s Non-Resolution
January 17, 2011
Well, it’s been quite some time since I’ve posted anything. Believe me, there has been some cooking (A-LOT) involved, which is why I’m posting this.
For the past almost seven years that I’ve been with my sweet husband James, my relationship with food has evolved. Before, in my single days, I didn’t care about eating. The thought of being “single forever” didn’t quite give me an appetite. Wow…did all that change after March, 2004. It wasn’t an immediate change, but I would say within the first year of our blissful dating, James & I both gained the LBS. Here we are almost 7 years later and many pounds overweight ( I will not divulge how many). I knew a day would come when I have had enough of being tired, constantly cursing my clothes for shrinking and disliking my self image. Also the very important issue of the possibility of not being able to spend a long, happy and healthy life with my husband, sister, nieces, nephews and all other amazing members of my family.
So this brings me to today, my day of “Lasts”. Or at least for a little while any way. The last day I will have a cheeseburger, the last day I will eat at Gloria’s, my last Diet Coke, my last possible chance for a Miller Lite or margarita (they are only $4 at Gloria’s M-Th…).
I don’t see this as a resolution. I see it as a life change. To me the word “resolution” holds the possibility of failure and has the life cycle of a year. (This may not be the case for others, but I can’t say I’ve ever successfully completed a resolution.)
So what does this all mean for my blog? Nothing really. I still love eating, I still love to cook. It just means that the recipes I post will be a little healthier. I have to re-establish my relationship with food and have to change the way I think and get rid of the “I’m an adult, I can do whatever I want” mentality. Yes, it’s true, I am an adult but that mentality is going to get me a good case of Type 2 Diabetes and a heart attack, neither of which I want.
I’m excited about this new journey. I’m REALLY excited of the possibility of wearing a size 6 and “shopping” in my closet again! Wish us luck!
To be continued…