Sunday, August 11, 2013
I'm sorry I haven't been around much. There's been a lot more going on in my life now that I've started going back to school, so it's been really difficult keeping up with everything. I'm trying, but I can't promise anything.
The summer semester ended last week, and I actually managed to pull of an A in math, despite the fact that math is far and away from being my best subject. The last two weeks before finals hit I didn't get as much time to exercise and I had been eating more, but I didn't see too much change in my weight for better or worse.
I still have not managed to get back in the calorie counting mindset, despite my best efforts. Not that I'm not giving up, mind you. I have been exercising more this week to try and make up for it. Surprisingly the increase from a half hour to an hour wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. In fact, it's actually been kind of fun. I found this new podcast to listen to while I exercise, so that's been pretty great.
I didn't exercise today, because we spent most of the day wandering around various stores. I had to buy some new clothes. A new pair of tennis shoes since mine are worn out, a sports bra that actually offers some support, and a couple of pairs of shorts in a smaller size, because mine have actually gotten to the point where they fall off while I walk.
It was actually pretty funny, because I accidentally picked up a pair of shorts that were a size 8 thinking they were 14s. You can imagine my horror when I tried them on and could barely get them buttoned. Then of course I was really proud of the fact that I could get them on at all when I checked the tag and realized my mistake, like being able to squeeze into a pair of pants you should under no circumstances ever wear is a giant accomplishment, lol.
Anyway, it was a fun day. Things are still going pretty well all things considered. Fall classes start on the 19th, so hopefully that doesn't throw me off too horribly. Summer didn't, so I can't imagine this will be too much worse. *Fingers crossed*
Now if I could just get back on track calorie wise, everything will be aces.
Sunday, July 07, 2013
I realize it's been a while since I've updated you guys on how things are going, so I thought I'd go ahead and do that.
I took the Insanity Fit test. I was sore for three days afterwards to the point where I could hardly walk, much less exercise, so I've decided against it going forward with it. We weren't really doing it as a family anyway, since we all keep such different schedules, and frankly it's a little out of my league. I'm back to the elliptical.
I've been finding that I'm having a hard time calorie counting. I think maybe my logs are public, so if you ever find a day where I stop logging after lunch or come in drastically under 1200, it's because I gave up halfway through the day.
Oddly enough, when I first started on SparkPeople, it was not the calorie logging that I expected to be problematic. I thought I would have a hard time staying within my calorie range, sure. I thought I would want more of the fattening, bad for you foods that I was trying to cut back on. I thought exercising would never become a habit.
I did not think I would be felled by the tedium that is logging everything you eat. Yet here I am.
I'm not giving up or anything, mind you. I just want you to know that I really hate logging what I'm eating. I don't mind seeing how much I've eaten when I've gone overboard or eating less calories or cutting back on the donuts. Surprisingly that's all been pretty easy. I don't even mind exercising. In fact, I've come to really enjoy exercising. That's 30 whole minutes right there where I do not feel guilty for not doing whatever it is I'm supposed to be doing, where I can just think and listen to music. Plus I feel great afterwards. Nope, all the stuff I expected to be hard is coming along rather well; it's the thing I'd thought I could handle that's giving me trouble.
I never thought I'd see the day where I would rather exercise than do something as simple as logging. I guess it's nice to know I can still surprise myself.
Anyway, I'm keeping up on exercise. I'm still seeing a downward trend in my weight. My anxiety is still a lot better than it was. The ADHD isn't as much improved as I had hoped, but it's still way better than it was.
Overall I'm doing pretty well. I just really need to get back to logging consistently (even though it's boring and frustrating). So that's my goal for July I think: try to get back to logging at least 6 out of 7 days a week.
How about you guys? How are you doing so far this month?
PS - I'm in the midst of something called Camp NaNoWriMo right now, which is where you set your own word count goals and then try to meet them during the month of July (it's sponsored by the same people who do NaNoWriMo). I've committed to 50,000 words and I'm behind, so I apologize for not making good on my resolution to be around more. I think maybe I'm spreading myself a little thin at the moment.
Which is still better than the great lot of nothing I was doing, so, you know, silver linings.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Ok, not really. (See, that's why I have problems titling things. I have a hard time thinking of them, and then I do think of them, and then I have to add, "Ok, not really", because they're not actually true. I think this might be part of the compulsive need to correct everything my mom keeps getting on to me for. Lol, we'll just add that to the list of things I'm working on.
Someday I'm going to have to sit down and actually write that list just so I can laugh about how weird it is. It's probably got things like "water the plants already, jeeze" shoved in between things like "don't procrastinate so much" and "stop eating every pastry that's offered to you".
Organization, that's a thing I'm terrible at).
Anyway, this was supposed to be a short update.
1) I took this quiz: http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/slides
Somehow I got adventurous exerciser which was kind of unexpected. When it comes to exercise, I usually just stick with what's affordable and convenient, even though I would much rather try hiking or climbing a rock wall or going kayaking (you have no idea how badly I want to try kayaking). Plus, I have zero desires to jump off a bridge or out of a plane (I hate the sensation of falling; HATE IT) which I'd pretty much always thought of as a sign of adventurous people. I'm not really fond of snow tubing or snowboarding either, because to me, they feel like falling.
