Monday, November 18, 2013
I need some. Not too much. Preferably at night.
Last night was not too bad. I got to sleep around 01.30 in the morning and slept soundly until around 07.30.
I had to dig deep in my medicine cabinet to be able to sleep at a more reasonable hour. Melatonin and chamomile tea around half past ten, and when time clocked one in the morning and sleep was still eluding me I added a sleeping pill. I don't like taking sleeping pills. Actually I don't like taking any pills. Lack of proper sleep is interfering with my life now, so I'll do what I have to do..
Saturday, November 09, 2013
A very stressful week is over. Thankfully I am doing better now! (Insomnia has not left the building completely, but hey, at least this means I have peace and quiet to write blogs in the middle of the night.)
I've honestly not been in a very good place emotionally this week. I've missed sleep, I've missed work, I've missed workouts, I've missed meals and at brief moments I've lost control. I've been incredibly jumpy and at the same time dead tired. All very draining..
Ever since uncovering what triggered it all I've felt calmer. I will admit that I'm still a bit frazzled and rough around the edges, but I'm handling life well enough again. (I can deal so much better with my anxiety when my feelings makes sense to me!)
Tracking has been put on the back-burner throughout this week. Looking back I've realized that this might have been a blessing in disguise. I've come to grips with the fact that lately I've used tracking food as a way to control my emotions rather than my calories. Probably not the end of the world, I know there are worse strategies to use, still I'm thinking that this may be a good time to cut back on meticulous tracking for a little while.
(Don't worry about me. I'm not giving up on my healthy habits. There probably won't be any major changes to my eating habits or workout schedule. I just plan to spend less energy on monitoring and controlling. This will be good for me!)
So there is that out in the open. I'll still be around, I promise!
Dealing with all this made me cancel my planned jogs. On Friday I found I was in a better frame of mind again. By then winter had arrived, so I ended up having my first try at jogging on frosty sidewalks. Very slippery! Carefully tip-toeing was the only way to go. (I guess I really can't call what I did most of the time jogging)
The gravel paths through the forest and by the water was not that bad. I managed to get my pace up and my heart pumping up the hills, but even there I had to watch my step. A good thing all in all, as it really helped me stay grounded and in the moment, keeping my anxiety at bay.
Here are Fridays pictures.
A close-up on the frosty ground. I've always enjoyed the sound of walking on frozen leaves.
Catching my breath at the top of one hill, preparing for the next.
I reached the top!
During summer this little beach is filled with people. Friday I had it all to myself.
This picture was taken just a few moments after the last one. The fog came fast!
Had to watch my step when walking on this sidewalk. Still, I do find the frost to be very beautiful. I was losing the light at this point, so this picture is not really doing it justice.
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Me? Jog? On a regular basis? This still sounds foreign in my head, but I am warming up to the idea for several reasons.
Here is my list;
1. Save time.
2. Gain health.
3. Gain workout credibility.
(Because, lets face it; my yoga, walking, resistance-band routine, and now-and-then hiking is not impressing more "hard-core" exercisers like my husband. I would love to be able to keep up with him!)
I use my feet for transportation most days, but I've always walked. I have a phobia of public transportation. (silly, I know..) Since my work is 2-3 K from my house, I'll walk several miles most weeks. Not bad, but not that challenging at this point. And, I fear, perhaps less rewarding than I hoped.
At my latest visit at the allergists I had the usual tests done. I was told my lung functioning had declined, and was merely average. I was told this could be effects of the vaccine (this will be monitored closely), but it could very well just be effects of me moving less at higher intensities since last visit.
So, that offered food for thought.. I have been taking it kinda easy lately. I had considerable side-effects starting the vaccine, fatigued, runny eyes and nose, so the first 3 weeks I really slowed down working out.
Last Thursday I was in a hurry. I knew I would have the lab to myself, so I opted to walk/jog/run to work, and then jog the scenic route back home after. It went well. It was rough going up the hills, I'll admit, but I got there and back on time.. AND I learned a lesson. I CAN jog! Is it easy? Nope. Is it comfortable. NO. Did I look extremely unfit huffing along all lobster-red in the face? Probably..
Still, I DID IT! (and survived!)
So, with that lesson in fresh memory, and with my declining lung health in the back of my mind, I've decided to change things up a bit. Starting next week I intend to jog home after work on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I'll keep up with my yoga and resistance-band routine. This will probably end up in fewer fitness-minutes over the week, even if I opt for the scenic route home, but hopefully more fitness for my minutes invested.
Wish me luck! I will definitely need some cheering on!
Saturday, October 19, 2013
I have a sweet tooth and I LOVE chocolates. I like to think that as long as I enjoy them in sensible amounts there is definitely still room for a few sweets in my diet.
I don't really mind the sweetness in my sweets, but I am concerned with all the nastiness that is added to most candies. Fillers, preservatives, colorings, artificial flavors, trans fat.. Yuck! I don't want that! This is why part of my challenge this week is simply not to have any processed snacks or candies.
I have found, with just a tiny bit of time and effort invested, it's really not that hard to make delicious treats without the added junk. So, tonight I am making dairy-free snickers.
I have just tested the caramel, and it's a tad on the solid side. I probably should have used more coconut milk. Chewy is fine, as long as they are still chewable. (oh please let them be!) The caramel covered nuts are cooling now, and I will sprinkle some chopped raw chocolate on top as soon as the temperature cools down further. It will (hopefully) melt and form a thick layer.
Here are the ingredients:
100 g organic coconut oil
2 dl organic sugar
1 heaped tablespoon organic honey
0.5 tsp mineral salt
1 dl coconut milk (Next time I will try 1.5 dl)
40 g mixed salted nuts (peanuts, macadamias, cashews and almonds)
100 g raw organic dark dairy-free chocolate.
Tomorrow my youngest niece is celebrating her first birthday, and I plan to bring some bars along. They smell amazing! I am just hoping they will turn out edible.. (as in not too hard)
Wish me luck!
PS: Just as I was about to post this my little monkey woke up and wandered into our living room asking "Mum, what is it that smells so nice? The smell woke me up, and now I can't sleep.. It smells almost like.. coconut?"
Update: Eek! As I feared the caramel became super-chewy and closer to rock hard than I had wished for. It was impossible to cut bars, everything cracked and crumbled into pieces when I tried.. DELICIOUS pieces! If you are familiar with a daim bar, this turned out similarly, yet more chewy than crunchy. I guess this is what daim and snickers somewhat healthier lovechild would taste like?
Will I bring it to tomorrows party? Probably not.. Will we eat it all, every little piece and crumble, with intense delight? Yes!
Are there photos of this tasty wreck? Yes! By popular demand now there are. Surprise! I will admit, this is probably the first time I've ever photographed food I've made. I felt SO silly taking them, trying to find the best angle and light. Here's the best one:
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