Sunday, August 24, 2014
I want to have the best health I can have. I want to take good care of myself. Emotionally, mentally and physically.
I want to feel beautiful! I need to learn to see that I am, and always was, gorgeous. I need to be just as generous to myself with regards to my own beauty and worth as I feel towards others.
I want to be able to look at photographs of myself and see that my beauty is, and was, always there. It is not connected to the amount or texture of muscles, fat and skin hanging on my bones. I can see this so clearly in others, but at times it is hard to see this in my own images.
I want to have meaningful connections with others. I want my family to know that they are the center of my life. I want my friends to feel loved and well cared for. I want them all to be able to feel that, in spite of my need to retreat at times, I am still willing and able to be there for them. I want them to know that I appreciate every single one of them.
I want to be able to continue to do a meaningful job, and I want to do it according to my capabilities. I want my time at work to be efficient, and I want my workday to be done once I clock out.
I want to feel at peace with the fact that, since it is so important for my health not to get stressed, I may never be able to work a full-time job again. My worth as a human being never was, and never will be, determined by the amount of time I spend at work.
In my heart I know that I am trying to become the best me I can be. And this is not just good enough, this is downright amazing! I no longer need to hold on to feelings of shame. I won't allow others to shame me, and I certainly won't make their shame mine. Instead I will embrace and nourish thoughts and feelings of acceptance, love and contentment, both for myself and for others.
If you read this I want you to know that what I wish for anyone, me and you included, is love, peace, purpose, contentment and a sense of belonging in this world.
I hope we all will find this.