2) My dad ordered Insanity, and it arrived in the mail yesterday, so apparently we're doing that. On the one hand, I'm really glad my parents are trying to get healthier (they want to exercise, dad wants to try the diet plan that comes with the DVDs, mom is drinking water now, and she's going to try the four week sugar free thing to see if works... of course, she's doing it somewhat grudgingly, but hey! progress). On the other hand, this so was not what I had planned. I was planning to take a relaxed approach to getting healthier. You know, something that fit more closely with my "let's just have fun and try not to stress about it" approach to, well, everything. This does not look like that to me.
Also, I refuse to do anything that involves push ups. You want crunches? Fine. You want sit ups? Great. Jumping jacks? Okay. You want me to bounce around on one foot while I rub my belly with one hand and pat my head with the other? I will give it my best. Push ups, though? Not happening.
You want to know what I hate more than the sensation of falling? Push ups.
In fact, push ups are pretty much my go to "it could be worse" thought. Not going to school in the fall? At least I don't have to do push ups. Can't get a job? Could be worse; there could be push ups. Have to make a phone call? At least you don't have to do it while doing push ups. Started crying at the bank because you haven't slept in two days and don't know how to make a deposit? Seriously, man, a nap will cure that; there are no cure for push ups.
Actually, I should just change the title to Push Ups Are The Worst.
All right, mostly I'm kidding. I'm pretty sure there are a lot of things worse than push ups (pancreatitis, for instance, really sucks, I can tell you from experience). I do hate them though. I don't hate much, but I hate push ups. (And falling). (And pancreatitis). (And gallstones).
3) It's supposed to take a couple of days before I start really noticing a difference with the medications. I have noticed that my mind feels quieter now (not that anyone can tell), like there's only one thing running through it at once, and I'm having an easier time remembering things. I also slept way better last night for some reason. There doesn't seem to be any improvement in the randomness or distractibility yet, but, you know, fingers crossed. Any improvement is good improvement, and it's only been a day.
4) I have serious intentions to go through and start reading other blogs and participating more around here. I mean, keeping a blog has been super helpful, more helpful than I would have thought possible really, but I feel like there's a lot I could learn through participation too, so I want to do that.
So much for a quick update, lol. I guess I'll try and keep you apprised on how everything's going.
I hope you guys are having a great weekend! (Sorry for this mess!)
Friday, June 21, 2013
Today was a really great day. Not just a great day, but a really great day. Ok, in reality it wasn't any more exceptional than any other day, but it felt like a good day.
For the past four days, I've been using the elliptical. I kind of hate it to be honest. I get bored really easily, and for some reason our elliptical squeaks so loud it actually drowns out the TV in the other room (maybe that was why we got it for so cheap). So yeah, I hate it, but I feel really good afterwards. I may enjoy walking and hiking a lot more, but I actually work up a sweat while I'm on the elliptical. Plus, it's a nice alternative to going outside while the entire state is one giant oven (I'm great with the cold, but I'm a wuss when it comes to heat).
Today I was lounging around post exercise (as you do) in my exercise clothes (as you do if it's close to dinner and you don't have time to shower and change first), and my mom told me I looked cute which prompted a conversation on how my fitness goals are coming along. It was pretty eye opening, because while I had noticed some improvements, I hadn't realized anyone else had. I have way more energy than I did when I started. For the first time since I started college the last time, I feel optimistic about my future. I don't feel nearly as ill as often. My anxiety is a lot better. My clothes are a little looser. So far I'm really glad I did this, and I'm really grateful to my doctor for recommending SparkPeople to me.
About the only downside is that when the anxiety gets better the ADHD gets worse; either that or when the anxiety gets better it stops obscuring the ADHD. Probably that latter one based on the articles I've read. At any rate, I've started to notice just how prevalent the symptoms are and just how many areas of my life they're affecting, so I thought I would check some books out from the library, thinking maybe they'd teach me some coping techniques. Something like 'hey, you have ADHD, here's how you should organize things' and 'hey, ADHD kids do better in school when they study like this'. Except all of the books I'm checking out are saying things more along the lines of 'hey, these strategies are great, but without medication most people just relapse'.
Long story short, I talked to my doctor and we've agreed I should go back on the medication. I'm a little concerned about how it's going to affect my weight loss efforts, but I'm choosing to stay optimistic. I would just really love to have the ability to sit down to finish a task and actually get it done without someone having to stand over my shoulder to insure I do it. I've spent my whole life that way; I'd like to be able to rely on myself for once.
Anyway, that is the state of the union, or the state of the Lynn, I guess. However have you.
I hope you guys are all having a great week!
Monday, June 17, 2013
My parents were rearranging the guest room a couple of days ago, and I found this old picture. (I took a picture of the picture with my phone, that's why the quality is really bad). That's me when I was a senior in high school. I was 17 and I weighed between 215 and 220 pounds. I've lost somewhere between 30 and 35 pounds since then.
I just wanted to share it with you, because I've placed it on my desk to help motivate me. Some days I feel like I've set an impossible goal, and it's nice to have this photo as both a reminder of where I don't want to return and of how far I've come.
I hope the week got off to a great start for all of you!
(I totally just found that emoticon. I suspect it's going to get used a lot, lol.)
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