Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Ugh, I don't feel good. I have had way too many pot lucks, events and eating out in the last week. Tonight, I also gave in to cravings and now I don't feel good or happy. I am writing this as a letter to myself so the next time I feel like giving all in, I will read this first:
You are Awesome!!! You have lost 157 pounds. You have lost almost as much as you weighed in high school. You have done that through working through your issues, getting your mind right, eating right, and exercising till you want to drop. It has been a long hard road - DO NOT GIVE UP!!! Too many times in your life, well let's be honest, almost always in your life, when it gets tough and you need to stick it out - YOU QUIT!!! You cannot quit on your life. Do you want to live and experience joy like you are now or go back to misery, unhappiness, can't walk and work/sleep and that was it. You have a great life now - full of life, fun, joy. You can do anything you put your mind to. You don't even think about the big things you used to - how far to walk to the entrance of a store, is that chair going to fit me, will I break this, how can I cover up the sweating while just standing, how long before I can sit down. People staring all the time. Now people stare for a different reason and people joke around and even flirt with you. This is the life you are destined for. God brought you through all of this for a reason to help others. You are a food addict, don't ever get too comfortable. Just remember 10 minutes later you will regret what you did. Start eating like the 140 pound skinny, strong, Nike girl you are on the inside. You are not only a Survivor, but you are Amazing. Don't give in or give up - You are stronger than any food. Believe in yourself and know this is 1 thing with God you can conquer. It is a day by day, minute by minute process and you got this. Keep moving, striving, forward. You have 64 pounds left - DON'T GIVE UP!!! You never thought you would get this far. The cookies, chips, chocolate won't make it better - you will still have the same feelings and regret it. DO NOT DO IT!!!
Friday, March 18, 2011
Jogged my 1st mile tonight. I cannot believe - I have gone from not being able to walk to my mailbox to jogging in a year and a half. I remember walking out the gates of my complex and feeling freedom to be able to do that and now I just jogged it. Yes, it was a slow jog, but it was jogging nonetheless. It was one foot in front of the other and almost dying when I got home, but I did it. I did fall down halway through into a ditch and my IPOD went flying. As I fell, all I could think about is I hope I didn't ruin my brand new shorts. A girl's always gotta think about fashion before anything else :) The shorts are gonna be ok and I am too, just now a lot less fat to cushion the fall!!! Weigh in this week - didn't reach my goal yet. I now have a lost a total of 157 pounds and I need to lose 5 more pounds until I am in ONEDERLAND!!! I want to reach that goal by 1/2 marathon - gotta do this!!!
Monday, March 14, 2011
Well, my brother asked me to walk a 1/2 marathon with him in 1 month. I just told someone that I wasn't ready to do one for about a year. I am not sure if it was spontaneous or insanity!!! So, we decided to walk tonight and it took us 2 and a half hours but we completed 8.5 miles and averaged 19 mph. My feet feel like they are about to feel off. I think it is great way to celebrate my 1 year surgery anniversary. I was looking for something memorable and different and this will be it. It will be interesting doing it in Paso, where I grew up. 26 days to train!!!
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
I feel great tonight. Had a bad virus last week and couldn't do anything. Still sound like a 75 year old whisky drinking, chain smoking jazz singer, but it will get better. Had a great cardio strength teacher tonight - he was a little like a "yoda". He talked about you can work on cardio, strength, etc, but need to work on everything so you are well balanced. He also talked about you ned to aggressively stretch to be flexible - well that totally applies to my life right now, especially with relatioships, eating, etc. Tons of salsa music in the class and now I feel like going out and doing a littl salsa dancing. Saw a couple of ladies in class and 1 I haven't seen in forever - she said I am looking great :) Then a couple of ladies who have never said anything but have been in class for months with them smiled and one stopped and told me something. This person I am becoming is someone I didn't even know was in me, but I love her and she is turning into an amazing person.
Friday, February 04, 2011
Don't know what's wrong with me today, but in a funk today. I always tell others not to let other's negativity and drama get to them, but it is so hard when others constantly bring it. Hopefully, I will snap out of it tomorrow. Had a great compliment by my Plyometrics Instructor tonight - haven't seenher in a month and she tol me tonight, "girl you look so good." I am gonna try to get back onto the positive side now...........
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